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The rain got more noisy than before, and it was the only sound after James asked that question. He couldn't hold it anymore, he felt like been give the second chances and he didn't want to blow it up. 'Now or never!' 

He wanted to train himself to be brave and that's took a lot of practice. He needed a more time and practiced different kind of situation. He knew that he lack of self-control and self-love, it's a very difficult subject that James wanted to explore. He's a good listener but he couldn't listen to himself.

James was one of the people who never be able to control and loving their-self. Sometimes he didn't know why he's sad, or happy. James put himself on the terrible side of feeling, it wasn't easy but James knew something wrong with him and he tended to change it.