Sangsang was still calm, arrogant, and indifferent as she used to be when they were on Peach Mountain or touring around the human world. It seemed she was not sensational at all. But actually she was pretty restless because she knew what the Abbey Dean was planning.
Her relation with Taoism was fairly complicated. She was their god, and the guardian they chose for the human world. Since they had decided to destroy her, it meant that the human world would abandon her too.
She was weakening and no longer unkillable. For the first time she realized the misery and vulnerability of life, and started feeling afraid and worried, which all turned into sadness now. Therefore she was shedding tears emotionlessly.
Fortunately, although it was still dark in the night, there was at least a lamp that brought them some light. Likewise, although the human world meant nothing but darkness to her now, he was an exception.