Chapter 8: 08
"So Mr. Gamma... you are a part of my pack now." Emily says as she eats a spoonful of mashed potatoes.
"Yes." I respond. She gits a mischievous grin.
"Hi ya mate!" She links to me and I jump. Oh yea same pack same link. She starts to bounce up and down as she sees by my face that I heard her.
"Hello Emily." I link back.
"I'm gonna have fun with this!" She links.
"We are in the same room I don't think that is nessicary." I tell her.
"I know but now it will be harder for you to push me away since I can link you... oh! And you're not an Alpha anymore so you can't command me... I think I'm gonna like this new Gamma version of my mate." She grins at me.
"Mate thinks things through more than you... and shes a little pushey... you are in trouble human. She won't let you leave her." My wolf loves this side of her.
"What am I doing! I can't let her get attached! I plan on dying soon and she can't get hurt! I need to leave."
"You what? I thought you were over killing yourself! What about the pack! You are Gamma now! That should stop you from killing yourself think of what's best for the pack!"
"You know what? I am! The pack needs me to train them and I will until the war. Then I will take care of my brothers and allow myself to be killed. Since I believe it is in the best interest of the pack my Gamma commitment doesn't stop me."
"Don't do it human! We could have a good life! With mate!"
"The decision is made... and don't think I don't know you ratted me out with the king! I woke up with the same energy drain as when you took over and he knew what I was trying to do. It's not that hard to put together. I hope you enjoyed it wolfey because I'm not letting my guard down again. You will stay locked up tight when ever we are in human form. You will not tell the king I plan to die!"
"Stupid Human!"
He tunes me out but honestly I'm glad for it.
"Asher are you okay? You kinda zoned out on me." Emily asks looking concerned.
"I'm fine... listen. I need to go... we really shouldn't spend alot of time together... I don't want to hurt you and if you get attached to me that's what will happen. I care to much about you to hurt you." I explain to her.
"No... you can't do this again. I am your mate. You say you care about me and don't want to hurt me? Well this is hurting me!" She is getting angry so I decide to leave and head back to my room.
"I'm sorry... good night." I say but she follows me out.
"No! Just talk to me Asher!" She yells as I walk upstairs.
"No. I can't have you getting attached to me." I say walking into my room. As I go to shut the door she slips in. "Please Meme." I begin to beg. "If you get attached to me it will hurt you when I'm gone."
She pushes me against the door and standing on her tiptoes kisses me. All thought left me and I find myself wrapping my arms around her resting my hands on the small of her back. She locks her fingers in my hair and lowers herself from her toes pulling my head down with her. I need a haircut my buzz cut has grown out far to much.
"Dude Seriously! Mate is kissing us and you are thinking about your hair?! Focus! Puls Mate seems to like being able to grab our hair."
We continue to kiss a moment longer before she pulls away. All I want to do is dive back in but she begins to speak.
"I'm already attached you moron." She says then grabs the door knob and slips out leaving me slack jawed.
I set an alarm for 0300. If I have to train them at 0500 I need my training done beforehand and I haven't trained in nearly two weeks.
I lay on the bead and attempt to sleep.
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0300.
I wake up and leave my room for a run when I'm stopped in the hall. I didn't think anyone would be up yet but was sadly mistaken.
"What are you doing." The guy asks. He only looks slightly older than me but with this whole immortal thing who knows.
"Going to start training." I tell him and try to pass. He pushes me back and I fight myself to not punch him.
"I mean with my sister moron!" He growls.
"And you are?" I ask.
"Matthias... first son of Alpha King Alaric... Emily's protective older brother and a pain in your neck if I hear her crying over you again... I would just kill you but she seems to think that would be worse." He says.
"She... she was crying?" I ask... I don't want to hurt her! Why is she pushing this?
"Well her "mate" basically told her to buzz off and leave him alone. What kind of person does that!? You are a crap mate!" He yells.
"I don't want to hurt her... I just don't want her getting any more attached to me... that is what will hurt her." I explain.
"You ARE hurting her! If you don't want her reject her so she can move on! Bane would gladly take care of her! But no she is caught up on you because you are her mate! She deserves better." I let out a growl as he speaks.
"I agree she deserves better!... but I can't reject her!... I don't even know how." I tell him.
"And you won't be doing it! I won't let you!" My wolf yells in my head.
"Simple you look at her and say "I Asher what ever your name is, reject you Emily Dawn Greyson as my mate, severing our bond." That easy." He tells me.
"I... I can't." I whisper.
"You can, and if you won't accept her you better because what you're doing now sucks!" Matthias says.
"I can't say those words... she should just move on... if she falls for me all I'll do is hurt her. It's better she's mad now than broken once I'm gone." I tell him.
"Or you could... oh I don't know... NOT leave her! That would solve all of this! You're our freaking Gamma! Where do you plan to go!" He yells.
"I... I... this war will be hard... a lot of people will die." I say.
"Really? You are afraid you will die? That's what this is all about?... everyone dies eventually Ash... what matters is how you live. You could live making her happy... making yourself happy... there's no guarantee you will die." He says. His demeanor shifts from angry to concerned. He thinks I'm afraid to die... no I welcome it... just not for her.
"You're right what matters is how you live... and I've done way to much to allow anyone to carry my burden... she's better off without me Matthias and I don't plan on outliving this war... I have a feeling it will end me." I tell him. He places a hand on my shoulder.
"Listen. You can't know that." He starts not realizing how well I know what I plan to do. "She needs you... don't throw her away because you are scared."
"I'm not afraid of dying... I just don't want my death to affect Emily." I tell him.
"Then don't die... because no matter how much you push her away you are her mate and your death will affect her." He says. I look away.
"I need to finish training before 5." I say throwing his hand off. "I'll be training the pack then."
"See you at 5 Asher... and just so you know Emily will be there. Dad mandates we each attend one training a day." He says as I walk away.
I take a few laps in human form finishing around 0400. I find a spot in the woods and start rapidly changing from wolf to human and back until a link stops me about 10 minutes in.
"Come to my office before training." Alpha says. I run over knowing as it is I'll have to run all out to get to the clearing on time.
"Yes sir." I say entering the office.
"Asher! Yes, I thought you might want this back." He tosses me my vest.
"Thanks." I slide it on... it's like a part of me is returned. I didn't realize that I missed it. "What made you think of this?"
"Well it seemed to be a crucial part of your battle tactics. I had some people look at it so we can produce them for our wariors... figured you'd want it back." He tells me.
"Yes... thank you sir... I'll be wanting it for the mid day session." I say.
"So you have a plan?" He asks.
"Yes sir... but honestly it depends on the men and where their skill level is." I explain.
"Well give me an update after your morning... I want to hear from you how it goes before anyone else barges in here." He says.
"You don't think it will go well?" I ask. He wanted this but doesn't think it will work. Comforting.
"I think the men will be reluctant to change and a little prideful making a new form of training difficult... they won't like it at first." He explains.
"So you had dinner with Meme." He says.
"Yes sir." I respond.
"Some ground rules in regards to my daughter. You are not to be alone with her. You are not allowed in her room and she is NOT allowed in yours. Public areas only. You will not pressure her in any way. Am I understood?" He asks. I nod.
"Yes sir that won't be a problem." I tell him.
"Umm humm..." he looks at the clock. "you better hurry. You're already going to be late. Oh and consider those rules an order... you better not hurt my girl."
"Yes sir." I nod and run out.
I tuck my shorts inside my vest and shift. When I arrive everyone is already here. I shift back and put the shorts on.
"Late for your first training. Great first impression Gamma." Beta Malak says in my ear as I approach...
This should be fun!
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