Chapter 55: 55) I’m scared

Edward

My heart was beating out of my chest as I gently threw Vasili onto the bed. Telling him I loved him sounded simple enough till it was time to execute. Ever since we moved into our new home it felt like I could barely contain the three words whenever I looked at him. That was why I went over to Pedros because I simply needed the distraction. 

The inner conflict I was having with myself was so overwhelming that I thought if I got drunk enough I could ignore it for another week but I was painfully wrong. As Vasili helped me into bed whilst I was mumbling words I, myself could barely understand I knew I had to tell him.