It is not everyday you sit in front of your computer on a Saturday morning and get
an email like this:
From: Ahd_businessman@gmail.com Sent: 12/28/2005 11.40 p.m.
To: info@real3.com
Subject: A final note
Dear Aarav
This email is a combined suicide note and a confession letter. I have let people down
and have no reason to live. You don't know me. I'm an ordinary boy in Ahmedabad who
read your books. And somehow I felt I could write to you after that. I can't really tell
anyone what I am doing to myself - which is taking a sleeping pill everytime I end a
sentence - so I thought I would tell you.
I kept my coffee cup down and counted. Five full stops already
I made three mistakes; I don't want to go into details.
My suicide is not a sentimental decision. As many around me know, I am a
good businessman because I have little emotion. This is no knee-jerk reaction. I
waited over three years, watched Ish's silent face everyday. But after he refused my
offer yesterday, I had no choice left.
I have no regrets either. Maybe I'd have wanted to talk to Vidya once more –
but that doesn't seem like such a good idea right now.
Sorry to bother you with this. But I felt like I had to tell someone. You have
ways to improve as an author but you do write decent books. Have a nice weekend.
Regards
Businessman
17, 18, 19. Somewhere, in Ahmedabad a young 'ordinary' boy had popped
nineteen sleeping pills while typing out a mail to me. Yet, he expected me to have a
nice weekend. The coffee refused to go down my throat. I broke into a cold sweat.
'One, you wake up late. Two, you plant yourself in front of the computer first
thing in the morning. Are you even aware that you have a family?' Anusha said.
In case it isn't obvious enough from the authoritative tone, Anusha is my wife.
I had promised to go furniture shopping with her – a promise that was made
ten weekends ago.
She took my coffee mug away and jiggled the back of my chair. 'We need
dining chairs. Hey, you look worried?' she said.
I pointed to the monitor.