章節 18: Nick....?

NICK'S POINT OF VIEW

He feels you guiding him back to the ground but he's not completely aware of everything around him. It's like there's a layer of mist around him and everything looks unclear and he hears your voice in the distance. Then he hears you say, don't let go.

"Nick!! Do you hear me?"

He feels your soft hand under his hand and he knows he must do something but he just can't get two and two together. All the adrenaline has left his body and he can feel, life starting to leave him. Then suddenly he gets a moment of clarity.

"Yeah, I can do that"

"Are you sure, Nick? You can't let go for one second, okay?"

"Okay"

You stand up and start running towards the camp. He holds the cloth against his leg but he feels himself slipping away slowly but then he shakes himself awake. He knows that this is important but for some reason, he doesn't have any control over his actions.

KIM'S POINT OF VIEW

You leave Nick hesitantly and starts to run. You know this is a matter of life and death, you run as you've never run on a beach before. You pray as far as you go. You know that when you bleed as much as he does, time is the most important thing. You go directly to the hospital and grab a few things and runs back.

(Please be okay Nick, please don't give up)

You start to see Nick in the distance and your heart stops. He isn't sitting anymore, he's laying down. That must mean one thing, he passed out and he's not holding pressure to his wound, which could mean that he has lost too much blood. You run even faster.

"Nick!!"

NICK'S POINT OF VIEW

He holds on for as long as he can. He remembers you said that he should let it go for even a few seconds.

"Come on….Nick"

He tries to talk to himself. He knows when he's in the field that you should be able to keep yourself alive for as long as possible. Sometimes you could be alone and hurt somewhere in the field and the only way to survive is to stay positive and talk to yourself, keeping yourself conscious at all times.

"Kim….where are you?"

He knows he can't give up and if anything, he can't give up on you. He hears someone in the distance coming closer and feels his consciousness leaving him slowly. He fights as hard as he can but then the very life leaves him and his hands slip next to his side with his head dropping to the sand, everything turns black.

KIM'S POINT OF VIEW

You run to his side and nearly ski as you fall next to him. You see his eyes are closed and you quickly feel his pulse against his throat. It's very faint and you know you must move very fast. You lift his leg and put the towel under his leg that you grabbed from the hospital and put his leg on a clean area. You quickly but efficiently clean his wound. You're highly trained and excellent in your field. You've done over millions of stitches but this is for Nick and you can't help having trembling hands.

You quickly take a deep breath and start to stitch his wound close. You clean your work and see that it's a job well done. You move to his arm and put in a drip of hydration but you know he needs blood and quickly.

"Come on, Nick….don't leave me now. Come on….I didn't even have a chance yet to….to get to know you…to spend some time with you…to maybe even-"

"Uhmm….Kim, is that you?"

"God, Nick…yes, yes it's me…dammit"

You find yourself over his face smiling at him but then a tear falls on his cheek and you realize you've been crying and didn't even know it.

"Damn, I'm so sorry, Nick"

NICK'S POINT OF VIEW

He opens his eyes slowly and the bright light of the sun burns his eyes but then his eyes focus and he hears you crying next to him. He utters a few words and you move over his face. The sun shines from behind you and he stares straight into the face of an angel. He sees you smile at him and then feels the tear on his cheek.

At that moment something changes in him. He realizes that he wants to be with you. He yearns to be with you, he needs you, he craves for you. He wanted you to be the first thing that he sees when he wakes up. Helena never crossed his mind. He wants to care for you and be next to you. He wants to end things with Helena. If it takes forever to wait for you, he'll wait…forever. He lifts his hand and wipes away the tear from your eye.

"Please…don't say sorry…never say sorry when you're around me"

KIM'S POINT OF VIEW

You feel him wiping the tear from your eye and you know that you never want him to stop touching you. When you thought he's going to die, your heart broke into pieces. You never want to have the feeling again. You want to be with him more than you ever wanted to be with John. You've made up your mind that you'll end things with John, the first chance you get. You want him to know that you are available but you want him to want you for you and not because you distracted him from Helena. All you know is, that you don't want him to die on you and you never got the chance to be with him, to touch him, to love him….

"How are you feeling?"

"Much better now…thank you"

"We need to get you to the hospital. Can you stand up?"

You take his arm and slowly lifts him. He stands wiggling on his legs and then falls against you. You grab him so that he can't fall over. He looks up and his face is next to yours, his lips are only inches away from yours…