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I can tolerate pain... How could I tolerate your pain....

Hi guys this is my first time to write something in English..... It is only 5 chapter so try it and comment how I'm writing.....

Chapter 9

Draco's Fanmail

Dear Draco,

I love you. You are the greatest model in the world. It's too bad your gay cause if you weren't we could date. Anyway, do you think you could get me in with the modeling business
Sincerely,
Shula Jackson

Dear Shula,

I love you too. And yes, it is a fact that I am the greatest model in the world. They've done studies you know… so it's proven that I am the sexiest man on the planet. It's a fact. A scientific fact. And if I weren't gay and dreadfully loyal to my Pookie-Pie-Harry, then I would date you! Along with all the sexy women in the world. And I can get you into the modeling business but there are certain… ahem … compensations, if you get my drift… I'll try to be subtle… YOU MUST SLEEP WITH ME.

Love,

Draco

Dear Mr. Malfoy,

You are so hot! and so is Mr. Potter! I envy you sigh so down to business, is Mr. Potter -hem- a good shag? and is he your One?

Love Rachel Zabini

Dear Rachel,

Oh my, are you related to my dear sweet Blaise? Let's do lunch! Thank you for thinking… oh excuse me… knowing that I'm hot. My Sugar-Pie-Honey-Bunch-Harry is quite hot too, isn't he? I'm sure everyone, including you, is positively green with envy! We do make a wondrous couple. And… I will answer your next question without hesitation. Mr. Potter is INDEED a FABULOUS shag. I absolutely love the way he squeaks when he gets close to a climax. And he makes this adorable face when I come— Okay, enough of that! Now to your last question.

Yes. He is the One.

Love,

Draco

Oh Draco,

I love your sexy hot body and dream of stripping you naked every time my eyes lie on you. Ditch Pothead and go for me. I'll give you the ride of your life. Come on, being gay is a drag. Go for the straight life for me.

The esteemed Brittany Smokes –

Dear Miss Smokes,

For the love of Merlin, why did I have to become gay? WHY! When there are lovely sensual women like you walking on this planet! Okay, I shall become straight for you! You sexy, vivacious woman, you! YOU CAN RIDE ME ANYDAY! RIDE IT, COWGIRL!

"Malfoy, what the hell are you writing?" Harry looked over his shoulder. "You're honestly not going to send that, are you?"

"Of course not, Potter," Draco said. "I just needed to get it out of my system."

Dear Miss Smokes,

The gay life is the life for me. How dare you try and ensnare me with your evil womanly ways! Shame on you!

Love,

Draco

Dear Draco,

Aren't you just the cutest little model around? Too bad about the whole gay thing... although it is rather appealing- bisexual's a good way to go! Anyway, if you and Harry ever feel like something diffrent gimmie a buzz.
Good luck with the modelling. What conditioner do you use? Your hair always looks so good! I guess some people are just born beautiful.
Love you
Zo x

Dear Zo,

Yes, of course I'm the cutest model around, but I'm far from little! Surely you must know that. And I refuse to be bisexual! I believe that a person should just go for ONE THING and in my case, that would be men. And I've got one hell of a man, of course. My Pumpkin-Pookie-Poo-Harry. And the conditioner I use is called Wizarding Orgasmic Lush. Because when I massage it into my hair, I get the URGE to scream out with PLEASURE. It's like sex for the scalp.

And as for the part of your letter which I skipped purposely, I think I should answer it now… NO, Harry and I do NOT do well with THREESOMES. It's uncalled for! How dare you even bring it up?

Love,

Draco

P.S. Meet me and Harry at our apartment. 3 pm tomorrow. Wear sexy lingerie. Don't be late.

Dear Draco Dearest,

Wow. Was what I read in the paper true Draco? You and Harry Potter? I don't think he deserves you, I mean come on! Your WAY hotter then him! Anyways, ARE you really gay? Is Potter a good shag?

Love always,
Slytherin 6th Year,
Midori Wan

Dear Midori Dearest,

I've seen you around the common room when I was in 7th year. You're hot! I would've cornered you and shagged you out of your own will, but I didn't. Because I'm gay. And I fully think that Harry deserves me because my dear Super-Duper-Pooper-Pie deserves only the best and the best would be ME. But I definitely agree with you when you say that I'm WAY hotter than him. Because it's true! But come on, Harry is very hot, isn't he? And, yes, once again… Harry is a very good shag. He's shagadellic.

Love,

Draco

Oh my God!

Draco, you are a sex-god! You invade my dreams every night, satisfying my every need and giving me indescribable pleasure over and over and over again! And I welcome these dreams eagerly. You are simply gorgeous! You are beauty at its peak! You are the Adonis of our Era! I have every single magazine picture you've ever posed for! I just love you! You are totally and completely fabulous! My boyfriend gets a bit jealous, but I don't care! You are the best! And I've totally accepted that you and Harry Potter are a couple! Actually, it makes for much more interesting dreams! I mean, he's quite the looker, as well. All though not nearly as attractive as you! But still, it's wonderful! You and Harry, laying in a satin covered bed, limbs tangled from previous, exhausting events, breathing over each other's faces. And sometimes there are even hand cuffs involved!

I love you Draco!

You're ever-adoring, number one fan,

Melanie Salazar

Dear Melanie,

Salazar? You sound very Slytherin-like! We must do lunch! Now Melanie, tell me exactly how I pleasure you…with my snake-like tongue? With my long, supple wand? Speak naughty to me, Melanie, speak naughty to me… Yes, I am fully aware of how gorgeous I am. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I gasp and say, "Oh my! Who is that lovely, lovely boy staring at me? Why, I must ask for his phone number!" And then I realize that it is me. I am a bit disappointed of course, because I cannot shag myself. Unless I cut off my wee-wee and shove it up my arse. But that would be very painful. I feel very honored to be included in your dreams… and now that Harry is with me, it's wonderful to know that he, too, can be a part of your fantasies. Tell me, all three of us are in the nude, right? Are we skipping through a field of daises while licking lollipops? Are we all making love underneath the shade of a large elephant?

Well, my darling. My favorite part of the letter is when you are describing our after-sex scenes. It turns me on so much, I think I will go and stick my pencil in Harry's sharpener right now. Bye!

Love,

Draco

Harry's face turned beet red, "Girls actually fantasize about that?"

"But of course, Potter," Draco looked at him. "Girls can't help but fantasize about two beautiful young men shagging each other. It's just how it goes…"

"But how come you make it seem like that you're the dominant one of this relationship?" Harry scrutinized Draco's reply to the girl.

Draco sighed, "Because I am the dominant one. I'm the one that gets to stick my pole up your arse, so quit whining about it. Now go make me a sandwich, woman!"

Dear Draco,

Since that you are now gay, I think it's safe to confess my true feelings for you. I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU, DRACO. I've always been in love with you! From the moment I set eyes on you, I decided to become your lackey just for the sole purpose of being able to follow you wherever you go. And yes, I do peek whenever you're in the shower. Ever since first year, I've been peeking. And do you remember when your underwear began to disappear? It was I who stole them. I would wear them on my head and SNIFF them. Oh, how I love the scent of DRACO. So please, dump that Harry Potter if you want some REAL MANLY LOVIN'.

Always and Forever YOURS,

Goyle

Dear Fred Weasley,

I know this is you. It's not funny. It's disturbing.

Love,

Draco

Dear Draco,

I've heard that GOYLE confessed his love to you. And I shall do the same! Do not go out with that horrid Goyle because it is I that loves you the most. I want you to be mine, Draco. I want to dress you up in a bunny suit and sing love songs to you. I want to lick caramel off your sexy body and I want you to WHIP me. WHIP ME, DRACO, WHIP ME. Shove a LOLLIPOP stick up my BUM! Take me to your candy shop!

Sexually yours,

Crabbe

Dear George Weasley,

If you continue to send these letters, I will hang you and your brother in my room and use you as punching bags. Then I will **** your mangled bodies.

Love,

Draco

Hi Draco (mr. fantabulously gorgeous hunk),

i'm a muggle who has stumbled (quite fortunately) into the wonders of the wizarding world. Of those wonders i've found Harry Potter. Harry Potter is so deliciously hot, but i've heard that he doesn't accept fanmail (out of modesty, i heard.. how cute!) and he doesn't model (a right pity).

Anyway, when i found out that you (lucky sod) had managed to hook up with him i was terribly excited for you. How'd you do it anyway? he's such a recluse and he seems so adorably shy no matter how manly he looks.. sigh Harry Potter.. don't you just love gazing into his eyes? they're so irrisistibly green that i'm pretty sure people who are fortunate to gaze in them get lost.. i wouldn't mind getting lost.

i can't help but ask if this is a long term deal? U guys look unbelievably hot together, but in the world of celebrities (even wizards n witches) they don't seem to last. i hope you do because you both seem to set sparks off one another, it's incredibly sexy. i've also wondered what your favorite position with Harry is? (not to sound pervy but you have to admit, ppl ARE imagining u two doing the dirty deed ) I also wonder if you'll convince Harry to do a few shoots with you? he's very gorgeous, it's a shame to put all that looks to waste.. Oh.. and what is your (and Harry's) all time favorite nickname to each other? The issue in Witches Weekly stated that you two were spouting numerous pet names to each other at T. Fiddy's party. that's so cute.. u don't care about embarassing each other cuz you're both so enamoured.. sigh young love..

oOoh.. i was also wondering if you guys were planning on vacationing at Hawaii anytime soon? The islands are lovely, particularly Maui, and it'd be great to see you in person..

Harry Potter's biggest muggle fan,

Anna lynn

ps. if u hurt Harry you die! you may be hot but I know u're a frisky fellow, i won't have you break his heart!

pps. Hi Harry! lovely watching u..

Dear Anna Lynn,

Why are you giving all your love to Harry and not to me? I'm very disappointed and jealous! Haven't you GAZED into my lovely grey eyes? Don't you get SUCKED into them as if you were DROWNING in a pool of grey? Have you noticed my wonderful UNBLEMISHED skin? ARE YOU BLIND! LOOK AT ME, WOMAN! This is "Draco's Fanmail" not "Harry's Fanmail"! It's always wonderful sweet POTTER that gets all the praise and affection! I never get anything! At Hogwarts he was Dumbledore's FAVORITE BOY and everyone's FAVORITE CELEBRITY! WHY, ANNA! WHY ARE YOU NOT GIVING ME ANY LOVE!

Harry watched Draco as he scribbled furiously on the parchment. He was almost close to tears. "Malfoy? What's wrong with you?"

Draco's head quickly shot up as if he had been in some sort of trance, "Oh. Nothing. I'm fine." He crumpled up his answer to her and began writing on a new piece of parchment.

Dear Anna Lynn,

Despite all the rumors you hear, I am not a Muggle hater. I love Muggles! They are simply delightful. And it's wonderful how you happened to stumble across our world. And I am indeed lucky to have scored such a hunk like Harry Potter. And it was very EASY for me to get him to date me. All I had to do was drop my pants in front of him, and he caved in! And as for the relationship, Harry and I are going strong! We will never break up because I'm too in love with him…

Draco stopped writing. He stared at his reply and read the last line he wrote: I'm too in love with him…Even though it wasn't the least bit true, it made his heart flutter a bit. How stupid… He shook his head and continued writing.

Now moving on to our favorite position. Since HARRY POTTER IS MY BITCH, I like being on top, of course. But then I'll never tire of seeing him in between my legs going down on my lollipops- But that's a different story. And my favorite nickname for Harry is Pinko-Dinko-Slinko-Bo-Binko. It's very unique. And I believe his favorite nickname for me is "Oh Almighty Penis."

Harry looked over Draco's shoulder and exclaimed, "That is NOT my nickname for you!"

Oh, and worry not about Harry wasting his good-looks. I'll convince him to do a naked photo shoot for the gay Wizard's magazine, Guess My Wand Size. And guess what… we're going to do the shoot in Hawaii! Yay, yay, coconuts for me and my love!

Love,

Draco

Well hello dear Draco,

I figured u've gotten some pretty weird emails from obsessed fans but I am here to tell you that even though to me you are totally hot and should be with . So I guess I shouldHarry I'm not one of your obsessed fans, just close to it tell you about a dream I had which involved u and Harry. So here it is, oh just a note there was no actual penetration in the dream, so u were sitting on a bed with your hands tied behind your head (kinky but hot) while Harry staring at you placed light kisses all the way down your body spending some time on your nipples. After making u tense with pleasure, Harry worked his way down your body teasing you the entire way. Once he reached your penis he started to lick and suck until it hardened then he straddled your hips and started to rock back and forth until… then my dream ended, sucks huh? Well juss thought you would like to know what people think about you.

K

Well hello dear K,

YOU HORRID GIRL! HOW COULD YOU END YOUR DREAM THERE! I COMMAND YOU TO GO BACK TO SLEEP AND FINISH THAT DREAM! That's a direct order, go back to sleep or else I will have to go over there and MURDER you! … So… do you think Harry enjoyed doing it as much as I enjoyed receiving it? But darling, you make it seem like Harry is the head honcho of the relationship. HE should be the one tied down and I'M the one who gets to straddle him and such. Oh, wondrous, wondrous, to be able to make mad passionate love to my Slinky-Winky. Well, my dear darling girl. It's hard to believe that you are not an obsessive fan when you are having SEX dreams about me and Harry. I don't blame you; I am UTTERLY GORGEOUS after all. Please continue having those dreams, and when you've finished that previous one- write me back. I should like to know the ending.

Love,

Draco

Draco sat at his computer (yes, he has a computer) and began to read K's letter over and over again. The idea intrigued him… Hmm… hands tied and kinkyness… He stood up and walked towards Harry's bedroom, "Um, Potter! I've to, um, talk to you…"

10 minutes later…

Draco sat back down in front of his computer, breathing heavily. He had attempted to "engage Harry in conversation" but failed miserably.

Harry stomped into the room, his hands tied behind his back and his shirt unbuttoned all the way. He looked like he had been molested against his will.

"What the hell was that, Malfoy!" he spat.

Draco shrugged lightly, "I wanted to talk to you about something but you wouldn't listen."

"You didn't talk, you groped—"

"Shut up, dear boy. I'm trying to answer my fanmail."

"Malfoy—"

"Dammit, woman! Go to the kitchen and get me a beer!"

Dear Draco,

I should warn you. You're going to get with Harry soon in this story. You're gonna FALL for him.

The Author,

Reshima

XXxxXXxx

Dear Reshima,

You are disgusting. You will never turn me into a homosexual no matter how hard you try. I don't care if you're the author!

Love,

Draco

XXxxXXxx

Dear Draco,

I have power over you. I can make you hit yourself.

The Author,

Reshima

XXxxXXxxx

Dear Reshima,

My face hurts. I just hit myself. Fuck you.

Love,

Draco

XXXxxxXXXXxx

Dear Draco,

Anytime, baby. Anytime.

The Author,

Reshima

Shanaia Aira's Point of View 


I was embarrassed because almost everyone were watching  us. My dance partner is staring at me intensely. Maybe if I'm an ice cream, I probably would have melted. 


The music is lingering, I am feeling uncomfortable with Jaytee's stare. 


Admittedly, I was crushing on him before but when he courted me it seemed like that feeling was gone, I don't know why, maybe it's just a crush and I don't want nothing more. We're not compatible. He is too handsome for me. And the main reason why I dumped him is because of Gelo. 


All my suitors were intercepted by Gelo. They can't even get close to me. I don't know about this man, he's so strict like a father. But it's okay with me if Gelo is acting like that, now that I'm sure of my feelings for him, all I want is that to be with him always. Though this guy in front of me is gorgeously handsome, my loyalty is still with Gelo. I hope the feeling is mutual. 

Promise me your mine tonight 🎶

I'll be waitin' lyin' tonight🎶

While the lights are low🎶

I never let you go.🎶


" You know Aira, I'm so happy that even for just tonight, you're my queen. I'm happy though it's only temporary." the voice of Jaytee puts me back  from my train of thoughts. 

" Huh!" 


"It's been two years but I'm still in love with you Aira." 


"Jaytee!" 


"I'm sorry. I tried so hard but I failed. But that's okay with me. I know that you can't force your heart to love me back, just let me love you. Maybe after graduation, If I don't see you often, this feelings I have for you will eventually fades." 


Did I dream that we dance forever🎶

In a wish that we made together 🎶

On a night that I pray would never end🎶

You know it's not my imagination 🎶

Or a part of the orchestration🎶

Love was here at the culmination🎶

I'm the king and you're the queen of hearts.🎶



"Jaytee, I'm sorry. But I hope we can still be friends or if not, atleast we could be civil to each other." 


" Yeah sure, why not. Time will come, I know I can forget this feelings I have for you. I hope in the future I can find another girl like you. And tonight , that you became my queen, I will not forget this, it will remain in my memory bank. " he sincerely said then smiled at me, it's like he accepted his fate between us. 


Time will pass and tears will fall🎶

But someday we'll both recall🎶

Moments  made of  this🎶

Golden memories.🎶



" Thank you Jaytee and again I'm sorry. " I said sincerely too. 


" Its okay Aira, don't  worry I understand.Let's just enjoy the night." he smiled sweetly at me.


I smiled back.This guy is a good man.Whoever is the girl whom he will love in the future and who will love him back is indeed lucky. If my heart is not inlove with Gelo, maybe this guy will have his chance on me but unluckily my heart only knew Gelo. 

When the music almost ends, he stared at me intensely and he caressed my face. And I almost got shocked when he kissed my forehead. 


" Thanks Aira. Can you be my last dance for tonight?"


Even before I answered, I gasp at the sudden grab on my arms and pull me out from the dance floor. 


" Sorry dude, I need to take her home, the night is getting old." 


Shocks! Who else is capable of pulling me in front of anyone?


He irreverently pulled me out in the middle of the crowd who are shocked by the scene Gelo has made.  He is really is an actor. Hmp. 


What a shame!


If only the ground could eat me up. I could almost stumble because he is pulling me mindlessly, luckily I'm just wearing a 2 inches heels. 


" Hey Gelo, wait! I would might trip on the ground. "


He didn't pay attention to me, he just kept on walking while continously pulling me. The people we were passing by are conciously looking at us until we reached the parking lot.

He opened the door to the passenger's side and quickly sat me down there then he put  my seat belt without looking at me. 


He turned around to the driver's seat and sat down, he shut the door carelessly. 


He looked at me with an irate look.I also met his gaze.

Does he think I'm scared of his death glares? Well, he's wrong! 

I was so embarrassed to Jaytee and the rest of the people in the dance floor. 


" What was that? Why are you suddenly coming over and pulling me away? My God Gelo what you did was so embarrassing !  I'm sure that was the headline for me throughout school when I come in tomorrow. You ruined my night!" I was seething with anger. 


" I saw Venice and Charlotte they had Kevin and Clyde  with them, I asked them about you and they said you were the one who won the Queen of the Night. I was so excited and proud that I begged the guard to allow me to come to the venue to watch you. And what did I see there baby? Your partner caresses your face and then kiss you. What do you expect me to do when I see that scene ?! " he was so annoyed.


"He just kissed me on the forehead. What's so bad about it? Why are you like this again?" I manage to answer in a low voice. 


"Isn't it obvious baby? I was struggling because I was jealous..I'm jealous! Damn! I'm fucking jealous!"


" Gelo!" 


" Yes baby, I can't stop being jealous whenever guys approaches you. I don't want to see anyone around you, I'm jealous and I can't help but get angry. You are mine Aira. Shanaia Aira Gallardo is only meant for Ariel Angelo Montero! "


"What the hell are you saying?"  I asked him. I'm so dumbfounded. 


" You're so numb, aren't this clear yet to you? Damn!  I love you!  I've been madly and deeply in love with you for so long. That's the reason why I blocked all your suitors. I'm protecting you, I care for you because I love you so much. I'm just waiting for the right time for you to be ready that's why I'm not telling you.I know you don't like an actor like me and I'm also afraid that you'll leave me alone when you find out that I love you. I can't handle it just in case. " his revelation seemed like a bomb exploded in front of me.I couldn't believe that he loved me too, he felt it first  than I do while me, I only realized that lately. 


I was just staring at him my tongue's limping and I didn't know what to say.


I didn't see this coming. I'm not ready.


"Are you mad at what I said? Please baby, don't push me away because of you discovered."

" No."

" No?"

" I'm not mad." 

" Really? So what's your answer?" 


" No." 

"Is that so? You don't love me." he assumed with a sad face. 


" Love." I answered briefly. 


He smiled broadly .. " you love me but why your answer is no?"


"What is your question, you have no questions but are you waiting for an answer?I don't know the answer because there is no question. " I tried to put it in a joke because I was so nervous. So this is how it feels when you least expect the one you love confess his feelings? 


" Hey baby, I'm serious here and you're trying to be a comedianne there. .Okay I repeat, I love you.I'm madly and deeply in love with you.Will.you.be.my.girlfriend? That's the question."


" You want me to answer right away?"

 " Yes of course!"


" Why are you in a hurry? "


"Of course I did hide my feelings for you for so long, so now that I have said it, I want to know your answer."


I sigh .. "Gelo I'm scared.What if, we will not work out as a lovers and we are only better as best friends? You may just think that you love me because we are always together.Look at how I look, we are not compatible. You're so handsome while here I am who looks like a nerd. The people who will know about us will just laugh at you. And we can't do now the things we do often when we are just best friends. You can't suddenly crash into my room and do sleep overs. That would be awkward.  "


" Why are you so hard on yourself? Don't you look in the mirror? You are so pretty baby. You are actually much beautiful than Shane, you just keep it in your big eye glasses. And again, it is not just your face but your whole being that I love. Don't you wonder why you are so many suitors in spite of how you think of yourself, that you are not beautiful ?Do not be afraid that we will not work as lovers because our foundation is strong, our friendship. I'm also ready for the changes just in case, as long as you and me will end up together? What now baby, do we go for it? "


" It's too fast, you know. Girlfriend already? Are you in a hurry? Can't I say, let me think about it? Or are we not going through the courting stage? And you need to ask for my daddy's permission of course. "


"I already asked their permission, my dear princess." I was surprised at what he said.


"And when did you asked their permission ? Why didn't they mention anything to me?"


"Actually last year when we went to the US, I told them all. They said the decision is yours. Tito Adrian also said that if you are willing to have a relationship with me, expect the changes to take place. It's different now, unlike when we're just bestfriends. It's not nice to see. "


 I look him straight in the eye. This is it. I don't want to waste this moment. 


" Yes Gelo. "


" Yes? You mean, we're together now? "

" Yes I'm willing to accept the changes that will happen between us because I love you too Gelo, so much. "


" Really? Really Aira? No more turning back? "


" I already said yes! "


 He immediately got out of the car and screaming like an idiot. 


"Yes! I'm so happy, finally, Shanaia Aira Gallardo is my girlfriend now! Thank you Lord! Best Valentine's day ever! YAHOOO!"

"Hey Gelo, what a shame!"


It was good that there were no people on the road because it was late at night, and the cars that were passing by were scarce.

"Baby I'm happy because you're my girlfriend now, my very first girlfriend.Promise, I will stay true to you and will do my best to make you happy and work on this relationship.Just trust each other and be open to everything.God is the center of this relationship and I know this is going to work. "

"Hey Gelo, you know you are my first boyfriend too, we are both first timers here. God forbid, let's put everything in His hands. "


He took my hand and kissed the back of my palm.

"I love you baby and thank you for loving me back."


"I love you and I trust you, thank you too for you love me so much.But Gelo, you are so annoying, you didn't even courted me!" 


"Hahaha. Don't worry baby even though you're my girlfriend now I will still court you every day. Let's go home and let them know."


"Hope they agree, they won't be angry." 


"No, trust me." he said. 



As we made our way home we held hands. I'm happy with the new level of relationship I have with Gelo. But I still have hesitations .I broke a rule in my life. I don't want to fall in love with an actor. I'm scared.Maybe Gelo and I wouldn't have stayed long if the public knew about it.I don't want him to choose. I don't want to be selfish to him. What if we get ruined by intrigue? How is that?


I love him dearly. We love each other.What if the day came to break us apart because of his profession being an actor?


Do our love be good enough to fight? 


I heaved a sigh.  I have a lot of hesitations and the what ifs.  Well, whatever. I'll just cross the bridge when we get there.

Shanaia Aira Gallardo belongs to a family of politicians and artists. Isn't it ostentatious? But she doesn't like politics and showbusiness because for her, this world is complicated, incoherent and no privacy at all. And she believes that as soon as you enter showbusiness , you need to accept that your life is not just yours anymore – it is everyone’s. You belong to the public and owned by public. 


But what if the only person she secretly loved belong to this world?


Will she keep her promise to herself or will she just give in to what her heart dictates? 


Let's find out.

After hearing it from Je, everyone gulped except Tae. Rei didn't expect that this two will fight because of her. Rei knows that Tae is not like this and she knows why Tae doing like this, because of her. Rei knows that Tae will solve it and she trust him because she's aware how Tae value his teammates especially Je who's the closest of him. The team didn't butted in between them because they know that this two will become more closer after this fight.


Tae : So then what do want me to do? I didn't answer your question because I don't want to hurt your feelings so I did the dare but then you're still mad, so which one do you want me to do?

Je : You already kiss Manager Rei, Bro Tae.


Tae : You're the one who ask me to do that kind of dare


Je : Yeah I did that because I know you're not the type to do that, so why did you do that, why?

Tae : Do you really want me to tell you the truth.


Je : Yes I want you to tell the truth. So do you really love Manager Rei? Why did you become so unreasonable all of sudden and why did you become so talkative all of sudden?


Tae : Do you really want to hear the truth?


Je : Yes I want to hear the truth and don't keep asking. I want to hear it from you Bro Tae.


Tae : You want to hear the truth then YES (empashizing the word YES) I love Manager Rei and I love her more than you do. You don't even know how I feel but I know how you feel that's why I didn't admit that one when you ask me because I don't want to hurt your feelings.

All : (surprise of Tae's admittance except Rei) eh? You really love Manager Rei?


Tae :  Uh-uh, so now Je you're heard me.


Je : Then why are you not admitting it right away and you don't need to kiss Manager Rei because I dare you. You're being unreasonable  Bro Tae.


Tae : Loving a person is not unreasonable Je and I didn't admit it right away because I don't want to hurt you. I dared to kiss Manager Rei not just because you dared me, I did it because I love her.


Je : Then do you ever think by kissing Manager Rei you're not hurting my feelings? Even Manager Rei kissing on your check already hurt my heart and then you just kiss Manager Rei on the lips with everyone here.


Tae : Then why did you dare that one Je?


Je : It's because I thought you're not going to do it.


Tae : You're thinking and asking like that because you didn't think about my feelings.


Je ; Because you didn't tell us that you love Manager Rei.


Tae : Because you didn't ask and even you didn't tell me, I know that you love Manager Rei. You've been selfish enough that you didn't realize that I also love her.


Je : How come I know that you love Manager Rei? You're keeping the aloof and cold expression of yours Bro Tae


Tae : I'm always like this


Je : No you're not, if you're like that then among all of us, why are you the only one who didn't suspect Manager Rei? 


Tae : Because you suspect Manager Rei without trusting her.


Je : We don't have other choice because it's our first time meeting with Manager Rei and how about you Bro Tae, this is your first time meeting with Manager Rei, right?


Tae : I told you that I love her more than whatever you feels. And then you're admitting that your love Manager Rei when just a only simple action you're already suspecting her.


Je : Then don't tell me you didn't even suspect Manager Rei?


Tae : Yeah not even once because I trust Manager Rei and I didn't question her once because I trust her.


Je : I see so you really love Manager Rei , Bro Tae.


Tae : Uh-uh and I already admitted it many times.


Je : Then if I didn't ask you that one, so are you not going to tell us that you love Manager Rei?

Tae : .....(speechless)


Je : See, you're not going to tell us that you love Manager Rei.


Tae : I'm planning to tell.


Je : So when?


Tae : At the right time


Je : Then how come you tell us right now?


Tae : Because you ask me


Je : Because of me, because of me. You're always putting the blame on me Bro Tae


Tae : I didn't blame you Je and I just considered you're feelings. I didn't answered because I didn't want you to get hurt and I answered you because you want me to tell the truth.

Je : Then see you're blaming me Bro Tae.

Tae : That's not for blaming but instead consideration Je

Je : consideration, are you sure?

Tae : I am and Je can you open your eyes because you've been blinded with your emotions.

Je : I already opened my eyes.

Tae : Then if you really opened your eyes, you can see that I always considered you Je.

Je : I don't know, I don't know. Why are you being like this Bro Tae? Can you give up your feelings to Manager Rei and let me happy instead?

Tae : If that easy to do then I will not fight for you this time for this reason. If I give up my feelings with Manager Rei have you been considered what will I feel? If I let you happy, what do you think of my feelings would be? If I don't be like this would you be ever know what I feel?

Je : That's....(speechless)


Tae : See you didn't know how are you going to response that one because you've been selfish enough Je

Je : Then what I'm going to do? I also love Manager Rei.

Tae : You just give up since you didn't trust Manager Rei and you're love to her is easy to be shaken just for a simple reason. You're doubting already her when you're not in a relationship yet and how much more if you're in a relationship with her?

Je : That love of mine is still growing.


Tae : Are you sure is still growing?


Je : Yes and why are you doubtful Bro Tae? I'm the one who knows my feelings the best 


Tae : If you really love a person even a smallest things and details you can tell it already. You were be cautious enough who loves your love. You were become paranoid when you're love talking to others aside from you. You will become like nothing if that person is away from you and even worse you don't know how are you going to do if that person is not with you at your side.


All of them are speechless because this is the first time Tae so opened up to them, Rei already knows because this is also how she feels but sometime she was astonished because she can tell that Tae really loves her more than what she feels towards Tae but well even though Rei cannot measured how Tae love to her , she also going to show how she loves him in her way. The two are continue asking and defending back with each other but the teams are glad that Tae is slowly opening up with them after 10 years of being a group.
 

The two almost forgot that the person they're talking is there and listening their discussion. If Rei doesn't know that Tae have feelings to her and Tae not her husband maybe she's been too shocked and surprised for this revelation.

A chic and quite type but also a petite, slim and cute lady who happened to meet her destine partner without knowing that this man will be her first and last man. Not only that, she will also be the wife of her long time pop idol since high school. 

From watching him only on TV and Monitor to be personally meet him personally.

Din Lou Rei at the age of 27 got married to her long time pop idol Jun Tae Woo, who is also known to be a chic and quiet type, who happened to be exactly like Din Lou Rei.

But before she will meet her destined one, she will be experience first what a painful love feel and got cheated on.

Who will get in love first, Din Lou Rei or Jun Tae Woo?

Who will confess first and how the two of them will meet when the two of them living in different country? Not city but a county.

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"So Shiroe-nee you know what is unrequited love is, right?"I asked.

"Un, I think I understand...it's unfulfilled love."She nodded.

"Good, then let's move on the other painfull love."I sighed, I feel like I'm a teacher teaching a student. But the difference is that the topic is about love.

Although, I taught her about love. I only told her what I know about love. I'm not saying I'm expert, I also don't understand how really love works. 

"The last one is Forbidden Love."I paused looking at Shiroe's reaction.

"Eh...forbidden love? Is it the same as us grimoires?"She asked.

"Yes but also No. Your creator forbid you to love doesn't mean it's already a forbidden love. But it will become forbidden if a grimoire fell in love with someone.."I taught her.

"Hnnn, I don't understand. Can you give me an example?"She asked. She doesn't get it? Oh come on, it's simple you know. I sighed.

"Okay, for example. A love between a teacher and a student is forbidden by law."I said.

Shiroe got confused."Why?"

Is she really a genius? She's doing it on purpose right. Calm down me. 

"Well, because that's the law. I don't why a teacher and a student is forbidden to fall in love...but I can also understabd why it's forbidden. It would be the favoritism, if a teacher dated a student. That teacher might increase of the student...that's what I understand. I think there is more to it."I said slowly and calmly even though I'm already exhausted mentally from explaining.

"Shido didn't you say everyone is free to love?"She asked a question that made me speechless.

How could I answer this...How the heck should I know. The law themselves decided all of it, not me. 

"Ah, you know Shiroe-nee. It's true that everyone is free to love but there are also restrictions. The law was created by the goverment and the people cannot disobey the law, lest they go to prison... But doesn't mean, there will be no one will take the risk."Patiently explaining. 

"Hmm, is that so...Humans are really stupid ain't they?"She mumbled loudly.

I nodded unconsciously. Yeah, Humans are stupid. They always teach us, we are free. We have freedom. But yet we live with restrictions, rules and laws. I understand why there are laws but saying we are living freely is a bit inaccurate.

"Well, let's forget about such things... Now that I already explained what love is. I think you already know the gist of it."I said with exasperated sigh.

"I may have understand about it a little bit. There are things I couldn't quite understand... Would you mind answering my questions Shido?"She smiled.

Staring at her eyes for a second. I release another sigh inside my mind. I nodded.

"Okay, let's hear it."I said.

"You said that you will feel very comfortable with the person you love right? Your heart will beat faster if you are near them right? "She asked with innocent expression.

"Yeah, I did say that."I nodded.

Shiroe stared at my eyes. "Then doesn't that mean, I love you?"

I couldn't reply her question. How the hell did she come with that conclusion. She always treated my like a child. I was stunned for a minute.

"W-Why can you say that?"I asked while gulping.

"That's because when I saw you, I feel very happy. Seeing you made my heart beat faster. Sitting beside you is very comfortable. Talking with you is very nice. You teaching me complicated things even though, You look pretty annoyed, but you still continued teaching me...I felt very ashamed pushing you to ask my questions even though I already get it...I feel very warm inside. So I came into conclusion that I love you."She explained.

"S-Shiroe-nee..."I sighed.

"Also, you calling me big sister made my heart flutter with happiness. It reminds me of the past."She smiled sweetly.

"You realize you just confessed to me right?"I said.

"Yes I did."She nodded with a big bright smile.

"Isn't your love a bit too fast Shiroe-nee?"

"Shido, didn't you said. Love is uncontrollable and unpredictable?"She gave me a teasing look with a cheeky smile.

I slapped my forehead, well I did say that. I thought it would take time to make her fall in love with me. But I wasn't expecting this. When I'm explaining her about love, I also have an intention to make her mind. You could say, I'm planning something. But what I didn't expect is her confession.

"Hmm, I think you should contemplate about your feeling first Shiroe-nee. Love is a very important, especially the first love. I would really love to accept your confessions. But-"Before I could continue my sentence I can feel the temperature is dropping low, I look at Shiroe and saw hr eyes became terrifying serious.

"Shido, your doubting my feelings?"She asked softly but her voice consist a very terrifying pressure.

I shuddered, I just realized she was very strong. I unconsciously shake my head.

"N-No! I'm not Shiroe-nee...I just don't want your precious first love to be with someone like me...you know that I already have many women right?"I said with a bit fear. 

Shiroe stopped the pressure and listened to my words. She contemplated for a bit and look deep into my eyes. She trace no lies. She felt a bit pain inside her heart. She only knew about monogamous love and taught this practice is very reasonable. So polygamous love is bit knew to her, the thought of sharing her love to other women dissatisfied her. 

But looking at the the young man she just confessed. She was very confused why she confessed to begin with. She didn't what's her mind was thinking. The only thing she felt is the urge to confess her deep feelings. 

Shiroe close her eyes, she read many books about love. She didn't waste her eternal life without learning everything. It's true she could not experience love because they are forbidden by their creator but that doesn't apply of learning what love is. 

She read many books about love. Even naughty books. She understand what sex is and already knew what Shido is teaching her. She just pretend she didn't know. But, seeing Shido a young man she knew since he was a child patiently explain love to her. Made her a bit apologetic. 

She already knew that Shido has a relationship with his sisters, aunts and nieces...How did she knew? Well, she accidentaly read his mind. She only wanted to see through his lies but didn't expect to see something made her speechless.

Incest is a Forbidden love that's what she knew. Thinking that the young man ignore the law. She was enlightened. Since a young human disregard the taboo, why couldn't she do it? A higher being at that. So she decide to take the risk. 

She have a good feeling to this young man. She decided to try her first love to him. Shido, even though she treated him like a child. He is the only one close to her. 

"Shido, I don't care about how many women you have. Honestly, I wanted you to be my first. You are the only man close to me. Although, I still don't quite understand what love is. Maybe in the future I might fall in love with you...so will you accept me?"Shiroe softly said.



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A story of a highschooler getting hit by truck. Hmmm, this sounds very familliar. 

The boy woke up and found himself still alive, However there is a problem. 

When he was hit by a truck, He thought he could have a fluffy harem life in Isekai just like the novels he read. Saddly, Reality struck him. 

The boy was once again reincarnated in his world 'Earth', It's the same Earth he lived. He despaired and thought he can finally meet a chienthrope or a beautiful Elf. In his despair, The boy jump into the woman who introduce herself as his Sister and ravage her up to down.

The boy finished his meal but realization struck his mind again. However, He found out that he was one of the men that survive the calamity.

Over 99% of male humans had been wiped im the face of earth leaving a small populace of men. He also found out that men is treated as stallion for breeding. 

What would the boy do?

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This novel contains inappropriate relationship, mainly incest. This also an adult content. So kids are not allowed.

The first 8 chapters was kind of rushed and fast.

I'm really not good at writing novel but I'm learning slowly.

As for grammar and English, welp. There might be problems with that along the way.

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piya : tae is down what happend if he love or not but i love him only, and you are my friend only not more (i start cry hardlly ,leave me alone jin
Jin : try to comfort but i push him, dont come close to me you want i only; so take me and i cut my hand 
Jin : no you cant do this, he start cry and give bandage 
Jin : wakeup piya dont leave me 
I wake up and look at him 
piya : i love you as my brother and i love tae, plz get me my tae. love is not a thing that can be buy and win it is a filling with us and we can do anything for him or for his happiness we can leave him for our love, look at jk he love me so he help me and take my side becoz he want to see me happy and he doesnt want to see me cry i think his love is pure for me, and your is fake love, he relise me becoz he want to see me happy ,and you your trying to win but you know that you are losing me as friend also, if you want i then you can only get my body not my soul are you understand 
Jin : (he touch forhead to forhead and kiss me on lip and start looking into eyes while crying)piya  i am sorry i thought
About only me and want to get my love at any cost, i will help 
You for your happiness, i love you so much, so much.... 
Jk come into room 
piya : come sit we all have to decide a plan to get back from hipnotize and then we have to get tae, gays
Jk : but what about jin ?
piya : look jk jin also help us he realised what is true love 
Then we get down and look it
Jk : if you want back from hipnotize you have to kiss him 
like camp, and try to memorise you by his first gift, 
Jin : what is his first gift ? 
piya : when he meet me first time he put a shirt and then a  party dress , i have that two 
They get that things, but how to get near to tae 
Jk :we seprate the consentration and start fighting that time you have to kiss him on.. Lips like camp 
Then they take all peoples attention i get close to tae and kiss him on lips like camp and show him that shirt but it seems that he didnt get back
And his dad grab three us and then his dad make him. King then cristine come close to me 
Let give him her death and she slap me, i start cry and start talking, 
Cristine : you are really different from world somthing special in you, is that your nonsence stupid girl, (someone said me this before also i remember that woman future seeing woman she told me this sitchuation earlier and my talking sence is my power)  
piya : look cristine, your not her love and if you marry you didnt get tae, 
Oh uncle you know i am your doughter in law already and also your boy only  love me you get his all love from him, his mother, brother, and sister also and your geting his lover also, you only can kill me physically but you cannot destroy me from his mind, me and my Fate tae are joinded by heaven If i die, he will also, your good king but unfortunatlly your a badest father of world he didnt call you father and your not able to call him son also, 
You cant fill his fillings if you want your child then try to listen his heart anotherlly if this time get escaped then in your hand nothing anything to handle and that time cristine slaped me, 
piya : tae you hurt me again, 
And then she start suking blood and tae get out from hipnotize and run and push her but i am fainted that time, he try to kill himself then his dad stop him but then he kiss me again and again on lip 
V : (while crying) piya wakeup,dont leave me alone, i love you so much, plz weakup. 
you promiced me never ever quit from life, wakeup your family and me waiting for your smile, piya dont ignore me anotherlly i give you harder punishment, wakeup na look i am here, 
Cristine push him from me
Cristine :tae i love you and i am better than her, so why you dont love me, what is in her that not in me? 
Tae : because your not her, you only try to win love, and you lose me for lifetime now get out from here anotherlly i will kill you, by my hands
Vdad : i am sorry my child i cant fill your fillings i just try you to make like me
V : dad i take your sorry if you give piya to me, wake up her
Vdad :use some powers 
Vdad fall down and fainted
I wakeup and look i am with tae, we huge eachother 
piya : tae are you remember me now i love you so much 
V : love you to my panda 
piya : haha dont call me panda mr.rude
V : no your rude
piya :no you are 
V : no you 
piya :no you
V: you
piya :you
V : you 
piya : i said you 
V : no am not
piya : no you are only
V : how dare you call me rude 
piya : i call you rude becoz your
V : now shut up panda 
piya :how dare to call me panda
Jk : are you stop this nonsence or we have to do somthing 
V : you said her she start it 
piya : you should have to told your friend he start this 
Jin : lets do something 
piya and tae : what you two want to do now
Jin : lets sepreat them again
V huge me tightlly and i huge v tightlly 
V : no plz dont did again 
piya : i dont wonna sepreat now
V start looking into eyes(her eyes are so deep i want fallen into deepness
piya : i start looking into his eyes(his eyes are dark and sparkling like he hipnotize me) he come close to me more close to me now there is no space between us he come close now i can fill his warm breaths on neck and can heared his heartbeats getting faster and then he try to kiss me i close my eyes but suddnly  
Jk and jin grab our mouth 
 jin : not now gays we all are here, watching you can you do this after 
 Jk : love birds control yourself
 Jin : tae is like this but piya you also did this 
 Jk : look she start blushing and geting red, tae push them and start to come close to me 
jk : now someone 
 Handle tae onotherlly we cant control him
 Jin : hide her and grab tae right now, and someone look vdad he is fainted 
 piya : gays relise me, sorry na 
 Then jk and jin take me to my home and tae come with his family to talk with dad for marriage 
 Jk : her family know we all are vampaire 
 piya : no, not again 🙆
 Then jk and jin come with me into my home 
 Jk : piya are you ready to tell truth, to your parents 
 Jin : if you want tae then you have to told to conveance
 piya : gays this is diffecult and most hardest task for me 
 Gays stay with me, help plz
Jk : piya you can, you can do it 
piya : yes i can, yes i can , no i cant get back the car
Jin : 😁😅😂😂😂😂😂
Then they take me into home, and mom, dad, and bro are sit front of me and taes family also sit front of me and jk sit with be side of me, 
piya : dad i want to told you i love tae so much 
Dad : i know that, and we decide your marriage
piya : dad, i love him and i dont care who is he and how he is but i only marry him 
piya : tae and his family even jk and jin also vampaires, 
Then taes family and jin,jk,and me try to convence harder, 
But they didnt accept it 
piya : dad i want to told also one thing 
Dad : now what remains 
piya : that actually happen that tae and i already married and we only want your permission and again marrieage , and then tae come close to me and carry me in bridal style front of my dad and everyone look at  us 
Tae : dear piya's dad are you give us permission or i want to do somthing different for her
(i start blushing and geting red) (tae look at me and smrinked) dear dad i marry with her already becoz i know this like somthing happend, she is my bride and i did all with her nothing remains anything, 
me :tae what are you saying nothing happend between us anything (tae cover my face with. his hand) 
tae :if i decide then i can get her right now but she want your permission so i come and look we didnt suck her blood not every vampaire suck blood
Dad : (look at me)okey you can 
piya : tae put me down.(he come to kiss me) but jk and jin stop him i get near to dad and huge dad 
And then...

      ON MARRAGE DAY 
 this time i am grabing my dads hand, and front of me tae is waiting for me and jk, jin and all friends look at me shooked and tae open his mouth in shooked and my look is beautiful white princess bridal  dress with in my hands a beautiful flowers and he look at me and he smrinked, then dad give my hand in his hand he grab my hand and
prist : tae are you accept  her your future wife 
tae : yes i do 
prist : okey, now piya you accept him as husband 
piya : yes i do 
then its kiss time, he come close to me and kiss me on lip lightlly and then we get married and then he carry me bridal style and then its photo time, after tae come close to me and said in low voice now we marry now i cant wait more and he start kiss and jk take photo, then tae carry again in bridal style and leave from there with me, and then he said 
tae : now you cant give me more wait and huge me ,
 so your punishment is to much hard for you (i start blushing and geting hard and he start smrinked hardlly, he put me start seeing into my eyes and  start kiss me on lips 
Jk and jin : love birds we all  here and watching you both, 
V : i dont care i cant control myself now, ignore both of us 
Jin : lets sepreat both of them 
V and me : no ,never ever try 
              TIME SKIP 
tae start handlling fathers beusiness and he want more childs but i want only one girl and one boy, crisitne marry with jin, and lisa marry with jk,and my bro marry with nancy, i dont know when my bro love her but his happy
And we all living happily ever
V : are you done come here right now i am waiting and you gave me more wait now come for punishment anotherlly i will come there and its hard for you ,
me : wait my video is done, i am coming just minute after,
and thats my story get success, 
tae : i am coming and its now hard for you (he come close to me and huge me from back, 
and carry me in bridal style 
tae : i told you if i come now your punishment is to much hard for you dear, (i start blushing and getting red) 
tae : panda now your punishment haredst ever because your mistake

Jens, who once wakes up in the middle of a city without memories of his past other than this name is the protagonist of the story. He starts his journey with meeting new friends and rivals, eventually learning things about his past and regaining portions of his memories. The magical journey starts becoming a horrifying nightmare...

The rain is pouring hard but the moon shines so bright that looking at it caused a a person a terrible pain in the eyes. It was Ajan and when she looked at it directly, she was reminded with how the moon used to look before, back when she still have him... he always used the moon as his metaphor. 

She misses him, but she really doesn't love him anymore.. Maybe she loves their memories, but not him... She don't know how it all faded, but everything is gone. 


"I swear." 

Ajan was writing on her journal when a letter came dashing on her window which contained a very familiar handwriting on the outside. She sneaked into the window and picked up the letter, and she seemed ro be frozen from astonishment because the letter- it was from him. She almost burned the paper in the fireplace, but something inside her told her to read it... Something is wrong. There were 3 periods on the envelope, which was Cammy's trademark or pen name when writing. 

"Cammy, why write me now?" 

She opened the envelope and saw a light brown paper that were glistening, but when she opened the letter inside it, the inks were distorted and trails of tears had almost erased them. 



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To my Love, Mae Ajan.

			Hello, my love. How are you? I just hope that you are fine right now because if you are, then I'd be so happy to know that. 

			I miss you so much. It's been weeks already, and I miss talking to you... It's really so hard to restrain myself from taking to you because you said you wanted space. I can still feel you near me despite having you away... so away that just thinking about it makes my heart hurt more, because it longs for you... It longs to be with you. Please smile Ajan... You know how I love those smile of yours... 

			Your smile is a scenery I will never get tired of seeing for the rest of my life... I still hear your voice through distant shores. 

			I went back to our everything which has now turned to nothing- and realized what I have done to you, my love and I am very sorry for not being enough. I lacked support because I was so busy trying to support myself. I'm sorry if you felt untrusted because you know for a fact that i really don't trust humanity but believe me, I gave my entire trust to you. 

			Always and forever, I love you and I will forever entrust my heart and soul to you my angel. 

			I still can't believe that everything we ever had all vanished in front of my eyes in a split second. I just can't believe that you are gone in my life because you are the only person who can replace the sun and the moon I adore- and their beauty combined cannot surpass your beauty. So what is the purpose of my life now? You have been my source of strength, my happiness, my inspiration. This is why I was working so hard, so you can see me succeed, so I could finance you as well and we could succeed together. 

			I can't write anymore. My arms are numb now but I will still write because there are so many words left unsaid that I don't want to be stored in my heart till my very last breath. I want to pour it all out now, and say my darkest secrets, to you, my favorite human, the only one I trust. 

			I love you. 

			I'd like to start from the very beginning- do you still remember, my love when I transferred to your school and saw you? Your name really intrigued me.. Then we talked in our phones 'till 3am until our phones run out of battery. I was the happiest because you accompanied me when I was having a hard time. 

			Then we began talking at school as close friends... You even defended me from Lem, Lei and Kris when they were bullying me. 

			Because this is all I am... A nerd. And that's why people kept on hating me because just my very presence is annoying for the competitive people. 

			But you did not care.... 

			You loved me so much, and you accepted my worst sides. 

			It hurts me now that it should be written in past tense.... Because everything is all in the past now. 

			My love, do you remember what happened in August 11, 2016? Something special happened.. You got an award and I was soooo happy for you my heart started to ache I had to take my medicines right away. 

			Or do you remember September 11, 2016? This is when I confessed my love towards you through a letter and kaboom! I courted you for months and we became a couple everyone envied because we are both at the top of the class. 

			Still, the 3 bastards kept on bugging me but you were there to support me. The only friend I have back then was you, my lover. 

			No. My past lover whom I loved the most. Tell me, my love, how did we become strangers when we knew everything to each other? How can our love not last when everyone was adoring how strong we were? 

		To be honest, i love you more than I loved myself.. You were the one who picked me up from the trash where I was imprisoned. You gave luminance to the sun that once faded in my life.. 

			Because of you, I wanted to live. 

			I wanted to live.... 

			You are the best blessing I have ever had in	my life and I am so proud of you... My heart breaks more if yours does.... So please, refrain from crying. I know you are sad too... 


			Or at least I hope so. Haha

			Maybe we really aren't deserving. I don't deserve you and I don't deserve this life.

			I don't deserve a life with you.. But my love, you have accepted every ugly thing about me but why did you leave me because of them? You said you would be with me even if I become an old man. You said we'd have a beautiful family and they will be loved so much.. You said you'd never leave me... 

			In my dreams, you are mine, but in reality, you are a dream that will never come true. A dream I once had, that will forever lurk deep into my heart. 

			But if you were a dream, I'd sleep again so I can be with you. Even if it's temporary... Even if all of it is.... 

			Fake. 
			I will endure it all because I want to be with you. I'm always astound to how one person can become another's entire universe in a span of time. 

			Before I met you, I was diagnosed with depression and I was suicidal... The thoughts inside me clouded, but when you came, the sun shined, and the darkness ended. 

			More than that, i have another confession.... 



			I have a heart disease.... And by the time you are reading this, I might have gone from this world... But I have lived my life to the fullest. Thanks to you...  My temporary forever. 

			Goodbye, Love... 

			I love you. I miss you. You mean the whole world to me... Please survive... Your mental health, please take care of it better, okay? Please take care of yourself okay? 

			If I ever have the chance to relive again, I would choose to be the rain, because when we are together, it always rains.... 

			And I want to make you happy. 

			I hope I somehow managed to make you happe even once in my sad lifetime. I was happy to have lived in this world.. I was happy to have you around... Please remember that.. 


-Cam

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"What the actual fuck did I just read? It's so creepy I can't believe he wrote that. I refuse to believe everything I have read.Him dying? No. He is one of the strongest person I know in my life." Ajan told to herself but tears started to make the paper wet in her arms. She had noticed the pain Cammy was experiencing but she never cared to ask because she thought he was strong.

"you are darkness and i am your light, i may destroy you but i can never live without you"

Mia's pov-

"When snow falls to ground i just think about the one and only you, you were my Savior. Without you i would have been not breathing today! But why you left? You said you will be back. Its been 10 years i am waiting for you to come back. The day i saw you for very first time i fell in love with those bright red orbs! I dont know how you had such a beautiful combination of dark night with blood red but that's what made me fall in love. You may think i am stupid! Which 10 year old girl falls in love? But i fell with you and today it marks 10 years of my love to you"
Thinking of this i kept a rose on the same tree where i last met him. Trees are covered with snow just like that day. I wish he could see the love i had for him!

Taking my glouse off i went inside my home only to be stopped by my angry mom and my beloved dad who is trying to calm her down. 
i knew something really went wrong when i was out. 
"what's wrong" I asked my mom who had her eyes glaring onto dad which was pretty obvious that my dad hasn't agreed something with her. 

"ask your dad what's really wrong" told my angry mother who's too pissed off to tell me anything. 

"there is nothing wrong my pricessa, the lady here your mom was craving for icecream and i was denying her because its snowing too hard outside but alas she wants it and i have to be victim of her assaults just because i care for her" my dad accused my mom who was busy giving puppy eyes to my dad and me. 

"mom you need to understand its snowing and you aren't well too, please mom i promise ill make you pancakes now, with strawberry syrup and we will have icecream tomorrow if it doesn't snow too bad" i tried to convince her as i know how hard headed she is. 

"are you really going to make pancakes for me? " she asked with the hope in her eyes. she's damn sweet when she says such things with her brown eyes showing purity. that's why mothers are different. they tend to love you with no condition and they will be happy with the little things done for her. 

"yes mom! With your favourite syrup" i said with all the excitement i can muster up at that moment. 

"then it's fine but only on one condition, this old man here is not going to get one piece of it" she glared at dad by saying this. 

"what? I also need pancakes. This is unfair i cant pay just beacuse i care for you"  dad sighed dramtically to which my mom softened . this is how they are. they can't fight with each other and if they do they usually mend it up by an hour or so. that's why they are couple goals in my eyes. 

"fine, you can have but you need to say that 'my wife is smarter than me and i love her" my mom kept a childish condition infront of my dad. 

"you are the smartest honey and i love you" with that dad pecked my mom on lips. 

"ewww,mom dad no showing love infront of me. You people are making me feel sick" i really had a urge to puke

"say the same thing when you will see your beloved, when we are in love we dont care where we are or who are watching us what we do care is, the one whom we love" said my mom with Adoration in her eyes for my dad

But it hurts that i can never love anyone else than him .he was the only one who created the feeling of love in me. 
Seeing the pain in my eyes , my mom hugged me and said

"i know my baby girl is in love with that mistarious man who saved you that night! I dont understand how you fell in love with him? But i hope he is also in love with you, otherwise if he shows up to my door with any other girl i am gonna chop his family jewels" 

"mom please! He wont i know. He will come one day and get me with all the love he ever had"

Leaving my mom and dad in living room i went to kitchen to make some panckes. How i wish i could make some for him. Sighing with little disappointment i went to make pancakes. 
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"pancakes are ready, my lovely mom and dad "  i announced it entering the living room only to turn & keep hands on my eyes and scream my lungs out! 

"ahhhh my virgin eyes. You two being my parents doesnt have shame at all. You people are making out in living room where i am making pancakes for both of you in kitchen? I literally saw you both here all over each other i am going to get nightmares for weeks together" saying this i turned towards my parents who were now decent to look on. The face they had was like the kid who get caught doing something wrong and is going to get punished.

"are you going to say something? You know what dont say anything i am going to my room and ill have my pancakes over there you two can enjoy here alone! "
Saying this i turned around and went to kitchen took my plate and flew to my room, even though i heard apologetic calling from my mom and dad but ,no i am not going to have dinner with them afetr seeing the thing which i didn't wanted to! 

Reaching my room i banged the door. I kept the plate in nightstand near the bed and went towards the window. Its still snowing heavily like that night.same pitch black night is it a sign that he is going to be back? 

Hearing some noise near my door i can tell you that those two whom i call my parents are here to woo me but guess what i am not going to be easy on them this time! Sometimes i wonder how my mom and dad are related to me? I mean my mom is short with brown hairs and dad is also not that of a height with blond hair. And me i am as long as poll in street and i have this pitch black hair! I asked the same question with my parents to which they replied "you look like your grand parents my lovely mia, your grandmaa had black hairs where as your grandpa was 6ft" i guess that is the very reason but sometimes i still wonder.. 
Thinking of these things will make my panckes go cold. I sat on my bed with my pancakes and turned the tv on so that i can hear some great news of one direction being back together! I know i wish little more but alas i am a one direction stan! But to crush my dreams the reporter started with the news of some dead body found near by area.

"its said that this deadbody is recognised as mr.ping living in the 3rd street, who was killed by some animal. As the reports we received it is said that there is animalitic bite on the body and due to  complete blood loss from the body the victim is dead"

"I need to be careful when ill go to jungle again" i made a mental note and finished my dinner. Keeping the plate in nightstand i fell into my pillows to have the dreams of him. Keeping my hands on my neck where i have a tattoo which said "X" which i got on the same night, when he saved me. I wish i knew his name. But i am not going to loose my hope he will come back and he will love me till eternity thinking this i went to the land of dreams with him..., 

To be continued....,

The art of love is different for perticular individual. As the saying goes no love ever went without the hardship. This story is about mia who's 20 year  old girl searching for her saviour who saved her the night when she thought she's going to be dead. She is going to unfold the mystery of the Mr. X and how she will make this monster a tamed one is all about it

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