Chapter 30: Chapter 28

Yuto POV:(ch28)

I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I don't know what to feel, or how to feel. What....even are feelings right now?

Everyday, I would wake up out of my sleep, tired and confused. Laying there, staring at my ceiling, thinking about my choices. Should I really have killed him? What if he turns out innocent? Will they leave you? Will you be alone?

I don't want to talk to anyone. I can't talk to anyone, I know it's something I have to deal with alone. Whenever Taesuk asks see me in the kitchen (which wasn't often) he always asks me how I'm feeling. I usually say something along the lines of "so-so" and carry on with my life. But inside, I'm always wondering why he cares about what I was feeling at that moment. Junghee was the one who shot him, I shouldn't deserve the luxury to FEEL anything right now..