Zarah Fable
Things have been pretty good between James and I lately after the talk we had 2 days ago. I still feel like he might be avoiding me but I guess we have to take baby steps. Lately if it isn't James on my mind then it's the baby and vice versa. I needed a break. I called Kiki asking her if she would be busy today. She said no so now I am sitting on the couch with her watching as she freaks out over the sonogram picture I showed her.
"I still can't believe all this is happening! I'm going to be the best aunt ever!"
"You're really excited aren't you?"
"Are you kidding me? My best friend is having a baby with my brother."
"Who happens to be dating someone else who still doesn't know about all of this."
"You do make a pretty good point there."
We both look at each other and laugh. I think this is definitely not the conversation we ever imagined having with each other at this point in our lives. We sit together and just laugh, watch movies, tv shows, play games. This girl's day was exactly what I needed. I know that talking about the baby makes Kiki happy but for today at least I didn't want to hear or talk about that. Today I just want to be hanging out with my best friend.
I have been at Kiki's for about 4 hours now. It's about 4:45. We just got done watching Princess and The Frog. I know it seems kiddie but we both love disney movies. And Marvel. We talk about the movie and how ridiculous Naveen is when we hear someone unlocking the front door.
"I thought your mom wasn't supposed to be home until later tonight."
"Yeah she's not."
The door opens but before I even see anyone walking down the short hallway I hear a laugh.
"James, you are so funny!"
Cassidy. What were they doing here though? Kiki told me that they wouldn't be home at all today. Cass comes around the corner and spots me sitting on the couch. She shoots me a glare letting me know she doesn't want me to be here.
"Babe I didn't know you little friend would be here today."
James comes around the corner and sees me. His eyes get big and I can't help but look at him.
"Well I didn't know either. Kiki why didn't you tell me." He asks as he grits his teeth, smiling.
I can't give Cass any reason to mess with me right now. I already have a lot on my plate right now. I don't think I can handle anything else.
"Ooo whose little picture is this?"
I whipped my head around to see that Cass had moved from beside James to in front of the TV holding the sonogram that was on the coffee table. Damn it! I didn't know she would be here and I planned on leaving before their mom got home so that she wouldn't know anything just yet.
"It's mine." Kiki says as she quickly stands up. She tries to take the picture from her but she moves it quickly before Kiki can grab it.
"Oh I'm so disappointed in you. This is not something you're ready for."
She talked to her like she was her mother. This pissed me off. I know Kiki cares about Cass no matter how much I dislike her. I can't let her take the fall for it.
"She's lying, it's mine."
I watch as her soft look turns evil and switches to me. I slowly stand up and take the picture from her and put it back on the table but closer to me so I can stop her if she tries to go for it again. I look over at James, his eyes wide.
"Wow, looks like I was right about you. You are a little slut. From the looks of it you just couldn't keep your legs close."
"Oh shut it! You don't know what happened! So you have no right to comment!"
"Oh getting feisty are we? So what are you trying to tell me? You didn't have a choice but to do it. That the father of this baby in your stomach raped you?"
Her eyes stare at me burning into my head. I could say yes. I could lie. That way she wouldn't know anything since it's obvious James didn't say anything to her. But if I do that she would call the cops. Not because she cares but on purpose just to be an ass.
"No, that's not what I'm saying. I'm saying.."
"So then I'm right. You're a slutly bitch that just couldn't keep her legs closed. Maybe you need to learn sex ed again of maybe your mom or dad could teach you. Oh wait that's right your mommy is dead and you daddy is barely even home. So of course there is no one to teach you right from wrong."
All I can do is stand here and let her assault me with every word. Why isn't he saying something? I turn my head slightly to look at James but he's not standing there anymore.
"I think what she is trying to say is next time maybe you should use protection."
What? Did he really just say that? Out of anyone here, he decided to comment on that?
"Someone wants to explain what's going on here?"
I lift my head up completely to see James' mom standing at the end of the hallway to the front door.
"Mom, I thought you weren't supposed to be home until tonight?"
"I wasn't but some of my meetings were canceled so I figured I would come home and have an early dinner with my family until I had to go back out."
The look in his mom's eyes. Stern and unwavering. I have always been close to her and she has always felt warm and gentle but not today and certainly not right now. This was too much. I can't process anything. I dash past Kiki and run upstairs to her room and close the door. I don't look back or think about anything else. How could he do that to me? Just stand there while HIS girlfriend insults me. I hear footsteps running up the stairs and then the bedroom door opens. Kiki stands in the doorway looking at me. Her eyes are gentle and caring, filled with worry. The tears I have been holding back finally come and hit me like a boulder. Kiki closed the door and walked over to me sitting on her bed and wrapped her arms tight around me. The tears won't stop. If he acts like this now then what happens when I go into labor or the baby is actually here. Will he continue to hide everything? Thoughts swirl in my head causing it to pound.
"I'm here for you. Always." Kiki gently whispers.
I know you are. I can't say it because I can't form words without nearly choking myself but I need you to know that. I already know.