Ysabella's Pov
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"How much things you need to sacrifice for her?". "I hope she's worth it".
I always dream that blury person at night, there's no moment I couldn't dream those words. I wasn't even sure if I was the one who was described then.
As I turned off the lamp on my small table covering the whole area of my room. I realized that it was the feeling I same feel when I almost lost my soul and body.
I need to owe my life, to the people who save my life.
As I closed the window pane, I keep my eyes roaming around. This time I can hear nothing but a quiet night, and the stars were sparkling like the heaven was celebrating my return.
I could have wished not to die again, I can't die again. I need to go back from the life I never choose back then, in return of helping the person who never ever care for my life here in the past.
As I continue closing the window, I heared a pieces of noise outside, where I fully realized someone was there watching me from afar and I can't figure his whole entity because he was covering his face. I took the steps out of my room and began gazing. I went through the edges of the kitchen because I can't clearly see the direction which would lead me outside, I can't go somewhere from the entrance because I might been caught by the guards present there so I left no choice, I put the lamp back to my direction which head me up to the little door from the kitchen, which I only knew I can get outside without anyone noticed me.
I held my hand and little by little I avoid stepping out the branches of the fallin' tree which would cause noise if for somehow I could break those through my feet when suddenly a hand just grabbed on me.
I was holding back my fear, Because I was being traumatized with the things happened to me few days ago.
"Please be quiet".
As he keep my mouth from shouting I realized the person behind those full cover face.
"SENOR ARMANDO??".
As he face me with a soft touch on my face, he keeps his breathe and dropped a kissed on my lips, which I almost have taken my breath away because I wasn't know to end that way.
"Why?". I mean you have changed. Senor Armando clears his throat before asking me with question which left me more even confusing, knowing that I don't know who else could have helped me explain the things my memories almost forgot then, but little by little a memory was all flashed back to the moment I saw my great grandmother kissed Senor Armando.
I burst out my fear and just pushed Senor armando without reason. I feel so apologized doing that because I really don't know what else my great grandmother have done when I wasn't back on my body.
"I'm really sorry Binibini if I make things quickly on my own, It was just I am really so depressed and desperate to make you mine again, my friends told me they saw you with Senor Fedel on the river".
I closed my eyes before I hear my heart skip a beat and even how much I tried escaping,
I was been being imprisoned by the feelings I had for Senor Armando.
"Sorry, I just want you to know how much I need to escaped, from reality".
Before those words comes out, I feel the pain inside my heart and my tears was falling. At this moment I don't know if this could be the best thing I should do, All I know is that I am not capable to love him, because I know I'll get back to the life I had in the future.
"I love you, but I need to let you go".
I hold my tears even if it's completely fallin apart' and ran as quick as he never noticed it.
I hear the guards were calling me but it seems that I don't want to hear any of the words they say.. .
"I need to escaped, in order for me to have a better life, I can't love you. Because I don't have the rights"..
It was around 3:00 am but still I can't sleep,
I keep myself busy hoping that would end me getting tired, put all the lighting on, clean up my clothes which I don't always normally do, but for now I did it, because I'm trying to forget the feeling that destructs me and I was so afraid to be killed by my own shadow which was reflecting on every corners of my room where I know I can't fight back. As I touched another pages on the book I always love to read, I saw pieces of papers empty and write all the thoughts I come up, every word I want to speak up, and every words I want to tell myself. I pushed the table to the other side of the room, which made me believe that there's something I can do at midnight, As I go along cleaning with stuff, I saw a handwritten note, and at the back are number of pages, As I read those pages, I see that the cabinet was opening.
"How come this happen?"
As the old cabinet opens, I saw a lot of letters, like hundred fold letters on the top of a diary. Seeing those wonderful handwritten made me feel small, because going back to my College I wasn't good at writing.
"The letter says about Love, Dreams, Hope but when I turned the back on, there is a word that tells me about the whole content of what is inside the diary.
"REVENGE".
I slowly turn the pages and little by little understanding each words, there were words that had been written in Spanish, so there were times I can't understand the whole structure and meaning of it. However, as I turned the pages on the 20th. I saw all the answers which I always look for, which made me put my life going back to what fate really means by a curse.
What's inside the diary? **
"At September 20th, My first ever grand daughter will be living a life like me, not everyone could tell how much she needs to sacrificed for me, in order for me to get back to life, I need to sue all the people who hurt me, and that she will become my body to be reborn".
I and she, I am you.
Can't wait to put a shed of blood with the people who have been killed me many times.
I never know where to start asking myself, whoelse knows my story, whoelse knows her plan. My parents, nor my ancestors after her doesn't know about it, or even one of her closest friend.
"Be strong, I hope to see you soon". Jelu.
Does Jelu knows about it? Does her strength is enough for me to foresee the life she had before?" Do I still need to finish my mission?"
Those were plenty of questions left my mind hanging on.
How about Jeanna?
Who could tell me when and where I should stop.
I was regretting not able to read the Spanish words nor understand them so that I will know how much she means the curse, and who are those people she named on the diary.
I forced myself to sleep hoping that Jelu would have appear on my dreams, I have lots of questions on my head that even the morning can't stop me, I have to know whoelse who would had been affected by the curse, before I'll make a decision.
Dreams
My thoughts brought me to somewhere in my dreams, and I wasn't wrong because there is something that I'd clearly saw and that was the same thing I was holding right here!
"Burn it out!"
She was closely near me and told me such words which fear me.
"If you'll never burn it out, you'll never die, but the people who loves you will die for you,the curse was started the moment you were born, your parents die because your family was being cursed, Your brother? You killed him!!!
"Please stop!".
" and before I realized I was putting the whole fire on the diary"
which I can't control myself. ..
"what's happening?".
I just could hear the loud laughters while yelling at me.
"Binibini? please wake up you were having your nightmares again.
I woke up realizing I was in the kitchen. . .
" You are walking from your room to here,I tried to drop your clothes and fixed them but I saw you coming outside, so I decided to follow you"..
Maria explained to me..
I was left hanging there, because I can clearly see how my nightmares enfulge me to do such bad things. Aside from not controlling myself, I was hesitant by the words she left me, I was still holding the diary and Maria prepared some coffee for me, she said she had to quickly run out to my bedroom the moment I got suicide, and she realized that my room was to messy.. .like someone who had made it very messy.. .
"But the last time I just remember, I don't mess anything on my room".
She continued while saying..
I was about to lock your room when a voice calling me from afar, I can't control myself and doesn't even have idea why I had open the cabinet. I saw pieces of fold letters, that was written in Spanish. I can't understand them so I have to fixed it back to where it fits though, As I return back all the letters, I realized that the diary was on the back of it, which was have pages back then.
It speaks about sorrow.
"What do you mean?" I asked her that confusing
Why? isn't not yours? She replied.
"I carefully asked Maria again about what she saw and how she translated those words and poems, she hand me the coffee and told me everything. I was expecting it was the answered I have been waiting for, she tries to closed her eyes and still remembering what she saw.
" The moment you've got hospitalized, I saw a stranger coming in your room, she messed all your room while finding that same diary, she ordered me to burn it, but when she fall her words, I know she had fooled Senor Armando but not me". Senorita..
That's what I call her.
She isn't live her but to the other worlds, you two don't live anymore.
As you can see? My grandmother can open third eye, which I can clearly see who true people are living and not.
As what you mentioned, you didn't know how does those words and poems means?
"Why you doesn't know it? if you had been to Spain?" or else you are in disguise.
I pick your clothes everytime, I see you struggling making friends because you aren't know what your life belongs, and where you fits in.
"SENOR ARMANDO?". Isn't fall in love with her, because he was fall in love with you, She made the curse because she was insecure with the friend she has, which wasn't existing anymore.
ESTRELLA.
The woman Senor Armando's dream.
Senorita Ysabella and Senor Armando had been so closed to each other, Estrella was just a maid after she was hiding herself to protect herself from people who was hunting her, When everything goes beyond friendship, Estrella had to put her life into danger to revenge the families who ordered to kill her parents, she left alone. And everytime she remembers how painful Don Marciano did, she could just have killed Ysabella many times on her mind. She got the job as the maid of the family, no one knows her because she was still young when she witnessed those savage death of her parents.
When Estrella was doing her job, Senorita Ysabella thought she could be friends with Estrella, she notices her interesting and that they were closed to each other, however those closeness and friendship ends when Senor Armando falls in love with Estrella, everytime she visited her, Ysabella made the wrong decision, and that is to OVER their Friendship. Estrella tries her best to put together those friendship back, but Ysabella has hatred on her, she thought ESTRELLA only wanted to make friends with her because of Senor Armando which doesn't Estrella intended to.
She was hopeless drunk every night and that she was a mess, her father always told her to stop but even her father can't control her. As she goes by, she keep on loving Senor Armando. But Senor Armando have felt her change a lot, she always hurt herself and she almost killed lot of innocent people in exchange to her hatred and sorrow.
The moment she kill herself? was the same moment she killed her peace.. .
And Senor Armando left killing Estrella, by means of Senorita Ysabellas order. . ..
"Ysabella live the curse"
She dies because of so much hatred and sorrow.
. "At September 20th".
She'll get back.. .
I felt my heart stop beating. It means if she lived the curse, why it has to be me?
"Because She and you, She was you".. .
You are like her, she lives with your presence, she was good at sometimes, set aside her happiness sometimes, but she has something more than that. That's why you need to be careful, as much as possible do not drawn yourself from negative evils who will put your life to danger, especially when it happens to be the same reason her death.. .
"Senor Armando loves you the way you are, his heart falls to that, no one can dictate his heart, as much as possible, be more observant on who the real one's are..
Maria took the steps back to her room, she said she was going back to fixed something. She remain startled, she can't catch every details of the reason, why it needs to be her. .
"Burning a memories won't end that way, YSABELLA? Get lost..
as she hold the fire closely to the diary she took from Ysabella's hands.. .
" I DIDN'T DIE, I CAN'T DIE"... . That was cursed means....
"Estrella and Maria
What are they related to each other?
"It takes all of your heart to love someone, until unloving isn't hard anymore"