Chapter 7: Deny my family to follow Jesus. .

Early in the morning i fed my little brother for his breakfast. He ate so slow so i used my phone that time. I saw a video appeared and it was entitled, "God heared you last night" and i played it. After i read the whole message i was crying so much. My brother named Christ was there and he told me, "Sister, you look crazy staring at your phone crying." Then i respond, "I am not crazy brother, i am just happy that God is really here with me and he never left me." The message i read was this, "Did you know i catched all your tears last night? Did you know i felt your heart ache and your weeping aloud reaching my ears? Your family doesn't know how it hurts that you chose me over them. I am glad you have chosen me. I will give you a blessing. It's not a money but people who will be with you." I know it was not a coincidence i know it was really God who answered my prayers and that message was really meant for me. Then i saw a message again appeared in my FB post, "My child, in the place where you will be, you're more blessed than them." It was saturday and i go back to church of Pastor Ian. The church looks very poor because the area is too small. It was made of wood and coconut palms but for me it doesn't matter. They have less intruments too just a guitar and a small speaker. Saturday is prayer and fasting for them and i didn't know it yet because i was new there. They welcomed me so much and i only joined them praying. When they started to pray i was so confused to some people i heared for they spoken a different languages that i don't understand. I whispered to Elyn my new sister in Christ, "What are they saying sis?" Then she replied, "They were speaking in tounges." I don't asked her anymore about it and after that i joined them practicing the songs for sunday fellowship. I am so happy because i found a place where my heart wants and seeks. I continued to attend in their fellowships. They were lesser amount of people coming to church. When Sunday came i've been there in the morning. When they started to pray and sing praises, calling and magnifying the name of Jesus, i felt the cold air and my skin feathers rises up! I felt the power and God's holy presence! It was very different! We sing songs with gladness and clapping our hands. We looked unto each other and smiled. I'm so happy and that was the very great feeling i ever felt! My heart was only full of happiness and joy! We raised our hands and worship Jesus name again and again closing our eyes and wow! The devine service started and first was their announcement. Then giving of tithes and offerings. I didn't know what tithing means so i asked sis Elyn again and she said it means your ten percent of your income. Pastor Ian started the sermon and it was so great especially during altar call. It felt so good bending my knees and talking to God after relflecting in the word of God. Many times i really cried in talking to God aftet the sermon because it was very true and it really penetrates my heart deeply. One time Pastor Ian had a sermon about family. I listen so well and i was preventing not to let my tears fall because of the topic. Many of us were so hurt because that's the most problem we had as a Christian and someone walked away too because she can't take it anymore. It's like my heart was going to explode because of the pain inside. But i still managed to control it even if i already cried a lot i only wiped it all away and continue. There were sermons too that makes us on fire and sometimes mixed with funny jokes and stories. We were also spending time with little converstions and eating together as a family. This was the place i long to be and i never regret where i am right now. I never regret about my decision in following Jesus. I am in the right place and the right people God blessed me with.