Chapter 35: My wolf is dead .
Elvida .
Tears leaked down her face as her mind went back to how Moroe made her drink the cup with silver , are people this cruel, are they more than monsters like him , how could they do that to their kind and nature , their own , how ?
Her throat tightened as she remembered how silver burned down her throat , how it broke her inside and Elvira took it to protect her , she consumed as many as she can absorb , that made her wonder if her wolf is still alive .
No , she may not ...I have been calling her non stop and she isn't responding and at a point I don't feel her anymore and how can I say this but am afraid , she was another me , a part that completed my kind and I fear that I lost her .
But maybe she is a sleep , I will try more time , ' Vira ' I tried again , ' Elvira ' again and again and no response came , tears leaked harder , I couldn't make a sound my throat was stuck with something I can't explain .
' Elvira '
no response again ,
' Elvi.....'
' Call me Elna ' a voice came by and I could tell that was not my wolf , that was not her .
' Who are you' I asked again in mindlink , curiosity getting best of me as my heart hummered down my chest , praying that it should be Elvira though my mind proved she is not , that's not her voice .
' Am Elna , your new wolf ' a voice replied and can this get any crazier . I lost her , I lost her , she really is gone far from me , Elvira is gone .
Tears now flooded in my eyes , I knew that she wouldn't survive after all we have been through but I had that hope of her being alive , she was strong and I was the weak .
It's all my fault , I couldn't protect her like she did and now I have lost her forever .
' Don't blame yourself , Elvira did her best for you because she cared for you '
' What do you know , wolf ? ' I shouted at her , what was this wolf , dumb is it huh ! .
' I know everything and I understand how you really feel '
Was this wolf some crazy ass , ' You haven't been in human before how do you know everything , how can you feel what I am feeling ? ' I couldn't have shits with this wolf now , a newbie .
The wolf walked closer and I could see her blue shinny eyes and for the first time I couldn't read them , I suppose wolves are easy to be seen deep in their soul .
' You know nothing of me pup , and trust me you have seen nothing yet of me ...am Elna your new wolf and never a newbie , I understand how you feel , I feel it too were connected remember , I know all of your life , all of it and blaming yourself won't do any good to you especially when Elvira fought for you and still chose you to the very end '
' My wolf is dead , don't you get it ? ' I shouted , this newbie was acting all lunatic here and I can't stand her anymore .
' I can't stand you either , your life is worse than hell and trust me I have lived thousand of years witnessing what hell is like and am getting you at the end , am just numb and you being arrogant and annoying doesn't help and if I could be you I would respect the choice your latebie chose , .....I can't believe she still chose you in her favours '
' She's not a latebie '
' Ain't newbie either , am way too old for your grand great great mother pup , so cherish the second chance and stop being a prick '
' A prick , huh ! ' I chuckled for the fact that we won't ever get along .
' I hate the idea of getting along too but do I have a choice ' Elna spoke rolling her eyes .
' You said Vira chose me in her favours , what do you mean ? ' I asked and the wolf smiled .
' Are you dumb too , gosh this is going to be difficult , listen Elvira gave selene a wish to grant as a favour and the wish was for you to get a new wolf .She didn't want you to be alone and for all the people Selene picked she chose me , at a time I thought she was freeing me but I guess her hatred went down really hard '
' You speak too much '
'I was just demonstrating what happened when you were a sleep , and please don't kill yourself ' Elna begged and I pushed the thought away as I blocked her , how can I want to live when there is no reason at all .
I opened my eyes slowly and gazed at the room as memories flooded in my head , Fred dying and a man saved me .
Wait , a man ....
Who could it be , what does he want from me , why did he save me when I wanted to kill myself , is it because he wants to torture me more or because he wants to use me like how those .....
I closed her eyes as tears rolled down to her side of cheeks , I can't be here , this man will kill me and I can't allow that , my Mother would want me to live and like a Strom strikes my chest .
Mother
I left her alone in that cruel pack , was she dead , did they kill her or use her like they did , will she survive , she was weak because of the silver she frequent got from slashes that Moroe gladly gave with no reason stated .
How can I leave her behind , I have to go back and save her but I can't , she wanted me to leave and run far away , she wanted me to be safe but how can I leave her behind , it's all my fault , it's all my fault .
If it wasn't for me being weak and helpless , my father wouldn't have died saving me and my mother when were slaves , only if I could have been stronger , I would have saved her too but I was weak , I am weak .
And now am captured by another man , I really am useless , I deserve to die .
And I will die .
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