Chapter 47: Suffer?

"Okay, fine." Samantha said and took a deep breath and said. "Johnson."

"Johnson?" Andrew asked.

"I mean, I was not close to any stranger man in these 5 years. I was scared to go near any man other than you, Noah. But... Party night was different. For the first time, I stood in the middle of the hall and danced with a man and hugged a stranger for the first time. These incidents... These incidents made me rewind my old memories..." Samantha said as the sweat formed on her forehead.

"It's okay! Nothing to scared off. I am here with you." Andrew said as he bought her close to his chest.

"Johnson is a good guy, Samantha. He will not harm you." Andrew said.

"We can't just trust anyone so blindly, Andrew." Alexi said as she walked towards Andrew and Samantha.

"Alexi, there are some good people too in the world." Andrew said.

"But, I don't believe them, Andrew." Alexi said.

"Alexi, you shouldn't talk like that and yes, Andrew is right. There are good people too in the world. Not everyone is bad." Samantha said and Alexi chuckled.

"Well, then. You believe in them and I will not. We already suffered enough by trusting so many people in this world and now, I still can't be blind and trust people." Alexi said as she started eating Cranberry Crostini, which Samantha made for her!

"Look, Lexi. I know, It's hard to trust people after whatever happened to us but we can't live like this forever without believing or trusting on anyone." Samantha said.

"I can live easily, Sam. I don't want anyone's trust, believe, or pity. I am good in my life and doing at my fabulous in my job." Alexi said.

"Alexi, we can't just live in the past? We should move on and trust people." Samantha said.

"Look, Sam. I already said to you many times and saying again and again... If you want to move on in your life? Then, go on. I will support you. But, please just don't trust anyone blindly and I'm good without trusting people." Alexi said.

"Look, Alexi. We suffered a lot in our lives and we don't want to suffer anymore. Do we?" Samantha asked.

"Exactly. Thats what I am saying, Sam. I don't want to suffer anymore by trusting someone. Yes, being alone is not a solution but I am happy in being alone and don't have to worry about getting hurt again. Only we know, that after whatever happened to us, we are still suffering. Not physically but mentally." Alexi said.

"Alexi, It's not your fault to trust people. They are just untrustworthy people. Harder things happen to anyone in life but everyone don't have dared to get out of the harder things but you girls did this." Andrew said.

"Andrew, my trust in people broken a long ago back and it will be never the same again. I trust in actions than words now and if Sam wants to trust someone? I am okay. But, i just want her to be careful with the person she trusts on because she already suffered more than enough in her life. I don't want her to suffer anymore and for that, if anyone wants to harm her then I will be the first one to make him suffer." Alexi said seriously.

"Alexi, You think that I attempted suicide because of Johnson?" Samantha asked and Alexi looked at Samantha.

"Sam..." Samantha cut off Alexi in mid-sentence.

"No, Alexi. Tell me, you think I attempted suicide because of Johnson, right?" Samantha asked and Alexi signed.

"Tell me, Alexi." Samantha said

"Maybe... I guess." Alexi said.

"Alexi, I just meet Johnson 3 days back. How can you think that I attempted suicide because of Johnson? He did nothing and innocent in all these! I don't trust him or like him. It just that... It feels good when he first took me in his arms. Yes, I was scared of being in a stranger man's arms but I felt... Safe near him. We just talked normally about things and I attempted... Suicide because." Samantha said and walked near Alexi and sat beside her.

"There are some words from that biggest nightmare of my life which are still in my mind. I can't just forget about them. Even if I take pills, I will wake up with the same nightmare daily. Those words still hunt me and give me pain but I still smile and laugh in front of you just because of you and our parents. I know, you guys will be with me and support me and make me feel happy whenever I need you." Samantha said and Alexi hugged her.

"I'm sorry." Alexi said as a tear fall down from her eye.

"Shut up. What are sorry for? It's not your fault to say sorry to me. It's my fault to trust someone blindly and get betrayed by them." Samantha said and Alexi looked at her.

"Yes, it hurts a lot to me and it's hard for me to be alright again. But, I am trying. Trying from 5 years to be alright but it's not happening with me." Samantha said.

"I am trying to forget everything and wanted to start afresh chapter in my life but I couldn't forget the things happens to me! My mind always taking me to my past and making me suffer always." Samantha said and Alexi hugged her again.

Andrew closed his eyes as his eyes get teary listening to Samantha and opened the eyes and got up from the couch and walked towards Samantha and Alexi and hugged them.

"Everything will be alright! Just keep the faith." Andrew said and Samantha and Alexi nodded and hugged him.

"Now, let's stop this and eat." Samantha said and forwarded the plates to Andrew and Alexi.

"Samantha, Promise me. You will not try to do this again?" Andrew said.

"I promise you. I will not." Samantha said and Andrew kissed her forehead.

"Only kisses for her? Where is my kiss?" Alexi asked and Andrew chuckled and kissed Alexi's forehead too.

"Here, have this." Samantha said and Andrew nodded and started eating.

"Does Noah know about this?" Andrew asked and Samantha shook her head.

"Hey, you. You better answer him why didn't you inform us about this!" Andrew said to Alexi and she nodded while eating her favorite Cranberry Crostini.