Is it Gain or Lose?

What would you do if you suddenly had the power of a god? What would your friends think, your family? And saddest of all do you gain anything or is it you lose everything. This is a story about a boy who has lost all hope, after many years of trying, he finally gives up. But in that flash of a moment, he is saved by a mysterious being quite like him...
(This is my first book and I just wanted to try so please be nice!)

Warnings:
-self-harm
-smut
-fluff
-starvation
-criticism
-abandonment