*Leonora*
Luke motioned for me to stand up and I did. I walked out of the hut and waited for him to come outside. It seemed like the interview went well with the smile on his face. I don't know why I felt so happy. It had been a while since someone looked at me the way he did. He had a look of pride, like he had scored a goal or something and I wondered what ran through his mind.
I wouldn't lie to myself and say that I wasn't missing Jax. That was the only thing that filled my mind. But at the same time, it pained me that every moment I spent with Jax was a lie. My first sex was a lie. I thought he meant it when he told me loved me. I was too stupid to even think he meant it. How would he mean it? I was nothing to him. I was just a stain on his cloth. He wanted me gone.