Chapter 542: The real Asada Shinichi
There are many things written in it.
There are Shinichi's feelings when he met Furuhashi Fumino, his emotions when he met Nakano Miku, the notes he made to Fumino and Rizu, and his opinion about Teacher Mafuyu.
There are the difficulties he encounters when teaching, the difficulties he experiences when hanging out with girls, the happiness he finds due to the increase in the number of friends, and the attachment he finds in his increasingly rich love life.
There are analyzes of his relationship with Fumino, changes in his relationship with the quintuplets l, and serious articles in which he analyzes himself and his current situation from various angles.
Rui suppressed the turbulent emotions in her heart, and continued to flip through the recording that seemed to contain "Asada Shinichi".
This is not a diary, these are just his thoughts that cannot be revealed to others.
〚What am I doing?〛
〚 What can I do?〛
〚What do I want?〛
〚What should we do to satisfy everyone? 〛
〚What should we do to find the optimal solution?〛
Shinichi's confused questions seemed to come through the text.
〚No one can tell me... For everyone's sake, I have to find out for myself!〛
〚For someone like me, being able to spend a happy everyday life with everyone is probably only once in my life... So I can't let their smiles disappear!〛
〚This is what I have to do, this is my responsibility, this is all because of me, I can't pretend to turn a blind eye!〛
〚If I don't know how to do something, learn it. If I'm afraid of being changed, learn from it. If I don't want to lose those beautiful things, learn... You monster who only knows how to learn, try my best to do my part!〛
Facing the open notebook, Rui sat motionless, her eyes lost focus, and the picture of the day flashed by like a slideshow.
He said the same thing six years ago.
Even though Shinichi wasn't much older than her, he had a pained and confused expression on his face and was whispering into a book.
"…Sometimes, I feel like a monster."
"…"
"You obviously don't even remember the past, but you still have this kind of self-awareness in your heart... Idiot. Big idiot! Prehistoric beast big idiot!"
Rui cursed in a low voice while sobbing, her expression couldn't tell whether she was angry or sad.
It took a long time to calm her turbulent emotions, and she continued flipping through the notebook.
There are stories about him in the background, some are exposition like a documentary, there are also those that express happiness with his new family, of course there are also complaints, worries, and screams of wanting to hold his little sister and roll around in bed.
Seeing him, Rui couldn't help but laugh again, her face slightly red.
"This man is really a siscon..."
〚In order not to be a bastard, I have to face your feelings and make sure I really like someone before falling in love. Is this the right choice?〛
〚I made a pact with Rui not to disappoint anyone who likes me. The only thing I have to do is respond to their expectations and satisfy their little happiness within the boundaries of the rules〛
〚If this can make them smile, I will try my best to do it. Don't think about the consequences that await me. I cannot go back on my decision〛
〚This is not for others, but for myself who has nothing. This is my selfishness. Once I understand it, I'm no longer confused〛
〚My schedule is to watch a movie with Ichika, shop with Nino, and have dinner with Hayasaka. Fujiwara Senpai should let it go for now, she's happy abroad... Let's find time to hang out with Miku〛
〚And Rui, that Hikikomori, she definitely likes amusement parks, so prepare a surprise for her (important sign)〛
The hand holding the page is a little firmer here.
The ink also gets a little darker in the next section.
〚I like being with everyone〛
〚I hate being hated by everyone〛
It was cowardice that Rui had never seen before. After all the masks and disguises were peeled off, the real Asada Shinichi emerged.
〚I also want to be happy, so I wrote it here to always remind you not to forget your feelings right now〛
〚Asada Shinichi, whatever you encounter in the future, please endure and learn how to be a person who makes people around you smile〛
〚Regarding love, let's talk about it later〛
"…"
After reading it, Rui closed the notebook, and the expression on her face disappeared.
After returning everything into the drawer and returning everything to its place, she left Shinichi's room without regret.
Quickly go downstairs, walk into the living room, open the window, face the garden and take a deep breath.
She raised her head and looked at the sky. For some reason, her lips curved into a smile.
Was it because she saw it clearly?
The fog in her heart seemed to have completely dissipated at this moment, and all the depression disappeared.
Rui shouted out the emotions she was holding back.
"Asada Shinichi, you are ten million percent a clumsy idiot!"
Various sounds of windows and doors opening, Rui quickly closed the windows like a child doing bad things.
At the same time, footsteps could be heard upstairs.
"Rui! That one was…"
Hina hurriedly walked down the living room, her worried expression turning into surprise when she saw her.
"Hina Nee-san, I've decided!"
With her hands behind her back, Rui smiled very happily.
"Decided what?"
Before Hina could react, she heard her speak so quickly.
"I want to date Shinichi Onii-chan, be a girlfriend, and have a relationship that isn't serious at all."
"...Hah?"
Hina opened her mouth wide.
"Then we break up at the end of the summer."
"...Hah??!"
Hina's jaw was wide open, her eyes were full of confusion and disbelief, she wanted to ask something but didn't know where to start.
Rui smiled and turned to look at the life contract on the wall.
"Since you forgot, let me solve your problem again, Shinichi Onii-chan."
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