For the not many readers of this novel, it hasn't been updating recently. I've just not had the motivation to continue this rabbit hole of constantly changing ideas, and I think I'll actually drop this for the sake of my and everyone else's sanity. Maybe in some possible, distant future, this novel will continue for real and the ideas won't be constantly influenced by my surroundings and feelings.
The original pairing was random, just normal and cute. I'd been influenced by my friends and the idea eventually twisted into something which made no sense. The original story was happy, cute and going to end in 100 chapters or so but then I just lost everything. It all went to shit, honestly. I doubt anyone will read this in the future, though. Haha.
If I were to rewrite this, though, I'd definitely go for something less stressful and difficult. Maybe not first person, either, since it feels like I'm just faking something or giving a bad rep to real mental illnesses. I also don't think I'll do that, and I also think I should finish the novel before beginning to upload it.
Though to continue from what I'd do if I were to rewrite it, I'd probably make the system less complicated, if possible. It definitely had a lot of holes and problems but it was my first time writing something like this so don't blame I guess??
I think I'd like to make Raymond a more normal guy, rather than some edgy powerhouse I made before. I'd like for him to be an actual teenager, rather than some fake Mary sue. I feel like I'm yapping at this point..
Anyways, I'm out, see you if I ever rewrite this?
Did you ever have a failed project you thought you'd actually do?