Where I Express myself about how I thought things in life.

A year later.....

It's late December, I took 2 weeks off to visit Tiere at Jakarta, staying at her apartment. Tiere told me she loves her job and she made a lot of money. I'm so happy that I let her chase her dreams. And I, I finally got to work at my dream game company, was accepted right after a month dating Tiere. She's like a lucky charm to me.

The sun shining through the open curtain, I woke up before the alarm start beeping. I turned it off once it rang cause it's Sunday, I leaned forward looking at the peaceful looks of Tiere while she's sleeping, drooling on her pillow, greasy hair, and her messy waterproof makeup, did she forget to wash her face or? I use my thumb to wipe her eye –shadow but I didn't make it, for me she's always beautiful, my lips lifted upward I feel warm in my heart as it beats faster cause I realize how much I love her. Somehow it's so calming and my heart is melting. I leaned my head forward again, kiss her lips once and she pouted. "I want to sleeeppppp" she said, tossing her body to the other side. I laid back on the bed, hug her from behind. 

"Good morning, my dear" I whispered. I heard her sniffing smiles. Then my phone ruined my Sunday. 

drrrttt drrttt drrttt

I sit up to catch my phone, my mom's picture popped up. DAMN! SHE IS VIDEO CALLING ME RIGHT NOW? I LIED TO HER! But it's okay, I am 24 years old. BUT NO, JUST PRETEND I'M IN THE HOTEL.

I click the green button soon as my mom's face close up-ly appeared. I was kind of shock, my heart start pumping fast, throbbing behind my ribs, it's going to crack soon.

"Hii.. Mom" my jaw turns rigid. 

"Hey, so, you're at Jakarta?" my mom asked, still smiling.  

I nod my head, "Yes"

"Huh.. it's so hard to ask you to come to Miami, but when it is about Tiere, you arrived soon as she asked" 

I told my mom about Tiere and my mom was so happy about it. I don't know she used to ship me with Tiere since grade –school. I don't understand my mom sometimes. 

"Mom..." I rolled my eyes. 

"So where's she?"

"She is beside me..ups" I covered my mouth, DAMN! MY MOM PURPOSELY SHIFT MY CONCENTRATION.

Her smile disappeared, her face turned scary. THIS IS THE END OF MY LIFE!

"HAA!! YOU!!! Bastard! You slept with TIERE?? YOU DARE LIED TO ME?? YOU WANNA GET MARRIED SOON, HUH?" 

"Momm.. mom... listen" like usually....

Then, how about Caroline and the flowers?

Back to that time.

Once I've done my confessions towards Tiere, I walked back to my car light –heartedly. I feel happy and relieved at the same time. 

drrrtt drrttt

It's Caroline. Oh, I really forgot about her! I was kinda shock.

"Ryan.. where the hell are you?"

"Caroline.. I'm so sorry to say this. But, I think I'd like to stay with Tiere cause I love her" I said as I scratched my forehead, I know I sound like a total jerk but this is for the best.

"What???" she moaned and hung up the phone, before I even explain. 

Then the florist got to call me. 

"Hello, Giany's florist here. Am I talking with Mr.Valerian?"
 "Hello, miss florist. The bouquet and the chocolate box, sorry.. my girlfriend just left the town, so I'm giving that package for you. Thankyou!"

It turned her speechless, maybe I sound pathetic but not too pathetic that makes her confused. Ah, not a big deal.

That's how I deal with my puppy lover and the first roses I bought.

-Bonus Chapter End-

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So here's a little throwback of the story and the specific descriptions of the character: 

Ryan (Valerian) : a tall nerd guy, he used to be thin, but he did some work out. He has a dark hair color and a pair of glasses but just in some times since he plays computer a lot. Sometimes he doesn't put any glasses while on date. Well, he is kind of good looking back in High School, just very thin so nobody noticed them, like he is nearly invisible. Ryan is from a very rich family too, but he is simple, so nobody has ever realized it. 

Tiere : a nerd girl who tends to be so active, and talkative. She has a dark past during her school time, students like to judge her, but since graduated from high school she did some improvements of her both appearance and her image that makes her prettier in the present time. But nah, in the past time, she is kind of retarded. Her family isn't that rich, but her mom's new husband and her dad's new wife are billionaires. But Tiere won't take a cent from them. She is tough. 

Caroline : she is one of the queen bees gang in their school. But she is the most normal among the others, I mean.. she is kinda study a lot rather than hanging out and shopping, even though she does a lot of shopping too. She is from a very rich family, that's why people like to cling into her. Nowadays people.

Calvin : Tiere's ex –boyfriend. Son of a famous cosmetic company. Calvin and Tiere were not in the same school. They met in the pub where Tiere worked at. That time, Calvin has a crush on her, and get to know her better. Tiere doesn't change because of Calvin, so don't get her wrong. She changed because she feel kinda ashamed of her past life during her school time. 

The quotes and some descriptions were inspired by descriptionari, they have tons of beautiful quotes and inspirational writings there. I develop my knowledge, learning from that website. 

The cover of the book might confused you. It is the picture of them wearing their middle school lab suit in their adult age. 

Here, I made 2 quotes for you! You can share quotes from Bestfriend With Benefits story your own in the comment section!

"You can't predict people, you can't predict love. It just came across you somehow, so you'll barely realize it"

"The worst part is sometimes the best part" 

-      Bestfriend With Benefits

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(Goodbye in Bahasa Indonesia)

Halos limang minuto na ang nagdaan pagkagising, pero nakatingin na naman ako sa kisame ng kwarto ko; iniisip ang mga kung anu-anong bagay na palaging bumabagabag sakin tulad ng ano nga ba ang 'kulay' ng mga kulay? Ga'no kaya ka pula ang pula? Na, pag tungtong ko ng highschool, do'n ko lang pala malalaman na 'di limitado sa green ang kulay ng mga dahon, nakakatawa sa iba, oo, pero sa kalagayan ko, imposible talaga 'to para maging isang 'common knowledge'.  Paano, ang common kasi sa mga paningin ko ay parang kung ano ang tawag ng mga 'normal' sa mga makalumang pelikula – Black and White.
      
      Natatawa ako sa sarili ko everytime na ang mga tao, agad-agad ang description sa isang black and white na palabas, ay 'for oldies'-makaluma.     

      Basta black and white, malamang, para sa kanila, makaluma na. Yun ang trip nila e. Hayaan na lang. Kalimutan na lang. Pero 'di ko inaasahang ipapaalala sa'kin 'to ulit nang may pina-panood akong pelikula sa mga estudyante kong mga bata kahapon. 'Di naman ako naba-bother, sadyang napapaisip lang ako kung may mag-iiba ba sa akin, sa buhay ko, kung matino ang mga mata ko? Kaya ba matured akong kumilos at mag-isip ay dahil 'for-oldies' ang paningin ko? For oldies na paningin equals for-oldies na ugali. In other words, Oo, naba-bother ako. Sobra. Mahirap kasi ang maging iba sa paningin ng iba. Lalo naman sigurong mas mahirap na iba ang panigin mo kaysa sa paningin ng iba. Teka ang gulo.
      
     Pangalawang taon ko na ring nagtuturo ngayon sa isang private elementary school kasama ang best friend ko, na kapwa ko teacher. Naisip ko kasi, bilang activity sa mga bago kong hahawakang students, ipapanood ko sa kanila ang isa sa mga bumuo sa childhood ko: The Wizard of Oz, y'ung 1939 version na pinagbidahan ni Judy Garland.  Wala pa rin kasing tatalo sa original version, alam mo 'yon?

     "Kids, we will watch an old movie today. And for your activity later, you will pass a drawing of your favorite scene of the movie. You know, this movie taught me a lot of things when I was your age. I hope this goes the same with you." sabi ko na may tonong handang makipaglaro at ma-engganyo.
 
      "Okay teacher!" sagot nila na mukha namang excited sa mga mangyayari. 
       Sabay kong nanonood ang mga estudyante ko at para bang bumalik din ako sa sariling kong kabataan. Pasulyap sulyap din ako minsan at tinitignan ang mga inosenteng reaksiyon ng mga batang 'to. Nakakatuwa.
     Maya maya, sa isang eksena kung saan si Dorothy, y'ung bidang character sa pelikula, ay nakarating na sa Oz; biglang nagtaas ng kamay ang isang student ko na parang may gustong ipalinaw sa mga nakikita niya at nalilito. Naalala ko, no'ng una ko namang napanood 'to, 'di naman ako nahirapan intindihin kung ano ang nangyayari sa pelikula. Specifically, sa parte na y'un. Malinaw pa sa tubig ulan, lumabas si Dorothy sa farmhouse nila, at nakita niya na siya ay napadpad na sa ibang lugar. Klaro. Pero mabuti na rin siguro 'yan, at least may curiousity ang batang 'to.
  
      "Yes Ethan?"

      "Teacher, I thought we're watching an old movie?" 

      "Oh, yes we are. This movie was released way back, even before I was born. Why did you ask?" 
 
      "Because teacher, it's now in colors." sagot naman ng isa ko pang studyante. 
 
      "What do you mean, Annie?" tanong ko muli.

      "A while ago po kasi teacher, it's for oldies, pero now po it's colorful like my crayons po." sabay taas ng crayon box niya.
 
      "For oldies? "bulong ko sa sarili ko. Mukhang ako ang may kailangang linawin.
 
      "Opo teacher, kaya it's confusing po" sagot ni Annie
 
      "Kids, just continue watching and I'll just clarify something outside." dagdag ko.
 
      "Yes teacher!"

        Dali-dali akong tumakbo palabas ng klase ko para hanapin si Paulo, best friend at co-teacher ko. Sinuwerte naman ako, at padaan rin siya sa hallway kung saan nakapwesto ang homeroom ko. May kagat pang siopao sa bunganga ang hayop.
 
       "Teacher Paulo! Tulong nga dito." sigaw ko na mukhang kakatapos lang mag-almusal.
       "O, napano ka 'tol? May batang nanghipo sa'yo? Ganito 'yan i-demanda mo yung parents. Siopao gusto mo?" 
       "Gago, hindi p'wede 'yun, ako pa-madedemanda diyan. Ilayo mo sa aking yan. Teka! About dun sa Wizard of Oz, may tanong kasi 'yung mga bata."
 "O ano nga?" pangungulit nito.
 
      "Dun kasi sa part na lumabas na ng farmhouse si Dorothy, yung nasa Oz na siya, nalito daw yung mga bata, nung una daw 'for oldies', tapos maya maya parang 'di naman daw." pagka sabi ko n'on, mukhang alam na ni Paulo kung ano ang tinutukoy ko. 
 
     "'Di ko ma-gets ano gustong i-point ng mga bata e." pagkukunwari kong tanong sa kanya.
     "Ahh, ganito kasi 'yan 'tol, sa umpisa kasi, grayscale 'yung mga eksena sa movie; medyo mukhang black and white, parang makaluma, pero sa part na tinukoy mo, nagka-kulay na siya, tulad ng sinabi nila. E alam mo naman –bata, pag black and white pang matanda para sa kanila. Weird nila no? Hahaha!" paliwanag niya na tunog kaawa-awa ang sitwasyon ko at binawi sa isang corny na joke.
      
     "Gago."

      Bata pa lang kami, alam na ni Paulo ang kondisyon kong 'to. Iilang beses na akong napahamak, napahiya at nalungkot dahil dito. At andun siya palagi para ibaling lahat ng yun sa ngiti. Kaso puro kalokohan naman alam nun. Sakit lang ng ulo inaabot ko.  

     "Ba't ka nag-sosorry? Wala yun 'tol. Ayos lang sa'kin. Halika nga dito ikaw mag-explain sa mga bata." pakiusap ko.
 
     "I'm on it chief." sabat ni Paulo na naka salute pa.
 
      Sa tinagal tagal na ng pinagsamahan namin ni Paulo, nasanay na rin ako sa mga maka-outer space at corny niyang mga hirit. Magkapatid na nga turingan namin sa isa't isa. Since, nu'ng araw na lumipat sila ng bahay na tapat s'amin, nag-click kami instantly, seryoso ako, clown siya. Tama nga, kailangan may isang kurimaw sa mag-kakaibigan. Halata namang 'di ako yun.

      Sabagay, 'di naman kasalanan ng mga bata na wala akong ideya ano ang mga kulay. Kung meron man, pamilya lang ng puti at itim ang nakikita ko. Bulag ako, pero 'di gaano. Bulag ako sa kulay, aside from that, maayos at wasto naman ang katawan ko. 

     Ata? Ewan.
  
     Sa kondisyong ito, limitado lang ang kayang makita ng mga mata ko. 'Di ko na – enjoy simula bata ako: ang mga ulap sa isang maliwanag na panahon; Ang mga parol na kislap at kutitap lang ang nagbibigay katangian sa kanila, ang naninilaw raw na pustiso ng lola ko, ang kulay ng medyo maduming kanal, kulay ng sipon ni Paulo, at kung ano pa. 'Di ko naman hinayaang malimitihan din nito ang potensyal ko bilang tao, bilang ako, 'diba? 'Di ako nagpadala sa bigat ng kawalan ng kulay sa buhay. Literal na kulay: asul, berde, pula, lahat. 

     At least sure ako, na itim ang blackboard. 
 
     Kaya, sa tuwing na-papaisip ako kung anong…

     *Toot…Toot…Toot…Toot…*

      Unti-unti kong narealize na kanina pa pala ako nag de-daydream, nag-iisip, at 'di ko namalayan na late na pala ako.

      "Ano'ng oras na?" Tumingin ako sa phone ko na nag-alarm.
      "7:30 a.m."
      "Ugh. Oras na. Kailangan mo nang tumayo. May pasok ka pa Ren." pagpipilit ko sa sarili.

      Agad na akong tumayo at humarap sa salamin, na nasa likod ng nakasarado ko pang pinto, at tinignan ang poster na nakasabit dito, na araw-araw ko nang nakagawiang gawin. Daily ritual kumbaga. Well, 'di naman talaga daily. 
      
      Ito ay kasing laki lang ng isang long bond paper pero matibay na karton 'to. Para siyang kalendaryo pero instead na mga araw o dates, e, mga life quotes ang nakadikit.  Nakasulat sa instruction nito sa bandang itaas ng poster, simple lang naman; Ipi-pikit ko lang ang mata ko, sabay turo ng hintuturo sa kung anumang parte ng poster na'yon. Kung ano ang maturo o madikit sa hintuturo ko, 'yon ang magiging life quote ko sa araw na 'yon.

     Life quote, in terms na p'wedeng d'un umikot ang buhay o 'yung pilosopiya mo pansamantala. At pagka-napili na ang life quote na 'yon, dapat itong tanggalin, at i-peel, kasi sticker lang naman siyang nakadikit sa poster, and life goes on.
 
     Nakita ko lang ito sa isang bookstore n'ung minsang bumibili ako ng materials para sa mga teaching materials ko. Halagang 22 pesos lang naman kaya binili ko na rin, wala namang mawawala.
 
     Ngayon, halos dalawa't kalahating buwan ko na itong ginagamit, kahit nakalaan lang siya para sa isang buwan. Trentang life quotes; isa para sa bawat araw ng isang tipikal na buwan. Napasobra sa dalawang buwan kasi, medyo… medyo tinatamad akong gumamit minsan. Kesyo late na ako. Kesyo 'di ko lang ramdam. At kung ano pang katamaran ko. 
 
     Nung unang beses nga, pagkadilat ko, wala na pala sa poster 'yung daliri ko kaya kung anong pinaka malapit na quote , e 'yun ang ginamit ko. Wala namang nakakakita e. 
 
     'The only constant thing in life, is change.'
       - Chinese Philosopher
 
    Ito lang ang nag-iisang quote na natatandaan ko sa lahat ng mga ginawa kong pag pikit-pili, sa mga lumipas na pagkakataon. Maliban d'un, wala na. Ni 'di ko nga rin matandaan kung may effect nga ba y'ung quote na 'yon sa buhay ko nung araw na 'yon. Nakalimutan ko. Nag-sayang lang ba ako ng 22 pesos? Pambili rin ng overpriced na siomai sa school canteen 'yun.  Masarap pa naman.
 
 Maliban din dun 'di ko na matandaan masyado ang mga napili kong life quotes. Maybe I just didn't give much care? Pero this time,'di na ako magdadalawang isip sa araw na'to. Last quote na rin naman ng poster na'to. Tatamarin pa ba ako? Naisipan ko na rin na h'wag pumikit dahil wala na rin sense kung pipikit pa. Sino ba niloloko ko. 
 
 'Be a rainbow, in someone else's cloud.' 
    - Maya Angelou
 
 Wow. Deep. As usual, hayahay lang nararamdaman ko sa nabunot ko. Siguro dapat 'yung siomai na lang binili ko. Pero kahit papano, nakaramdam naman ako ng sense of accomplishment. Achievement na rin, ata. Pero sa wakas, natapos din ang isang poster nato. Wala ng obligasyon para dito. Kung uulitin ko 'to, 'di ako sigurado. Para kasing nag-aksaya lang naman akong ng oras at pera dito e. Pero ito ang sigurado- malalate na ako.

Hindi magsisimula ang kuwento ko sa isang "noong nakita ko siya", dahil sa totoo lang, nagsimula ito noong nakakita na ako ng kulay.

"The competition is really fierce, who knows who the final winner will be."
"I have been standing here for just fifteen minutes and have already seen over ten Gu Masters putting quotes in the counter."
"Ah, this is a game for the rich. People like us don't even qualify to compete."
In the second floor of the treehouse, Gu Masters were surrounding the central counter; discussing and sighing.
As night approached, the competition for the red steel Relic Gu had reached its peak. Many Rank two Gu Masters who were observing in the dark started putting their quotes in this final hour.
Some Gu Masters even made several bids.
"The final winner for this struggle should be either Mo Yan or Chi Shan," someone guessed.
"That's possible. Mo Yan and Chi Shan are both at Rank two upper stage. With this Relic Gu, they can advance to peak stage and be at the same level as Qing Shu."
"In recent years, Gu Yue Qing Shu has been hanging over their heads. I don't believe these two don't have any thoughts about it." 
"We can't say for sure. It is not only us Rank two Gu Masters, there are even some Rank three elders who have made bids. Just this morning, someone saw Lord Yao Ji casting her bid."
"Right, I also heard that. Lord Yao Ji's granddaughter Gu Yue Yao Le is taking part in the coming Awakening Ceremony; Lord Yao Ji should be preparing ahead and paving the way for her granddaughter."
"Ah, how good would it be if I had such a doting senior!"
Fang Yuan was among the crowd, his gaze tranquil as he listened to the discussions.
No one had mentioned his name. In the people's eyes, Fang Yuan was only a lucky kid who had just inherited the family assets. In their minds, Fang Yuan was still not at the level of people like Chi Shan, Mo Yan and Qing Shu.
"Great. The less attention on me, the more smoothly can I get this red steel Relic Gu. But with these repeated purchases, I should have attracted his attention."
Fang Yuan was ninety-nine percent sure of getting this Relic Gu; he began to think of another problem.
If the following events develop according to his expectations, then there would be a perfect ending to his several days of effort.
It was time.
The leaves and branches on the counter suddenly grew and wrapped firmly around the Relic Gu. The green leaves blocked the people's sight and when these leaves again unfolded, the red steel Relic Gu was not there anymore and was replaced by a Revert Gu.
The Revert Gu looked like a flat, oval, palm-sized stone. Its surface was slightly bulging and smooth, forming an eye pattern. The base of the stone was flat and felt rough to the touch.
The stone was black whereas the eye's pattern was covered with white lines.
About every two seconds, the eye would blink once and the white lines that portrayed the eyeball would swivel, giving the feeling that this stone was rolling its eyes.
Revert Gu had a special function.
It decomposed Rank two Gu worm to Rank one.
For example, if the Revert Gu was used on Fang Yuan's White Jade Gu, the White Jade Gu would again change back to White Boar Gu and Jade Skin Gu.
This process was called reverse-refining.
Fang Yuan glanced at it and immediately lost his interest. He didn't need the Revert Gu.
The surrounding Gu Masters began arguing. Revert Gu couldn't become everyone's focal point like the red steel Relic Gu.
Everyone was very curious on who the red steel Relic Gu went to.
Some people looked for the floor's caravan Gu Master and some people waited at the main desk.
The crowd slowly thinned out, but Fang Yuan didn't move away.
"Young Master Fang Yuan, please come to the third floor. Our lord Jia Fu would like to have a chat with you." A voice suddenly entered Fang Yuan's ears.
Fang Yuan wasn't surprised; there were many types of secret sound-transmission Gu worms in this world.
He followed the directions given by the voice and walked to a wall in the third floor.
Branches and leaves stacked together and covered the wooden wall.
Swoosh…..
The branches and leaves automatically parted to the sides and revealed a concealed door.
Fang Yuan pushed open the door and saw an exquisite whirling staircase that moved up.
He walked along the stairs and came to a small study room.
In the study room, Jia Fu was handling some accounts, his hand writing away speedily.
He raised his head when he heard Fang Yuan's footsteps, revealing the scar on his face. He gave a gentle smile, "We meet again, little brother Fang Yuan."
"Respects to Lord Jia Fu." Fang Yuan clasped his hands and saluted.
"Come, sit here." Jia Fu pointed at a nearest desk.
After Fang Yuan sat, his left hand pushed a bamboo paper on the desk towards Fang Yuan.
Fang Yuan took a glance and immediately recognized that this bamboo paper held all his quotes that he had made in the recent days. Under every quote was his signature.
He was inwardly happy, it had gone according to his expectations. But on the surface, he wore a doubtful expression as he asked, "I am not sure what Lord Jia Fu wants to show me?"
Jia Fu's smile slightly decreased, his eyes flashing as he looked at Fang Yuan, "These are your quotes you made along with the quote you gave for the red steel Relic Gu. I will be honest, I am amazed at your business talent. Do you know, every one of your bids was very close to the final sale price."
"Although you only succeeded in buying a Black Boar Gu, a Liquor worm and the red steel Relic Gu, your quotes for other Gu worms only lacked by ten or so primeval stones. Brother, do you have any interest in working for me?" Jia Fu tried to recruit Fang Yuan.
"Here it comes!" Fang Yuan laughed inwardly. He had repeatedly made bids these days and had intentionally lost on most of them; his bids differing from the final price by only ten or so primeval stones. He had only successfully won Black Boar Gu, Liquor worm and red steel Relic Gu.
And just like he wished, Jia Fu was interested in the business talent he showed and took the initiative to recruit him.
However, in fact if Fang Yuan wished so, he had almost full guarantee of being able to purchase all the Gu worms.
"This…." Fang Yuan hesitated, then shook his head, "I am greatly honored to receive Lord Jia Fu's kindness, but I don't want to leave the clan."
"Oh, so it's like that." Jia Fu's gaze flashed, "Brother might have some misunderstandings towards me. A year ago, I indeed doubted you, but after using the Bamboo Gentleman, the suspicions on you have already been removed. Jia Jin Sheng was my brother, I hope you understand what my mood was like then. There is another piece of good news, I have already invited divine investigator Tie Xue Leng. There isn't any case which he cannot solve. I believe he will definitely be able to investigate the truth and give justice to you."
"Divine investigator Tie Xue Leng….this is a problem." Fang Yuan thought over this name. This was not good news to him.
In this world, there were many magical places and also many amazing methods that could be used to investigate.
When Fang Yuan killed Jia Jin Sheng, he had only been at Rank one. Even if he knew a lot of methods, he couldn't use them.
In his memories, Tie Xue Leng had a profound cultivation and wouldn't even tolerate a bit of sand in his eyes. He followed the thought of punishing evil and rewarding the right throughout his whole life. He had an extremely rich sense of justice and his thoughts were meticulous. He was very good at finding subtle traces from any clues.
"Divine investigator has a high reputation, I have also heard of him. But when will this lord divine investigator arrive at Qing Mao Mountain?" Fang Yuan put on an anticipating look and directly asked.
"That….." Jia Fu awkwardly smiled, "Divine investigator is very busy. From his reply, it might only be the year after the next."
Fang Yuan immediately felt relieved, he had a lot of time to prepare.
"Brother, I think highly of you. I hope you can carefully consider my proposal." Jia Fu made attractive offers.
Fang Yuan tactfully refused; now was not the best time to leave Qing Mao Mountain.
If he went to a strange environment without enough strength, he was bound to be bullied and pushed aside. The caravan was also full of unwritten rules on bullying and pushing aside.
"That is really a pity for your talent. How about this, I will give you this token. If there comes a day where you want my help, this token will be the proof that I will always welcome you." Jia Fu had failed in recruiting Fang Yuan, but he didn't feel surprised. He had a deep understanding towards this type of clan's cohesiveness.
If he was to know now that Fang Yuan was Jia Jin Sheng's murderer, who knows what his expression would be.
Fang Yuan apologised in shame as he received the token handed by Jia Fu along with the red steel Relic Gu.
He kept the two items close to him and backtracked his way out.
A young female Gu Master was caressing the leaves on the wall, when suddenly she cried out in shock. The branches and leaves suddenly parted and revealed a door.
The door was pushed open from inside and Fang Yuan walked out expressionlessly.
"You, you, you!" The young girl widened her eyes and blankly looked at Fang Yuan brushing past her.
Among the surrounding Gu Masters who saw this scene; some were familiar with this, some gave a knowing smile and some threw amazed looks.
Fang Yuan paid no heed to these gazes and walked down to the second floor. Some Gu Masters were still waiting there, excitedly discussing who the red steel Relic Gu went to.
Some people brazenly made guesses whereas some people gave some little news- "Mo Yan had a mysterious smile when she walked out of the treehouse,"—"Chi Shan's face was ashen,"—and so on.
And to top it all, some people pledged that so and so had bought the Relic Gu, even making an oath.
Fang Yuan went past this bored group of people. No one knew that at this moment, the red steel Relic Gu was so close to them.
When Fang Yuan walked out of the treehouse, he bumped into Chi Shan.
His face indeed looked unsightly, and at his side, Chi Cheng was asking about the whereabouts of the red steel Relic Gu.
After seeing Fang Yuan, Chi Cheng snorted and turned his head, intentionally not looking at him. Chi Shan silently nodded his head towards Fang Yuan as a greeting.
Fang Yuan also nodded his head as a reply, his face carrying a wisp of smile.
The last of the sunshine shone on this young boy's face; he was indeed happy.
With the red steel Relic Gu, his cultivation would instantly advance by a level.
And there was also the token.
A year ago, Fang Yuan wanted to build a friendship with Jia Jin Sheng and rely on him to take part in the future large-scale Gu fighting competition, reaping benefits in that period of upheaval.
Unfortunately, life was unpredictable, the final outcome made Fang Yuan not know whether to laugh or cry—unexpectedly, he ended up killing Jia Jin Sheng with his own hands.
No matter. Without Jia Jin Sheng, relying on Jia Fu also worked. This token was equivalent to the admission ticket to the future large-scale Gu fighting competition.


With his Three Fundamental Views* unrighteous, the demon is reborn.
An old dream in the ancient days, a new author with an identical name.
An old story about a time traveler who was constantly being reborn.
An eccentric world that grows, cultivates, and uses Gu. 
The Spring Autumn Cicada, Moonlight Gu, Liquor worm, Comprehensive Golden Light Worm, Fine Black Hair Gu, Hope Gu. . . . . .
And a peerless great demon that freely acts to his heart’s content.
Translator's Synopsis: 
A story of a villain, Fang Yuan who was reborn 500 years into the past with the Spring Autumn Cicada he painstakingly refined. With his profound wisdom, battle and life experiences, he seeks to overcome his foes with skill and wit! Ruthless and amoral, he has no need to hold back as he pursues his ultimate goals. In a world of cruelty where one cultivates using Gu - magical creatures of the world - Fang Yuan must rise up above all with his own power.
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Gu is a legendary venomous insect, often used in black magic practices. It can take on the form of several insects, usually snakes, crickets, worms etc.
* = one's world view, values of worth and philosophy on life 


Hello it's me Jam.
- The girl known as a sad person LMAO. 

-I have been not active for months,
How am I? Well I'm doing fine, that's what we all say right? Actually school just got finished and a lot of things are happening to our world, like the Virus named NCov. Good thing I don't have that.


Feb 11, 2020
       I confessed to my crush.
First I said "Hey, I liked you" and he says he likes me too. I was so happy because he is so sweet, kind and loyal. But as time goes by I started to feel like I don't love him in a way like I want him to be my boyfriend or it's just my friend who is his ex likes him again. It's okay if my friend still likes him I guess? But problems starts to come again in my life, I failed my exams (actually I'm an Honor Student), my parents started to compare me again to my sisters and different people, I started to act bad again that's why I hated myself more and more, I avoid my crush until the time that I said I want him to be my friend only and he started to act like the way he used to (Silent and Sad inside), I wish I could tell him all my problems but I think telling him about how I feel will make him sad too so... I just hide it. Weeks passed and I started to talk to him again and became like the old days where we are so close and talking like everyday but still he didn't notice my pain every smile, every laugh that I showed to him.

Until the end of the school year came and he talked to me with his friends and says "Umm...Hey, wanna talk about your problems?", I was shocked and wanted to tell him everything but I don't want to tell everyone know about it so I just said "Hmm? I don't have any problems dude, Haha" and I said goodbye while I regret what I did.
He chatted me online and says sorry that he's with his friends and we can't talk alone together, he says he wanted to hug me but when he saw me he frozed, I say it's okay and he promised me that he will hug me when the next school year starts.
I still love him like as a crush but I'm scared he only think of me now as a friend so I just keep it inside, I haven't cut/slit my wrist for months now because I'm trying to avoid any self harm but as I keep the pain inside my attitude changes a lot until I feel nothing anymore. Well my family don't even care about me like they don't talk to me, and if they will it's only because it's needed.
It's okay though because I don't feel sadness anymore because I'm used to it.
I started to stay away from social media and other apps so that I could be more active like doing activities in home but until now all I do is sleep.
I download apps for depression chats but it doesn't work for me. Until I just gave up and just go with the flow in this world, Idk anymore.

Everyday before I sleep my Anxiety came back again.
The Feeling of fear of Dying.
Things popped up in my head like what will happen when I die? Will my world just turn into black? Am I going to see everyone? Can I still touch myself? Will I go to a peaceful place where I can find the peace in my self? Or will I be reincarnated and just forget my past life?
When I get old, can I still do lot of things? Will my children leave me or stay? Am I going to be alone or with my husband? Can I still meet my old friends and spend time together?
Idk. Nobody knows.
As I listen to a music  "Lofi".
I sometimes felt calm, sad or lonely.
My crush starts to talk to me again and tell me a lot of happy things and I sometimes blushed secretly (in Chat) But today he came offline again and says to me that he will not be active for days... I miss him.
And I miss my old self too...
The Girl who is Active, always hyped, crazy, positive, always smile, always laugh and open to others. 



                           I Miss Myself.



-Hello Everyone I will end this story for now because I have a lot of work to do Haha, but I'll still continue again to make stories.
I'm a newbie to writing but I'll try to restart again and be a better writer as time goes by.
Please Support me Uwu haha.
Thank you guys, I wish you a Good day and Positive life, let's all pray to those people who have NCov.
Stay safe, always wash hands and avoid close contact with others and most of all Stay Hydrated Luvs.


Wish you Good health and happy life.
Enjoy your life and everything in this world,
Always do your best because we only Live once Uwu.
Don't forget to pray and talk to God.
Be open to others that you know and trusted.
We make mistakes but don't worry because everyone made mistakes, if you can correct it then do it right and if you can't don't worry because that's just past, also don't lie to others because truth is for what happened in the past while lies are what's going to happen in the future.
I have watched a movie All The Brightest Places it is a good movie for those who felt loneliness or something, i recommend it and there is a lot of quotes there too which is one of my favourite things to do (read quotes) 
The story tells different types of feelings that you might also feel too.  Sounds good right?! 
Watch it and let's talk how good that movie is Hehe. 
One last thing.



                        I LOVE YOU ALL


"I'm Awake"
-T. F

Hi, Here i'll tell you a story about a girl with depression.

it was the month of July, my exams were finished. And I got busy with my boring life, reading books and novel, posting sad quotes of my own on my facebook page "HAUNTED TIMES". That time i was reading a novel "THE BOY WHO LOVED" by "DURJOY DUTTA" sir. It was suggested by Riya, she is a very good friend of mine. In short she's my soul sister. spoiler alert..!The Boy Who Loved" is the story of a school going boy called Raghu Ganguly who lives in Delhi with his family. On the outside, he is just your regular guy – loving parents, good academics, a respectable family with decent means. But that is just a façade. Deep down Raghu harbours a secret guilt – that he had let his friend down; he had let him die.Raghu likes to show that there is nothing remarkable about his life - loving middle-class parents, an elder brother he looks up to, and plans to study in an IIT. And that's how he wants things to seem - normal.
Deep down, however, the guilt of letting his closest friend drown in the school's swimming pool gnaws at him. And even as he punishes himself by hiding from the world and shying away from love and friendship, he feels drawn to the fascinating Brahmi - a girl quite like him, yet so different. No matter how hard Raghu tries not to, he begins to care ...
Then life throws him into the deep end and he has to face his worst fears. So yeah it was an amazing story.

-.  only I can change my life. no one can do it for me
-.  Whether you're going through a break up, you've just lost your job, or you simply woke up feeling a little insecure this morning—we've all had these days.
- You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.
-. "Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans." -John Lennon
-  Get busy living or get busy dying."-Stephen King
-. When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."-Helen Keller
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do."-Mark Twain
-. "When I dare to be powerful – to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid."-Audre Lorde
-.  A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow. " -William Shakespeare

Hope you enjoy the extra quotes that inspired me

All y'all going to find hear and my favorite
Quotes

Blank white room, so immensely blinding, blah blah blah, I had a normal life, no girlfrie... blah blah blah. Meet an old powerful-
Yes. I will cut the bullsh*t.
I am here today in the presence of the almighty creator that seems to have chosen me for whatever reason I am unaware of. It must be author crafted.
Besides that, I was to spin the wheel of transmigration, a wheel that would decide the home of my future life.
I was also to spin a wheel of powerful, a wheel that would decide the "gift" one would receive for their next life.
Apparently, this creator has countless versions of himself across the universe, overseeing every individual's deaths and reincarnations. That's neat.
Anyways, I spun the wheel and lo and behold out of the million possible options, it was Fairy Tail, a magical fantasy manga and anime from Japan that I've both read and watched through to the end.
Cool, I got future plot knowledge. Where's my cheat?
- Oh right, I haven't spun the wheel yet.
Aaaaand... the Badass System?








I couldn't help but grin in expectation.








Right on cue, I was immediately greeted with,
[System Initializing...]
[Host: Mouchizuki Amida]
[Starter Character/Pack x 1 Gifted]
Woah...








I looked at the old man with kind eyes.








He gave me such a chance? He's the best!








And like any other normal kid on Christmas, that will be only thanks he will ever get from me even after all of this.








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The old man was amused by the young man's self-awareness of his ungrateful *ss. He simply found him funny and was not at all offended and beckoned the young man to open his system's starter gift.








"This gift will decide your fate with the Badass System in your next life. May your fortune be blessed," said the old man.








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[Starter Pack Opened:








Badass Character: Itachi Uchiha








Unlimited Kunai Pouch x 1








Book of Jutsus x 1








Akatsuki Cloak x 1








Anbu Uniform x 1
















Badass Points x 100
Book of Badass Quotes x 1]








Ah, Itachi Uchiha?
I could be delusional but it feels that by just reading his name, my IQ has already been increasing.








Badass as ever.

For the OG webnovel readers who remember "Cool Anime System", let me bring it back from the dead!

This fan-fiction will center around Mouchizuki Amida, an anime fan of Naruto and Fairy Tail, reborn in Fairy Tail several years before the main storyline with the badass system, a system which strives to make the host the most badass existence ever! And who could be more fitting than for Amida to inherit the supreme badassery from the legend Itachi Uchiha?

(I the author have not watched Fairy Tail in a while so please be patient with me. I will re-read the manga and re-watch the anime as I write this so the updates will be 1 or 2 chapters a day :D. Also, by writing this synopsis, I hereby accept the terms of agreement that since I am using Itachi's name, the main character by default will be a sincere and complete badass. Of course, he will have parts of his own personality as well! Do not fret!)

whan I am travelling lonely in a train I saw you . that you look gorgeous and beautiful with white skin and with a sphere face . By seeing you I want express all my feelings with you that treat you as a ... I loved that feeling when I saw you. As I am moving you are also coming with me up to my destination . As I think I am so lucky to travel with you . I want share my thoughts  with you I don't know that you listen my feelings are not but I want to say with. I think this journey is my fantastic journey in my life that I have ever travelled. As you woke me up when I slept in train with your sparkling light .     And when I see you in my journey I thought that all my negative gone away.
I just you want to ask one thing that is I want you to be travel with me every journey with me . By seeing you my heart has broken up into fragments and melted in happy fluid . I think when you come with me that journey is safe for me . I want to say many things about you but my life time is short that much big you are for me . To express feelings there no need any quotes just one heart  
is enough . I don't know what I should call you but at finally all are calling you as a **MOON** Then I also go for it my lovely moon .Then we will meet again in the next journey .

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