章 56: Chapter 4.4 ABO...I do regret it.
Hei JianAn especially focused on the words 'difficult pregnancies' and smiled. So it's harder to get pregnant! Yes!
Adding the fact that he is never having sex is impossible, then he still has a buddy in this world called a condom.
Hei JianAn didn't want to get pregnant, give birth, or have any children for that matter. Getting emotionally attached is bad for someone like him who is hopping worlds.
It's like having a pet. But more connected to it, as it's your child shares the same blood from you. And is a product of you and your partner's love.
Even if it's my man's child…. I don't want to have it. Liking him doesn't mean I'll give birth to him. And my love for him isn't to that level. Yes, I love him, and I'll stay with him for a lifetime for many worlds. But that's it, I know I'm cold blooded… but that's the way I am.
I never seek him out myself, I don't ask for information about him and why he's following me or how he's following me because I don't really care. If he's there, then I'll stay with him, if he's not…. We'll see.
I'm too lazy to care for another, I am what I am, if he doesn't like me because of it. So be it. It just means he isn't the one.
But I do love him, that's why I care for him, that's why I bought that stupid soul link junk.
Just….. not… to the level that I would destroy myself for him or to the level that I would give birth to him….I just…. Don't know that the future holds. That's why I'm not caring or thinking of it.
Yes, love is not one sided, he loves that man. And they both love each other. His man loves him and follows me, that's all I need to know. My attachment to the man was no less than the man's deep love towards him. But to give birth like a woman? He… doesn't know if he himself will accept that.
If you say that, 'just give the child no attention or affection m, then you wouldn't be attached to the child.' He couldn't do it. He himself was an orphan, he had once craved affection, he didn't like the feeling of wanting but never getting it when others can get it easily. He can't bear to let his flesh and blood go through that too.
And he isn't sure if he can take care of a child, he doesn't know if his man would take care of the child too.
There… are too many unknown factors, he doesn't want to gamble with his child's life for it.
I know I'm being selfish… but isn't everyone too?
In a way, I'm just more honest about it.
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Xiong: Host! I'm back!
Fang Xing grimed at him: Give. Me. The. Information.
Xiong: Eek! Ah uh yes!
Xiong: The reason why you went into the original's body at this age was an accident, the original owner didn't survive the beating like in the novel. As he was just 5 years old, he has a physically weak body. Adding the fact that the bullies had punched and thrown him around as a toy, killed him before he even got into the healing cabin.
Fang Xing: 'That's why innocent children can be the cruelest, they don't understand the consequences. While an adult can be cruel because of an actual desire to hurt, a child may act cruelly quite simply because that is the nature of a child's mind.'
Fang Xing: So what is the original's wish?
Xiong:To get revenge on the buillies. Because he was still a child, he didn't know anything other than wanting them to suffer. The OOC Percentage was almost nonexistent but because of that, the host will have social anxiety lock as a result.
Xiong: Meaning that hosts have to act to have social anxiety most of the time.
Xiong: But he had a big dream to become a great chef! And to make his mother happy.
Fang Xing: oh dear oh…my.... cooking...okay. I need to buy a skill package for that...also make her happy? She isn't happy now?
Xiong: "…" she really isn't…. How the freak can she be happy when her child almost died????
Fang Xing: And...Depression huh, never felt that before. And he has social anxiety too... which is the opposite of mine. I don't give a fuck or two about what other people think but…
Fang Xing: Having a chain locked onto me feels weird.
Xiong: "…" you're the weird one.
Fang Xing: I regret choosing this fucked up world... What was I even thinking about choosing a high-level world for ah!?
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