Chapter 34: 34

Tendai. Tendai. That’s her name.

What do you think she looked like.

More like you I bet.

What about you, Daffodil. What do you look like now?

Whatever you want me to look like, Lily.

What would you do? If mother and Father disowned you?

Let’s go to the kitchen and I will show you.

I stand up, my heavy belly carrying a human that can pop out at anytime slowing me down.

Pick a knife. I do. Bring it to your neck. I do.

‘’Qhawe!,’’my eyes open instantly, and I realise I am standing in the kitchen, with a knife on my neck. Tsi is standing by the door, hands extended towards me, the same fear she always has whenever I wake up from sleepwalking in her eyes. She advances towards me slowly, to ease her mind I extend the knife to her, my heart hammering. I stare at the floor, I cannot even see my feet with this belly. I am so fat and huge I look like a whale that just swallowed mother earth.