Chapter 65: Babysitting - 2
After Lisa's help with shedding some light on what love means, Shiro eventually calmed down; in my arms. Which leads me to where I am now...
Lisa broke away from us and decided to watch some television, which Shiro and I went back up to our room. Of course with Shiro's state right now, I had to carry her up the stairs before eventually placing her down on the bed. But even as I try to do that, Shiro still clung onto me, leading me to lay down on the bed with her.
"Hehehe~" She's been clinging onto me like this ever since Lisa explained that you can only love one person. Of course you can love many people, like family and friends, but considering the situation, I think it's the right call. But I didn't expect Shiro to be this clingy still.
"Had fun?" I decide to break the silence, a smile quickly growing on my face as I look at Shiro's blissful face.
"Mhmm!"
"That's good. But you didn't need to drink so much."
"Mmmm~ I'm fine though. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside~ Ah- but that might be because of Charlotte as well." Hearing her say that about me only makes me even more embarrassed.
"What about when you did it with Lisa?" I end up questioning it though, questioning Shiro. I know she only kissed Lisa because of what I told her before, but it was still hard to watch.
"Did what?"
"...The kiss."
"Oh. Mm! I felt warm as well." So there's no difference between Lisa and me? "Ah, but with Charlotte, I feel like it's different..."
"Eh?"
"I don't get this- light, fluffy feeling when I was hugging Lisa." She says while tightening her embrace around me. Her words only making the warmth in my chest continue to grow. "It's different when I'm around you..."
What am I meant to make of that?! At time like this, I wish I could be drunk, maybe if I was drunk, I wouldn't need to overthink anything. It sounds like Shiro does see me as maybe something more, but that could just be the alcohol talking. Plus it's not like she herself fully understands her feelings. That said, I'm glad to know that I beat out Lisa in her heart.
Thinking that, I reciprocate her feelings, holding her closer as we both lay on our sides facing each other. Her long eyelashes closing down on her eyes as she smiles makes it impossible for me to look away. It was then that I caught myself leaning in as I quickly retreat my head away.
"Hmm?" Shiro, not knowing what I was about to do, opened her eyes in confusion.
I can't believe I was about to kiss her just now... I can't do that, I can't take advantage of her because she's drunk. But when I remembered that kiss with Lisa, I don't know... I felt like maybe I needed to overwrite it. I know now how stupid of an excuse I was trying to think up, which is why I moved away just now.
"It's nothing, hehe." So I play it off.
"Mmm~" Satisfied, Shiro leans in closer to me, resting her head up close against my chest. She's really taking a liking to this, huh. "Can I stay like this?"
"Y-yes." I respond while wrapping an arm around her, holding her head close to me. "Of course."
"Thank you, Charlotte..."
"Just don't fall asleep. It's not dark out yet."
"Mmmm~ But it's tempting~"
"We can't sleep in these clothes. Plus we need to wash up."
"...Will you help me wash up this time?"
"..." I fall silent at her words, thinking about the bath.
There's no way I can take a bath with Shiro now, especially not like this. I have an idea of what her feelings are, but I'm still not sure how to go about it. I also need to figure out my own feelings. Either way, I don't think it's right for me to take advantage of her while she's like this. But even whilst I think this, seeing the pleading look in her eyes, almost looking like she'll tear up any moment, makes me waver as I feel my chest tighten up.
"...Okay."
"R-really?!" Surprised, Shiro sits up from bed in a blink of an eye. She was so tired just a moment ago, where did all that energy come from? "You'll take a bath with me?"
"Just this once, okay?"
"Yay!~" Just as I was sitting up, she hugs me once more as I'm already dreading what's to come... Drunk people are so difficult sometimes...
With Shiro now filled with enthusiasm, we get our change of clothes before making our way to the bathroom. With how wobbly Shiro is, I ended up helping undress her fully, all while averting my eyes. Last time I did this, I didn't feel anything, but now I feel like it's wrong to look at her naked body.
Because of the dire situation I'm in, I end up washing up the both of us in a quick fashion, which Shiro didn't seem to mind before we submerge ourselves in the bath.
"Haaah!~ I missed this~"
Shiro's the first to speak as she subconsciously took her spot up against me, resting her back against my chest. Before, I wouldn't react as much, but now I can't stop thinking about how Shiro's defenseless body is right here in front of me. I do hold her around her waist, making sure she doesn't slip under the water and drown, but even that is making it quite difficult for me to compose myself as I find myself struggling to breathe normally, only taking short breaths.
"Mmm~ Charlotte."
"Y-yes?"
"Can we do this again?" Why are you asking me in that way? Tilting your head up at me, I-
"W-we'll see."
"Hehehe~"
I'm too weak for her right now... Thankfully she'll probably forget about this by tomorrow.
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