how do you feel when you fall in love? helpless? selfless? willingly weak? 
what happens when you become so dependent on the person you love that his presence itself seems like a blessing? 
and what happens when that blessing is take away from you? 
love can be an illusion you live everyday, a realization of a dream.......and when dreams are broken, it's all but misery.
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Sometimes I wonder why people matter and I wonder why they don't. Then for some unknown cosmic reason I start comparing that someone to something, as if a thing could ever replace a whole person...... A person with emotions and a small beating heart. A heart whose only purpose is to beat and pump blood but why believe in that lie when we could create a glorious truth of how it's only purpose is to love. To love an idea or an act or a habit or a thought but, mind me, but not a person. Why would I love you when I can love your voice? Why would I love you when I can get lost in your art? Why would I love you when I'm awestruck while watching you dance? I love your voice, I love your paintings, I love your dance but, mind me, I don't love you.  Why'd I wanna love you anyways? Because your smile is sweet? Or because you're kind, courteous, loving, caring, because you call me and ask if I've reached home, because you're protective and not possessive, because you don't point out my flaws, because you hold me when I cry, because you'll be there if I die, because you dread the thought of my death......... because you love me? 
Sounds fair enough, me loving your art and not you for you loving my being. 
Right ?
Know what? 
It doesn't feel fair when the tables are turned around. It doesn't feel good when I look in your eyes and I admire the way you talk and remember your voice and treasure all your insecurities and all you say is that my voice is beautiful. It doesn't feel good when you say you are ready to listen to my singing all your life because hell, that's not what I want. I want you to love me, stay with me because somewhere along the line you felt that connection to me, you felt that I have brought a different meaning to you life. Don't stay with me for your greed. Stay with me for mine. Because I can serve you with all my loyalty just for you're something very sacred to me and I don't expect the same from you because expecting would be a sin but.........love me. The day you'll love me for my sake would probably be the day when you'd be in true love. Till then, it's not you loving me.....it's you loving my ideas or my act or my habit or my thought..., But, mind me, you don't love me.

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Jens, who once wakes up in the middle of a city without memories of his past other than this name is the protagonist of the story. He starts his journey with meeting new friends and rivals, eventually learning things about his past and regaining portions of his memories. The magical journey starts becoming a horrifying nightmare...

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know you're not going to get it because you don't want me going back and you don't want me going back and I just don't know how I want to get you but you don't want me going back to work I just got back to work and I'm not going back and then I just got back to you I was love and love to you Gyh was the time of the year that I had a great day of work and I am so happy That was a good night and I hope you're having a good night I hope you have a great night and I'll talk tomorrow love you guys hope you're having fun and good luck with youGyh was the time of the year that I had a great day of work and I am so happy That was a good night and I hope you're having a good night I hope you have a great night and I'll talk tomorrow love you guys hope you're having fun and good luck with your family and friends I hope you're doing good hope you have a great day and I will be back in a bit wywywyywywywywyywywbhhc is that the day you get to the party you want me to come get your stuff done I 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~ RECAP ~

"Really? You want to hear it?" I asked while smiling. She nod while looking at me happily. Another thing that made me fall for her all over again is her honesty. She never lied to me ever since I met her. She always tells me everything happens to her. She doesn't want me to get worried and that's also one of the reasons why I fell in love with her. I was lucky that my friend, Hikaru happens to be her childhood friend and suggested that the two of us should try dating because I don't actually know how to asked her about that. Yes, ever since the day we first met, we immediately become friends then we became close friends and before I knew it... I've already fallen for her even before we saw Hikaru and he suggested that we both try dating each other. I couldn't help myself but think that maybe, Hikaru senses that I'm in love with her childhood friend.

"Is it okay?" She asked.

"Of course." I said and took a deep breath before I started to sing.

~ CONTINUATION ~

RYOSUKE YAMADA's POV

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(A/N: Song Lyrics and Translation are all credits to the rightful owners)

Give Me Love Give Me Love
Doko made mo yuku hatenai kono sora no shita
Give Me Love Give Me Love
Daiji na hito ga doko ka de kimi o matteru

Nani ka tsutaetai kedo kotoba ja tarinakute
Kaze no naka ni kotae o hitori sagashiteita
Sameta kokoro ni kasaneta ano nukumori
Sono isshun de yatto kidzuku omoi ga afuredashiteku

Sou Give Me Love Give Me Love
Doko made mo yuku hatenai kono sora no shita
Give Me Love Give Me Love
Daiji na hito ga doko ka de kimi o matteru
Zutto sakendeta boku no omoi todoku made
Mou mayowanai kara

Tameiki karamiatta hosoi ito no yÅ na
Fuan ga hitotsu hitotsu toketeku no ga wakatta
Sadame no yÅ na hikari ga ima koko ni aru
Sashinoberu te no saki kagayaita mirai
Tadoritsuku made

Sou Give Me Love Give Me Love
Kinou no yume no tsudzuki wa mou minakutemo ii
Give Me Love Give Me Love
Asu no ibasho o boku ni kureta kimi no tame
Dekiru koto ga aru susumu beki michi ga aru
Mou aruki daseru

Asa yake ga sasu hou e to mukai
Hajimari o abinagara sukoshizutsu
Boku wa boku o koete iku yo Fly
Maiagare

Sou Give Me Love Give Me Love
Doko made mo yuku hatenai kono sora no shita
Give Me Love Give Me Love
Daiji na hito ga doko ka de kimi o matteru
Zutto sakendeta boku no omoi todoku made
Mou mayowanai kara

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

Give Me Love Give Me Love
I'll go anywhere, under this endless sky
Give Me Love Give Me Love
Someone important is waiting for you somewhere

There's something I wanted to tell you, but words ain't enough to convey it
I searched for the answer in the wind alone

As your warmth piled up in my cold heart
At that moment, I finally realized my overflowing feelings

Yes, Give Me Love Give Me Love
I'll go anywhere, under this endless sky
Give Me Love Give Me Love
Someone important is waiting for you somewhere
I've always yelled, and I won't stop until my feelings reach you
Because I won't hesitate anymore

Our sighs were entertwined like thin threads
And there I understood that I could untie all my worries one by one

Like fate, the light is here now
Until beyond your extended hand, the bright future is finally reached

Yes, Give Me Love Give Me Love
I don't need to see the continuation of yesterday's dream anymore
Give Me Love Give Me Love
I was given the haven of tomorrow for your sake
There's a thing to do, there's a path to choose
I'll start walking now

The morning glow begins to bask its light little by little towards the opposite direction
I'll go across myself and Fly! Soar high!

Yes, Give Me Love Give Me Love
I'll go anywhere, under this endless sky
Give Me Love Give Me Love
Someone important is waiting for you somewhere
I've always yelled, and I won't stop until my feelings reach you
Because I won't hesitate anymore

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"Sugoii! I'm so proud of you, Ryosuke!" She said happily. I just smiled.

"Arigatou ~" I said then came closer to steal a kiss on her lips. I saw her looking at me while I saw her blush. Hahaha! Kawaii, Yana-chan.

"Yana..." I called her.

"Hmmm...?" She said while still blushing. I moved closer to her and faced her to me. She just looked at me while I'm holding her hand on her lap.

"There's a thing to do, there's a path to choose (Dekiru koto ga aru susumu beki michi ga aru) and I choose to be with you. I love you. Thank you for being kind, understanding and most especially, considerate. Thank you for loving me and thank you for taking care of me." I said while looking unto her eyes. I love her... I really love my wife.

"Starting from now on, 'mou mayowanai kara' (Because I won't hesitate anymore)." I said and again I saw her tears escaped through her eyes. She becomes a crybaby sometimes.

"Promise?" She asked and I just nod then lean my forehead to hers while wiping her tears.

"Of course." I said while smiling. One thing that I learned since I fell in love with her is, there are many wonderful things that you could experience in this world. One of those things is how to love someone and when you already find that someone that you will treasure and choose to be with for the rest of your life is the happiest thing that could ever happen to you. Being with Yana and have my own family with her is the best thing that I could ever have in my life.

"Arigatou, Ryosuke!" She said happily then hugged me.

...TO BE CONTINUED...

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TIME CHECK-12:45 PM 7/20/2019

~ What if Ryosuke Yamada made a wrong decision that leads her to end up their relationship for almost 5 years? ~

This story is based on a Hey! Say! JUMP's song entitled, 'Give Me Love'. So if you've already watched the PV/MV then, you can easily imagine the scenes here and if not, it's fine but still, it's better if you have seen it first. Again, I dedicated this story to my beloved idol group, Hey! Say! JUMP. Enjoy ~

How did it come to this? 

The situation right now is kind of bizarre yet interesting. I can explain this in simplicity but it's quite complex at the same time. 

Some might find this entertaining. Well, I also find this weird but I cannot really deny that I'm not interested.

If you were wondering what I'm doing then lets go back where everyrhing started.


...

"My sixth wish is... I want to experience love."Shiroe blushed. She is so embarrassed saying it...

"Love?"I asked.

"Un, yes"She nodded. Looking down, her face was so bright red. She couldn't look at my eyes anymore.

"Why?"I got curious, with her beauty many men would gladly open their arms for her.

But the thought of other men holding her waist makes me annoyed a bit. Fortunately, Men in this world is scarce if not...there would be bloody war.

"Do I really have to tell the reason?"She said.

"Umm if you could... you don't have to if you don't want to tell me."

Shiroe stared at me for a second with a blushing face.

"Shido, promise me you wouldn't laugh..."She said.

"If its not funny then I wouldn't laugh..."I said.

"No promise me."She strongly said.

"Fine fine."

"Thank you..."Shiroe smiled. She then took a deep breathe.

"In my past eternal life, I already know everything. I could do anything from work to knowledge. I can even create a robot from your world. I'm a genius if you call me, I don't want to brag about it...I learned mostly everything, but the only thing I couldn't experience is 'Love'. I've always wondered what love is. What kind of feeling live is. They say love is a great thing. Sadly, as a grimoire 'love' is forbidden. The creator frobid us to be in love."She said, looking at me with sad expression.

"Eh, This is my first time knowing that a grimoire cannot love..."I said. In novels I read, Love is free. Everyone could find love. Whether they are thing or living. Everyone is free to love.

But forbidden to find love is bullshit! Who the heck is this creator, I will smash his face. Forbidding such beautiful woman to fall in love....well, if I'm a male creator seeing such beautiful creation of mine to fall in the hands of other men is something I don't want either. So it's reasonable he would forbid them to fall in love.

Tsk tsk...I shook my head. Since they are forbidden to fall in love there's nothing I can do, the only one who can decide is the grimoire themselves. But doesn't mean I wouldn't give them an advice.


"Shiroe-nee do you want to fall in love?"I asked with a serious face.

Shiroe stared at me for a second before replying."Yeah, I want to experience love."

"You want to huh...but did you know Shiroe-nee love is not easy to find. It's not something you could see or find anywhere. Love is very mysterious, it will appear anytime or anywhere...the only way you could sense love is, when your heart feel very comfortable towards the opposing mate."I said.

"Eh? Love is difficult to find?"She asked.

"Yes..."I said with a serious face.

"But how can I learn love if it's difficult to find..."she asked me a very clueless question. It gives me a headache a bit. Girl, love is not a thing but an emotions, it's something impossible to comprehend. There are many type of love throughout the universe.

How should I explain love to her, even I don't really know what love really is. Because I have a love of my own, my love is different from normal love. 

"Shiroe-nee it's not easy you know. Even I cannot explain what love really is. If I explain it in common sense, love is an act of intimacy of two opposite sex. Love is a way to create a family. That is how to explain in very logical sense or I should say. The basic understanding of love....but you know Shiroe-nee love is a very complicated emotions that everyone have. There are various types of love out there. 

There are love between an older male and young female but these act is scorned to society. Also there is a love between older female and young male. 

There are also a love between different races, as long as the person is attracted towards to that person. It's a love. 

There is also a love between the same gender. But some countries scorned this act and some allowed them...

But the most painful love...do you know it shiroe-nee?"I taught her what I learned about what love is. But I asked her about the most painful love in the world.

"No. But is there really a painful love?"Shaking her head. She intently listened to me. But when she heard 'painful love' she was a bit shock. Because she knew the other love I said but not the painful one.

"Yes, there is Shiroe-nee. There two kind of painful love."I nodded.

"Really two? What are they?"She asked.

"The two most painful love are, The first is Unrequited love. A love that couldn't be fulfilled. A love of that is very difficult to achieve is called unrequited love."I said.

"Unrequited love? Can you give me an example of what unrequited love is, shido?"She asked.

I affirmed her."An example of unrequited love is a love between a married woman and a single man."

"Eh? I don't understand why the man fell in love with a married woman."She was confused why should a man would love a married woman.

"Shiroe-nee just as I said, Love is very impossible to comprehend. It would appear out of nowhere and more importantly love is uncontrollable. That means you can't control love."I said.

"Is that so..."She was still very confused.

"Okay to make you understand easily...You know what an Idol is right?"I asked.

"Yeah, they sing and dance. Also they are very popular and have many people supporting them...I also know how to sing and dnace do you want to see shido?"She nodded with a wide smile she asked me. She always said she doesn't like bragging but she is unconsciously brag about her skills. I shook my head.

Yup She really was saying the truth she knew everything except love or other relationship things.

"Yes that's them. So the example of unrequited love is, A love of a fan towards their idol. Do you know why it's an unrequited love?"I asked. She's smart I'm pretty sure she could easily answer my question.

"That's because an Idol cannot have a lover?"or not. She answered the question right but that's not an unrequited love. But a contract instead.

"Well, you guess the part of it. But the answer is, it's because his love is unrequited to begin with. He knew that his love is not a success. A fan also knew that he is not the only guy who is only in love towards his idol."I explained.

"Eh? Is that so."She said with a shock face."Since he knew his love is impossible why did he not stop?"

"Shiroe-nee, just like I said love is something a person could not control."This is giving me a headache. 

"I-I'm sorry..."She apologized.

"Don't worry, just remember that love is uncontrollable."

"Okay, I will."She nodded.

"As for why cannot stop, it's because he wholeheartedly support his idol and cannot stop himself from loving his idol...But, there are various reasons why he couldn't stop...."I calmly explained.

Shiroe nodded, She get it now. She felt very ashamed earlier, looking at shido still teaching her she became more embarassed. She cannot believe a young human is teaching her about love. But, it appears that he didn't seem bothered teaching her, he seems teaching her wholeheartedly. She felt a bit warmed inside. 


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The boy woke up and found himself still alive, However there is a problem. 

When he was hit by a truck, He thought he could have a fluffy harem life in Isekai just like the novels he read. Saddly, Reality struck him. 

The boy was once again reincarnated in his world 'Earth', It's the same Earth he lived. He despaired and thought he can finally meet a chienthrope or a beautiful Elf. In his despair, The boy jump into the woman who introduce herself as his Sister and ravage her up to down.

The boy finished his meal but realization struck his mind again. However, He found out that he was one of the men that survive the calamity.

Over 99% of male humans had been wiped im the face of earth leaving a small populace of men. He also found out that men is treated as stallion for breeding. 

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With sweaty palms I walked into the emergency room. Wale had been stabilized at night. For three hours my team of doctors fought to keep him alive as he persistently tried to die. He wasn't fighting. At a point I felt all hope slip away but then he came back. 



When I was told he survived I was too happy to do anything but cry. Kuku was there for me through it all against his better judgement I know. I know it hurt him to see me so worried for Wale but then he tried much not to show it although sometimes when I looked at him through teary eyed he didn't look happy. q


 I felt like I have been leading him on since this moment was exactly what I have been dreading the same moment I see In my nightmare when Wale would come and I would realize that I was Still in love with him after all this while. I had said it to kuku on one of our dates.


"I think I'm being selfish which Is unlike me." I said thoughtfully. He looked at me with questioning eyes waiting for me to finish what I was going to say but then I looked away.


"You know you can tell me anything there is nothing to be ashamed of in being selfish. We are selfish beings, humans are naturally self inclined."


"Are you?"

"I am most times. I'm not perfect you know that."


"I never said you were." I sighed. "But then you are so good that your imperfections can be ignored. You know your flaws I can manage pretty well. That's the point my parents were trying to make, be with someone whose flaws you can easily overlook."


He smiled deceitfully. A really cute smile. "So are you asking Me out?"


"Seriously Chukwuma you have to stop playing around when I'm serious."


"Alright. Alright. I'll stop." He giggled. He looked away from me then back but still the smile he was trying to hide was still plastered on his face.


"The thing is I love being around you gosh I love you but." I swallowed. "But not in the romantic way, I love you like I love family a deep crushing kind of love that can't be replaced or understood. I'm me when I'm with you, no pretense what you see is what I am. You make me free, alive happy. And I love you, I love you so much but not in the way I know you love me."


'Now this is getting interesting." He joked laughing nervously.


"And I know I should stay away from you so you can get over me but I can't. I can't stay away from you because I love you and I need you but not in the way you love a lover. The deep primal desire that it's attributed to that kind of love where you want to kiss them so hard your teeth crashes with theirs or want to feel their skin on yours, driving in you with one sweet rhythm. I love you but it is not the kind of love that craves but the kind that is already satisfied." I sighed letting out my frustration. He looked sad and it was OK, I was sad too. "I wish I can tell my heart who to love but then, then I can't. Do you understand?" 


"So who do you love. Wale?" He asked. I could hear the hurt in his voice and I nodded looking down.

I expected him to walk away to shout at me, to say how much he hates me but instead he took my hands and I looked up mostly as a result of shock. 


"Don't leave me that would be you being selfish. Stay with me. I rather be friends with you than to lose you. You have given me a reason to live, something to fight for. You have added some rhythm to my boring song and that's OK for me. Just stay. Maybe one day you will learn to love me maybe not, but for now stay with me."

"You look so beautiful," he whispered to me. He didn't wreak of alcohol luckily but still I was afraid and shaking. I played with my fingers scared of looking at him, scared of the monster he had become. He stroked my hair and I felt nauseated.


His tongue fluttered against mine and his hands went deep in my hair. I used to yearn for this moment like a baby yearned for her mother but right now I dreaded it like death.

"Stop please," I begged in his kiss but he didn't listen. Tears were beginning to fall from my eyes. I tried to push him away I yearned to, but he held my hands tightly behind me. My small hands against his was a battle already won before it began.

He pulled me against him and nibbled at my chin, my ear, touching my face with his fingertips, sighing, whispering, "You feel so good." 

"Please let me go Cletus I don't want to, not today." I begged, sobbing.

"You are my wife and it's your duty to please me any day and anytime I want it. I own you." He screamed at my face, letting my hands go. I rubbed on them grateful that at least he had let go of me. 

But before I could move away from him he pushed me to the bed and started to pull his belt. I screamed.


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Zara Miracle falls in love with a mysterious masked man. She thought he was perfect but what happens when his mask starts to pill of and she sees him in his true form.


Will she survive the clutches of the devil or will she succeed in running away?


warning: Abusive relationship, rape, lies, manipulations. This book may just drive you mad with anger. you've been warned.

(at the hotel)

(Hiro's POV)

We went back to the weapons shop and changed from armors to casual clothes and after that came back to the hotel... We called Madam and told her that we need to talk to her privately... So, we went to her room...

Hiro - So, I am getting straight to the point... I am the Shield Hero... 

Old Lady - Oh, come on, kid... You sure know how to...

Before she could complete her sentence, I summoned the shield onto my hand... 

Old Lady - Oh my... 

We explained our side of the story and Eclair removed her hair dye and specs... It was a shock to Madam but she came into her senses after a little while... She started smiling...

Old Lady - Fufufu... I see... That explains everything... Both of you been through a lot... Thank you for telling me the truth... Rest assured, I won't tell anyone else... 

We didn't tell her about the church or Trash and Bitch who tried to frame us... We just told her how Eclair suffered... It's better to not let her know the whole truth... 

Old Lady - Alright, so you will be leaving tomorrow, huh... I will be lonely then... You can visit this old lady now and then, you know...

Hiro - Of course, we won't forget you, Madam... And we will be coming back to your hotel for sex anyway... So...

Old Lady - Fufufu... You will be welcome anytime... 

She gave a wink to us making Eclair blush... 

Hiro - There is another request for you, Madam... 

I went near her and whispered in her ear and she kept giggling... 

Old Lady - Leave it to me...

Eclair - What did you tell her, Hiro ??

Hiro - Hehehe... You will know... Wait for me in the room, Eclair... I have something to do... 

Eclair accepted it and went to the room alone... And now, time for execution of the plan...

___________________________________________________________________________________________________________

(Two hours later at the love hotel)

(Eclair's POV)

Currently, I am sitting on the bed thinking about some things... My hair isn't dyed... I should ask Hiro to dye it today night...

It's been two hours since Hiro left... What is he trying to do ?? But there is something else on my mind too... I will become his slave tomorrow... Even if it is a slave-in-name, I will still be a slave... Hiro must have thought of this method already but he ruled it out because he doesn't want me to feel like this... 

That was enough for me... So, I accepted that proposal and also convinced Hiro... And yet... There is still this little unpleasant feeling in my heart... An unpleasant feeling that won't disappear... It knows that this is for the best... It knows that my identity won't be a problem with this plan and that Hiro and I won't be in trouble in the future if we follow this plan...

But still... Why does this heart ask for more ?? Why won't it stop hurting when what I am doing is the best for me and my love... Why is it so greedy ?? How can I stop this feeling...

When I was thinking that, the door was opened... 

Hiro - Missed me ?? 

Eclair - Yeah...

It is my beloved... I can't let him know what I am feeling or he will take the riskier method... Hiro came to me...

Hiro - You don't have to try that hard to hide what you are feeling... You know that I am good at reading others, right ??

Ah, I forgot about this terrifying intuition of him... 

Eclair - You can't take the riskier method, Hiro... You will make me restless if you took that method... 

Hiro smiled... 

Hiro - I know you would say that... That's why... This is the only method I could think of...

Hiro kneeled in front of me... And took out a ring from his pocket... A ring with a pink gem in it's middle... The same color as my hair...

Hiro - Will you marry me ?? 

I kept staring at him... Did I just hear it right ??

Hiro - I know that becoming my slave would make you uncomfortable and not becoming one will also make you uncomfortable... So, I thought about what could make you happy... And so, I came up with this idea... So, Eclair, If you are going to gain the title of my slave, gain the title of my wife first... I will be calling you my wife in public and would only mention about you being my slave if someone mentioned your identity... This is the only plan I can come up with at the moment... By the way, I made the ring myself mmmph...

Without waiting for another second, I jumped onto him and pressed my lips onto his as hard as I can... I am so happy that tears won't stop falling down my face... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him... I love him.....

I am glad that I fell in love with this guy... I want to be with him forever... Be it his companion, slave or a wife... As long as I am with him, he will always find a way to make me happy... As long as there is someone like him in a girl's life, what more could she want... 

Both of us kept kissing each other as hard as we can... It took a long time for our lips to get separated... 

Hiro - I can consider that as a 'Yes', right ??

Both of us laughed together...

Eclair - Yes... It will always be a Yes... I love you, Hiro...

Hiro - I love you too, Eclair... 

And we went into kissing again...

Goddess - You will be OP but your world will be decided by Gacha. So, good luck... 
MC - Alright, thank you, Goddess... I will make sure that no matter what, I won't have any regrets in this life...
And I was dropped into a world with one of the worst characters I have ever seen... 
I am now the Shield Hero... *Sigh* Achieving a normal life with a harem of cute girls in this world is gonna be a pain... 
But no matter what, I will make sure that I won't regret my choices ever...



I write for fun and English is not my first language... And I tend to use a lot of three dots at the end of my sentences, so bear with it...

I don't own Shield Hero or the cover...

PayPal link: paypal.me/iloverem

Ko-Fi link: ko-fi.com/i_love_rem

Hello! I am Ankit Mishra. Today I tell some story related to my life. Story of my love Story of my one sided love.
I began to love a girl immensely after listening to her goodness,
Then suddenly one day saw his picture and my love increased. Gradually I fell in love with him which became a cause of pain for me.
It was very beautiful to see. But was equally ugly at heart.
He did not just appreciate true love,
I truly loved him in this lust filled world.
I never thought that I would have a physical relationship with him.
It was my love for her, but now let me further explain what she thought--

She was my sister's friend and came to my sister's engagement in my house.
She got off the bus at the bus station some distance from my house and I went to the bus station to pick her up.
I first met him at the same bus stand.
I asked a question - how are you?
He replied - I am good and you.
I also replied yes.
Then she quietly sat in the back of my motorcycle. And I took him home.
Then it was evening and he had to go back.
As soon as I heard the news of his return, restlessness started growing in my heart.
Taking care of myself, I put her in the bus and she left.
Took her mobile number from my sister.
and slowly we started talking. 
I loved him very much. But could not say,
Then one day we both meet. Those were the most beautiful moments of my life for me.
 And after meeting we both talked on the phone for 1 hour. I was going to Bhopal from Rewa and I was in the station. While waiting, the train was talking to him. I had left a train for him. I left the train to meet him.

And when I sit in the train, he sing a song for me - लग जा गले कि फिर यह हंसी रात हो ना हो।।

A few days later his birthday arrived. I wish him a happy birthday.
That day I told him that I love you very much.

She laughed and said thank you.
And I told him that I want to marry you. she said that if you do a government job, if my family members agree, then I will marry you.

I agreed with her.
A few days later she too came to Bhopal.
After so many days, my love for him had grown immensely. It seemed difficult to live without him. His name was in each of my beats.

But slowly she kept changing. And stopped talking to me.
I used to cry to talk to him.
But he did not mind. Of a stone hearted girl. There was not even the slightest love in his heart.
We both lived in the same city but never met. When I spoke to meet her, she used to make some excuse.
Whenever I used to call her, she would not pick up my phone and then lie.
She used to lie on everything.
I used to stand in front of me and I used to ask what she was doing and said that she was studying.

I loved him so much that even all his lies were accepted as true.
And she used to make me cry every time. And she used to laugh seeing me cry.
I used to call him Betu with love.

I am like a lost person without rest, I suffer every moment without him.

He is happy in his world and all my world is gone.
My heart aches in his memory.
He has many excuses for not talking to me.
And I would make excuses to talk to him once.

She says I don't have time to talk to you. How easily it says that I do not have time. But she does not understand how much my heart hurts.
His words hurt me a lot.
Still I love him immensely. I do not like anything else. His picture is in my heart. How can I forget that with whom I want to spend all my life.
But I can not call him wrong because he never said that I love you.
Our love completed for 2 years. And I'm still going on.
We met only twice in 2 years. Every day my love keeps growing.

She is my life, she is my world, nothing is mine without her.
But why does she not understand that I can die without her.

She says that I do not like to worry too much.
Do not care for me I like to do my work on my own. I can take care of myself I do not need anyone. I want nothing but a job.

Is only a job necessary in life? Love is nothing
But who should explain that maniac. If love is not found in life, what will you do with that job when you will not be happy.

I know that she will not be happy with anyone but me. Is very stubborn. He gets very angry. And in front of his anger, I keep quiet and listen to him. Because i love his anger
And be very happy with me. I will never get a better boy for him.

I am waiting for that moment when he will fall in love with me. I do not like to see anyone else.
He does not care about me in the slightest.
I consider myself so great that in today's world of lust I truly love her

But she can never understand me, in every little thing she talks about leaving me, she don't want to talk, I call her, then she talks,

She doesn't reply to any of my messages
I wait for his answer, 
I ask her every time if you love me but she doesn't know

I forget all his evils and love one good. And she hates an evil, forgetting all my goodness.

She always says that we are only friends but I am ready to marry you, so is anyone willing to marry a friend? If she has nothing for me, why should she marry me?
Is it her habit to make everyone wait or everyone tells her friend that I will marry you.

Hey i love her,
I have the right to say good or bad.
I will spend my whole life with the help of his memories.
I will never make anyone mine. And I will never love anyone.
Because every moment I feel pain. I can't forget that. I live crazy

This was the story of my sad heart.
This is the story of the most beautiful moments of my life. Even if I got so much pain, it is the most beautiful moment for me. You just think if she also loves me then how much,

Thank you friends,
Ankit
And one of the free advices is that if someone really loves you, boy or girl, then you support him, you love him more than that. Because in today's world, true love is not in luck.
thank you

piya : tae is down what happend if he love or not but i love him only, and you are my friend only not more (i start cry hardlly ,leave me alone jin
Jin : try to comfort but i push him, dont come close to me you want i only; so take me and i cut my hand 
Jin : no you cant do this, he start cry and give bandage 
Jin : wakeup piya dont leave me 
I wake up and look at him 
piya : i love you as my brother and i love tae, plz get me my tae. love is not a thing that can be buy and win it is a filling with us and we can do anything for him or for his happiness we can leave him for our love, look at jk he love me so he help me and take my side becoz he want to see me happy and he doesnt want to see me cry i think his love is pure for me, and your is fake love, he relise me becoz he want to see me happy ,and you your trying to win but you know that you are losing me as friend also, if you want i then you can only get my body not my soul are you understand 
Jin : (he touch forhead to forhead and kiss me on lip and start looking into eyes while crying)piya  i am sorry i thought
About only me and want to get my love at any cost, i will help 
You for your happiness, i love you so much, so much.... 
Jk come into room 
piya : come sit we all have to decide a plan to get back from hipnotize and then we have to get tae, gays
Jk : but what about jin ?
piya : look jk jin also help us he realised what is true love 
Then we get down and look it
Jk : if you want back from hipnotize you have to kiss him 
like camp, and try to memorise you by his first gift, 
Jin : what is his first gift ? 
piya : when he meet me first time he put a shirt and then a  party dress , i have that two 
They get that things, but how to get near to tae 
Jk :we seprate the consentration and start fighting that time you have to kiss him on.. Lips like camp 
Then they take all peoples attention i get close to tae and kiss him on lips like camp and show him that shirt but it seems that he didnt get back
And his dad grab three us and then his dad make him. King then cristine come close to me 
Let give him her death and she slap me, i start cry and start talking, 
Cristine : you are really different from world somthing special in you, is that your nonsence stupid girl, (someone said me this before also i remember that woman future seeing woman she told me this sitchuation earlier and my talking sence is my power)  
piya : look cristine, your not her love and if you marry you didnt get tae, 
Oh uncle you know i am your doughter in law already and also your boy only  love me you get his all love from him, his mother, brother, and sister also and your geting his lover also, you only can kill me physically but you cannot destroy me from his mind, me and my Fate tae are joinded by heaven If i die, he will also, your good king but unfortunatlly your a badest father of world he didnt call you father and your not able to call him son also, 
You cant fill his fillings if you want your child then try to listen his heart anotherlly if this time get escaped then in your hand nothing anything to handle and that time cristine slaped me, 
piya : tae you hurt me again, 
And then she start suking blood and tae get out from hipnotize and run and push her but i am fainted that time, he try to kill himself then his dad stop him but then he kiss me again and again on lip 
V : (while crying) piya wakeup,dont leave me alone, i love you so much, plz weakup. 
you promiced me never ever quit from life, wakeup your family and me waiting for your smile, piya dont ignore me anotherlly i give you harder punishment, wakeup na look i am here, 
Cristine push him from me
Cristine :tae i love you and i am better than her, so why you dont love me, what is in her that not in me? 
Tae : because your not her, you only try to win love, and you lose me for lifetime now get out from here anotherlly i will kill you, by my hands
Vdad : i am sorry my child i cant fill your fillings i just try you to make like me
V : dad i take your sorry if you give piya to me, wake up her
Vdad :use some powers 
Vdad fall down and fainted
I wakeup and look i am with tae, we huge eachother 
piya : tae are you remember me now i love you so much 
V : love you to my panda 
piya : haha dont call me panda mr.rude
V : no your rude
piya :no you are 
V : no you 
piya :no you
V: you
piya :you
V : you 
piya : i said you 
V : no am not
piya : no you are only
V : how dare you call me rude 
piya : i call you rude becoz your
V : now shut up panda 
piya :how dare to call me panda
Jk : are you stop this nonsence or we have to do somthing 
V : you said her she start it 
piya : you should have to told your friend he start this 
Jin : lets do something 
piya and tae : what you two want to do now
Jin : lets sepreat them again
V huge me tightlly and i huge v tightlly 
V : no plz dont did again 
piya : i dont wonna sepreat now
V start looking into eyes(her eyes are so deep i want fallen into deepness
piya : i start looking into his eyes(his eyes are dark and sparkling like he hipnotize me) he come close to me more close to me now there is no space between us he come close now i can fill his warm breaths on neck and can heared his heartbeats getting faster and then he try to kiss me i close my eyes but suddnly  
Jk and jin grab our mouth 
 jin : not now gays we all are here, watching you can you do this after 
 Jk : love birds control yourself
 Jin : tae is like this but piya you also did this 
 Jk : look she start blushing and geting red, tae push them and start to come close to me 
jk : now someone 
 Handle tae onotherlly we cant control him
 Jin : hide her and grab tae right now, and someone look vdad he is fainted 
 piya : gays relise me, sorry na 
 Then jk and jin take me to my home and tae come with his family to talk with dad for marriage 
 Jk : her family know we all are vampaire 
 piya : no, not again 🙆
 Then jk and jin come with me into my home 
 Jk : piya are you ready to tell truth, to your parents 
 Jin : if you want tae then you have to told to conveance
 piya : gays this is diffecult and most hardest task for me 
 Gays stay with me, help plz
Jk : piya you can, you can do it 
piya : yes i can, yes i can , no i cant get back the car
Jin : 😁😅😂😂😂😂😂
Then they take me into home, and mom, dad, and bro are sit front of me and taes family also sit front of me and jk sit with be side of me, 
piya : dad i want to told you i love tae so much 
Dad : i know that, and we decide your marriage
piya : dad, i love him and i dont care who is he and how he is but i only marry him 
piya : tae and his family even jk and jin also vampaires, 
Then taes family and jin,jk,and me try to convence harder, 
But they didnt accept it 
piya : dad i want to told also one thing 
Dad : now what remains 
piya : that actually happen that tae and i already married and we only want your permission and again marrieage , and then tae come close to me and carry me in bridal style front of my dad and everyone look at  us 
Tae : dear piya's dad are you give us permission or i want to do somthing different for her
(i start blushing and geting red) (tae look at me and smrinked) dear dad i marry with her already becoz i know this like somthing happend, she is my bride and i did all with her nothing remains anything, 
me :tae what are you saying nothing happend between us anything (tae cover my face with. his hand) 
tae :if i decide then i can get her right now but she want your permission so i come and look we didnt suck her blood not every vampaire suck blood
Dad : (look at me)okey you can 
piya : tae put me down.(he come to kiss me) but jk and jin stop him i get near to dad and huge dad 
And then...

      ON MARRAGE DAY 
 this time i am grabing my dads hand, and front of me tae is waiting for me and jk, jin and all friends look at me shooked and tae open his mouth in shooked and my look is beautiful white princess bridal  dress with in my hands a beautiful flowers and he look at me and he smrinked, then dad give my hand in his hand he grab my hand and
prist : tae are you accept  her your future wife 
tae : yes i do 
prist : okey, now piya you accept him as husband 
piya : yes i do 
then its kiss time, he come close to me and kiss me on lip lightlly and then we get married and then he carry me bridal style and then its photo time, after tae come close to me and said in low voice now we marry now i cant wait more and he start kiss and jk take photo, then tae carry again in bridal style and leave from there with me, and then he said 
tae : now you cant give me more wait and huge me ,
 so your punishment is to much hard for you (i start blushing and geting hard and he start smrinked hardlly, he put me start seeing into my eyes and  start kiss me on lips 
Jk and jin : love birds we all  here and watching you both, 
V : i dont care i cant control myself now, ignore both of us 
Jin : lets sepreat both of them 
V and me : no ,never ever try 
              TIME SKIP 
tae start handlling fathers beusiness and he want more childs but i want only one girl and one boy, crisitne marry with jin, and lisa marry with jk,and my bro marry with nancy, i dont know when my bro love her but his happy
And we all living happily ever
V : are you done come here right now i am waiting and you gave me more wait now come for punishment anotherlly i will come there and its hard for you ,
me : wait my video is done, i am coming just minute after,
and thats my story get success, 
tae : i am coming and its now hard for you (he come close to me and huge me from back, 
and carry me in bridal style 
tae : i told you if i come now your punishment is to much hard for you dear, (i start blushing and getting red) 
tae : panda now your punishment haredst ever because your mistake

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