Hidup ini setiap detiknya berarti dengan bagaimana kita habiskan? dengan siapa kita lalui? apa yang kita lakukan untuk menjalaninya? Setiap waktu yang kita jalani akan menjadi kenangan dan pelajaran bagi kita yang menjalankannya.
Sehingga kita perlu menghargai dan mengutamakan kebahagian kita dalam menjalani hidup ini. Dimana ada suka pasti ada duka.

POST #49 FROM THE BOOK "NEW-CLEAR BOMBS FROM NITHYA SATSANG"
 
Following is an extract from the book titled: 108 New-Clear Bombs from Nithya Satsang, from the teachings of His Divine Holiness (HDH) Nithyananda Paramashivam, the living incarnation of Paramashiva. Through simple truths, HDH causes powerful cognitive shifts in individuals in his/her path of enlightenment.
 
Section: STRAIGHT SOLUTIONS FOR LIFE
 
49. The Suffering-Exchange Offer! 
A man was feeling very burdened by his suffering. Every day he would pray to God, 'Everybody is so happy, why do only I have to suffer?' One day, he was really depressed and prayed. 'I am not able to bear my pain anymore. Please take it away! Even if I have to take someone else's pain in exchange. I am ready to do that.' 
That night he had a dream where he saw God telling everyone in his village to bring all their sufferings to Him. So everybody gathered their sufferings in big bags and they all rushed to God. Then God said, 'Now you can keep your bags around me.' Everybody was very happy to get rid of their sufferings and dropped off their bags. Then, as they had asked in their prayers, God said, 'Ok now you can pick up any bag you want.' 
Suddenly, everybody including this man, rushed to take his own bag! Not only he, but all the others were also doing the same thing. 
For the first time, each one had seen others' sufferings and they were glad their bag was not as big as those around them. Also, each person had become used to his own sufferings. Nobody wanted to risk taking somebody else's unknown sufferings instead of their own known ones! 
The man suddenly woke up and prayed to God. 'Thank you for opening my eyes! I know what I have is what is necessary for me. That is why you have given my circumstances to me!' 
For reading the entire book "New-Clear Bombs From Nithya Satsang", visit:
http://www.nithyananda.org/book/en/108-new-clear-bombs-paramahamsa-nithyananda
POST #49 FROM THE BOOK "NEW-CLEAR BOMBS FROM NITHYA SATSANG"
 
Following is an extract from the book titled: 108 New-Clear Bombs from Nithya Satsang, from the teachings of His Divine Holiness (HDH) Nithyananda Paramashivam, the living incarnation of Paramashiva. Through simple truths, HDH causes powerful cognitive shifts in individuals in his/her path of enlightenment.
 
Section: STRAIGHT SOLUTIONS FOR LIFE
 
49. The Suffering-Exchange Offer! 
A man was feeling very burdened by his suffering. Every day he would pray to God, 'Everybody is so happy, why do only I have to suffer?' One day, he was really depressed and prayed. 'I am not able to bear my pain anymore. Please take it away! Even if I have to take someone else's pain in exchange. I am ready to do that.' 
That night he had a dream where he saw God telling everyone in his village to bring all their sufferings to Him. So everybody gathered their sufferings in big bags and they all rushed to God. Then God said, 'Now you can keep your bags around me.' Everybody was very happy to get rid of their sufferings and dropped off their bags. Then, as they had asked in their prayers, God said, 'Ok now you can pick up any bag you want.' 
Suddenly, everybody including this man, rushed to take his own bag! Not only he, but all the others were also doing the same thing. 
For the first time, each one had seen others' sufferings and they were glad their bag was not as big as those around them. Also, each person had become used to his own sufferings. Nobody wanted to risk taking somebody else's unknown sufferings instead of their own known ones! 
The man suddenly woke up and prayed to God. 'Thank you for opening my eyes! I know what I have is what is necessary for me. That is why you have given my circumstances to me!' 
For reading the entire book "New-Clear Bombs From Nithya Satsang", visit:
http://www.nithyananda.org/book/en/108-new-clear-bombs-paramahamsa-nithyananda
POST #49 FROM THE BOOK "NEW-CLEAR BOMBS FROM NITHYA SATSANG"
 
Following is an extract from the book titled: 108 New-Clear Bombs from Nithya Satsang, from the teachings of His Divine Holiness (HDH) Nithyananda Paramashivam, the living incarnation of Paramashiva. Through simple truths, HDH causes powerful cognitive shifts in individuals in his/her path of enlightenment.
 
Section: STRAIGHT SOLUTIONS FOR LIFE
 
49. The Suffering-Exchange Offer! 
A man was feeling very burdened by his suffering. Every day he would pray to God, 'Everybody is so happy, why do only I have to suffer?' One day, he was really depressed and prayed. 'I am not able to bear my pain anymore. Please take it away! Even if I have to take someone else's pain in exchange. I am ready to do that.' 
That night he had a dream where he saw God telling everyone in his village to bring all their sufferings to Him. So everybody gathered their sufferings in big bags and they all rushed to God. Then God said, 'Now you can keep your bags around me.' Everybody was very happy to get rid of their sufferings and dropped off their bags. Then, as they had asked in their prayers, God said, 'Ok now you can pick up any bag you want.' 
Suddenly, everybody including this man, rushed to take his own bag! Not only he, but all the others were also doing the same thing. 
For the first time, each one had seen others' sufferings and they were glad their bag was not as big as those around them. Also, each person had become used to his own sufferings. Nobody wanted to risk taking somebody else's unknown sufferings instead of their own known ones! 
The man suddenly woke up and prayed to God. 'Thank you for opening my eyes! I know what I have is what is necessary for me. That is why you have given my circumstances to me!' 
For reading the entire book "New-Clear Bombs From Nithya Satsang", visit:
http://www.nithyananda.org/book/en/108-new-clear-bombs-paramahamsa-nithyananda

Following is an extract from the book titled: 108 New-Clear Bombs from Nithya Satsang, from the teachings of His Divine Holiness (HDH) Nithyananda Paramashivam, the living incarnation of Paramashiva. Through simple truths, HDH causes powerful cognitive shifts in individuals in his/her path of enlightenment.
 
Section: STRAIGHT SOLUTIONS FOR LIFE

*****

Eden just lies down on her sleeping bag inside her tent, a flickering candle providing a dim light beside her as she flipped the pages of her journal in the beginning first pages to where she had written her first entries from when the zombie apocalypse began, how it started and when it started.

Eden's gaze was almost distant as she read the written entries again as she remembered those dark horrific time that happened so suddenly a year before.

She decided to write another entry to her recent one, reached for her pen that was there beside the candle, and despite the low dim light, she can see very well to read and write even in the dark.

*****

JOURNAL ENTRY: DAY UNKNOWN, 8TH MONTH AUGUST, 2XXX

Hey, it's me again, Eden.

I had to write this down just so you can get the idea of how long has it been since I had remembered on when, where, and how this apocalypse all began.

It had all happened and started so suddenly that anyone including me wouldn't have expected it at all or was even prepared for it.

It was just a year ago that it all began.

Starting the first days when I first moved into this city, thinking that this place might be the chance I'm looking to have a normal life.  Me finding and living a simple apartment, searching and working in a normal job and so on as normal and simple like that.

But I didn't know that everything was going to change.

Just go to the beginning.

And you'll understand.

*****

Eden finished writing, put her pen aside and then flipped to the first pages again, reading the first entries once more before the candle goes out and she goes to sleep peacefully for another night.

Her mind wandered off as she read her first written entries again, remembering those times.

*****

A YEAR AGO BEFORE APOCALYPSE

Eden was so happy that she felt like screaming with joy as she finally putting the last storage box into the storage room inside her new and cheap apartment she's now living in, after moving into the metropolitan city.

She looked around at her space which is already filled with furniture and stuff and decently made up in a simple homely appearance.

She was happy at this kind of simple set-up for she isn't like most people who wanted to decorate in a fancy or messy way.

Once she double-checks everything and saw that everything is all fixed up and fitted to her satisfaction, she went straight towards her desk where a newly-bought big book is at the top and a new pen is there beside it.

She opened it, almost caressing her new personal item like it's a treasure and then started writing on the first blank page.

*****

JOURNAL ENTRY: 1ST DAY, 1ST MONTH JANUARY, 2XXX

Hi! This is Eden, the new owner, and writer of this new journal.

I just moved here into the metropolitan city.  But I will not write here exactly where and who I am, because if ever I lost this book somewhere in the city whenever and wherever I bring it along, I'd rather not have some stranger find out even if it's a kind Samaritan one or something.

There are plenty of other journals in the world obviously, so it's not a loss that I lost this one, even if it's like a diary to me.

It's not like I don't care if someone did read what's inside it since it's just some random stuff I write in here about what I'm doing in my life, what my thoughts are and venting out my frustrations.

Anyway, I'm getting a little sidetracked.

I just found and moved into a new apartment, it's simple and luckily cheap.  And it's in a good neighborhood where I don't have to worry about coming home late at night and worry about some gangsters that are going to be roaming about the streets.

Not that I don't know whether there are in this city I moved in.  But I hope there aren't some here.

Seriously, all I want and wish for in my life is a quiet and peaceful normal life for once.

Since the beginning when I was a kid, my whole life has been noisy, hectic and a complete mess with me being someone used something like a punching bag verbally or used as an outlet from my own family's frustrations.

Don't get me wrong. I love my family and I do really.

But for once in the former past of my life, would it be nice for them to at least not try to use me as a verbal punching bag for almost all my life?

I have ignored them or tuned them out whenever they talked bad to me as if I didn't do anything good in my life, since my high school, college and now my first ex-job days.

Hey, all I want is just normal life.  That's it.

Simply put, it's not like I want to go anywhere if I had super-high grades or anything.

I don't want to be one of those people looking for supreme and high-end rich jobs that will provide so much for me and my family.

That's not me at all.

Sure, my whole family has been medium-poor in a way of sorts.  But it's not like we're about to go homeless so soon.

That's just me sounding a bit selfish for myself but I'm telling the truth here.

Anyway, I finally had enough and when I secretly saved enough money for myself, I left my family behind without looking back except leaving a simple note and then moved away to this city so that I can firmly become a sole independent.

Most of my life, I have been doing something for my life, it's just that my family didn't even consider listening to me or giving me a chance to show it.

Well, who cares about them?

As the saying goes, they'll reap what they sow when the time comes.

So right now, before I finish writing this entry.  I'm about to go to my new job, which it's only a part-time job as an office assistant in a small firm during the day and cashier at a small grocery store during the night.

Though it's part-time, I'm just content with that. I have enough money saved up for myself that's with me kept safe and hidden in cash and the one in my bank account.

I'm off to bath and get ready for work.

So stay tuned for more! (smiles, laughter)

I'm writing this in my journal to liven it up and lighten up a little.

I'll be writing my next entry and tell you how my first days go here in my new normal life at this new place.

*****

After Eden finished writing her first entry in her new book journal, she stopped and put down her pen and sighed and stretched her arms up high as if instantly tired from writing and then rotated her neck around to heal the strain she's feeling inside.

Then she turned her head to look at the curtained windows beside her and the desk she's sitting next to and slowly stood from her chair and went over to it.

Eden moved the curtains a bit, staring at the grand and beautiful view before her which is going to be usual and normal in her new life.

She wouldn't trade it for anything and if ever in the future that something goes wrong, she won't go back to her life before and keep on trying and moving forward to stay and live in the city.

Then she let the curtains fall back into covering her windows and she walked to her bathroom to shower and prepare herself for her new part-time jobs and start working in her first days living and working in the city.

Little did Eden know, it is that her whole life is going to change.

In an unexpected way that she had never expected and wasn't prepared for it.

*****

It was exactly 7 days later, right there in the same apartment at the same city Eden is living in for only a week now.

Eden came bursting through the door like a bomb just exploded from outside and she ran for cover in her apartment instantly.

She quickly slammed shut and locked the door with the double locks latched as well and she panted heavily as if she was running a long marathon.

Then Eden seemed urgent and panicked and felt like she had to write in her journal to calm herself down from what she seemed to saw or witnessed before.

*****

JOURNAL ENTRY: 7TH DAY, 1ST MONTH JANUARY, YEAR 2XXX

Holy Mary Mother herself and Jesus Christ himself too!

Sorry, I wrote this so suddenly that I couldn't help but do it.

I'm sure you're wondering why I'm suddenly writing and looking a bit frantic in this entry.

Well, something happened that I didn't expect it at all and I'm pretty sure that the people aren't as well when they saw the news and heard stories and rumors about it.

I don't exactly know when, where and how it happened.

But it did so suddenly that I wasn't even prepared for it.

This is how it all started in the beginning.

I'm writing it all here in my journal.

The first days of the apocalypse.

*****

*****

I am alone.
In a Zombie Apocalypse.
I'm on a self-journey to find more survivors or trying to find a safe place.
Or I'm just living through it and surviving all by myself.
Listen to my story.
Listen or read about my survival.
It is all here in my SURVIVOR'S JOURNAL

*****

A lone survivor.
Since the beginning of the Apocalypse.
She survives through a hellish fallen world.
With nothing but her wits and a few skills that she has from her former normal life and learned throughout the apocalypse.
Listen to her tale.
Listen to what she has gone through in her survival through everything and how she managed to stay alive.
Listen or Read her SURVIVOR'S JOURNAL.

*****

"How long have you been alone?"

"Since the very beginning."

"How did you survive by yourself?"

"Nothing.  Nothing but with just my wits and a few skills and smarts that I have learned throughout everything."

"I'm surprised you're even sane and alive for so long and being alone."

"Oh, I'm not alone.  I have my journal."

*****
(Author's Note: This is a fictional story.  It is not based in real life at all.)

" My father was crazy about exploring the continent and traveling around. He wrote about the plants, animals and all living forms of life he could find out information about. At that time we were still a happy family." A tiny smile appeared on his face. But as it appeared, it quickly was exchanged with sadness.

" Mother and I traveled around the country together with him. We were neither poor or rich. We had some gain for his researches as the past King gave him money to send all the information he gathered. Like that we were quite supported by the kingdom. He would write down about all the specimens on our way. Some new arts or new lifeforms he would collect and send to the King. The Palace had more people like my father that liked observing such things. Sigh..." 
He traveled around the cities and small settlements, mountains, hills, forests, visited seaside and lakes. And that all together with his parents. That time was happiest in his life.
 His mother never complained about the way of living. She learned how to live from little and from simple lifestyle. Her cooking at the beginning was horrible, but when she saw her husband eating her half-burned buns as they were something most delicious thing he ever ate, she promised herself to learn real cooking.
So with time her skills became so good that even the King, that visited them one day, asked her to become a cook in the Palace. But she looked at her husband and respectfully gave up on that. " Sire, if I come with you, this person will probably starve to death. He forgets even what time of the day it is. Once I went to visit a friend for a day, he forgot to eat what I prepared and only when I came back he ate. What would happen if I am not around him longer than that? "
The King smiled at that time looking at the loving couple. " I understand. Stay by his side. I spoke to nobles and they accepted my proposal to give you noblesse name. What do you think of Williams? From today you are Sir and Lady Williams of Green Cap. I think you will like it there. Its small place, but I am sure you will able to live there comfortably." 
He explained to them that nobles accepted that as Green Cap was a mysterious place that not many people far d to live as it had many strange creatures. Sir Williams smiled brightly as he looked at his wife for confirmation. 
Actually, she was the one in the house that took care of everything and gave orders around. Even he listened to her as he realized how smart she really is in many things she did. She patted his hand and with smile agreed. He turned his shiny eyes at the startled King. 
" Sire, we accept your proposal. We shall go to that place and become part of the people you could count on. 
 He scrambled to say something, anything, as his head was already in the treasure hunt for new species. To think he could do better research on species made him already ally fuzzy. He already had all kinds of plans he could do while his wife shook her head with a big smile.
" Sigh, thank you, Sire, for giving us such an amazing present. I'm really sorry about his words, the moment he can research something his mind gets off track and then he just mutters unrelated stuff. Thank you..." She bowed deeply in front of her King that gave her family stable security. So she thought. If she knew that at that time even the King didn't have an idea about the things that were there...
The transfer to the place they should live, took them almost five weeks. In the dawn of the day, they arrived at a picturesque place. They passed huge dark forest and with the first light of a day they saw beautiful place showing in front of them.
From the nearby mountain came the waterfall and the small river gave nice refreshing feeling at such hot time of year. The small river slowly wiggled between rocks and trees and connected to a beautiful lake. Near the lake was small village made of small clean houses with lots of flowers around them and they all were turned towards the lake.
As they passed last trees they could see a group of villagers waiting for them with big smiles on their face. When the caravan stopped and they descended from their carriage the villagers welcomed them happily. The older people bowed deeply and children came forward to give them bunch if flowers as welcoming gift.
" Thank you all for welcoming us. I and my wife are actually simple people. Please be comfortable with us and if there is something we could help with, we will try to do so. Of course, accept going to King and ask for anything from the nobles. Sigh... I  just small noble and have no power, but I still hope we can live happily from now on together."
He hugged his wife and son while he spoke humbly. Actually, the villagers were bit worried that the kingdom would send them one of those pretentious and crazy nobles. But seeing this simple and humble man made them like this family even more.
One the older woman came forward and bowed in from of them. " Welcome to our small village. We are simple people. All we want yo live is a peaceful, happy and healthy life. We don't look for riches. As long we have enough food on the table and roof over our heads, we are happy. As you can see, we live near the sea. It gives us enough fish to eat and we dry some, sell some. We have fields that give us enough food. So we are happy. We left you enough good land for you and your people. I hope you will like your place." 
She looked at the small family and couple soldiers that were sent by the King to help them settle in the village and go back. They didn't have any servants or helpers. The old woman sighed and looked at a few young people and with motion if her eyes they rushed to help out. 
As they took their packages out the carriage and wore them to a nearby house, they realized that these nobles were seriously simple people that had only basic stuff in their bags. That made them feel a bit sorry for them and pushed themselves to open their heart even more towards new owners of this place. 
The new owners seem to be simple and kind people, luckily...

After Kendra Johnson lived her life under great difficulties she finally died and thought that was it.
But the fate made bet with her. 
She awakened in the body of a weak child that was close to dying. Should she take a chance and live this life with full breath?
Even tho the body was weak, but the mind of the person that already lived a full life.
''I will make my wishes come true.''
''I will travel the world and explore the continents.''
''I can understand all the languages? Great with me I don't need a damn translator.''
''I need money so let's dive to the depths of the ocean and look for 1000 years old pearls.''
There is this man who can't let go. 
There is the other who thinks he is important.
There are many birds and bees.
''But what I want is just travel around and one day find a quiet spot and enjoy my life.''
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This  IS original. 

NOT a translation. 

I planned to give you chapters that are long but ended up short. Why? Because it is paid by word count and the long chapters became too expensive.

.Should I change it? let me know :)

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For music, I often hear ---
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCjzHeG1KWoonmf9d5KBvSiw

"Blow the candles...."
"Happy birthday sweetie....."
"Your finally old enough now..."
Ana woke up from her dream of the year before. The first things she saw were the family portrait that hung from her wall. It was a simple family of 5, a dad mom 2 boys and a girl. She was the oldest among her siblings. She smiled and thought that nothing felt better to her than feeling like she's the oldest among her brothers.
She looked to her side before getting up and she sneered when a flash hit her eyes.
"Here we go again!"
The next was something she had happen to her every year before at first she was happy with the thought that her parents were there every time she woke up and sang her a happy birthday song. But in the recent years she would feel like disappearing. What bother her the most was her birthday because of a reoccuring dream that she had, everything and everyone she knew was gone on the same day that she used to think she felt special. She was scared for this day to come and the dream would come true along with it. 
She knew it was just a dream but she couldn't shake off the feeling of it becoming true. In her dream the only things she saw was her father passing away first. After that her mother became a living nightmare like the one she used to have in the past the one thing she was truly afraid of as a child and the one person she tried to protect her brothers from. The only things she cared about and the reason why she was living was for the her brothers. It has been a responsibility tought to her but she took it as a habit while growing up. But seeing them care for each other even though she would earn not much respect from her for the fact that she was a girl.
At the present moment her mother was there different from what she remembers and different from what she dreamed of... completely different. Her mother was the one that she always hoped for as a child. And there she was singing happy birthday along with the rest of the family. They sang it twice 2 different languages their native and the one that all English people knew of. 
Ana's mother was the reason why Ana was sent to therapy for being mentally sick at the age of 5. Ana does not remember much of her life as a child. The reason for this was because she got into an accident where she was at a party and was supposedly drugged after that she pretty much forgot every thing about her self. She would have constant dreams of herself doing things such as killing and of other people she never meet in her life. She read somewhere in a book that when you dream about people it's because you saw them once in your life before.
Now she sees her mother who now is growing older as she watches she children grow. A loving father who tried to protect her and teach her anything he could so she can learn and use for life. 2 Younger brothers who don't give a dam about things at times. She had a family she had to be thankful for at least that.
It was 1 more...
It was 1 more year to live. 
1 More year to remember. 
1 more year to change with them completely. 
And 1 more year to smile about....

"Not everything in your teen age years are the same as others."

"I know that now... Now go back from where you came from I never want to see you again. If I knew this would have happened I would have never accepted what happened ever since that day."

"You have to understand!"

"ME? UNDERSTAND YOU?!? CAN YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND ME?! GO BACK TO BEING DEAD LIKE YOU WERE AN HOUR AGO!"

"in The fifteen seconds we spoke what have you understood?"

"That in fifteen seconds you've destroyed me in almost everything that I have built, In fifteen seconds you've made me question everything I've seen, in fifteen seconds you've made me question my existence..... Confusion, that is what I have understood from you."

~~~~~~

Ana enters as a normal teen age but until she finds out everything she dreams soon becomes true and the person who she thought she was is false. But when erased memories come back she believes that there would be no other way to move on except to be the strongest and facing it on.
Soon Ana makes discoveries of the life she used to have before those memories were gone. She meets with someone who she recognizes and had no idea the dead were in fact still alive. 

Annie is a top ranked professional killer who is payed to kill people. She lost her reason to live when she forgot who she was. "As a professional killer I have no emotions and there is only life and death in the eyes there is no difference because nothing would become of us in the after life. You pay for your crimes and learn to live life properly in you'r new one." bang. When Annie lost her memories she could remember she had a full family. complete yet she still felt like things were missing. 

Aaron is in an adopted rich class family involved with the mafia he knows his past and is trying to get every chance to escape and go back to where he belongs in a normal family. But he does not want to take the position for the fact that he wants to return to the family that he once had.

August was sold to the government for some reason that August still does not understand till this day. He's been locked up in a cage cell like a lab rat for way too long all he knows is that there is a place that he has to be to and that there will be a chance where he can escape.


When Ana, Annie, Arron, and August meet under critical circumstances will they help each other for the better and try to have a complete family or just continue to over come their past?

The dream catcher that has been for past 7 years in my room suddenly broke!
I guess it realised that my dreams are gonna crash and that now I have to stop dreaming and accept the reality!
It was midnight...I ran away from my home...I kept running into the darkness..those voices behind me, trying to stop me, I could hear them but I didn't want to hear them so I kept ignoring them and kept running! Running away from truth!
My legs gave way and I found myself engulfed with darkness but you know what in that darkness I found solace!
I couldn't see anything and I was contented cause now I don't have to see my reality!

You know what hurts the most?
-When you give your all to please that person and in return you only get betrayal!
-When you showered him with all your love and he acted along!
-When you were so busy making place in his heart that you lost your real self!
-When you cried and spent those long dreadful nights without his shoulder!
-When you needed him the most and he would be there for everyone, but you!
-When you realised you wanna get out of this darkness but this darkness is engraved in your heart and you can't ever come out!
Cause I realised only this darkness will be always with me! I don't want any ray of light who'll come and go...
I'll find my nyctophilia!
I'm Irana. I'm 21 and I'm single and happy. I live alone in Busan, Korea. I'm half Korean and half Japanese. My mom is from Tokyo. My family lives in Toyama. I'm living in Busan since past three years and I'm doing my majors in Psychology. I'm an atheist and I'm also Philophobic. So basically I don't believe in God neither do I in love. I was always distant with my parents since I was a child. I come from a wealthy family and I do believe that my looks are enough to make any normal guy fall for me. I know my limits. I also know my potentials very well but I never tried to go beyond my limits. I never worked hard to strive anything. I was a good student and I believe if I would have worked a little more than my potential I would have topped my High School but I never tried that hard. I made my life as simple as possible. I never wanted any thrill or adventures. I just wanted to live a simple life. My parents were also happy with my good performance so they never pestered me. Though one thing that I really enjoyed doing was watching K-dramas and loving BTS. Yes, I'm half Korean of course I'll have to love K-pop and BTS!
I did my High Schooling from Tokyo itself and I studied in an all- girls school. Till I was 17 I really never cared about my life. I was fine with my simple, peaceful life until the day that person appeared...

Irana, a 21 year old woman who was born and brought up in Japan, and is currently studying in Korea. She becomes philophobic(doesn’t believes in love). Since childhood she has transferred several schools and had very less friends. When her dad gets transferred to Toyama, she was 16 and gets admitted to an all-girls school. Find out what happens in this new school and what made her sick of love and true friendship. Is she ready to accept her reality? 

If you’re a BTS fan you’ll get a glimpse of them in this story too. 

I publish stories on MangaToon as well! This novel is updated there also.

Yun Yan lived an ordinary life in the backwater city near the borders of Long Kingdom.
There she started her life anew and became a healer.
Since she was living at a subpar border of a kingdom, Yu Yan was the only healer available in that place.
So she always had a lot of customers ranging from all ages.
That is why it didn't take long for her to make a name for herself.
With half a year of effort, she already became a famed healer.
Her named resounded throughout the entire borders and the neighboring cities. To the point that even soldiers and generals seek her help.
Due to her extraordinary ability as well as her good looks, many have tried all kinds of tricks just to win her fancy, but to no avail.
There was even a time when those who used to be her patients all ended up bringing their own injury upon themselves.
Just to get a chance to be with her more often
Many aspiring young men tried to get her attention in every way possible, but no one won her heart.
The young Yu Yan back then can't see herself loving any other man aside from Yin Shun.
Despite the number of suitors that she had, she still can't help but feel cold and empty inside.
Until after a year or so, he met a young general named Mu Jianjun.
That time, Mu Jianjun was heavenly wounded due to the recent fight that he had with the rebels in the border.
It was their first time meeting each other but for some reason, both parties felt a spark ignited between them as soon as their eyes met
That spark eventually turned into a fire that burned the passion within their hearts.
Yu Yan took care of Mu Jianjun until he fully healed. During those time that they were together, the two find many common similarities between them
As time continues to dragged on, Mu Jianju's and Yu Yan's heart became closer to one another . Until one day, the two officially started dating.
It took more than three years for Mu Jianju to fully recover from his injury.
But if he could just choose to stay injured for his entire life, he would probably glad to choose that option.
Because once he fully recovers from his injury, he will have no choice but to go back to the palace
Mu Jianju is general and he cannot stay at the borders just because he wanted to.
He has to report back to the royal family and fulfill his duty and responsibility as a general
But Mu Jianju cannot bear to leave Yu Yan in the borders.
So Mu Jianju thought about asking for Yu Yan's hand in marriage and bringing her back to the Mu Clan residence to meet his family.
He wanted to start his own family there with Yu Yan as his other half.
Yu Yan who already moved on from her past relationship and was already living a happy and contented life with her newfound love agreed readily.
The Mu Clan accepted Yu Yan wholeheartedly to their family despite not knowing anything about her
Only Mu Jianjun knows about her identity as a sorceress.
Because Yu Yan told him about it before coming with him.
Including the fact that she is not just a simple sorceress. Because apparently, Yu Yan was also in line to inherit the position of the sect leader of Silver Arrows.
The family where Yu Yan came from is not ordinary. She was a direct descendant of the fallen deity, Lilith. Who happens to be the first sect leader of Silver Arrows.
Ins short, aside from being a talented sorceress, she is also a soon to be sect leader of a powerful sect
And aside from that, she also had a fallen deity as an ancestor.
There was a blood of a deity that was flowing within her. It was for this same reason that she has a healing hand like that of a deity.
The entire Mu clan accepted Yu Yan readily without knowing any of this.
Seeing as how she was able to make their young master Jianjun happy was enough for them to accept her.
The Mu's did not have a hard time accepting her as a new member of their family.
After all, Yu Yan was simply too charming to begin with. To the point that people find it hard to hate her.
Wherever she goes, people tends to accept her. But Yu Yan's talent on Elixir Making help her a lot in establishing her position within the Mu Clan.
Because she was good at concocting medicinal brew, the emperor noticed her.
That leads the Mu Clan to start dealing business with the royal family. It did not take long for the two families to eventually become good friends.
After a year of living together, Yu Yan and Mu Jianjun finally had their first child.
It was a bouncing baby boy, and they named him Mu Gaoyan. Mu Lingxi's older brother. Then after another couple of years, Yu Yan got pregnant again.
That is when Mu Ligxi was brought into existence to complete their one big happy family.
Mu Lingxi's parents lived a happy married life. But happy moments are always short-lived.
Because one day, the warlock that was abandoned by his lover came knocking on their door to get his revenge.
It was no other than, Schoolmaster Yin.
He was so devastated when Yu Ya left him. He had been searching for her in every place possible but to no avail.
It took him a decade of effort before he finally caught winds of the news of Yu Yan's whereabouts.
As soon as he heard Yu Yan was living at a city near the border of the Long Kingdom, he came looking for her right away 
He searched every city within the border of the Long Kingdom only to find out that Yu Yan was already married to a young general named, Mu Jianjun.
This broke Schoolmaster Yin's heart into a thousand pieces. It hurt even more than when Yu Yan left him without giving him a proper explanation.
Never did he imagine that the woman that he loved the most will eventually end up falling in love with someone else.
That is when he thought that the reason why Yu Yan eventually went missing and left him all alone in Magus Academia is that she wanted to elope with that young general.
It never comes to him that Yu Yan left him because of his clandestine research
Schoolmaster Yin's heartbreak turned into hatred and savagery for he felt cheated.


What will you do if you suddenly wake up as another person after you die???

What will you also do if you realized that your pet, cat, started talking to you???
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This is the story of Mu Lingxi, a hopeless romantic teenage girl from the 21st century who transmigrated to another world after falling to her death. Together with her little black cat Janus, she began to traverse an unfamiliar world where warlocks and sorceress exist.

Due to a few unexpected turns of events, she ended up being engaged with a prince.
But she strongly believes in Queen Elsa's words before from the movie FROZEN,
"You cannot marry a man you just met once!"
and this was why she highly objected to the marriage arrangement.
She even chose to cross dress just to hide her identity!

On her journey to learn the way of magic, she got herself entangled with five young handsome men. Together they will venture the world of magic, love, and friendship.

"Living in a place different from where I came from, how will I survive???

How could a hopeless romantic girl like me cope up with a life surrounded by five beautiful young men???

Will I be able to hide my true identity until the end??"

"MEOW~"
[Oh c'mon, little lass. Why are you asking yourself that??? You sound so rhetoric....
It's not for you to say, but for them to find out by themselves]
*Janus winked to the readers out there*



P.S.
Pic's not mine...Credits to the owner.

Was Kiba actually expecting every woman to be brainwashed by Theresa? The answer was plain no. He was not even expecting a single woman to actually fall for what others considered here as corrupting the innocent minds. 
Sure, everyone now was overwhelmed by Theresa's twisted logic, the change in the environment, and the mental experience of an intense climax. But that was nowhere enough for seduction, much less seduction on such a massive scale.
Then what was Kiba expecting from it? Why did he transfer the business card of Maiden's Love Circle in Shawn's chosen stone earlier?
The reason was rather simple. 
In psychology terms, it was stretching the mind to new dimensions. Or in simple words: putting a spark so that later it can be turned into a flame when conditions are right. In more simple words, it was foundation building to new thoughts.
From time unknown, this simple method has been used by politicians, religions, cults, and godmen. 
What this method did was rather very simple. It expanded the horizons of the target and made them more open-minded for a particular topic.
But open-mind to be seduced easily? Nope. Presently, everyone was psychologically overwhelmed but soon, their rationale mind would activate and find loopholes in the logic. Multiple logics would fight each other for supremacy
Furthermore, it was impossible to actually overpower the conditioning one has undergone from birth in a matter of minutes...
As for how everyone was on the beach instead of Antique Stone Garden. Well, they were still in the store. 
The current environment was an illusion cast by Kiba.
To be precise, it was Mindscape Materialisation. 
Kiba could overwhelm the six senses of others with his psyche and make them experience what he wanted.
Presently, he used Mindscape Materialisation to enhance the holographic recordings in the crystal card in order to bring out an absolute illusion. He gave life to Theresa's character based on what he knew about her.
Alongside, he used mental inducement. It could bring innate desires to the flesh just like an illusion to the reality. This was why every woman beside Ashlyn experienced a mind-numbing climax for a moment.
They wanted to experience, or at least know the orgasm Theresa spoke about and the Mindscape Materialisation gave it to them. 
A mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions...
***
On the beach, everyone looked at Theresa. They were spellbound to her bizarre words no matter how outlandish they were. They have to give her credit of being creative while discussing a taboo topic.
"The men who proclaim to love us considerer as us nothing more than a hot ass. But are we not living beings? Don't we deserve equal pleasure? Or are we dolls created to serve the needs of man?"
Her eyes were on the females. With a kind smile, she decided to use the soft approach and said, "A woman on the true path to womanhood is no different from other women. If there is a difference, it is only that they are more demanding about their happiness. Surely, caring about your own happiness is no sin."
She then turned towards the men.
"Love without jealousy and you will know true happiness," Theresa said to them. "A strong relationship based on true love would allow your partner to experience all her fantasies and joys. Support her and allow her to experience the ultimate pleasure.
"Don't forget what we know about love... Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."
Men: "......................................."
You bitch! 
What type of nonsense you are saying now?! You actually want us to encourage our women and tell them it is fine if they seek happiness elsewhere?!
Dixon was fuming. Earlier, he thought she was just targetting maidens and young women but now her words were targetted to every woman.
He saw his wife contemplating Theresa's words with a thoughtful expression.
Damn! Please focus only on young women! Don't corrupt my wife!
Dixon has never thought himself to be that bad in bed. He believed he was an attentive husband and a good lover who always took care of his wife's needs. He refused to believe his wife was in the 60% of women who have never enjoyed the true pleasures of the flesh.
Most men in a serious committed relationship thought the same. While they knew many women faked orgasms so that her companion's male ego was not hurt, they refused to believe their woman was one of them.
"I'm overthinking this!" A middle-aged man who has arrived in the forest with his wife thought. "This woman is messing with my mind! I'm good in bed!!"
Most men had confidence in their stable relationships where they trusted each other. After all, if there was no absolute trust, they wouldn't rely on each other in a dangerous land known as Desolate Blood Forest.
But Theresa's words were like seeds. This was why many of them were afraid the seeds of corruption would germinate in the future.
"Everyone knows that a male body is made to climax in the shortest time. Men with good stamina and lasting power are rare. Do you want to take chances in the probability that your boyfriend is one of those rare ones and experience a disaster first time? Is this what you want? A bad memory to last forever...
"Or perhaps, you want to evolve and be a woman you were born to be. A woman who is tired of living a life others want her to be and now live in her own ways.
"Remember, the older you get, the more you realize it is okay to live a life others don't understand."
The single women and even those who were in not committed relationships looked at Theresa with respect and awe. 
Living life like there was no tomorrow. Defy the patriarchal society and live for your own happiness...
This resonated with every woman. In their lives, at one time or another, they have faced discrimination. It could be either from their own family or society which considered them as inferior to men. They were subtly made to believe their happiness didn't deserve equal considerations.
"From centuries, society has tried to divide us women through conflicts that never mattered," Theresa explained. "But the era has changed. It is time we women unite and seek what we want. We have to awaken our female companions from the conditioning."
Theresa's eyes momentarily arrived on Amy as she continued, "And how can you help? By having an open discussion and being open-minded. Start with yourself... discuss with your own soul: Are you happy and content with things as they are?"
Amy was stunned and taken aback.
She wondered why Theresa looked at her and then thought of her fiance. She glanced at Shawn and recalled his behavior from the time they met Kiba and Ashlyn.
"Am I happy?" Amy was lost in thoughts.
The men were dumbfounded. They could neither understand Theresa's twisted mind nor catch the strange flow of conversation. At one moment, she was aggressive while another moment soft.
"So rise and become the woman you were destined to be," Theresa once again started speaking. "Rest assured, you are not alone. Maiden's Love Circle is there to help you."
"Help?" Sheena looked at her.
"Yes, to make your first and subsequent experiences so magical that you will remember them fondly," Theresa said with a smile. 
The moment she said this, waves of psychic energy swept out. Except for Ashlyn, the waves of psychic energy invaded every female's consciousness and gave them a glance to what Maiden's Love Circle has to offer.
They saw themselves in the adventures of a lifetime based on their own secret dreams...
Retreats at luxury hotels while enjoying the lush of nature. Dancing and drinking in clubs like there was no tomorrow. Swimming in large, crystal-clear pools. Having the best cuisine the money could buy.
Then there were misty peaks, gorgeous sunsets, and exotic forests. Beach hut, feasting on exotic fruits and exploring impossibly beautiful lagoons.
But that was not it. 
Every scene was accompanied by a man. His face was not visible but the rest of his body was. He was tall, lean and shirtless.
He was blessed with an awe-inspiring body that has six pack abs, powerful shoulders, sculpted arms, and a healthy glow.
In every scene, he would share adventures with the woman. They would dance, drink, dine, explore and enjoy without any worry. Every action of his was for the happiness of her. He was devoted to her needs and cared for her like she was his goddess. Between each activity, they would kiss and caress each other before stopping and giggling.
He would desire her, lust after her and worship her. A treatment every gorgeous woman deserved.
And finally, when they were alone, they would engage in an activity that made her smile in joy and scream in pleasure... 
He would explore every corner of her body in the way she craved with intent, intensity, ingenuity, and indecency.
Amy saw herself in the middle of a lush, emerald vegetation. She was under a large tree and breath in the exotic scents of vanilla, coconuts, herbs, and flowers. In this lovely environment, he would take her in the way she has wanted her first time to be.
Water droplets fell from the leaves and landed on her bare skin as they embraced each other...
"Ah!" Amy awoke with a start. 
The actual act was not carried out in the dreamy scene but she felt hot blood flushing her face and turning her cheeks into a deep shape of crimson.
"Maiden's Love Circle," Theresa said with a warm smile. "We make you feel alive and grateful for the miracle of life."


In the age of mutants and technology, everyone is after power and eternal life, but Kiba lives for his dreams of lust and vanity.

A man on a mission to live the life to the fullest. 

The tale of the legendary Wife Hunter whose very name terrifies husbands around the globe.

This is the story of the devil who does as his heart pleases, unafraid of the labels of good and evil.

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Fan synopsis:

Entangled in the schemes of two-faced government, a futuristic divided world, and a holy mission of his own, follow Kiba's journey of sins!

(Note: The starting 20 chapters are very short and slow paced. The main story starts from the 30s so please give it a try till then ^_^  You can rest assured the novel has a good plot besides the R-18 elements ^.^)

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One upon a time !!  ( I know cliché  ) 
there was a girl named Grace , and a boy named Ethan.  Totally different from one another , one rebellious ,free and wild while another quite , intelligent and sophisticated . 

 Doesn't this sounds like a very regular story . A story with the same focus " opposites attracts " . Surely it does . But what made Their love story different was the beauty of this girl . She was beautiful inside out . Too bad for the world which depicted a girl with spectacles , simple clothes ,  rosy cheeks , round face , hazel eyes , red lips and light brown hair as ugly , not attractive , out of the clique society .  Why ?  Because she wore spectacles , was introvert , has less friends , was a topper and had highest IQ in her continent.  Surely people judge by outward appearance and fails to notice the inner worth . 

The biggest question in the world was - how this innocent creature was surviving in the evil world and was still contented with her life , smiling as ever , who could kill her own happiness ( and had done it several times ,) for her maternal uncle , and aunt . At the age of 7 she suffered a heavy loss . A loss which turned her whole future upside down . A loss which no child could even imagine to happen . 

 She lost her parents  in a car accident . 
While her mother promised her to bring something for her daughter from the neighbouring continent , on their way back  - they gave her the biggest trauma of her life .  This little child was in so much emotional , mental agony that upon seeing the dead bodies for the last visit before funeral ,  not a single tears escaped her eyes . 

 She just saw the lifeless , frozen , stone like bodies of her beloved parents Infront of her eyes  , those parents which were once alive , happy , who use to  laugh with her , play  with her , was everything for her . 
She just stared , without even blinking her eyes , as if seen a ghost .  She touched her mother's hair with her tiny fingers , she tangled her father's hand into hers at the last moment . But Even at the time of funeral and thereafter , no one saw her crying , but only saw the frozen state of a 7 year old Grace .  The relatives  called the doctor.  The doctor informed that they have to somehow make her cry because then it will develop into a mental illness or she might go into a state of shock . She had to release her emotions .

 The relatives , the doctor,  all tried their level best  but much to their dismay , no success they got . She never cried for the death of her parents uptil now . Though she started having minor panic attacks after that horrific incident .

 Anyone's life will turn into a living hell at the death of his/ her parents while the only relatives,  the ' not so upright '  maternal uncle and aunty , gets the child's legal custody. 
Grace 's life  became a living hell all the more  by the Grace of her uncle and aunt , and their attitude towards her . 

 They never respected Grace's parents . Called them family but never once meant them  truely 
While Grace's parents being as good and innocent as her always supported them , gave them room to live in , shared their money , happiness everything with them till they established themselves, only to see this day from heaven above that how much they cared for Grace . Grace 's custody was a burden on them . 

So here Grace was - living her innocent 12 years in  the smallest room of the house with least accomodities . 

Still one could find her smiling all these years , grateful to God for giving them,  maternal uncle and aunt who gave her a place to live , who became her 2 nd parents for her . She loved them . Loved them with nothing but purity in her heart . She helped her aunt in kitchen , helped her cousin sister in homework , dad in computer applications . For her they were their family . That was her home . They were her parents , and her life was to give happiness to them in any way possible . 

Who can we blame for such a pure , innocent nature of this girl !!! Her parents who always lived an upright life or God who made her like that ? 
Surely this world is made up of angles and demons .  And according to the Morden world  , she was seen as the most stupid person in the world . 
 
A beautiful , innocent stupid girl who believed that she was lucky . That she was happy .

What happens when a girl is abandoned at the church by his own fiance just because she is  not pretty!!!      

 It's not just a story of eternal love but also   eternal pain which revolves around the life of a simple girl    Grace   , a freak, failure  for the world but an exceptional,  extraordinary human being from  within , and a boy   Ethan , totally a jock , wild ,  popular bad boy for the world , but a caring understanding person within .

Both are misunderstood !! 

Both are opposites !! 

What happens when the opposite ends of the world meets !! When Ethan shows Grace the way to live not just survive as she is ignored , tourchered , and is an unwanted entity  for people in her life .
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