Bab 53: FEAR
Vreihya's P.O.V
"I guess I am falling for you! A feeling that I tried to control yet succeeded to deepen," he stated slowly but sincerely. I'm not sure why, but I seem to have stopped breathing. I instinctively clutched my chest, my hand quivering.
My tongue seemed to retract, and I couldn't talk. Damn! I went completely stiff! What is the appropriate response to this? What else can I say? What is the proper course of action in this situation?
Why am I tense? Why do I appear agitated? Uncle! Mother! I'm at a loss for what to do! Because of the conflicting emotions I'm experiencing right now, I bit the lower part of my lip slightly.
I'm nervous, yet I can't stop the smile from forming on my lips. Because of the tremendous heat, my cheeks appeared to be on fire. I'm not sure why I buried my face in his chest as if I wanted to scream with this electrifying feelings inside of me.
I can't seem to meet his gaze because I'm afraid I'm going to melt right now. Because my heart was racing so fast, I breathed hurriedly, as if I had run several miles.
He was the only one who could make my chest pound this wild. I appear to be chastising myself for not knowing what to do. I was taken aback by his confession since I was unprepared.
Our first meeting seemed to be fresh in my memory. The meeting started out with a brawl. In those days, I almost loathed his kind, but now I can hear his heart chanting my name.
We had a few heated exchanges, but I went insane the day he bit me for the first time. He was the first kiss that my lips truly desired after the first bite from his monstrous fangs.
Is it true that I had no choice but to have feelings for him because he is my mate, or did I just see features of Mino's character that impressed me? He is sincere in his actions, as if he didn't think of doing it only to impress me.
He did those things because it is who he is. I'm the one who wants to make him fall in love with me, but it appears that I also have peculiar feelings for him. This human has driven me insane. He ignited my emotions like a wildfire.
I had never envisioned or pictured myself in the arms of a human before, but his arms now seem to be my home. I don't like it when a human calls my name, but when he speaks it, my heart leaps out of my chest.
I don't mind if other vampires chatter about me, but when it comes to him, I'm scared he'll look at me differently. I never felt remorse when a human perished, but when it comes to him, it appears I will never be competent to deal with it.
I can't even imagine if he wasn't the one for me or if I wouldn't have met him and been with him in this way. I'm afraid that everything will change and I won't be able to spend as much time with him as we do now.
I only want him. Everything about him appears to be just perfect for me. Even if he wasn't a royal or a powerful vampire, I wouldn't want anything else. He's perfect for me, and I don't want to change anything.
All I want is to draw him and make him fall in love with me so that he doesn't kill himself and stays, but it appears that my desire for him to stay with me became more. Maybe he sensed my silence, and that's why removed his hands on me.
He winced, as if he was sorry for what he had said. "I should never have said that; forget it," he added solemnly, and I instantly glanced up to respond. No! What you said will stay with me forever. How can I forget, especially since my heartbeat is out of control and has affected my entire system?
I was about to speak but we were separated from each other owing to the unexpected shaking of the ground. Entrante! Circa, what else is this? Mino and I hastily rose up, attempting to balance ourselves. The shattering of the ground between Mino and me stunned me immediately.
"Mino!" I yelled as the crack in the ground grew wider and wider, pushing us further apart. "Vreihya!" he exclaimed, and we both stretched our hands as if we could reach out to each other.
No! This cannot happen right now. I have a lot to tell him. I have a lot to say and much more queries. Why do I feel unable to express this feeling in my chest? Why am I concerned about what will happen next, especially since I haven't told him something yet?
I immediately screamed as I felt the fracture in the ground and my body fell down at the same time. Mino also dropped at the same time as me. Please! Why am I afraid that this is the end of the line?
What makes me feel this way? I still want to embrace him! I want to tell him what's on my heart. A few seconds later, I felt my body plunge into what appeared to be a viscous liquid.
I desperately looked around for Mino, but only darkness welcomed me. Besides, I was just gazing at the liquid in which I was submerged. The viscous blood that has adhered to my skin and garments has clung to me.
Entrante! I violently clutched my head after feeling a piercing in it. "AAAH!" I exclaimed loudly as I felt a force that appeared to shatter my brain. This is not possible! Please! I don't want to revert to this scenario! I don't want to see her again!
I tried to calm myself down but ended up kneeling down and furiously shaking my head over and over. Please! No! She is not allowed to come out again! Hell!
Mino should never meet her! I'm pleading! Please! Not now, when I have someone to lose!
"No! Enough! Stop!" I screamed, struggling with myself due to the terrible pain. "CIRCAAA!" I screamed loudly and with difficulty, as all of my nerves appeared to throb. Because of the terrible anguish, I yelled and violently closed my eyes.
Despite my terrible suffering, I could feel her presence in front of me. I attempted to open my eyes, but my eyesight seemed to be shaky as well. I noticed how her purple eyes glowed, but there was a familiar emotion in them.
Fear.
I violently shook my head. Only one thing could frighten the sanctuary's deity in this manner, and I didn't want to bring it up. "Circa! What did you do? You can't let her out!" It was tough for me to be polite to her as though I was pleading with her when I was nearly insane due to the agony.
My chest heaved as I struggled to restore my composure. "I'm doing this for you, Vreihya; you have to battle her first before you totally love the mortal," she tried hard to disguise the terror in her voice.
Because of what she stated, I was terrified. I'm scared that if Mino finds out, he'll abandon his feelings for me. Nobody would ever want to love someone like me.
I'm frightened he'll cease adoring me. I'm scared he'll want to come back home even more and remind himself that I'm a monster. I'm terrified I'll lose him.
I've been violently held because the agony appears to be drawing all over my body, while the hairs on my hand appear to be being plucked. "You can't completely love until you've succeeded!" she exclaimed to me.
This is why I fled the sanctuary the first time I attempted it. Circa couldn't take it any longer, so she let me go. I came here to find out why my actions had abruptly altered and why my body was covered in blood despite the fact that I couldn't recall anything.
I met her for the first time in this place, and I never wanted to see her again. "Mino can't know," I mumbled as another scream escaped my quivering lips.
My vision was hazy due to the red liquid oozing from my eyes. Circa's eyes widened as she calmed down her shaking hands. You can't see me like this, Mino.
You should never know about this. I don't want to give you a reason to condemn me, especially since I have a place in your heart. I'm terrified you'll toss everything away and forsake me in an instant.
As he filled my mind, I felt my system gradually fall silent. I gently regain my breath as I feel the pain in my head fade away.
I slowly let go of my hair and took a detailed look at Circa, but I saw determination in her eyes. "Please forgive me!" she pleaded, pulling something behind her back at the same moment.
My eyes quickly widened, and my entire body trembled. "KYPPER!" I cried loudly and laboriously as I peered at Kypper's lifeless body as Circa grabbed his hair to lift his lifeless body.
When I saw the two holes in his eye sockets, my entire system trembled and my eyes appeared to burst into flames. His blue eyes were missing. There was a lot of blood flowing from there, but all you could see was a black hole.
I was filled with rage and revulsion after witnessing her brutality toward the child. What made her steal Kypper's eyes? I quickly looked up fiercely while shrieking loudly, and I felt what appeared to be a rapid rush of my blood through all of my veins.
As I felt the overwhelming power in my entire system, I stood up violently. As my fingernails sharpened, my head seemed to split in two. I couldn't stop because my bones in my back were cracking.
Something was striving to get out of there while all I could see was red and black. My horrible scream engulfed the entire space, and Kypper's lifeless body kept whirling in my thoughts, his eyes no longer where they should be.
Status Power Mingguan
-- Peringkat
Power 
-- Power
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