HEAVEN's POV
URRRRGGGEEEEHHH!!!
I SO HATING THIS WORLD, MORE AND MORE EACH DAY PASTS!!!!
Why is it always getting worstser ( is there even any word like worstser? Hmmm..) and worstser???
Last time--and to tell you that last time was just Sunday. And it's monday today. And frankly speaking, kahit saturday at sunday at wala ako sa skul may nangyari pa rin na worst sa'kin.. Damn days!!!
Akala ko nga nung Friday Wala na akong parusa... Na nagsawa na sila sa kakapahirap nila sa'kin sa araw-araw na lang na ginawa ng Diyos.
Ayun pala, hinintay lang nila na maging confident ako na hindi na nila ako pahihirapan pa.. But No!!!
Wala talagang araw na pinalampas sila na hindi nila ako pahirapan...
My God!!
So not a better day.. Really "worstser Day" ever.. It's a fact, surely..
****FLASHBACK*****
I was walking along the hallway going to the parking lot,so I could go home already..
I am wide smilling this time.. Kasi nga whole day.. First time ito.. Whole day walang kababalaghang nangyari sa'kin..
Not so them, na hindi nila ako pahirapan.. It's so suspecious!! And very joyful at the same time. Imagine.. One whole day, without anything happining to me.. So AMAZING!!!
Hindi ako nagmukhang clumsy, dahil sa nilagyan nila ng balat ng saging ang dadaanan ko (Take note of all the way has a banana's wrap.. As in no choice ka kundi magtiptoe, at in a one swift wrong move.. Plaaakkkk!!!! And yeah! I slipt). Hindi rin ako naging mukhang dugyot dahil hindi na nila nilagyan ng honey syrup and bag ko, walang harina ang loob ng bag ko at walang bubble gum ang mga notes ko. And additional, the never ending Paglalagay nila ng pintura sa pintuan, take an high lights sa sensor ng Paint huh!!! Ako lang, as in, ako lamang ang talagang natatapunan.. Ang galing lang diba?? Nagtry na nga ako na sasabay ako sa paglabas ng classmates ko, pero tindi lang mga bess, iba ang kapit at lakas ng dating ko sa pintura.. Sinundan ako bess, ako lang ng natapunan.. Take note every day yan.. At every day ako may experiment sa pag iwas.. But then again magsasawa lang pala ako, kasi sila super exciting na challenge sa kanila yun, sa akin ayon naboring na ako umiwas...
And ayon nga, I was so damn happy today it is a great day talaga!! I sincerely Thank the Lord for this day. Love niya na ulit ako. Mukha na ukit akong anghel sa paningin niya. And I guess I look like an angel on my smile right now..
So refreshing!!
What a beautiful bright day is these??
Alam niyo magpapaparty yata ako sa bahay mamaya! Imbitahan ko sila at pasalamatan sa araw na ito. And sarap lang at ang gaan sa feeling.. Iyong maglalakad ka ng walang iniisip na mangyayaring masama. Akala ko nga these day will never come. Yet, I was wrong these day came, as perfect as it should be!!!
LOVELY!!
LOVELY AND HEAVENLY LIKE MY NAME!!!
Creeck!!!
Splash!!!
O.O
"what the he-" I gonna shout my lungs out when "Bla-bla-bla-bla" Good things really needs to come on an end..
"Choa, Heav!!! Enjoy the mud!" Shouts by someone inside that freaking ugly not so new modeled car!!!!
"URRRRGGGGEEEEHHHHH!"
In a swift of a second, I was splashed by a mud because of I don't know who.. But just great..
Nothing is really good.
"You should really rejoice early not until you step on your own shelter." A saying made by yours and truely!! ME!!
*****FLASHBACK ENDS******
Haiyst!!
Nagiging safe lang talaga ako sa mismong bahay ko!!
Oo may bahay akong sarili!!
Iyong maituturing kong akin!!!
How??
I really worked hard for it!!
Kasi nga wala naman gustong tustusan ako!!
why??
Simply because, noone is with me.
why again??
Because I am bound and destined to be alone! A total Loner!! And kahit ayaw ko mang aminin, a LOSER!!!
Walang nagmamahal sa akin!!
Tingin ng lahat malas ako!!
Kaya wala akong kasama sa buhay.
kaya natuto akong mag-isa.
Tumayo sa sarili kong paa.
Magbanat ng buto ng maaga.
Maging responsable sa murang isipan.
At higit sa lahat ang wag magtiwala kanino man!!
Pamilya, kaibigan o kasit sino pa, hindi mo dapat na pagkatiwalaan kasi sila mismo walang tiwala sa'yo.. So you should learn how to play along the mystery of life alone by yourself, without depending on someone, without the help of someone and without a love from someone..
It hurts to be in that kind of situation!! That's what is life is!! You should know how to sail in a strong wavy river to survive!!
Noone wants to be there, but it was what is happening in reality!!
Reality sucks!!Life is really a mess!! But you can live your life for so long if know how to get along with all the circumstances that was supposed to come in your way..
Nothing is perfect!!
Nothing is really good!!
And noone in these world is not fair!!
Reality is not a fairy tale that everything you wished and dream will come true as what you have imagined it!!!
That's why dreaming and imagination was created, because it was something too imposible to happen!!!
You cannot control life. but life can control you. like how you cannot control the water..
But life is too short to be problematic from all the mess that is happening. So even though life sucks, even life goes wrong, even your day is a hell you shpuld still keep up and look forward for another day to come.
Because days wont stop for like how seconds cannot stop from ticking on the lock!!!
Hopefully, that life just like the clock that can be controled, like you'll gonna be alarmed like a warning when something isn't going to be good. But lofe is like a clock that has no control but just the battery which is our life.. That if the battery runs out of energy, out life will gonna end like how the ticking hand clock stops from revolving around..
But, life wasn't designed like that!!
And not every life is the same.
Mine is just tbe worst!!
Like you cannot imagine a great life, because of what is happening on your daily reality!!