Aoi in fact doesn't kill me. I still wary though. He might be looking for an opening. He might strike when I let my guard down and not ready for him. I won't get fooled. I'm a second commanders of Whitebeard's pirate, I don't get fooled easily. It's already been a week but he hasn't do anything yet. I'm concerned. I hope his silence means that Kii is able to convince him and not him plotting to kill me.
"Honestly, Aoi-nii isn't plotting to kill you Ace-kun"
Kii said one night when I stayed in her room. I was telling her about past me childhood. She rolled her eyes at me when I keep looking at the door, expecting Aoi to burst through it.
"Even Aoi-nii wouldn't want to witness his sister in an indecent position, Ace-kun. Especially when he knew her fiance will be there" she said then.
After that we've been spending night together more often. Sometime we just talk all night. Sometime we will just cuddle or play game together. Anything we do is always fun. Is this what love is?
Kii is bolder now. When we are alone she will sometime stare at me with a smile. It makes me flustered at first. How can I not? The woman I love is looking at me with a cute smile. My dark side always telling me that she was seducing me when she did that. She tells me that she loves me more often too. But sometime she will apologize without reason. For me it is without reason but for her it's because sometime she thinks about past me when she is looking at me, she said. She seems bothered so much about it, maybe I should tell her that we were the same person? That boy and me. Come to think about it, it maybe also the reason why Aoi and even Midori sometime looking at me pitifully. She must have told them that she likes me, Er, the me before.
Midori confessed to her that she was bullying the pink thing because she was jealous that Akai is in love with that pink thing. We found her crying under one of the classroom windows one day, she look so devastated and brokenhearted. Inside the room was Akai and pink thing. They were kissing. Even though Midori was never thinking of Kii as a sister, for Kii Midori is always her beautiful Nee-sama. Kii didn't say anything, she just sat herself beside Midori and stay. I had no choice but stand there waiting with them. It was disgusting. I thought that pink thing is already have a fiance. Noah from the Zoland house if I was right. The man introduce her to Nii-Sama and I at one occasion. He was a candidates for our aides that's why he had privilege to introduce someone to us. Yet, she did that with Akai? I knew she had no shame but Akai comes from a distinguished family. We nobles know our manners yet they fucked in a fucking empty classroom? I was a pirate but I don't think I was that disgusting. She already had a man for one. And anyone might overheard them (like us) if they did it in a place like this. If it was someone else and not us, they would have been in bad situation. Their families would have lost face. It feels like eternity until they left. Midori was covering her mouth tightly, tears flowing on her cheeks. Her dignified appearance ruffles. Kii is sitting beside her, hands covering her ears, eyes closed as tightly. I leaned my body to the wall. No need to describe my expression, I knew I have a disgusting expression on me. We stayed like that for hours until Midori threw herself at Kii and bawled. In the end Midori spent that night curled in Kii's bed after she confessed everything. Her love for Akai that drove her to bully that pink thing. How she was always scared that Kii would take her place in the family. How she love to show Kii that she was more loved by the family just to reassure herself that it was okay for her to stay, that they still love her even after they had a biological daughter. She just didn't want to be discarded, to be alone, she said. Kii didn't interupe her and didn't comfort her either. She just tighten her hug on Midori and said that "Nee-sama is Nee-sama and will always be Nee-sama". Midori broke down after that. She cried herself to sleep.
I can understand Midori's feeling. To be scared of being thrown out, to be alone. But doesn't mean I agree with her way to do things. I definitely can't forgive what she has caused Kii because of her own insecure. It's not Kii's fault to be born as the Wallace's daughter, as her little sister. Kii looked at her sadly. I don't like it when a sad expression appear in her face. It made my heart cracks. Kii lets Midori took her bed. She hugged me very tight as we curled on her sofa that night.
"if I was Nee-sama and the one inside there was Ace-kun, I would die" she told me.
"that would never happen" I told her back.
"I know. But I love Ace-kun. Just thinking about Ace-kun loving someone else is already make me anxious and suffocated. I wouldn't able to accept the idea about losing Ace-kun" she confessed
"Kii, you're my life. I'll probably died first before I even thinking to have someone else in my life beside you"
"I know that" she pressed frustratingly "I knew it's hurt if the love of your love share their love with other, yet I... " she trailed, eyes glancing at past me painting.
I kissed her there. She wouldn't believe me yet if I told her then that we were the same person. I plan to finished telling the boy, past me story to her before I told her everything. So she would understand. So I told her that loving the boy in the painting is the same as loving me because when she looks at that boy, it was me that she was thinking about anyway. Just with a different faces. The looks on her eyes that time made want to push her down and did her right there right then had Midori wasn't in the room with us.
My feelings for Kii is definitely called Love. So does her feelings for me. Midori feelings for Akai can be called love. So does Aoi's feeling for Kii, it's just a different kind of love. Akai's feeling for that thing maybe also called love. That thing feelings tho, it can't be called love, can it?
Midori stopped her bullying act after that and choose to follow Kii around on her free time. Not long after that Aoi joined them. It's small things but at least Kii is finally able to get to know her big sister.
That pink thing returned my jacket one day. She gave it to me when there were a lot of people presents. It caused an uproar. Rumours starting to spread that I was having an affair with her. The hell this people thinking? Even my sweet Kii is annoyed by the rumours. I burned the jacket then. It was filthy anyway I wouldn't want to wear that ever again. Lexy was shaking his head when he witnessed me burning it while cursing at that pink girl.
Of course I've told Kii why that thing have my jacket. Still, I was really worry that she decided that I was not worthy to love anymore and leave me. I might destroy a country or two if that happens.
Aoi looks eternally amused. His eyes sting me so much. His glare is already been adopted by Midori. Kii though...
To my relief she did not leave me but become more affectionate. When pink thing trying to talk to me she would just comes and hug me from behind, or sat on my lap, or just press her body into me.
The most memorable one was when we were attending Rhuifen's birthday party. There was small get together only for his close friends. We were invited so was that pink thing and her friends. Two obnoxious lady whom had the same poor manners as her. She suggested that we had a picnic under the stars and ask questions about each other to get along well. I don't want to get along well with a being like her, but I was outvoted so there we were sitting in circles on the ground.
Her friends were pushing her to sit beside me, she was pretending to be shy and awkward. I bet she was waiting for me to invite her to sit beside me. Hah! Keep dreaming pinky!
Then Kii was snuggling herself to me. Hands hugging my shoulder from behind and put her head on my collarbone. Her lips brushing into my skin. I shivered.
"You okay?" she asked.
"Never better" I said breathlessly to her. My hand reaching to caress her hair.
I noticed pink thing narrowed her eyes at Kii in the corner of my eyes. I saw Nii-Sama trying to hide his laugh. He knew I'm weak at Kii's touch yet he was laughing at me? Traitor. Rhuifen was blinking his eyes rapidly. Aoi plant himself beside me and stared. Have I told you that his stares were sting?
Kii sat on my other side with Midori next to her. Pink thing took a seat beside Midori followed by her fiance beside her then her friends. Beside them were Rhuifen's two escorts which name I forgot with Rhuifen himself sat between them, then Akai and finally Nii-Sama beside Aoi.
"okay. Who is going to ask the first question?" pink thing said clapping her hands cheerfully.
"me, me, me" her friend chorus.
"how about we honor the birthday boy first?" Akai said playfully nodded to Rhuifen.
"hmm, Angela-chan. Between us who is your favorite?" he asked pink thing that but his eyes were on Kii. I need to put my guard on him too.
"Kyaaaa" pink thing said covering her face, body shaking right and left. "Rhuifen-sama is mean. I couldn't decide. I love you all equally" she answered.
Please don't include me in those "all" part I want to said. I opened my mouth but was interuped by her friends.
"Now, Angela-chan. Please ask questions!" she cheers.
"ah, who should I ask? um, um, Arzen-sama if you don't mind. What is Arzen-sama favorite things to do in private?" she said with a blushing face.
"it's private" I said coldly
"ah, Arzen-sama. We agreed to answer questions about each other. Answer like that is unacceptable" she replied poutingly
And when did I agree to that? Aoi were pinching my side in warning to not make scenes so I had no choice but answer her.
"holding Kii, hugging Kii, kissing Kii if she was with me or thinking about how Kii was in..." I said monotonously before Aoi put his hand to cover my mouth.
"yeah, it's better stay private" he said.
"Ace-kun" Kii groaned. Midori was patting her shoulder, eyes narrowed at me.
Pink thing was opening and closing her mouth like a fish. It made her look uglier.
"ask questions then" Aoi said letting his hand go.
"Aoi-chan, what kind of girl do you like?" I said again in monotone voice
"who is this Aoi-chan? You know, literally I'm your older brother... Your highness" Aoi complained adding 'your highness' as an afterthought. He usually Just call me Arzen, or stupid prince, or any other insult. Jeez, Aoi must be really hate me back then, Huh?
"for your information, I like pure, beautiful and elegant ladies" he continued.
"like your sisters, Huh?" Nii-Sama commented
"yup. Now Arren Nii-Sama, have you found your ideal lady yet?" Aoi answered, beaming at Nii-Sama. They have become close in the past years and Aoi respected him a lot. I think he is even Aoi's idol now.
Nii-Sama answered with a kind smile. "I might be or might be not" he said. His eyes looking at pink thing. Uh oh, the danger alarm rang in my head.
Just like that we were take turn (forced in my case) to answer questions from each other. It was harmless until I saw the thing giving her friends secret look. As her friends giggling together, I knew they were scheming something bad.
I was right. Midori was asked about the person she likes. She stuttered an answer and look very down after that. Probably remembering that her loved one would never be hers. Pink thing looked at her with hidden smirk. I'm sure I was the only one who witnessed it. What can you say, I'm a pirate. Pirates are observant when they were in the middle of enemies' territory.
"Lady Kii, would you mind to answer my question next?" pink thing's friend Lady Vellum said to Kii. She was used to be a brave and dignified lady, spending time with pink thing changed her to become such a giggly girl. What a shame.
"How is Arzen-sama in bed?" she whispered at Kii's nod, in a not really a whisper voice, mind you, as we all still can hear it. Smile hidden behind her fan.
Aoi was choking on his tea while Nii-Sama patting his back. Rhuifen stared at Kii intently. Midori gave her a disapproving look.
I can see through her. She must be thinking that Kii would be too shy to answer or Kii was going to gave them negative answer. Kii is young, only fourteen years old, she might think that we haven't did it yet. Then, if that was Kii's answer she would have a way to manipulate it to fueled the previous rumours of me having an affair with pink thing. What I can't see is the reason of why they went that far just to create a baseless rumours about my relationship with Kii. We are a happy couple, thank you very much.
"Kyaaaa, Liebe-chan... so bold!. There is no way Arzen-sama would do such a thing. Arzen-sama is a respectful gentleman" pink thing said high-voiced. Her hands cradling her cheeks.
Hey! I'm a normal healthy grown up boy. What do you mean there is no way I would do such a thing? Are you insulting me? You don't think I'm capable of doing that? Rude!
Kii smiled awkwardly. Her face was deep scarlet. She glanced at me and then ducked her head. Cute! I smiled then. When she glanced at me again, I raised my brow. Go on, tell them I tried to convey. Kii's eyes found mine. She stared at me unfocusedly.
"a beast" she said softly.
"Excuse me" pink girl and friends said almost in unison.
"He devoured me like a beast" Kii said.
I smile boardly at her answer. Then as if she was just realizing what she said. Her eyes went wide. She turned to bury her face on Midori's shoulder. Midori instinctly patted her head.
"why did I said that?" she moaned.
"... No..." pink thing said.
"Kii..?" Akai's voice heard faintly.
"Arzen..." Nii-Sama sigh softly.
Hey! It's not my fault she was always looking adorable when we did that. I can't help myself, you know. It was as if I'm never get enough of her.
The other were speechless and turning their face awkwardly.
Rhuifen was holding his cup tightly.
Aoi was gripping my collars, shaking me back and forth.
"Don't look so smug, you idiot prince!" he said. Ah, there it was. His insult was back.
In the middle of those, I was still grinning.
Even after hearing that, pink thing still hasn't get the idea that I only interested in Kii. That I love Kii very very much and only need Kii in my life. Her friends will praise her in front of me more often about how good she is. Pink thing goes as far as showing part her body to me and start to talks with seductive voice. She also will turn up with her two buttons shirt unbuttoned that will show me her breasts when she tries to talk to me. She even hug her hands in front of her chest to make it look bigger. She is more endowed than Kii. But hey! Kii is still growing up! Beside her body doesn't arouse me at all. It has an opposite effect from what she intended. By doing that she disgusted me more.
She already had many men in her life. What does she want from me anyway? Maybe it is because I am a Crown Prince (in title only but she doesn't know that). Maybe her intentions is to be the queen?
I hope Ether will open Nii-Sama's eyes soon. I shudder at the thought of Nii-Sama marrying her and makes her became the Queen of this kingdom. Even if I plan to go off to be an adventurer with Kii right after Nii-Sama's coronation as a King, this kingdom is still my home. I don't want it to have such a Queen.
I lay my head on Kii's lap. I told her that I'm worry about Nii-Sama.
"let's find a fine lady for him then" Kii tells me.
Aoi who was sprawling on my bed snorts.
"Aoi-san" Midori said in reprimand.
"sorry Nee-sama" he said clearly still amused.
"it's not a bad idea. Prince Arren is too kind. He is in danger if he keep meddling with that kind of lady" Lexy agrees.
"hmm, let's try" I said.
So thus, we tried to observe every respectful ladies in the Academy. We found no one. Most of them will just want power. Or will just lust over Nii-Sama. Like pink girl. It was lucky really that Nii-Sama is busy with council's work and classes, he is a future king (though it is still secret) he work harder than us that he hasn't spend alone time with pink thing (according to Lexy's report). Yeah, I asked Lexy to stalks Nii-Sama and immediately interfere if pink thing start to advance towards Nii-Sama. What? I'm worry.
Before Nii-Sama get suspicios we decided to stop looking and just get one of us to stick to Nii-Sama as often as possible when he has free time.
We don't have much hope about that but fate said otherwise. I never believed in fate. Fate or destiny, is things for you to choose it yourself. That is what I always think. Still think until now. But for Nii-Sama and her, it must be fate. I'm glad to say that we've found suitable person. We were looking too far outside last time, we didn't realize that there is a suitable lady among us.
It's Midori.
She is perfect. Well, if it was few months ago. She will be a no no no. Reason? She is terrible at Kii. Now though, she has improved a lot and have turn into a new leaf. Everyone know that Midori is Wallace's adopted daughter and doesn't have any relation to Kii, so it won't be a problem for her becoming Nii-Sama's bride even when Kii is mine.
We didn't play matchmaker. We didn't interfere on them or push them together. We just watch it happen. It took time. With Midori still healing from her broken heart that caused by Akai and Nii-Sama who was still in love with pink thing. But when it happened, I proud to say that it becomes a beautiful relationship.
It's Love that found them.
Rhuifen 💬
I was 11 years old the first time I met her. Her family is tasked to welcome us to their kingdom as delegation. We were here to strengthen our bond as an ally. It was just a social visit for the sake of appearance. They were our escort before we met the royal family the next day.
Her father, Prime Minister Duke Asagi Fern Wallace-sama and his wife Duchess Sakura Fern Wallace-sama decided to bring along their children for our companion. My esteemed Brother, the Crown Prince immediately take a liking to their eldest son Akai. Akai was my age but he was quite mature so he get along well with esteemed brother and I. My little brother and sisters the third prince and the first and second princess also immediately taken by Aoi, their youngest son.
Their first daughter never leave Akai's side and Aoi took the youngest anywhere he went. My little siblings were a handful though so sometimes Aoi would have hard time with them. Especially when the princess were involved. That make the youngest, Kii sometime spend her time alone.
At first I was paying attention to her because I worry she was lonely as Aoi was busy with my siblings. I felt guilty. As the years passed though, even when we (princes and princesses didn't need to come along for a visit anymore) I always came. We never talked much or spent time together. I usually spent my time in Akai's company and became good friend with him. But I liked to watch her.
At first she had this cold and mysterious aura around her. It was enchanting. As she got older, her expression got brighter. She would smile more when she was with Aoi. Only with Aoi though, she seem distant with her other siblings. I decided to study in this kingdom to show our trust in this kingdom. My personal reason was to get to know her.
I was patiently waiting for her to attend this Academy. I had many expectations of how she would react. Whether she would remember me or not. I already become a good friend with his brother, Akai and then also got closer to prince Arren. The three of us become close friends not long after we attended this school. I thought everything would went smoothly.
Then he comes.
Two years later he attended the Academy. The Crown Prince. Arren's little brother, Arzen A Fern Rhein. Kii's fiance.
I was heartbroken and regretted the fact that I never tried to get closer to her earlier. I knew the woman I love was already unreachable then. Yet my heart can't stop hoping that they were not really together because they want it. Hoping that I still have chance to steal her heart from Arzen.
It's funny how Prince Arzen never mind me and never know that I think of him as my rival.
Arzen has a very close relationship with Arren. It was quite opposite of what the rumours said about them. He will come to pester him here and then. Arren seems to fond of him as well. He will let him hang around us or will do what he wants him to do. I was worry it was because Arzen position as a crown prince but when I asked him about that, he gave this chilling fake smile and told me that I don't need to worry and that he was perfectly fine. That was proof that I need to know that he was really really love his little brother.
Frankly speaking they're rival. With only two Princes people will think that they are compete for the Crown. They're not.
I've been observing Arzen for 2 and half years now. I found that he doesn't likes to give speeches, he doesn't likes politic. He doesn't hate Arren. He is a rule breaker and carefree. Arzen doesn't seem to worry that he will lose to Arren.
Esteemed brother and I get along well but we never as close as them. I knew deep down my brother is worry that I will take over his title. It's endearing to see Arzen and Arren. Looking at Arzen, my jealousy of him keep filling up. Especially after Kii come to the Academy.
Arzen... Never leave her alone. He is always holding her and make her stay between his reach. He even get along with Aoi well. To be able to get Aoi permission for Kii's hands in a big accomplishment.
Then I met Angela. She is a pure, kind and naive girl. She used to live as a commoner so this academy wasn't treating her nicely. More so Her fiance is also treating her harshly. The poor girl.
We get along well. She tells me that she is in love with Arzen after he helped her in many occasions but her love is wrong because he has a fiancee and she also has a fiance. I don't remember other things she said. My brain only picked the part that she was in love with Arzen and the fact that Arzen was care enough to help her.
This is my chance I thought.
I feel sorry for using poor Angela like that but I was desperate. Knowing that Kii is also enjoying Arzen's present is hitting me hard. I thought if Arzen fall for Angela than Kii can be mine.
Angela is too naive though. She has no experience in seducing someone, because of that Arzen was still treating her coldly.
Angela has a nice sexy body. She can make the one she loves fall for her if she tries but she was too pure for her own good. She's also suffering from her brother and fiance. She really have it hard but she still can smile genuinely. It made me admire her.
But as nice as Angela, I can't keep Kii away from my mind. Witnessing her everyday moments with Arzen hurt me so much. When she is smiling happily but not for me. It's hurt. I used to touch myself and think of her but it wasn't enough anymore. Then Angela comes. And she was lonely. So was I.
We were supposed to find out the weakness between Arzen and Kii relationship. Not this.
"he devoured me like a beast"
Kii's voice repeated in my memory. I thrust into her harder. Angela cried out. Nails digging into my neck.
"Rhuifen-sama, too fast. You're too fast" she gasps.
"he devoured me like a beast"
Kii's voice resonated again. I put her legs on my shoulder and thrusts deeper, harder and harder into her.
Angela moans loudly begging me to go slower, she can't take it she said. I don't have time to care. It's not her that I see.
I imagined it was Kii that writhing under me. I imagined it was Kii's voice that was calling me in pure bliss. I imagined it was Kii that I thrusting into everytime. It was Kii, Kii, and Kii. My mind is full her.
"he devoured me like a beast"
Kii's voice said again.
I flipped Angela over and bent her. Placing my hands on her hips, I moaned as I thrusting into her harshly.
It's hurt and my body burned by jealousy. It's hurt so bad. I'm aware my thrusts become harsher and harsher.
"no more Rhuifen-sama, no more please" Angela's muffle voice begged between moans. That's not what I heard.
"he devoured me like a beast"
It said again.
I pulled Angela's body to me and knead her breasts roughly, still thrusting into her frantically. She comes hard, then her body slacken. I half aware that she passed out.
Arzen touched Kii. He touched her. He touched her. He touched her. He touched the woman I love.
I held her body and thrust, thrust and thrust I came shouting Kii's name. I pulled out and let Angela's body go. It fall to the bed with a small thump. Her naked sweating body sprawling on her bed, still unconscious. I glance at her, buttoned my shirt and pull up my pants. I am not in the mood for staying so I leave her like that.
Angela is pure. She can't take it when I do her harshly. We always go slow. I never force myself on her nor I ever came calling Kii's name. Today is also mutual agreement to do that but today I'm too ruffles by the revelation. I didn't take her feeling into consideration. I sigh. I'm such a despicable man.
I'm sorry to Angela. For using her as my bed warmer and as Kii's substitutes. I vow that I will take responsibility if it end bad.
Jupiter and Venus are waiting for me when I get back to my room.
"so, you went to her again?" Venus starts.
"Vee, can't we?" I whined.
"No, we can't. You can't keep doing this. You know that. We know that" Jupiter adds.
"I know" I sigh flopping myself to the bed.
"does it makes you feel better? Being with Angela" Jupiter continues.
"you know it's not, Jay. I feel worse. Now I also feel more guilty towards Angela" I told him.
"Yet you are still doing it" Vee sigh.
I cover my eyes. Both of them are my childhood friends. Jupiter is the youngest of us but the wises. Venus is our voice of reason. When we went ashtray she will be there too straighten us. They came to this school for my sake. When I told them Kii has already had fiance they immediately requested to attend this school to accompany me.
They act politely and professionally as my bodyguards when we are in public. But when we are alone like this, they're my childhood friends again. If not for them I don't know where I would be right now.
"so what do you decide?" Vee's voice awaken me
"about what?" I questioned.
"Vee was asking if you're going to give up on Kii now that you knew that she and Arzen already slept together" Jay clarified.
"it doesn't matter whether they had slept together or not. I love Kii not her body" I told them.
"Fenfen..." Jay said.
"I'll stop sleeping with Angela" I cut him.
"plan?" Vee raised her brows.
"Nothing. I'll just go forward to steal off Kii's attention from Arzen. Let her get to know me and show her that I'm better than Arzen" I said determinedly.
"that is the spirit!" they cheers.
I smile to myself. I should have doing this ages ago but it's better late than never.
Noah 💬
The woman I love is loved by many people and love not only me. In fact she is obsessed with other man. I knew I wasn't enough for her. I knew she was looking for someone else. I see what she did but I pretend I didn't.
I'm hotheaded idiot and not smart but even an idiot like me can see that she have been sleeping around with other man.
I don't know what happened to her. She changed since she started to stay with her father. She said they don't treat her well. I offered her to stay with us again like before her mother passed but she refused.
She used to be a very pure and honest girl. She never good at studying but she was a hardworking girl. When we were young we promised that when we grow up we will get married and have many children. We will leave the house and become farmers because she loves to grows things and so do I. My family even decide that my brother in law is the one that going to be the heir.
We were happy. She was going to wait for me finish my study in academy and then we will get married. We already have blessing from both her mother and my family. That was before her father took her. After that everything about her change. Where did my Angie go?
She used to get along with both my older sister and brother-in-law. She was especially close with my older sister. Yet now she never asked about her at all. She who was happier than my older sister herself when the news of her pregnancy come, never even mentioned about it anymore.
What is really happening to her?
I'm really a fool. I still cling to a childhood promise. To her innocent smile. To the feeling of her kiss and body on my arms the day before she left our place. Her voice that tell me how much she loves me.
It is a punishment because we made love before we got engaged?
We had made love more often after that but it was different. There was no shy smile. There was no I love you told. It was just lust. It feels as if I did it with someone else.
I miss her even though she was by my side.
She likes Prince Arzen. Like any other ladies here. It wasn't a surprise. Prince Arzen is charming and endearing. You just can't help but love him if you were ladies and admire him if you were men. But prince Arzen already have fiancee. We meet them once before. When I introduced her to them. They look lovely together. I can see that prince Arzen only have eyes for her. Angie even said that they're such a cute couple and looking forward for the day when they finally get married. Did she forget that?
She forgot a lot of things these days. She forgot about my sister, she forgot about her dreams, she forgot about her favorite flower, she forgot about her own nickname, she forgot about our promise. And forgot her love for me.
Is she still the same woman that I love?
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