The boys tried to keep their lives organized again, the girl was reported and signed a lease agreement to go into a mental health residence instead the public judgment.
Yoongi was doing better with his injury and I also healed a bit mine. Sometimes he was about to talk to me but he decided not to because the rest of the group members already moved from the episode and had the lucky to be in the frame when he decided to said something to me.
We were alone today so after thinking about the situation I wrote a letter and pushed it under his door. He was working but he seemed frustrated lately. I said him how happy I was here and that he doesn't have to try to say anything, just relax and enjoy life like before.
Another week passed away but he was acting suspicious... the guys will call his attention as he stares with a poker face. Jimin the boy that treats me the like one more of the members, usually making jokes and calling our attention. Jin was teaching the rest his new compilation of flirty phrases, Hoseok was loving every time I did something for him so he said that he loves me hundred of times already. Jungkook and Taehyung were in their own world like always and Namjoon walked on eggs shells every time he blurted something that could mean he had any good feelings because of me.
I been looking around to see which school Liam will have it easy to adapt since here they start the year in spring and this will take some time to decide. He could understand Korean pretty well now but keeps mixing languages to speak up. Jin was practicing his new trick to bring a flower pop out at any given noment, and my son was his enthusiastic public that would go crazy every time he does his magic.
The president and Mr Park decided to visit us after all that story of the girl in love with Yoongi was no more present on our minds and we returned to our routine. I invited them to stay to dinner with us tonight because the group was at home adapting their music to the next presentation, they have the goal of bringing new details to keep their army in love with their work.
Jungkook and Jimin were trying to convince Taehyung to make an effort to fulfill another request since it was hard for them to do lower tones like he can do but they stopped to salute and what a wiew to me for those young men being already on their night attires, nothing special but the fangirl inside me was screaming like crazy. The other members also came as they finished for the day and helped to make dinner but the informal dinner with the president and Mr Park had to end early since they have much to do.
Before they left the president send my son to play with the boys to talk to me, he was thankful for what I did and to take things so calm, he was convinced that I was the only one that would show that kind of action being a mother and having to protect Yoongi somehow. To be able to reach them not only as a teacher and to help them to be able to work with so many limitations. I loved them it was the truth , since they started to get along with me I feel that I have to take care of them, they are nice and they don't know all the craziness outside their business.
He tried to get me in front of the cameras because I have much to share but I never dreamed to be famous or rich. I didn't came here to be important, just to work hard and have time to be a good mom. The boys are more mature now that they have learned how hard is to have a child, and how they feel knowing that their parents also wanted the best for them as I do about Liam. Having their lives is difficult to tell them what they haven't seen before and he was happy that my situation will make them do more touching songs to the ones that haven't been able to connect with them because their reality is more like mine, that have opportunities but have to say no being that the right choice in the end.
Namjoon was today the one helping me carry my son to his room, I said my good nights to the boys. I was tired after so many unbelievable situations that it was hard to get a good night of sleep without nightmares. Liam as always wanted a song to sleep so I let him choose one from my phone and I will sing along it. Tonight was save me he has heard Jimin singing it for him and has been asking about it but its hard to me to remember the lyrics and sing it without hearing it. I'm so sorry to sing it like that... making up a new language because I don't know how to properly read Hangul.
Its hard to reach the right notes since I never learned how to sing I just go along with it the better that I can. The vocals are at first seems easy to reach but I have to hum most of it. Liam wanted to hear it again but after make him close his eyes I wouldn't start to sing but I breathe to get ready the boys came to sing for him, it melted my heart to see them being so cute with us I tried to don't give up on singing it.
They were so nice to do that for my son that it made me cry, I was trying to stop the tears but it seems impossible today and finally they were leaving my apartment to go to sleep too. Yoongi was the least one on purpose he was doing something on his phone as the rest went downstairs. I was to walk over him since he won't move from were he was seated.
- I'm going to try to get some sleep tonight and thanks for coming over , I thought you were evading me after the incident but it seems it was all my imagination. - I tried to pat his head but I got unbalanced he helped me but didn't let me go after that. He wanted talk but he didn't know how to say it in English so I told him to mix languages as I do for Liam. I need to get seated for some reason and he will take his time to find a way to talk to me.... He used to ask questions and sometimes he will talk more but not that much compared to the other members.
My room was near than other rooms so I headed in to be more comfortable. I invited him to seat on the other side of the bed as I took a tissue to clean my face and massage a little the leg I haven't been using much because my injury. Time have passed but the doctor said not to walk on it until next week because my cuts have received more damage than they should on that terrible situation.
- Anything she did was NOT your fault, you know that right?- I said
- It feels wrong anyways - he said slowly doubting if get on the bed or not. He finally did took a seat looking the wall as if it was the most interesting thing in the room.
- what feels wrong is seeing you so gloomy when I'm around-
-gloomy?- he didn't know what I meant to say so I took my phone and search the facial expressions to show him instead of translating.
- I don't know how to....ummm ...I am not...- He was frustrated not being able to say about his thoughts.
- I have nightmares about her if she was decided to end someone's life to have you, leaving Liam alone....they are worse if I choose to save my life and be hidden with my phone in my hand asking for help.... I learned how to love each of you to feel protective about you all because you guys can't protect yourself properly because it would benefit the one doing badly to hurt you... I know that Idols learn how to manage bad situations but this time was tooo much.
- At first I was glad that she noticed that I wasn't interested on her but I never thought I would be that scared in my life... when you pushed me out and closed that door in my face...- He wasn't OK I could tell just looking his back how much he was trembling , my body moved before I could think properly and I hugged him from behind.
His heart was beating like crazy, I couldn't help but noticing it, he had lost weight but it didn't stopped me from pulling him to the middle of my bed and slowly push him so he would lay down. He was covering his face with his hands and I tried to get up to pick some tissues for him.
Yoongi grabbed my sweater to stop me- I'm not going anywhere, just let me get the tissues for you...- but he pulled stronger so I turned to face him, his nose and ears were reddish, his skin wet and shiny from his tears, his mouth was a fine and trembling line as he trying to keep me in place.
I put my right hand over one of his so he would get me more freedom, my left wiped out the moisture on his face carefully. He pushed lightly his face against my palm, I brought the other hand to clean his face a little bit ...but he managed to get a little up and connect our lips.
I didn't know what to do his lips were soft and hot over mine but he didn't pushed further as he came to his senses and hurried out of my apartment. The face he made was of pure shock I think he didn't realize what he was doing until he felt my lips pressed to his.
I didn't follow him around I gave him space to think and calm himself but I also didn't want to make him feel that he had made something wrong, it was an unexpected kiss but I would be more comfortable knowing that sure he was well , eventually we could talk later when he is ready.
I texted him if he was fine, and to put his mind at ease. I'll be sure to hear him when he made up his thoughts and that was kind of awesome but not to worry much because he seems as surprised as I was in that moment.
The moment I sent it, I heard a phone notification but it wasn't my phone I looked around and Yoongi was petrified looking at his phone but didn't went downstairs. He used both hands to write down something and I put mine in mute mode so he wouldn't notice me.
I await his answer but it didn't happen, again his phone was ringing... it was a call this time and he quickly talked before check it once again and he turned around to find me there holding my phone. He took his, once again and I got mine trembling I almost lose grip on it as I read it.
*Kiss me please* it says, I read it over and over before I felt a presence. His tiptoes were touching mine, I looked upside and he was nervous bitting his lower lip. I needed to get answers but another tear came down I couldn't take it , I held into him because I was trying not use much one of my feet. I looked into his eyes as he holded me. He came almost all the way to my lips but lightly said something that my brain refuses to understand.
I kissed him, it was slow at first but he pressed his body to mine and I have hold onto him firmly, and that was when I felt his hand wrapping my bad leg around him as he hold me tight from the lower part of my back but not in a indecent way.
It felt amazing, it was soft and hot somehow, I felt needed and wanted. I put my heart on it and did my best, answering back eagerly, He moaned into my mouth and I pressed myself onto him. He finally took a second to breath and look at me, he said something I couldn't understand and got my legs around his hips so was totally over him as he started to walk to my room and closed the door.