"Ryan, calm down", Anna held Ryan's hand and calmed him. "Who is he to scold you?! You are the Queen", Ryan glared at Keith. "She's my princess", Keith said glaring back at Ryan.


"Okay, it's enough now. He has served enough for now", Anna said with a sigh. "Ryan, this is my over protective elder cousin. I took his help to make you pay for what you did earlier", Anna said to Ryan who's eyes were wide open.


"Your brother?", Ryan asked. Anna nodded. "He's my third aunt's son. My closest brother among everyone and yeah, that was rude of you to speak like that to him. He's 32 and very much elder than you", Anna said pressing her lips.


"That's his fault for provoking me", Ryan said arrogantly. "Now, I will definitely not allow you to marry my sister. My princess will get someone better than you. Go to hell", Keith said and pulled Anna towards him.


"I will marry her. She loves me", Ryan said stubbornly. "I'll get someone much better than you for my princess. I thought you passed my test but you're too arrogant", Keith said in a pissed tone.


"Brother, am I not arrogant?", Anna asked looking at Keith with a raised brow. "You are our princess so you have all right to be arrogant. You've been through so much from your birth. You had to deal with deaths so many times. This man won't be good for you", Keith said and pulled Anna.


Anna pulled her hand from his grip and held Ryan's hand. "He might not be perfect. No one is perfect but when we are together, we are perfect. Only he can be my hubby. I won't accept anyone else. I want him. Brother, you too married the girl you loved. I love him so I'll marry him even if he's arrogant or rude but he's mine."


"What did this idiot say to you?", Keith glared at Ryan. "Brother", Anna glared at Keith. "Okay, sorry. I won't come in between. Go marry him but I'll kill him if he dares to hurt you", Keith warned looking at Ryan.


Anna nodded with a smile. "I... I apologize for my rude behavior but I won't take it when anyone dares to steal my precious woman", Ryan said in a bit formal tone. Keith chuckled looking at him.


"He's indeed perfect for you. Go ahead, my princess", Keith said with a smile. Ryan sighed in relief that his brother in law didn't hate him too much and forgave him or he might not be able to marry his love so easily.


Anna smiled and looked at Ryan with warmth. The two of them turned to the priest. "Today, we have gathered here to witness the union of two souls...", the priest continued to say his words while the two of them stared deep into each other's eyes.


"Mr. King, you may say your vows", the priest said. Ryan nodded and turned to Anna. He took a deep breath in and started speaking.


"Anna, from the day you entered my life, I've been off guard around you. At first I thought it was just some attraction but later I discovered that you were the one with whom I want to spend my whole life even the upcoming lives. I know I was stupid... I mean I am stupid but you make me perfect, baby. I never knew how to love after I lost the woman I loved the most, my mom. But then you came and taught me what love is...", he looked deeply into her eyes as he spoke.


"You know the day I found you in your room not able to breath, I felt my life would collapse there and that time I realized how deeply I fell for you. You make me do things I never did. I forgot to smile but then you taught me again. There have been only two women in my life. One was my mom and the other one is you and of course, how can I forget my little baby. She's the third most important girl in my life. But you and the woman in Heavens are the ones who taught me many things. She gave me life while you taught me to live and gave reason to me to live. I'm glad I met you or I don't think anyone else would have ever handled me like you do. You bear my childishness, stupidity even the things no one knows about me are first found by you. I want to be your partner who would be with you at every step of your life in joy and sorrow. I promise you that whenever you'll be in pain, I'll take every pain from you. I, Ryan King, will love and cherish you till eternity. I can't promise to give you stars and moon but I promise you that you'll be my star as well as moon in every step of my life. I'll be those stars and moon for you to light the way for you when you're in dark. I love you, baby. Accept me", he said with a smile.


"Did you plan to destroy my makeup with your vow? You know I sat at one place for three hours to get ready for you and now it's all ruined. I hate you", Anna said as tears fell down her cheeks. Ryan chuckled and hugged her.


"Its okay. I'll love you in every situation. You're the most beautiful and hot woman I've ever seen in my life and you will always be the one. But I'd like to see my chubby baby", he said and kissed on her head. "Aww", everyone made the sound looking at the two of them.


"Daddy, what about me?", Jennie shouted. She was sitting on the first table in front with Anna's parents and Anthony. "I love you too, my little baby but love your mommy a little bit more", he said with a smile. "I love you more, daddy", Jennie said and giggled.


"Ms. Jane, you may say your vows now", the priest said. Anna composed herself and looked at Ryan.


"You're an idiot, a stupid, dumb but I love you. The first time I saw you, you were an asshole for me. I hated you with all my guts yet deep down I felt something but kept denying it. You were in front of me but I couldn't see your love. I was blinded by the pain of my life but you pulled the blindfold from my eyes and made me see the bright side of the life. Your voice rang in my ears when I was dazed out that day. I heard you scream for me. I was stunned as to why you were so scared but I was dumb to not see your love...", she looked down while saying that.


"I was an idiot to not see your love. When I was in Australia, I knew that you were searching me. I realised that I fell for you but denied my feelings. I even confessed to you in the most indirect way but never said those words that I love you. The day we went to see your mom, I realised that I love you more than I ever thought I did. I never thought I'd wear this wedding dress ever in my life. I left all hopes for love or marriage in my life, long ago, but you made me dream about everything again. I kept denying my feelings for you as I was scared but deep down I fell more each day I spent with you. You might be ruthless, cruel, cold or merciless for the people outside but for me you're the most sweetest, caring, loving, cutest and of course the most childish person. I hate to see when you're trying your best to not show your weak side in front of me. So baby, I here declare that I, Anna Jane, will love and cherish you for eternity. I'll always be by your side at every step. I'll wipe your tears when you cry, I'll smile when you smile, I'll be angry if you dare to touch other woman, I'll reward you when you do something great. You know what I mean, right baby? Yes, you're my baby. My most loveable and sweetest baby. I went through all the struggles and I'm glad I did because every struggle in my life lead my way to you. Every struggle of the Queen was worth it, baby. I love you, my idiot", Anna said and lightly touched his forehead with hers.


"And I'm sorry, my baby but this baby is more loveable. I love him a bit more", Anna said to Jennie. "It's okay, mommy. I'm happy because my daddy is the best", Jennie said with a bright smile.


"I, Ryan King, take Anna Jane as my sweet and lovely wife for this life and the upcoming lives", Ryan said looking at Anna. "I, Anna Jane, take Ryan King as my stupid and childish hubby for this life as well as the coming all lives", Anna said with a smile.


"I, now pronounce, Mr. King and Ms. Jane as lawful husband and wife. You may kiss...", before the priest completed Ryan wrapped his arm around Anna's waist and pulled her into a deep and passionate kiss. Everyone chuckled and cheered for them.


The two of them kept kissing until someone spoke. "Guys, stop. We don't want to see your honeymoon here", Klara teased from the crowd. Everyone laughed at her comment. Ryan and Anna didn't give a damn and kept kissing each other until they were satisfied with the kiss.


"Why do I feel that you were waiting for this part the most?", Anna asked still panting from the kiss. "I love it, baby. You look damn beautiful in this dress", he said with a smirk. Anna chuckled and shook her head.


Anna threw the bouquet and it was caught by Charlotte and Klara. "I don't even have a boyfriend, dude", Charlotte complained. "It's probably my chance next then", Klara winked playfully. Everyone laughed.


"I think you got one, Charlotte", a guy around the same age of Anna said to Charlotte. Anna smirked looking at him. It was Ethan, Anna's childhood best friend. "Be my girlfriend", Ethan said.


"What the hell?! I don't want any boyfriend", Charlotte rejected him. "That's why she's still single", Anna and Klara said looking at each other and nodded in agreement. "Hey, you both. What are you talking about!?", Charlotte glared. Both Anna and Klara shook their heads.


"I'll wait for you", Ethan said with a wink. Everyone teased Charlotte especially Anna and Klara.


After the wedding, everyone took pictures. Anna and Ryan took a few couple pictures together. Actually many not few. He was hugging or kissing her in many photos. They added Jennie in their photos as well. They even took family picture together.

Everyone sees the beautiful life they lead but do they know what that person went through to get that life?
Does looks really matter that much?

She's beautiful, hot and successful. Everything you speak, she has. 
Money? Well, she can shower you with the money. 
Success? It's kissing her feet. 
Beauty? She's a goddess of hotness and beauty.
Love? She doesn't need.
Family? She has a mom and says she doesn't need anyone else.
She's a successful multibillionaire businesswoman at a young age. Cold and dominating. She's not from a prestigious family but will make her own prestigious family. She's the world's richest woman. She is determined to not fall in love with anyone.

He is the world's richest and successful multibillionaire businessman and from the most prestigious family in the world. He has everything -- good looks, money, fame. Known for his coldness and ruthlessness. Every woman desires for him but he doesn't wants an easygoing girl. He likes to play hard.

What will happen when the two cross their path with each other?
Will she fall in love?
What's the reason for her not to love anyone?

Early morning, one of them wake up earlier than the time of his waking up schedule and instead of waking up, he just open his eyes while adorably looking to his love sleeping on his arms while hugging him. Tae is talking to himself while Rei is still sleeping with a lovable and smiling expression on her face.


"How lucky I am to have you Rei? You're a real beauty and almost perfect if you're not an oblivious in terms of relationship but that's enough for me by having you at my side and being you as my girlfriend is my greatest achievement especially if you will be officially become Mrs. Jun. I don't know if one year of dating is enough for me because right now I want to marry you but being me as your first boyfriend, I want you to experience on how's dating going on. For me your not my first girlfriend but you're the only woman I want to be my Mrs. Jun. During our relationship, I will open up about my experiences so that you will fully understand me and I also want to know your experiences so that I will fully understand you. Whatever it is, I will love you of who you are and what are you and it applies to me. Knowing that I'm your first boyfriend, I'm really happy and glad that whatever your first time is with me but sometimes I become upset because you're not my first girlfriend and why did I hurriedly entering into a relationship that I was not assure about my future but luckily I didn't do anything to my ex girlfriends and I assure you that my first will be yours my Rei. You're not my first kiss, you're not my first hug, you're not my first girlfriend and you're not the first who shared my first holding hands with but the most important one is you own it Rei because you're my first love, you will be the one taking my virginity and you will be my future wife. 


As a man being keeping his virginity is kind of awkward but it's worth it because the one I'm losing it is to the person I love the most and the most important of my life. 


At first, I didn't expect that you will accept my confession because truly I didn't deserve to be yours but seeing you become upset that I look down myself, I realized that you also love me the way I love you. I can't measure how much you love me Rei but I assure you that I will give all my heart to you without any regrets because you deserve it. 


Rei, as you know you already hold and own my heart without my knowledge and your knowledge because the moment you appear in here my heart already got caught by you. I never taught that by simply a glimpse of you can already dig my heart out and own by you. I'm not attract by your real beauty because the first I notice is your presence. 

Saying I Love you everyday is not enough to prove how much I love you. Giving you hugs and kisses is also not enough for showing how much I love you because kissing and hugs is just showing of your desire and sexual attraction to each other. The most important how to show how much I love you are loyalty, trust and respect to each other. Loyalty, because I will stay loyal to you and be my only woman. Trust, because I will understand of whatever you're decision and actions are. And respect because I will respect you Rei as being you and I will respect to your parents and family because they're the one who mold you to become like this.

Being an artist, is really become a disadvantage to our relationship since we're not having a date openly and will keep our relationship hidden from the public. 

At the right time, when I already heard your replied to my proposal then I will surely shout to the world that you're mine and mine only. Whatever the public or my fans attacks about us, I will fight it because you're my most important person. My fans will surely be disappointed but they will understand it someday when I will explain it to them clearly.


I never imagined that this day arrived for me to be in love dearly. Mom and Dad, now I understand why both of you willing to sacrifice something because of how much you love to each other. If someday Rei ask me to stop being an artist then without hesitation I will surely stop being an artist if she doesn't want me to become one because losing her is more painful compare to losing my passion as a singer. I know that Rei loves me, will be loyal to me, trust and respect me but whatever she want I will comply it without hesitation because I trust and love her." Tae looking to her still sleeping and continue talking to himself.

"Now Rei, you're really become a part of me and like a life to me because without you I don't know how do I live without you.

Whatever differences we have, I hope that we will talk it about and avoid misunderstanding because I don't want to be got separated by you" Tae tears slowly falling to his eyes and continue talking to himself.

"Rei, what did you do to me? How did I become so deeply in love with you? Day by day I always realize how important you are to me"

"I Love You Rei, I really, really Love You Rei. Please whatever circumstances it is don't leave me and don't let go of my hand. Please My Rei because I can't bear to live without you"


Tae silently crying to avoid Rei waking up but unknown to him, Rei only heard the last part and not the whole message for her but it's enough for her to be an emotional one because that sentence surely touch her heart.


'Geez, this idiot boyfriend of mine'

A chic and quite type but also a petite, slim and cute lady who happened to meet her destine partner without knowing that this man will be her first and last man. Not only that, she will also be the wife of her long time pop idol since high school. 

From watching him only on TV and Monitor to be personally meet him personally.

Din Lou Rei at the age of 27 got married to her long time pop idol Jun Tae Woo, who is also known to be a chic and quiet type, who happened to be exactly like Din Lou Rei.

But before she will meet her destined one, she will be experience first what a painful love feel and got cheated on.

Who will get in love first, Din Lou Rei or Jun Tae Woo?

Who will confess first and how the two of them will meet when the two of them living in different country? Not city but a county.

Stay up to date.

The groom's reaction was no different from the guests who saw her. Actually, no, his reaction was the most priceless among everyone else. He thought that he had already prepared himself for the sight of her in a wedding dress from seeing her in that white dress last night. He thought that Davi, last night, was the most beautiful sight that he had ever seen but he was completely wrong. Last night didn't even hold a candle on how he felt at that moment as he watched his bride slowly walking like a floating goddess towards him.
Sei could hear his heart palpitating and he felt that Davi was slowly taking his breath away. The way she looked at that moment couldn't be explained with words. Sei's eyes just focused on her that he almost forgot to blink. He looked like he was engraving this vision, this moment in his heart and soul. This would be the best morning of his life.
Slowly, Davi was led by her mother and grandfather towards the altar. Little Shin was the most adorable ring bearer that took everyone's heart away.
"Ladies and gentlemen. We are gathered here today to celebrate this wonderful occassion of joining Sei and Davi in holy matrimony…" the celebrant recited.
As the ceremony went on, the guests couldn't help but smile and a few even shed some tears at the magical ceremony that was taking place.
Soon, it was finally time for them to take their vows.
"Davi, do you take Sei to be your lawful wedded husband, to have and to hold, for better or for worse, for as long as you both shall live?"
"I do," Davi replied without hesitation.
"Sei, do you take Davi to be your lawful wedded wife, to have and to hold, for better or for worse, for as long as you both shall live?"
"I do."Sei said quickly, as if he was afraid Davi might change her mind.
"With the power vested in me, I now pronounce you, husband and wife. Sei, you may now kiss your bride."
Sei gazed lovingly at Davi before he slowly closed in and the moment his lips touched hers, a ray of orange peeked from behind them as the sun started rising on the horizon, slowly spreading its light and warmth magnificently as though a god had perfectly timed it.
A new dawn came right as they sealed their love with a kiss, signifying a new beginning. It seemed as if even the sun itself was giving them its blessing.
As Davi and Sei kissed, everyone almost teared up at this magnificent and breath-taking moment. The rising sun and the couple kissing in the altar were like the most magnificent and magical painting. This was just the most perfect sun rise wedding everyone has ever seen in their lives.
The couple's overflowing love and happiness were like potion that was warming everyone's hearts, as if they were infecting them with their overflowing emotions. They can just feel without a doubt that these two were perfectly made for each other and everyone couldn't help but feel very happy for them.
When their lips parted, Sei held Davi's face and he landed his forehead to hers. Sei gazed was filled with nothing but extreme happiness. At last... they were married. Indeed, no matter how many struggles, sadness and pain the world threw at you, as long as you had someone you loved from the bottom of your heart and soul, as long as no one gave up, love would always win in the end. 
"My wife… my wife… I love you so much." He uttered softly and when Davi noticed his welling eyes, she wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him again.
"My darling husband, I love you too forever and ever."
~~~~THE END~~~~
Dear Readers,
I am so overwhelmed. I am so happy that we finally reach the end of this journey. I am so happy that I was able to complete this story with all of you with me until now. I know, some left midway but I am most thankful to everyone who stayed with me until now. I am so glad that I could meet all of you, spend this journey with you.
You guys loved this story as much as I do so it's somehow sad to part with the characters we fell in love with.
However, please don't be sad and don't removed this book in your libraries yet because aside from the next Zaki X Hinari story, which is one whole volume, I will still release another few chapters about Sei and Davi after Hinazaki volume.
I just want to show you guys the side that we couldn't see before. What will be Sei's reaction during Davi's pregnancy and giving birth for their second child? Wait and find out.
Also, I want to ask you to drop something that you would want to see or know. I might choose among your comment and include it in the last special chapter. ^^
Thank you so much and I love you all,
~Kazzen
PS. Please check my new story "I HATE YOU, DEVIL!". I hope you will also support this book and love it just like how you loved ILYM. It may sound dark but i'll assure you it will be another lovely story filled with love, love, and love.... ^^^


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19 years old Davi, married a stranger whom she never seen at all to save her little brother. After marriage she found herself being bound with a certain mission. 
Her mission is to seduce her stone cold husband who is never romantically interested with anyone and bear his child.


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> Hellbound with you

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and wow there is a variety of make up here even though make up was not so advanced in this era.well we were at the counter and the lady took out recommendations. well we bought this-
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we all bought this and of course we would share. (i found the most olden fashion make up. please bare with the picture, please use your imagination for making it look more vintage.)we then went to the jewelry shop which was the most beautiful. it was full of glimmer and shine and beauty.

me and emma looked around but emma could not find anything she wanted. she wore a gazillion necklaces, rings pendants and earrings but none suited her taste and if it did it was too expensive.

emma just gave up hope and left it. she instead helped me to find one necklace and we did find one which was the most beautiful one. it was a seashell inside with its scenery in one small globe.
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we then went to purchase it at the counter. while purchasing the counter lady asked something, "are you emma?!" she asked looking towards emma.

"yes i am. why?!"said emma in uncertainty."well is this you in the picture?! one guy came here and bought this necklace and told me to give it to this girl and give this letter."said the lady. emma looked at the picture and said "yes that is me in the picture. a guy?! what is his name"asked emma.
"ah! yes his name was ja.. something."said the lady. "oh! jack." said diana with excitement that finally he confessed."jack?! why would he leave a gift for me and a letter?!"said emma.

"i do not know! how about you see for yourself."said diana while taking the wrapped gift and letter and giving it to her. emma opened the gift and she found the most beautiful pendant ever.
the pendant- (https://i.pinimg.com/236x/0d/46/7c/0d467cd96063e8b953655ff7a68a4518.jpg) IMAGINE IT WITH AN 'E' INSTEAD OF 'W'.

emma opened the letter with happy tears in her eyes that it was such a beautiful necklace.

*THE LETTER*
Dear emma,
ya i know you must be wondering why of all people will jack write a letter to you and give you a present on top of it. well i just wanted to confess to you that the first time when i saw you which was when you tripped and fell on me. haha it was adorable how you reacted. from that day on what feeling i had wasn't love at first sight, it was friendship but my love slowly gradually grew for you, your personality, your voice, your lovely chocolate brown hair and your lovely two blue eyes, your humor,and the way you looked away and smiled and blushed when i talked to you or recently flirt.
i bought this necklace for you so that i can express my feelings for you or to signify my love for you. it was also that you remember me.it has a blue sapphire which compliments your eyes and for you to remember my blueish black which you love. it also has a starfish made with sliver for your love for the ocean. i even put the 'E' in a sliver plate for your initial and a 'J' on the back for you to remember me.  
i know that i am the worst guy for you but i just wanna say that I LOVE YOU and i want to be your supporter, your partner, your trust, your boyfriend and most of all your one and only love. so would you be my girlfriend emma? you can reply to me when you get back from your trip. i will be waiting for you and only you. i hope that i could be your only love.
yours lovingly and dashingly ;) ,
jack ♥

Debbie is a girl of age 18  who lives in a normal city. She hardly believes in superstions, rebirths and second lives etc. 

She is the best serial killer of the 22nd centuary. She goes by the name "THE NIGHT CRAWLER", people feared her gruesomely.

SUDDENLY AFTER AN HORRIBLE DEATH DEBBIE TRAVELLS BACK IN TIME AND REBIRTHS AS DIANA. Who is an innocent girl, abandonned by her family and left alone to live. Debbie led her second life by picking up diana from the slums where her family abandonned her to the most aglie killer any pirate gang leader would want.

BUT SHE NEVER TOOK ANY PIRATE GANG LEADER'S SIDE.SHE MOSTLY MAKE DEALS WITH THEM AND FINISH THEIR JOB AND EARN MONEY.

She did not expect what would happen next. THE PIRATE WHO WHICH ALL FEARED KIDNAPPED HER.

what will happen??? why did the pirate kidnapp her?? what will he do to her?

READ TO FIND OUT.
I WILL UPDATE 1 CHAPTER EVERYDAY, EXCEPT WEEKENDS AND IF I DO IT WILL BE A MASS RELEASE. 
*(im sorry if my book is on pause im having my important studies and exams so im am unable to update i will surely continue but not now)

"Did you guys really break up? "

Li Yuan stared at Xi. Her eyes are full of questioning marks.

"Yep… actually… it looks like Chu Yana dumped me… " Answer Xi.

"Why? "

Xi saw in a moment on Li Yuan.

"Why? Don't you know, Chu Yana has been having an affair with Yang Jie? " 

Li Yuan nodded.

"I know that… but why didn't you tell them you knew about the affair they did? Wouldn't it be better if you were honest? "

Xi just shook his head slowly.

"No… it's disgusting… how do you think you say knowing everything they're both doing…? "

"I'm not gonna do that… it makes me wanna puke. "

Li Yuan shook her head.

"But… "

Xi is without a word.

Before he finally looked at the ceiling of the store. There's a bright light from the bulb in the ceiling. The light illuminates the entire corner of the room.

"I want to see the original… something like light from bulbs… "

Xi clenched his hand as if he wanted to take the light bulbs.

"The real thing. The bright and clear… "

"I want that… I want to see it… "

"But… those two… are just a falsehood… "

"I realize now…. that the wisdom I own, assuming that friendship and love are pure things… "

"Finding a friend making love with your lover….isn't that gonna fit like as a tragic story? "

Li Yuan was just sat. She's concerned about her student.

"Sensei…. is there that something original? "

Xi stared inside in Li Yuan's eyes.

Li Yuan was silent for a moment.

"It's there… something original is there… "

"I've seen and felt the real thing… " 

"The original thing is exists…Yang Xi has proven… "

Li Yuan's face was sad. There is a pain in the eyes of the girl.

"Do you think something original really exists, sensei? "

Li Yuan is nodding her head.

"This is my experience, this is a story about me… "

"It started when a foolish man fell in love with me… he was a stalker… a narcissist… a shameless… a man who was very loyal… he always cheers up me when I was sad… he laughed when I was happy… he felt everything I had felt. "

Li Yuan stared at Xi for a moment.

"Do you know… how many times did he confess his love ? "

Xi shook his head.

"He confessed 100 times…"

Lin Yuan's eyes stared blankly.

"Do you know the expression he had when he confessed his love? "

Xi is just silent.

"The expression is sincerity… "

Li Yuan's eyes are blushing.

"But, I… I thought of him as a nonsense… because I was still blind… so I told him I had loved another man… "

"The man who I love the most is everything. I will do everything for the man I love. In fact, I'm comparing that idiot to the man I love. "

"You know… love always wins compared to a strange relationship between I and a fool have… "

"I finally blamed the fool for not believing in the man I loved the most… I chased out that idiot… even because of my anger… I sent people to kill that stupid man… "

"Then until finally….I was betrayed by the person I love the most… the people who believe me have finally left my side ... including that stupid guy ... I realized that I was alone ... the person I love most has betrayed me ..."

"The man I love has shown a real face behind his beautiful mask… "

"That's the worst face… "

"I only regret and weep for my actions… all my stupidity… the man I love most tries to kill me… "
"He's pointing a gun at me, and I can only give up on accepting my death… "

Li Yuan stopped her words.

"However… the stupid man I had thrown away and the person I will kill ... with his stupid face back ."

"I remember that time… his body was really not in good conditions. He ran like a madman to the man who betrayed me… and took the gun and kicked the man who betrayed me… he made himself a shield for me… "

"He smiled tenderly at me… then hugged me… that was the warmest embrace I ever felt… "

"I'm grateful that fool came to rescue me… I cried like a little girl in his arms. "

"The fool just said "Take it easy… I'm here. I'll always be here to protect you." "I also realized that my actions were wrong… "

"When that stupid guy hugged me… I did not understand what kind of face he had… "

"That idiot then carrying me on his back… he carried me like a child… I only fell asleep on a warm back… "

"The guy said he would take me to the hospital to take care of the wound was on my body… "

"Before we arrived at the hospital… the guy slowly lost his body balance… and then he fell down… "

"Finally, I realized ... There were a lot of gunshot wounds in his abdomen and chest ... I did not see the wounds and blood, because he was wearing a thick and dark-colored jacket ... He had lost a lot of blood before he arrived to save me ... the person I ordered to kill the man has done his job ... He was at over his limit before coming to save me ... He tried to keep breathing just to save me ... He ... He ... "

"He tried to keep smiling on his lips ... even he comforted me ... He said he was fine ... he said he only needed a nap ... He slowly closed his eyes ... He smiled to convince me ..."

"I patted his face and tried to ask for help while continuing to shout loudly ... but all of that was useless ... his consciousness slowly disappeared ... he had been sleeping forever ... I tried to do several ways to make him live by pressing his chest ... But, that too useless..."

"The people who came to help us called an ambulance ... But ... the ambulance was a few minutes late ... he had left ... he had left forever ... he had lied saying he would take a nap ... but he did not want to wake up when I shouted ... the lie was the first lie he told me ... A lie that hurts ... "

"I can only cry over the death of the man... lamenting my stupidity ... the folly that made him killed by my own hands ... I have lost the man who loves me"

Tears ran down Li Yuan's face.

The girl even bit her lips.

She clenched her grasp and pressed the edge of the table. She tried to hold back her sadness and regret.

Xi looked at Li Yuan.

He can't say anything.

People might curse this girl's actions. But, he is different. When he heard Li Yuan's story, he also felt the suffering experienced by this girl.

He felt sadness too.

"Am I not worse than Chu Yana, Yang'er?"

Li Yuan's expression was gloomy.

"Curses me! Hate me like what people do! Even I cursed and hated myself! * Laughed"

Li Yuan laughed like a crazy girl.

But Xi is calm. He even smiled tenderly at Li Yuan.

"I don't know about your past ... about the regrets you have ... I don't know all that ..."

"Whether it's a bad memory ... memories who make you hurt ... But, one thing is clear, Li Yuan!"

Xi's expression was serious in his words. There were no lies in his words.

"I will never hate you ... I will never blame you ..."

"Even ... if all the people in this place hate you ... even ... if all the people on this country hate you ... even ... if all the people in this world hate you ... even ... if you hate yourself ... I will still be people who will never hate you ... I will remain on your side ...I will do that forever... even.. if I am dead ... even... if I am born again ... I will remain on your side ... "

"That is all the selfishness I have ..."

Xi said sincerely at his words.

"So ... never blame yourself, Sensei!"

Xi smiled tenderly. The smile is the warmest smile I've ever witnessed.

I love humans who have that expression.

It is sincerity and honesty I rarely find in most humans throughout in the eternal life I have.

That is pure honesty ...

That is pure sincerity ...

Li Yuan wiped tears from her face.

In Li Yuan heart filled with remorse. However, this man still said the words that made Li Yuan's regret slowly disappear.

"You are so stupid ..."

Xi smiled with a silly face.

"Stupid doesn't matter in the life of a genius like me."

"Stupid ... you really are the stupid guy ..."

Li Yuan showed a small smile.

The girl seemed to change a little. There was a scratch of relief on her lips.
However, Xi did not know the meaning behind the smile.

Xi Yang who ordinary simple student and has peacefully life. But , when he find his lover make affair with his bestfriend all his life change.

KYLE'S POV

During a short intermission, when our guests were being served cocktails and appetizers before dinner, Lorenzo sent for me and I went to find him in a backroom. He had turned on the huge flat screen and was standing with Michael and Andrew,  remote in hand. 

"Take a look at this," said as he jerks his head towards the TV. It seemed like most major entertainment channels were broadcasting got wind of our wedding going on air and they decided to air it live on their channels, as the event unfolded.

"King and Queen of Mushy, Kyle and Amaya decided to renew their vows today in a lavish ceremony, on a private island in Venice, Italy..."

Lorenzo flipped to the next one and the story was the same.

"Hollywoods sweetest couple, Kyle and Maya Kinley went live on all their social media platforms, as the re-affirmed their undying love for one another-not that we need convincing-"

"America's most loved and inspirational, power couple, Kyle and Amaya Kinley decided to tighten their knot with a lavish, no expenses barred ceremony at a romantic location in Venice, Italy-"

"Kyle Kinley has done it again...he made us cry...How is it possible that someone can love his wife so well and so perfectly?"

"Bring out the Kleenex people. Because you're going to need it once you tune into the renewal of the wedding vows between the sexy heartthrob, music-sensation Kyle Kinley and his wife of thirteen solid years, billionaire Amaya Walsh-Kinley-"

"Everyone's talking it about it," Andrew grinned, "you've broken the internet yet again."

"Wow...I didn't expect it to make headline news," I laughed.

"Pfft! If it involves you and Maya then it's standard procedure," Michael chuckled.

"This is great and all but I got to get back," I said. "I have a room full of guests."

"Before you get back-you didn't finish your end of the deal," Lorenzo grumbled.

"Really? How so?" I frowned as I slipped my hands into my trouser pockets.

"Vows son. I want to hear you say your vows, otherwise, this dream is only half done," my father complained.

"You're so extra Dad," I laughed. 

"We've come this far haven't we? We might as well go the full mile right?" he smiled.

"Right. Duly noted Sir," I nodded, "let me see what I can do." I remarked as I walked out.

"You'd better!" I heard my father shout as I retreated down the hallway.

When I entered the hall, music flooded the room and my eyes glanced around until they landed on my wife.  I took her hand and led her back to the altar and the talk died low.

"Ladies and gentlemen," I said as my hand gripped the mic. "We have had complaints from our sponsors that my wife and I haven't fulfilled our obligations-"

"That's right!" Lorenzo shouted from the front row and the was a rumble of laughter.

"So, we may not be Lannister's but we always pay our debts too, right babe?" Our guests responded with roaring laughter. 

"My father is insisting that a wedding isn't a wedding if vows are not exchanged so-"

"We want to hear the vows!" Someone shouted.

"We want the mushy!" Another one resounded.

"On that note... can the marriage officer and our bridal team- please come up so that we can do this thing, then everyone can sleep better tonight?" 

The crowd broke into applause.

The seats in the hall filled up quickly, as Maya and I return to the central altar to do our vows.  The string quartet starts a soft melody and the music fills the space perfectly. Everyone turns to face us again as the marriage officiator takes his position. After he says a few words he gives the go-ahead for us to proceed with the vows.

"You go first," I whisper to Maya and she shakes her head no.

"You know I'm not good with words so you go first while I think," she whispered back.

"Babe, just speak from the heart...after thirteen years of being together it should be easy...unless you trying to tell me that you don't feel anything but lust-"

"Touche husband," she scowled.

The facilitator cleared his throat and brought our attention back to reality. "Mr and Mrs Kinley? Do you need a minute perhaps?" 

"No!" Our voices rang out.

"Okay, then shall we proceed?" 

"You owe me for this-" I said to Maya, who was grinning like a Cheshire cat, her hand caressing my cheek like the perfect wife. 

"Babe...where do I even begin?" I intimated in a throaty, veiled murmur as I endeavored to convey an affection I could not put into words. 

Shyly meeting her gaze, I reached out for her hands and she smiled her tremorous, bashful smile. "Although thirteen years seems like a long time, it isn't to me babe. A lifetime with you isn't long enough to spend with you...I wish I had more time on this planet, to love you, to cherish you, to laugh with you; to watch you when you sleep, to feel my heart melt whenever I see you smile; to hear your melodic laughter, to look into your eyes and see the love-the hope and the trust there. Whenever you look at me I feel like I can take on the world babe-I feel like I'm invincible-like I can take on the world...just by the way you're looking at me right now..." I reached out and wiped a tear from the corner of her eye with the pad of my thumb. "You make me want to be a better man babe-actually I am a better man because of you..."

I glance briefly over the guest and most of them I close to tears again.

"To say that I love you seems so shallow and meaningless...because what I feel for you is way beyond love babe. I wish there was a word that could fully describe to you how I feel about you Amaya. I know that I've written you songs that came close to describing  how I feel but they were just scratching the surface." I sighed wistfully as I looked into her eyes. "You own me, babe. Mind, body, and soul. I'm sure there's not a single person in this room that doesn't know how much I love you. But most importantly I want you to know that I love you, babe. Forever and until eternity. I'm yours." 

I sealed my confession with a searing kiss.

Needless to say-we had to call for another music intermission to give people a chance to piece themselves together. So Lukas Graham took center stage and wooed the audience with his song Love Someone. Kat was full out sobbing; like she was at a funeral and not a wedding. Jamie had to take her outside for a timeout. 

Maya buried her head in my chest as she cried again. "I hate you..." she mumbled into my chest.

"Of cos you do babe...of cos you do..." I laughed as I turned her face up to my own again, and softly kissed her wet eyes. 

"That was so sweet honeybear...I love you..." she changed her confession.

"That was quick." 

"I don't think I will be able to top that and you know I'm not gifted with words like you are but-everyday I feel like I'm just the luckiest girl on planet earth. Waking up next to you every morning is the most beautiful feeling-like ever. I don't think I will ever get over it. The way you wear your heart on your sleeve for the whole world to see,  just blows me away." She gazed up, blinking back tears. "You love me so fiercely like a hurricane-your love consumes me, that all I can see and think about is you, baby. I know that there's nothing you wouldn't do for me, or our children and today I pledge myself to you all over again. You've owned my heart from the first time you stripped me naked and put me in your bed, all those years ago," we laughed as the memories came flooding back. "My heart is yours. I love you, Kyle Kinley. Forever, until eternity... I'm yours."

My lips found hers and I kissed her like we had just met, oblivious of the five thousand guests that surrounded us.

The Billionaire's Song Sequel

One night was all I needed before I broke her heart and shattered her trust. I knew that this would probably be the last time we would be this close-this open with each other. I wish I hadn't kept this from her. How I wish I could turn back time and do this all over again. But it was too late now. I just hope our love was strong enough to survive the storm that was coming...

"What do you think I have cared about most during your time with me?" I pondered over it, as a man he was successful, had many things, including money, career, respect. But he seemed to care little about them.
"Emotions," I answered.
It seemed that I didn't disappoint him, as he revealed a hint of a smile, and looked at the waiter pouring wine for him. "What do you think is the most intolerable thing in a relationship?" he said, his eyes still fixed on the red wine. His expression grew gloomy under the light. Before I responded, he had given me the answer, "It is cheating!"
I looked down uneasily, and the crab's hardshell hurt my hands. He went on, "We can be betrayed at any moment on the streets, so we value trust and loyalty the most! The reason Troy and I remain in a relationship is the trust between us."
"But what did he mean? Was it because of my explanation about the knife in the morning, or something else?" I thought. My blood was surging, and the terror constrained every vein as if I had fallen into an immense abyss, totally losing myself.
I didn't know how long it took me to calm down. After a while, I guessed that he couldn't have known what I wanted to do, or he would not have spoken to me in such a calm voice.
I observed his expression and asked tentatively, "You said you trusted me the most, would you be angry if I lied to you? Would you forgive me?" His eyes moved to my face as if they could pierce my body and my soul. I ducked in a bit of panic.
"Desiree," he said and took the crab from my hands and pinched my swollen red fingers. "I love you! No matter how you have cheated me before, I can forgive you. But from now on, if you cheat on me again, I will never forgive you!"
"Had he already known my thoughts, hoping for me to confess to obtaining his trust? Or perhaps he didn't intend to investigate it secretly, hoping that I would confess?" all these possibilities went through my mind.
It was the most difficult choice of my life: If I confessed, it meant that I would have to give up my last chance of having revenge. Or if I didn't, it meant that I would lose the last chance to love him.
The choice between irreconcilable hatred and overwhelming love was confusing me.
"I... " he interrupted me. I almost couldn't think about anything calmly. What I needed was to calm down. Distracted, I suddenly saw the piano in the middle of the restaurant. Then I immediately said, "Since you haven't heard me play for a long time, let me perform one piece of my favorite song for you."
He looked at me in silence. I pretended not to see his disappointment and walked towards the white piano. When the music began, I could see him frowning. Yes, anyone would have mixed feelings when hearing the song 'Butterfly'.
During the first half of the song, many sweet memories were emerging in my brain like old black and white movies. I smiled at him, and he returned the smile, even though it was emotionless.
Once I got into it, the whole restaurant became quiet and my tears fell on the undulating keys. The music trembled with my trembling fingers and became more dismal. I struggled to turn to him with a smile. He was expertly lifting the shell of the crab and putting the flesh on my plate. My world was turned upside down at that moment, and all reason was gone!
We made eye contact under the brilliant, maroon light. The moment we stared at each other seemed like an eternity. Along with the music, I said slowly, "I met a man I shouldn't have met, and I fell in love with him when I shouldn't have. No matter how our story will go, I will be lucky to reencounter him. Because he is the most perfect man in the world, no matter what others think of him. Nobody compares to him!"
Amidst the polite applause, I stood up and closed the piano slowly, then stroked my hand along its surface as I walked away. When Jonathan stood up, I couldn't tell if it was joy or sorrow in his eyes.
I walked up to him and hugged him. It was also a kind of happiness that made life seem like a transient flower. "Desiree, you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen," he said.
"Jonathan, I promise you that I will not deceive you from now on," I said because I knew that's what he expected!
I didn't know what would happen in the future, but at least I had shown my most graceful moment to him! I had experienced enchanted, bittersweet love.

At a young age, she witnessed how her whole family being murdered by a notorious gang leader whom his Dad work with. She never forgets his face and wishes one day she'll get revenge on him who killed her entire family.

She was brought into an orphanage and later on, the murderer had come to adopt her. She was raised as her adopted daughter and she swears to take his life if she'll be given a chance. Fate had changed when he takes her as his wife.

She learned to love him after being secretly married to him but he had hurt her again and left her alone in the hospital after she lost their child and leaving  the words: "Don't let me see you again!"

Fate played again and they reencountered. Her husband arranged the waiter to hand a check as payment for having a one night snack with him. She knows they hated each other and wanted to take revenge with each other but deep down in heart she still longing for his love and affection.

Would their fate change this time and heal their broken heart? What if she discovered the truth behind the tragic death of her family, would she forgive him or she still takes his life to fulfill her ambition of killing him.

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Tang Wulin spoke in a deep voice, "When I was young, my martial soul was a useless Bluesilver Grass martial soul. My first spirit soul was the Spirit Pagoda's failed specimen. If I had given up at the time, I would never be where I am today. You even have the courage to go on a diet for her sake. Why don't you have the courage to accept an answer now? Listen to yourself and stay here. We're not expecting a miracle, but we must give miracle a chance."
Xu Lizhi lowered his head. He finally regained his soul power to control himself standing on top of the lotus leaf. He nodded gently, yet he did not have the courage to look toward the females' side.
Tang Yingmeng wiped the tears on her face. "He's right. You should stay. Don't leave before you receive a result, alright? I'll pray for you. You're a good boy. It's not your fault for being fat. I didn't expect that the first love confession today would be so touching."
The lotus slowly returned to its original position. The look everyone gave Xu Lizhi had changed. Xu Lizhi gradually calmed down. He stood there with his head lowered.
"Lizhi, you're awesome!" Xie Xie gave him a thumbs up without any reservation.
Yue Zhengyu spoke in a deep voice, "You have our support. Do your best."
Tang Wulin did not utter a word as he gazed at the target Xu Lizhi had confessed his love toward a hundred meters away.
She was unusually calm. She remained composed as she stood on the lotus leaf. She seemed barely affected by it all. Despite being observed by the females who were aware of what transpired, she did not offer any response.
Lan Muzi spoke, "Junior Number Thirty-Two, please give me the number of your choice later. For those maidens who are interested in Junior Number Thirty-Two, please take note as well. Remember that you're only allowed to choose one person after this segment."
"Yingmeng, let's continue to draw the lots. By the way, I love that you're so spontaneous."
Howling voices were then heard from the Outer Court's students on the shore at present. They were all yelling to support Xu Lizhi, in particular the first class students who were shouting at the top of their voices.
Not everyone was born with good looks and an impressive family background in this world. One might just be a common folk, however, one was entitled to pursue one's love and happiness. Xu Lizhi's expression infected most of the folks' heartfelt feelings.
The Light Dark Douluo Long Yeyue who had been sitting cross-legged on the towership sighed softly. "I thought that I would be fine spending my final days which have been dull and mediocre. However, I've been infected by what the fat boy said about true love. It was most touching indeed. I've made the decision to take a closed door disciple. I don't think anyone would challenge me on this, right?"
"Cough, cough, cough, cough!" The sound of a few dry coughs echoed from her back. It was quite obvious that there was more than one person who had the same thought.
The Atlas Douluo Yun Ming looked toward Long YeYue. "Sister Yue, if you're certain that you're going to accept another closed door disciple, then this is simply the best news in Shrek Academy. Of course, no one will go against you on this. Fortune is smiling on the fat boy."
He was genuinely joyous. Ever since the passing of Light Dark Douluo's husband, the previous generation's Sea God Pavilion Master did not have the will to live on. If it were not for her concern over Shrek Academy, she would have left for her husband already. Even people like Lan Muzi and Tang Yingmeng were just namesake disciples.
Closed door disciples and namesake disciples were two completely different categories. Only a direct disciple could become a closed door disciple. On top of that, a closed door disciple was the teacher's favorite disciple. Long Yeyue was going to accept Xu Lizhi as her closed door disciple, so there was no doubt that she would do her utmost to cultivate this disciple. Her vitality was completely within her control due to her advanced cultivation base so she could always extend her lifespan should she wish to do so.
Yun Ming was the happiest about the circumstances since Light Dark Douluo was his senior and Shrek Academy's guardian angel. She was a stabilizing presence in Shrek Academy just like the divine needle that calmed the sea [KK1] . Despite Light Dark Douluo's relatively unknown reputation, those in the upper echelons of the highly ranked soul masters knew of her existence. The Spirit Pagoda resented her but dared not show disrespect to Shrek Academy.
Yun Ming was on par with her going by their cultivation bases. In fact, he was even more powerful than her. However, as a deterrence to the Spirit Pagoda, she was more of an influence than Yun Ming. Most importantly, she had a close relationship, that of a mother or grandmother, with Yun Ming!
A faint smile emerged on Long Yeyue's face. "There's finally something exciting I can do."
The second male had completed his exposition during their conversation. He displayed his martial souls and soul rings. It was apparent that he had someone in mind but only expressed his feelings at the moment just before ending his confession.
"Number Fifty." The third person drawn from the lot was Long Yue standing beside Tang Wulin.
Long Yue did not expect his turn to come up so soon so he appeared stunned for a moment. He turned his head to the side subconsciously and took a glance at Tang Wulin standing by his side, while Tang Wulin was staring at the opposite side at present.
The lotus underneath Long Yue's feet floated forward slowly and brought him to the front.
His gaze was upon Dai Yun'er on the opposite side.
Long Yue took a deep breath. "I understand that I'm not welcomed here and I'm aware of the reason as well. This is because I don't belong to Shrek. My purpose here is to learn from all of you because I wish to learn new skills to elevate myself. Star Luo Empire belongs to this continent initially. Even though I refuse to admit it, it remains a fact we were expelled from here. However, soul masters are the same everywhere. I'm just like all of you soul masters. Our goal and direction are the same, that is to be as powerful as one can be."
"Perhaps I shouldn't talk about this, but I mean no malice when I come here. In fact, I'm most glad to be present for the date festival this time. It's truly interesting as it also allows me to express my heartfelt feelings. Frankly speaking, I've never been in love. I've been cultivating painstakingly all along since I was young. Moreover, my cultivation practice is accompanied by severe hardship which is quite different from most people. The pain I have to go through restricts my movements at times that I've to walk one step at a time. There are moments when I lose control of my emotions as well. That's how I end up with the nickname Madman Long. Nevertheless, even a madman can be sentimental. Yes, I've someone I love too."
"Even though I'm aware that she's in love with someone else, I've always loved her all along. However, I'm uncertain of my love for her as to whether it's romantic love or brotherly love. I've watched over her ever since she was young. Frankly, she has been by my side for the longest period of time and also the person I see the most. Hence, I promise to take her as my bride in the future. Even my friends and acquaintances have encouraged me to fulfill my promise."
"Yet, I'm feeling a little disturbed as I stand here today. Perhaps, my love rival is too powerful. I've never been afraid of anyone when it comes to displaying my powers. Although I strive to be the strongest, I'm certainly not as handsome. Nonetheless, I promise that I'll protect you, no matter the circumstance, as long as I'm alive. The words of our friend earlier stirred me deeply. Perhaps, I truly need love. I dare not vouch for anything else except that my shoulders are absolutely tough which was proven earlier by the maiden's hand cannon.
His gaze remained fixated on Dai Yun'er as he was speaking. He was frank about how he was unsure of his love for Dai Yun'er. However, if he were to have a relationship, then Dai Yun'er would be the most suitable candidate.
His words of passion were not considered touching but it was certainly frank and genuine. Simultaneously, it made Shrek Academy's Inner Court disciples change their view of him. It was apparent that he did not wish to be alone.
In fact, Long Yue was attracted to most of everything he came across after arriving at Shrek Academy. He had always thought that Monster Academy was no different from Shrek Academy. Nonetheless, he finally realized he was immature in his thinking upon his arrival at Shrek Academy.
[KK1]Read Wikipedia about Sun Wukong's magical staff that was once a needle used by Sea God to measure flood https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ruyi_Jingu_Bang


Following the advancement of soul technology, the humans of Douluo Continent conquered the ocean and discovered two new continents. After being hunted by spirit masters excessively, the soul beasts are nearly extinct. After countless years of lying dormant, the King of the Soul Beasts has awakened in the Great Star Dou Forest. It will lead its remaining clansmen in taking vengeance against humanity! 

Tang Wulin is determined to become a powerful Soul Master. However, when he awakened his martial soul, it was actually a…

Incomparable talent. The battle of the Dragon King. The Legend of our Dragon King hereby begins.

August 3, 2019 7:44pm:

 Yesterday was my grandfather's birthday I don't remember the year he was born but he was a great man. By the way most of my thoughts jump here to there I don't know if it's because of my condition or maybe it's normal. One thought that is going through my mind was pretty traumatic for me and it has been bothering me ever since that day.


   So I was on this dating app called Plenty of Fish and I really wanted to find someone I could really connect with on the innocent level. By the way everyone who is using the app is supposed to be over 18 and one of the girls I was talking with was only 15! I had no idea until her father contacted me that she was trying to send inappropriate content to me and was caught in the act. I felt so bad for the family because they got into a big fight. No I didn't ask for anything from her like that I know I'm innocent to the fact that all I wanted to really do with this lady was to play tennis with her. 


    I'm just really grateful that God protected me and warned me about her ahead of time. What if I wasn't trying to be a good Christian man and sent inappropriate pictures to her? Like nudes or something really bad? Yeah, thank God that never happened. It's just really sad that I thought I was really connecting with this lady but she ended up being a 15 year old teen. It was scary. It's sad because many people can fall victim to worse situations than this and ruined their lives. God's hand was in this and I never in my life thought that something like this would ever happen to me. All I wanted to do was to get to know this girl and this happens. It's very strange..


     It's also sad that the only person I really connected with was a 15 year old. It's sad. She was more mature than most 20 year olds that I know but I'm not crying over it. It is what it is.


    Why is it so difficult to have an actual conversation with someone my age? I mean it's not an impossible occurrence. It's just that most girls my age don't know what they want or they're already married or pregnant. It's like why can't you wait? How hard is it to wait until marriage or to actually make a marriage work? Is it really taboo?


   Now I didn't wait till marriage to have sex which I regret and it was before I joined the church, but I was smart enough to you know pull out of the situation before anything happened. That may be too much information, but seriously sex is not meant to be before marriage. This really isn't taboo, I think we all know this and that we know that sin cannot be accepted in the least degree of allowance. I also know that there is no sin that cannot be forgiven as long as you are sincere, learn from your mistakes, and change and move forward.


    It's interesting what goes on in my mind and it's almost amazing. The Lord has truly blessed me. I don't deserve any of it, but He loves me. I hope that you will come to understand yourself as you come to understand how my brain works. Forgiveness and understanding is meant for all and I hope you will truly come to understand and to change. I really hope that my thoughts are thought-provoking.


   I feel really good writing to you all or y'all about my traumatic experiences and experiences in general. They are important to understand. I don't want to come off as prideful or high-and-mighty... I only write to edify the children of God which is all of us. We are all children of our loving Heavenly Father. He loves you and I love you. I want you to feel God's love as we embark on this journey together. I am so excited to be a part of your life to give you down to earth needed direction on how we should live our lives like our Savior Jesus Christ. I pardon ahead of time for I am honest and mostly uncensored. I do this for a reason to help you understand reality and that we don't have to feel like we are always in a matrix. We can become better and we can do better as President Russell M. Nelson has said.


    I do have this 120 sheet notebook that I am going to write in until I finish this front and back and I will be publishing each book that way so that you may be able to profit from my thoughts much sooner. Bear with me for I have much to say, much knowledge, and hopefully wisdom to pass on to you.


    I pray that we may all be able to profit from one another's thoughts and stories that we may learn and grow to that stature of perfection.


    I am indeed a perfectionist but I don't really have OCD or is it CDO? Hmm, oh well. I do have much to share with you and I'm super excited to get started. I'm thrilled! Like out of this world, Cloud 10.


    Anyway, I hope to bring some enthusiasm into your life and that you and your families may profit greatly.


    Are you excited? Because you should be! I love you and the Lord loves you. He wants you to prosper as much as I do. I love you! Did you hear that? Say it out loud, "I am loved."


    I want to meet you and inspire you to become the best you, you could ever imagine. I want you to be big and to do big things in your life.


   The most important thing, which there are a council most important things, is that you know that you are loved and that you are a child of God who is loved by matchless being. Someone just like you! Who suffered mortality who became an exalted being. The most high. We cannot comprehend that our essence has always existed. That we were intelligences before our spirits where even formed, that we were fertile material before we were formed? Maybe that doesn't make sense but who can really understand that all? We can try! I'm having fun, how about you? Definitely thought-provoking.


    Think about this we lived with God before we came to Earth. We love him because he first loved us. We loved before we obtained our mortal beings. We felt with our spirits we knew things before we were physically formed. This is amazing stuff! Are you following along? Don't give up and never quit. Never Quit. Never Surrender.


8:52pm: 

  I have a lot to say because I'm supposed to motivate you to become the best, even as God. We must look at the Eternal perspective of all of these things. Where will this choice take me? To jail? Hell? Heaven or to my next meal? Look each moment goes by for a divine purpose and I always say now that the past has passed for a divine purpose.


    One thing that I will mention is that I am going to be completely honest with you and you can judge me if you so desire, but who is without sin? Please, cast the first stone. Go ahead you will have to answer to God for your wrong deeds and I will have to answer him for mine. These words I will write and that I am writing is again to build trust and mutual understanding in this chaotic world we now live in. We are all meant for greatness. I don't care who you are or what you are you are meant for even more than Eternal Joy, you are meant for Eternal progression. I am willing to council with anyone. I don't care what you have done, or where you have been, or what race you are we are all beloved Children of the most high. We are meant for perfection.


    What is perfection? I might tell you if you truly want to know. Some people might think perfection is subjective. For example, one man might find big girls or short girls perfect and I might find tall and petite girls are perfect to me. That is subjective. We seem to create perfection. We are creators. We are God's children meant for godhood. Whether you are male or female you are meant for so much more than you could ever comprehend. You are meant for perfection and creating perfection. There is no need to compare because we are who we are. We are creatures meant to become creators. Simple as that. Now Brad, how can we achieve such a goal? You start now, you start creating, you start working, innovating, you begin to transpire and inspire for there is no other way. Eternity is a long time. For there is no time. This is it. If there is time then now is the time to transform and to change. Yes, in fact give yourself time because that is all you got.


    Our mortal existence is but a blink of an eye. There is so much to accomplish, so much happiness, and joy to obtain. We just need to get to it and work.


    The Lord told Adam and Eve, please, I command you to work and to take care of this garden. Multiply and replenish this Earth so that we may create more worlds. More progression, more creation, more of this, more of that. We need more for we are worth more.


    God is the one in the background so we better turn around and listen. Let him guide you. Let him guard you, let him use you. Come follow me the Savior said. Come, do as I have done. Love your neighbor as yourself. Love people, love your God, and most importantly, love yourself. Yes, love yourself. That should be a commandment. Forgive yourself, love yourself.


    Don't be as the hypocrites and crit your pants over not making any sense. Now did I get your attention back? Good, you need to pay attention.


    The devil's job is to test you. Did you know that? God commanded Satan to test us. For he has fallen. Oh how the heavens wept over the fall of the Morning Star. Oh how we wept.

   But this is not the end for us or that Morning Star. Believe it or not he was one of God's finest. At one point Satan loved God. He loved Him. But nonetheless pride entered into his heart which lead to envy, which led to malice, which led to murder, which led to where we find ourselves now. Begging God, please. Let this cup pass from me. Please let this pass, please.


    Satan knows you and maybe at one point in time he loved you. Heck you might have studied together before he fell. Why would the heavens weep? Because we loved him. We knew his potential, but now he has fallen. He chooses to be in the dark because he loves it more than he loves you now. He has found his own kingdom there, and of course he wants you to join. It's his kingdom after all. Satan is most likely eternally opposed unless he himself repents. Is it possible? I think it is. Will it be easy for him? Probably not, God will choose whom he will forgive but of us it is required of us to forgive.


    Will there always be opposition in all things? I believe so. For God I guess would cease to be God. Now what would happen to Satan if he repented? I don't even think we could comprehend that. I don't even know if that is possible but I do forgive Satan for the harm that he has caused me. I am at peace with the fact that I know he can change. I know it and God knows it, even if he doesn't know it yet. Satan is fighting right now. Will he always fight? Well think of it this way Satan is a title. The Devil is a title, like God is a title. You're always going to have prideful people. I can't say always but that is where perfection comes into play. There are laws that God has to follow or He would cease to be God. Now let's think about that for a moment.


    With God all things are possible, why because He is perfect. Now is perfection actually subjective then or is it a state of being? I believe now that it is a state of being. What do you think?

10:05pm:
 
     I don't like to think that Satan is eternally opposed to Heavenly Father's plan, but maybe he is. After all God can't force Satan to repent. Satan has to choose for himself to repent. Now why would Satan be eternally opposed to God's plan? Maybe because he missed out. God's thoughts are not our thoughts, His ways are higher than our ways. There is a reason why Satan doesn't have a body or his evil spirits. That would be a scary world to physically fight off evil like that, imagine the chaos. It would be hell on Earth literally. I don't even want to think of it. The ****, murder, and all that evil would be…. Let's just say God would never allow that to happen because He loves us. Just think of the evil the devil puts into us each day, just imagine that evil being bluntly evident. Again. God would not allow it. Evil is already apparent in the lives of many. Murderers, molesters, rapists, torturers, and terrorists. They will reap what they sow. For mercy can never rob justice. God would cease to be God, but God will never cease to be God. For he is all good and all-knowing.


   I have a warning for those evil who willfully rebel against God that I will and do command you to repent. You need to repent, you need God's grace, and mercy to stop you now. There is no excuse for sining, but you can be forgiven. Turn to God now. I exhort you to call upon that God in sincerity and with full purpose of heart that your soul may be spared at that last day. Do not choose for it to be dreadful. Choose good. Choose God. Yes, I am crying repentance.


   Those that teach their poor children to willfully sin is guilty of a severe sin. I exhort you to repent and to plead for forgiveness. You need to stop and turn away from your dark heart. Just stop. I plead with you as a loving brother to turn from the enemy of your soul.


   If you choose to continue I cannot guarantee your salvation. Do not take this message for granted, I pray. Love God, love your neighbor, and love yourself. If you truly love yourself you will do these things.


    Love your soul, love your Heavenly Father. Satan wants you for his kingdom. His kingdom has nothing positive to offer. Mercy will never rob justice. Satan has already lost the war and the battle is between the wicked for the battle of the righteous has already been won.


    No I would lie, battles will be fought in the defense of our righteousness. We as men have been commanded to protect our families for a Divine Purpose. There will be war and battle. Jeffrey R Holland knows we are in a battle right now. We are all enlisted till the conflict is O'er, who will volunteer? Buckler and shield. Haste to the battle, quick to the field. Truth is our colors. Proudly we wave, proudly they wave. We're joyfully, joyfully marching to our home.


    We are children of a king and Satan is the enemy of your soul, he is eternally opposed to the Plan of Salvation. He had his chance and now he has done all of this. The Father of all lies. He wants you to think that he is for you, sure. Don't let him lull you away.


    I'm afraid he will never obtain a body for God cannot allow it. Thank God he separated the light from the darkness. The wicked will always fight. They seem to be eternally opposed to God's plan because they choose to. They chose to fight against you in the premortal world. The creation of mortality to immortality needed to occur to separate God's elect from the evil. Any evil. The Lord and Savior is also a God of Peace. Not of War. He is my mighty tower from the storm, my refuge. Our refuge.


    Satan thinks that this is his kingdom but he is so wrong. Sorry but not sorry Satan. You are eternally opposed to God's plan, why? Because you choose to be evil and there has to be unpardonable sins. I am so sad that this has occurred, but it is what it is and you need to be aware and accept that. Writing this out has helped me to accept that.


    You know Satan has tried to influence me to be a Hitler? He tried. But I refuse to accept his offer for he has nothing to offer. There's plenty of evil out there and I guarantee you that there are plenty of secret combinations out there looking to torture you, kill you, molest you, and all sorts of wickedness. How will you be protected? Walk in the light.

   I exhort you to resist evil, resisting the temptations of the cunning and crafty one. Fly the colors of peace and loyalty. Blue and white. In the flag of the United States the red represents the blood shed for those who sacrificed their selves for our freedom. So fly that red, white, and blue. White represents purity and virtue and the blue represents courage and loyalty. And I'll add that the red represents not only sacrifice but love.


    God bless the United States, God bless our troops, God bless our land, and our families. God bless us all and that we may weed out all corruption. God bless us all, freedom for all. Liberty and justice for all.


    Honestly I don't deserve to be even writing this book for it is by the grace of God that we are saved.


    It Is by grace that we are saved not by works. By grace are we saved not by works lest any man should boast.


    We work to simply show our loyalty and love and yes we will be greatly rewarded for those works. Salvation is through grace and grace alone. Oh, Amazing Grace. For it is amazing.


God loves you, amen.

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