Chapter 8: BONUS: Blog Page
UNSAID WORDS, UNFINISHED LETTERS
BY: thelostqueen
ENTRY NO. 48: Wild Heart x Rib Cages
So I met this guy. He was introduced to me by my bestfriend, Marco. After months of talking through phone calls and messages, we agreed to meet. I know I've sworn to myself that I'll never entertain anyone again, but I don't know. We'll just be friends, I guess. Another Marco? But who am I kidding? He's unbelievably attractive. Geez. I have to sort my feelings out. Before anything else, I have this confession to make: I initially wanted to play around with him. Take note of the word initially. Then again, you shouldn't play the game you're not good at. I used to take things seriously and unfortunately, those things didn't take a good turn; which is why I closed my heart off from anyone -- to make it safe and save it from further destruction.
Thinking that I can handle the situation well, I decided to go with the flow.
As I spend more time with him, I realize that I don't want to continue the game anymore. I started to think that maybe, we can be good friends. And hopefully there will nothing be more than that. There shouldn't be.
I know I'm screwed.
My heart has been caged for like ages and as I spend more time and do new things with him, I can feel it ripping through me; trying to figure its way out from my rib that served as its prison cell.
I tried to understand what I feel and I guess I'm failing miserably. I have no clue. Maybe I should just appreciate it for what it's worth? Believe it or not, despite all my doubts and questions, I have to admit that my happiness right now is beyond reason. My fear of the unknown and my curiosity to find out where this may lead seem to stand hand in hand.
Am I only thinking too much? Or just taking things too far? I think I have to take this risk along with all the why's, what if's, and maybe's.
And oh, didn't I tell you that he surprised me with an adventure? We hiked Mt. Ulap and I won't deny that I had a great time! I felt free. I was often told by someone before that I'm too adventurous, too outgoing, and too whatever! Fvck that. (Laughs) On a serious note, it felt really good to have him climb with me. His gesture surprisingly touched my soul. He made me feel that there is someone who gets me and finds my interests amazing. I want to thank myself for accepting his dare. And I won't forgive myself if I ever rejected that offer.
The experience was super! I felt like a queen being toured by a Greek god in his empire.
I can't promise myself that my doubts and fear won't get the best of me. I still have my defenses up. I will take the risk but probably with reservations. With the way things are, I think I'm going on with this ride. No playing around this time.
I feel my heart literally hammering inside me. Like trying to get out and set itself free. And now I begin to understand why it is said that, "Hearts are wild creatures, that's why our ribs are cages."
To my heart:
Please don't get too wild. Be careful. I still don't trust your cage that much.
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