Chapter 22: Never Had
Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections. Gerard Way.
Chapter 21.
"Don't tell me, your spending the night here?" I asked, immediately as I noticed a strange action from Alex.
He raised his eyebrows and a known smirk where displayed on his lips...
I got confused at a spot. He wouldn't be spending the night over here, would he? This was the first time a guy had to lay on my bed. It wasn't big as Alex's but I couldn't say it wasn't comfortable for Alex.
Why can't I read him.
I walked in a little bit. Alex who was sitting on the bed, has his brown silky eyes on me all through my movements. I found it funny at first but awkward.
I didn't have the words to produce now, the silent didn't want to be interrupted by any.
"You have a nice family" he snaps.
I raked my eyes in confusion. All of a sudden he speaks about my mom, it was clear she is my only family.
He shouldn't get the wrong ideas, My mom and I have arguments at times. We aren't as perfect as it seems. I couldn't answer to his question, it was clear he has the opposite of nice with his relationship with his father and I didn't want to rub mine.
I slowly walked up to the bathroom and freshened up, if he wasn't going to leave I also wasn't going through stand for much longer.
Coming out of the bathroom, Alex was on his Shirt and that got me completely surprised. He was still checking out my pictures from when I was younger. My presence wasn't yet known.
Didn't want to drop something or slip in the present of Alex so definitely won't be called clumpsy, I carefully walked up to my dresser to get something comfortable that fits.
"You had a father?" Alex snaps again.
Everyone have father's.
I spun around with immediate shock, he was staring at me with his wide eyes. I was already dressed.
"He died" I simply said. When he realizes my mood swings he would probably leave.
He got shocked and I could tell he was sorry but he didn't have the words to say it, my assumption are always fifty percent right.
He was silent for a while and later added up. "That was had for you?" He asked.
If only he knew my dad died when my mom was in labour.
He was now in a serious tune he wasn't smiling or smirking neither grinning. Why does he get so moody and turn so nice and later back to his old self.
"I can't miss what I never had" I bluntly said.
My heart most had skipped with my present statement. I had never thought of my father before, now Alex brought it up I wondered what my life would be when my father is around. Would I have met Isabella or would we be leaving here right now.
I didn't have the satisfaction to call someone dad before or now. I raised my head to face him now.
He was contemplating if my words where really what I meant or not, his eyes could give him away at some point but clouds end up covering it, all of it.
"You should get some rest" He kindly said.
My eyebrows where raised, I didn't have anything to say to him. Why does he care if I rest or not.
He kept the picture he was holding back on the wall and didn't try to glance at my direction before he heads out.
"Alex" I called him.
He faced back side way, his body wasn't completely turned but I could see his mug halfway. Even if I couldn't see him fully his attraction was magnificent.
My words where lost but finally found it's way out. "My family isn't as perfect as it seems, no family is perfect and I didn't want you to get intimidated by what you saw earlier." It finally shoved out.
He was silent for a while and later said. "Hmm, your bed is warm. Goodnight Gela" With his statement he walked out.
I blinked a few times but rubbed it off.
I think telling Alex about the intimidating and my family was the best idea. I don't really like making people feel intimidated. I have never made someone feel that way. I always thought I had nothing special for someone to get intimidated.
Feeling really dizzy after all that had happened tonight, I walked down to my bed.
I rubbed off the topic from my head. Alex's father was not the best and his mother was a nice person. Alex might either head home now or sleep in the hostel, have once accidentally slipped into his room there before. Anyway wherever he his or wherever he goes I hope he has a goodnight.
Closing my eyes slightly...I slept off.
***
"Angela!"
"Stop being lazy an get up!"
"Angela!"
I was already up, twenty minutes before my moms call. She didn't know that. I liked when she is caring to me, I haven't had anyone since my supposedly father died.
Ignoring all her calls, I walked down the stairs when I was done refreshing.
Saturday feels so good, no school neither calls and I don't have to go to work today. "Morning".
"Angie, you showered?" She asked, I immediately nodded a yes. I haven't done my choirs in decades, she seem not to care.
I went straight to grab my breakfast, we sat together. The food where really delicious.
"How about Reid?" I asked. I would love to know more about the guy called Reid so I added before she could answer "Is he around?" I asked again.
She noticed me for a while as she begins to tell me all what Isa had told. How they met, how the relationship grew, he has a son. That's new. "I love him Angie" she states.
I have been hearing this words from two people who are close to me. I don't know much about love cause I haven't really felt it but why do people love anyway.
"Well Reid isn't here but I could tell you who spent the night on our couch" She bluntly stated.
The food I had in my mouth scoffed and I raised my gaze to hers. She was shady now, something she usually don't be.
She carried her gaze to the couch, so did I and the view of Alex's black jacket he had worn last night where really clear.
"Tell me- he didn't-"
"Yes he did, we even talked but he seemed to be the 'no words' type and I didn't get much from him." She stated.
He spent the night on a couch, when he had a king size bed at home. What can he be blur at times. What is he really up to.
I blinked my eyes and stood up from the chair I was on. "He left already?" I asked my mom.
She was also confused and didn't say anything. She finally answered. "Last night he helped fix the kitchen, this morning he went for a run."
What!
He went for a run, that might not be a surprise. "Why didn't you tell me he was spending the night over!" I asked and my voice was getting really nervous now.
My mom also stood up and she wasn't Shaky like I was.
"He said you needed to rest and not to disturb you" she said. I bit my lips slightly. She noticed I wasn't going to finish my breakfast and took our plates to the kitchen.
I contemplates on what to do.
"Alex is a complicated guy, I wonder how you keep up with him?" My mom was back from the kitchen. She went straight to the couch and had a sit.
I followed suit, she was unusual today and that got me surprised.
What did she mean, she wonders how I keep up with him. I kept my eyes on her.
Having my sit carefully, she added "Don't peer at me, Isn't he your boyfriend?"
"And Shaw Mendez is my father" I said, I was being sarcastic about that. "He's not my boy friend" I calmly said.
"Ouch Gela" We where both being snapped by the voice we heard, we turned our head backwards just for me to see a sweaty Alex. He was with the pants he had worn yesterday but his shirt where off.
My eyes couldn't pull to what I have seen, why does his torso look so good. My eyes must be lying to me, how could a human look this good, I took in the long lines of his arms the ripple of his muscles, the veins that stood out like cords, his thick wrist. Every part of his body where disciplined, tight and masculine. I finally blinked.
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