Chapter 149: Chapter 102

Rowan excuses himself and tells me he has many more things to get to before tomorrow. I feel guilty that I'm not helping him, but he doesn't want my help and I have to respect his decision. Especially now that we're both going through all of this.

My brother has never been someone to show heavy emotions. He always feels like it's unnecessary. One of the only times I've ever actually seen him show how he was feeling was when I was found and he told me who I was. The only other time was when we watched our mother slip away from us. If I didn't know any better, I would have thought he'd be as much of a mess as I am. But other than his apparent lack of sleep, he seems to be holding himself together. Even if he's falling apart on the inside, he sure isn't showing it. I would kill to be able to do it as effortlessly as he can. It's something about him I admire.