"I'm heading over to Kane's to study, are you sure you don't want to come" I look up from my work at Asher who was looking at me with a hopeful smile.
I wanted to say yes for Asher but couldn't as the image of the disrespect given to me by Kane (despite it being 3 days) was too much for me, I looked back at my work and nodded no. I heard a slight shuffle and felt Asher's warmth around me, I snuggled against him "Del you know you-"
"I can come talk to you whenever. I know that Asher, but I just don't want to go since we're in the same class and it'll be awkward" I decided to lie to Asher which I hated since I was a terrible liar.
Asher leaned back slightly and sighed knowing I wasn't going to give in that easily. He got up to leave when I held on to his hand "Ash what's wrong".
Asher gave a confused look, "Del nothing is-".
"Ash I know something is wrong and whatever is going on with you is affecting you" I glanced at Asher trying to get my point across without sounding rude.
"Okay, I'll tell you, but you have to come along" Asher said with a smirk.
"That is so not fair" I said standing up "come on Ash please".
"Look it's only fair" Asher started to walk out of the room when he stopped at the doorframe "it won't be that bad, besides I should be the one who should be concerned if anything".
Ugh! I need to know what's wrong with Asher but now it means tolerating Mr. Arrogant.
***
It had been 5 mins and neither of us had spoken yet. Looks like I'll just start this conversation.
"So… Ash what's wrong?" I asked facing him whilst Ash looked on ahead.
"Yeah right" He stopped at a red light and glanced over at me "Do you remember Ria?"
I nod my head yes slightly confused "Yeah, she's your girl-".
"Ex-girlfriend" Ash's jaw line tenses as he says that and looks back to the front.
What is he on about though? They were perfect together. How could they break up?
Before I could ask anything, Ash answers all the questions in my head "She cheated on me with the captain of the football team".
"WHAT? OH MY GOSH ASH" okay I did not see this coming.
"Yeah its whatever".
"Ash I know it's not whatever to you, if you need someone to talk to about this, I'm your girl" I rubbed his arm gently and he looked over to give a weak smile.
***
Well this is awkward. We were all seated at the dining table with our books sprawled out.
Pin drop silence.
There was nothing better to describe the situation. I just decided to put music on and decided to vibe to that whilst studying.
If I'm completely honest, it was awkward at first. Me and Kane weren't making any eye contact, well... at least I wasn't. Kane was slightly different around Asher; he was more mature.
Ali Gatie's 'It's You' came on and honestly, I even forgot that I was here until I heard a I'm sorry playing. Huh? Is this the remix version? I decide to ignore it and concentrate back on my work.
'Don't break me again… I'm sorry… I am delicate'.
Yeah, I am not imagining this. I look down at my phone when I feel my headphone being pulled put, my head shoots up at the criminal…
KANE!
"Look Delilah, I'm sorry".
I look over at Asher's seat and he's not there, Kane must've realised my confusion since he goes "Asher went to the toilet".
I nod my head, take my headphone back and get on with my work but before I can even begin, I feel them being taken out again and being put on the table.
I look up at him again and meet his eyes, he decides to talk again "I've told you to not ign-".
"Are you being serious?" this was his matter of concern at the moment, that I was ignoring him "Kane if it means so much to you then fine I forgive you but don't accept anything more".
It looked like he was going to say something else but by then Asher came back so I put my headphones back in and continued doing my work.
"AHHHH! DEBEEBAH!" I glanced up to see Emma running towards me whilst I could hear Ash and Kane sniggering. Real mature.
"EMMA!" I got up and hugged her "How have you been cupcake?"
"Good, how are you?" Emma asked with her chubby cheeks blushing and she kept glancing down.
"I'm good too. Where were you?" I picked her up and went to sit on the sofa with her "I was missing you Em".
"I miss you too. I was at my fwends house" I giggled slightly at the way she pronounced friends.
"Baby then who brought you?" I asked with confusion.
"It was Mrs Rachel" Kane answered who was walking towards the sofa with Asher "She's the head maid".
"Yeah, she's really nice" Emma said looking between Kane and me.
"Delilah" I focused my attention to Asher "Do you want to get going?"
I nodded my head yes, but Emma started whining "No! Please don't go!"
"I'll come again Em don't worry" I said whilst kissing her cheek.
After a few more whines she decided to nod yes but not until I pinkie promised her. Me and Kane just give a head nod to each other to show we're civil.
We wave bye and me and Asher start driving home.
"Did you both sort out your problems?" Ash started the conversation.
"I guess" I'm not sure if we have or not "It's complicated Ash".
"Del what I said earlier, if you need someone to talk to then I'm here".
"Yes Ash, I know that" I started giggling because that was not something that he needed to constantly repeat.
***
The moment that I got home, I said my hellos to my parents and had a day rundown with them but then I needed to hit the sack.
I went through my usual bedtime routine with changing, brushing, praying and in my bed I go. I start scrolling through my phone when I see a notification from Kane saying, 'See you tomorrow after school'.
I close my phone and decide to reply tomorrow in the morning because I still wasn't sure if I wanted to spend more time with him outside of maths.
I close my eyes but the one question bugging me was…
Had I forgiven him deep down?