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Ocean
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I was laying in the bed as the light swiftly diminished outside the window. The curtain was drawn as well, so it was darker in the room than it should have been. I could have lessened my depressive state if I just got up and let in a little more light, but I didn't want to. I didn't want to leave the bed. I didn't want to uncurl from the fetal position that I was currently rocking myself in.
"This is fine." I whispered to myself. I didn't know if I was stating a fact or trying to convince myself that everything was OK. Either way, the words barely made it past my lips. "I'm OK and this is fine. It's all good." I just kept going in what was supposed to be a self assuring tone of voice.