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I Want To Live As I Want (DxD Fan-Fic)

Chapter 1: First Life And Fall Part 1

"Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you."

Nietzsche

FIRST THREE CHAPTERS ARE NOT RELATED TO DXD IT IS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT IN MC'S FIRST LIFE

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I am trying to write again so read it please it's not easy to write a story.And don't listen everyone who says it's my first time writing something they are liars i had handful problems when i wrote my first story enough of that lets take a look at this.

Dominator

Note:My thoughts with this "(.....)" and Info is a seperate knowledge so where it start and end are where you should read as story

(First Person POV:)

I always lived my early ages with full of happiness until my parents killed by a thief that tried to steal from our home.At that moment something broke inside of me and i depressed for a year it was a hard process but i think i healed in a way.This unforgotable experience,it let me see the "True" form of real world.Scums,swindlers,rapers,etc were everywhere so i wondered why people do these things,what people think about each other when talking does they lie each other everyday or violate each others rights.

(Age:10=>14)

i didn't know the answers of this questions but i still thought there have to be hope in somewhere with questions likes these on my head it's been 4 years already i had enough money for life long thanks to my parents so i don't have problems at that part but the time i depressed caused me lose lots of things friends,love and myself.That's why I started a journey i thought maybe if i travel this world i could understand myself and world more but from what i know in western part of world only philosophers and priests could truely understand themselves if i'm not wrong and some part of world.

In east there were monks and hermits.For reaching true clear mind(nirvana) they meditate for long times and they only take a stop for daily needs☆Info:☆"(Yeah they are not cultivate like xianxia characters maximum 6 months and they take a rest from it but i think that's incredible itself)"and learn martial arts,takes tests of leaving maternal worlds pains,desires,dirtiness and etc.I thought being a priest and philosopher was not my true path so i didnt thought more about them and without knowing anything what will happen from now on i started my journey that will take ten years of my life.

(Age:14=>24)

In my life's last ten years I practice self defensive and internal stagnation pointer martial arts,bajiquan,pharmacy,chinese medicals and thanks to whim of fate philosphy with my fellow monks in great temples and pagodas my journey that started in india respectively continued with Tibet and finished at china.At the start i learned a lot from head monk in a old temple in India with lots of good hearted fellow monk disciples after one year i reach great levels of clearness of mind and body and it seems there was not tests of leaving maternial world in india so we only meditate and exchanged our thoughts about meditation at first that was hard but i always had a talents for languages that's why it didn't take a lot of time."(He travels to India from Italy with plane through fake verification of his guardian who doesn't care about him)"

It's been three years since i arrived India,i was awakened from my daily meditation with smooth light of sun a smile appeared on my lips and other monks but after hearing bitter news sadness and sorrow painted our faces,our old head monk died because of a illness that doesnt had any treatment but for our good he never revealed it to us and he continued have a happy smile on his face even after death.... He was the one who helped me with my trauma and fear of death thanks to him my scars were healed and i reach peace with my past self few days before his death.He didn't has to say anything before he past from his smile we all got our answers and continued on our paths lots of them stay at old temple and several of our fellows started to make their own temple or like me become a travelling monk.

I think everybody said really a travelling monk yes i can travel easily in east not like in west it's more easy and safe to travel and nature's beauty at least more alive in here.People were great too they let me live with them and thought lots of things.After 4 and a half month later i reach Tibet and after another half of month i reached the snowy mountain where one of the greatest temple on world stands and that temple will be my next home for a while.On top of snowy mountain it was really cold for me at start but thanks to my non stop years of meditation i do get used to it easily

When i reach the temple a young monk saw me and asked me "Who are you?Judging from your clothes you're a fellow to us but you're not someone from our temple am i wrong?" Asking these questions with eyes full expectations i told him my journeys and he was bewildered very much and understood why i came here,hearing my story he told me who he is and how was his life until now.His name is Zou for me it is a new and interesting name like lots of names i heard on my journeys in addition to that i am not the one to judge people because of theirs name nor looks in the end.Then he lead me to temple.Temple's inner looks is so beautiful and for mastery of craftsmanship on this temple i'm not sure how can i describe it but this temple possess a heaven defying beauty and who could make such a temple was one of questions i had at that time.

After i admire temple for a few minutes without me knowing an old man with skinny looks appeared he took a look at me and with a happy tone he asked Zou who am i so he said about me and my journey a little bit then Old man explained me current situation in here some of the disciples in here got a fatal illness that's why they have high tension but old man said with his experiences and mastery over pharmacy if we have enough materials that few of them grow on the other side of mountain,we could make a cure.And i asked how was he was so sure?Then He told me these sentences "Everything that happens to us are reflections of nature if this illness comes from nature it will be healed by nature itself but if this illness born from humans acts then this illness must be healed by humans there is no one who has right to judge the nature because if it caused it would have give it's medicine to us"

Hearing this i thought i could help them but first i must hear the details if not i will be risking my life for nothing.

"(First three chapters are character development in mc's first life then we will enter DxD part of story if you read my first story i always wanted to make a good character development so please read this patiently and i changed my style if this is better tell i hope you enjoyed it😊)"