guys, I'm sorry for the slow update for a while now. I've had teeny tiny little bit of an issue for a while now.
but the real reason is because, I kinda missed the man, the legend, Ezio Auditore da Firenze! so I've been playing the brotherhood and revelation for a few days now. and you know how it is, you can't stop playing them unless you've 100% em!
so, sorry!
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Ali :"I set this card and end my turn, make your move! but it won't matter anyway, you're already done for with no way out."
Author :"hmph! don't be so sure about that now, buddy. I draw! *Ali's signature smile* you're done for, Ali. I have one of the rarest cards there is in my hand!"
Ali :"*narrowing his eyes* oh, really? what is it? the chances of you playing it are high, but I don't think it will make that much of a difference."
author :"*signature smile still on* say that after I activate it! and I do now! I activate the super rare spell card: N- word pass!"
Ali :"*eyes wide with shock* Ashborne, don't do it! if that does what I think it does, don't you fucking dare do it!!"
author :"*signature smile widening somehow* ohh, I'm gonna do it. as the name says, it gives me the ability to freely say the N word!"
Ali :"No! don't!!"
author :"and not just that! it is also a CONTINUES spell card! meaning I can say the N word till the end of this duel!"
Ali :"what?! how can that be?! Ashborne, I warn yo-!!"
author :"now prepare yourself, nigg-!!!"
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{Bibi Dong's POV}
I was angry. very, very angry. the Rakshasa goddess had given me a trial that forces me to inflict the same pain I felt all those years ago on my own student!
and not just my student, my own lover! there is even a time limit of only one week to it!
but even though I was mad and angry, I tried to calm down. after a while of taking deep breaths, I exhaled all my frustrations as I started to think.
the trial is definitely not a prank or just to get a laugh since she explained the reason. and as my as I hate to admit it, it's true.
the scar and trauma of betrayal by the same person who I considered as a master and even a father caused great damage and pain to me.
and even though I killed him, the pent up aggression still lingers in my heart. but even if it's true and the way the goddess gave me is effective will work, I still can't do that to Ali nor any part of him...
especially not to Eve. he is one of the sweetest people I have ever seen. he always takes care of the few people around him.
I can't possibly hurt his feeling by forcing him... but the test has started and the time limit is only one week...
Rakshasa goddess is right. if I don't deal with this rage and pain in my hurt, it will become even greater when I become the Rakshasa goddess.
but still... forcing Eve into doing it... wait, forcing... I smiled as I found hope. the test implies that I should... do him in the butt and take out my suffering and pent up aggression on him while doing so!
so that means that if I manage to convince him to do it with willingly, I won't feel bad later on or regret it!
then the test will be finished! and besides... I would be lying if I said that I haven't thought of playing with his big butt...
No! stop, Bibi Dong! what are you thinking?! damn it... Ali's pervertedness has rubbed off on me... that damn kid... with his big, long... No! focus, damn it!
the test will be easily solved if Xiao Eve agrees and goes along with it, and neither me nor him will have any bad memories of today.
Xiao Eve is Ali's emotions, and from all these years of experience, he will definitely do what I ask him to.
but that will still make me feel bad and think that I have taken advantage of his trust. so I have to give him the reason for this with a clear explanation.
{sigh... my god, women make it so complicated... no the heck you don't! his emotions or not, his femboy form and feminine part or not, he's still the same perverted and lewd Ali!
you just need to ask him and there is more than 90% chance that he will agree if you just say "I just wanna try it."! no need to have an entire monologue! but well... I guess this can also be a therapy session for her...}
and that explanation will definitely include about the gods, divine inheritance assessments, Rakshasa goddess trials and etc...
and I also need to tell him about the reason for why I was given this test, or he may misunderstand the Rakshasa goddess.
"sigh... I just hope that everything goes well and he won't be mad at me or sad about what I should do... he has become the person most dear to me after all."
{poor Hu Liena...}
I got up from my cultivation pose and sent a mental message to Ali who I sensed had just walked into the papal palace along with Hu Liena.
good timing, I guess :"Ali, separate into two. I have something to do with your Xiao Eve form. just Xiao Eve, though, Xiao Al can spend the time with Nana."
the mental message was one of the rather useful abilities that our 100% compatibility brought. but it still had a range.
Ali's happy and cheerful voice came without any hint of hesitation or mistrust, raising my guilt for what I'm about to do in a while :"oh? alright, Dong'er. our usual meeting place, right? the hidden room?"
I smiled at the sweet name that took away some of my guilt :"mhm, that's right."
Ali :"alright, my love. just a minute."
even though the interaction and conversation was small, it still did wonders to me. it reminded me of how he always helps me if he can and just how much he loves me.
I walked to the huge bed that was placed here by Ali who, according to himself, had this "genius" idea of us being able to do whatever we wanted here without being uncomfortable.
I sat on the soft and comfortable bed as I waited for Xiao Eve to appear since he already knew the way to here.
but my face heat up as the bed reminded me of all the perverted acts that Ali had convinced me to do. grr... that damned lewd lover of mine...
and as I shook my head to try to distract myself and make all the images go away, I heard footsteps coming towards me.
I already knew that it was definitely Xiao Eve, since I can detect and feel his soul power because of our connection.
and this hidden room is.. well, hidden. and nobody but me and Ali know about it. well, Qian Daoliu also knows, but he has never even gotten closed to it and stays away from it.
the beautiful Xiao Eve finally appeared in my field of view as his pretty blue hair swayed a little from him walking down the stairs and jogging towards me.
when he finally reached the bed, he sat down with a sweet smile on his face, causing my smile to grow as well as I opened my arms so that we can hug just like always :"Dong'er! hello, my love. how have you been?"
the smile that he had was so sweet and genuine that I just couldn't stop myself from kissing him. the kiss was slow and full of love, causing our eyes to close at the sensation.
it let me feel clearly just how soft, plump and kissable his lips are. he smiled a little as we kissed and moved his hands around my neck.
I also circled my hands around his tiny waist as the kiss slowly got heated. I gently moved away from the kiss as I prepared myself for the explanation that I'm going to give.
he giggled as our lips parted, his voice and laughter would always make my heart start beating faster from just how much I love him :"what was that for? not complaining, but that was kinda out of the blue."
as I thought of just how much I love Ali and either part of him, the thought of him losing his affection for me because of my action hit me.
I knew that it was false, that there was no way it would happen. I KNEW, FELT and EXPERIENCED just how much the love that Ali has for me is first hand.
and I was sure that he would always help me, especially now that it's a trial from the Rakshasa goddess which is a very big deal to me.
but even so, just the thought of losing his love that always feels like a heavenly blessings, terrifies me. it seems that he felt and saw my nervousness, because he moved his right hand to my cheek as he rubbed it gently and comfortingly.
I leaned into his touch as he looked at me with love, worry and concern in his eyes :"my love, is something the matter? tell me about it, I will help as much as I can."
I couldn't conceal my nervousness and anxiousness, I just couldn't when he talked to me like that.
when he looked at me like that. when he loved me like that. as I leaned into his touch, so warm that it ran to the depth of my heart, I closed my eyes and gave a small nod.
I felt his left hand which was circled around my neck get removed. I instantly missed the warms that I so desperately needed right now, but it fortunately came back as Eve held my hand and squeezed gently :"do you want to talk about it?
Dong'er, I'm always here for you, just as I have said it many times till now. so tell me about it. if we can, we will solve it together.
I will give you all the help and assistant I have, alright? so don't hide your difficulties and worries from me. let me share them with you so it will be easier."
seriously, just how am I supposed to react? how can I return this love that I receive from him? is he the compensation from the world for the pain I suffered?
other than that, just what have I done to deserve him? to deserve his unconditional love and support?
as I thought about just how much I love him and his care for me, I felt my eyes water a little from the love that I finally received after all those years of pain and loneliness.
I closed off my heart to not let out those feeling from all those years ago. I didn't even tell Ali about any of them.
but now, he was opening it up. opening the part of my heart that I considered weak. the pain, the sadness, the rage, the loneliness, the need for love and every feeling that have been locked away all those years ago started to slowly come to life again.
I felt Eve's arms around me once again as he pushed my head gently onto his delicate shoulder as he whispered sweetly and comfortingly into my ear :"it's alright, my love.
it's alright. I'm here, ok? so just let it all out. I'm here for you. I will always be here for you, Dong'er. so don't hold back."
I hugged him back as I used his shoulder to cover my tears of all those years of suffering that I hid away from the world.
I sobbed softy into his warm embrace that I wouldn't exchange for the world as my tears poured out.
as I continued to cry and let out those hidden emotions, Eve also continued rubbing my back and whispering sweet words and sentences into my ears.
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damn... took a whole nother turn than what I was planning on writing... but I don't regret it. she deserves all the love in the world