Chapter 35: 35.  “She’s off limits.”

Agatha

"I don't want to fuck you, Agatha. I know that's my thing. I fuck. But, this is different, and I know, that you know it too. If I'd do anything to you, I'd make love to you."

Shawn said it while directly looking into my eyes, and I feel all my emotions bubbled up. I wanted to bawl, but I don't want my emotions to get in the way, I am lost for words. I've never felt his much love in my life and how it feels to get it back too. 

"Shawn…" I tried to speak but I got choked by my own words.

"Don't." He said. "Let me talk." 

I nodded and let him "I know you're sad right now, and you're emotional and drunk, and on top of it all, I know something is bothering you. You don't want to talk about it, fine, I get it. But I won't take advantage of it. You're vulnerable right now baby, making love to you tonight would make you feel good right now but it wouldn't make you feel better."