How could she think that she would be okay with him dying on her? With her track record, it should be provided by the government that she should not deal with any kind of permanent abandonment from anyone!
Joyce remembered very clearly about how many times he had been there for her. How many times Adrian had forgotten whatever he had to do and held her to her panic attacks, and when she felt like she needed drugs to live again.
Adrian had been the constant clutch she needed to get through the worst phase of her life, and somehow, now he was stuck with her. There was no way he could leave her alone in this world.
She would die if he did.
Blinking away the angry tears, Joyce sniffed loudly. She wanted him around, she loved him, which is why she wanted him around and if one day, he was not there, then she would not find any reason to continue living on too.