Chapter 31: His Fault

Having said everything that's tugging at her heart, Wu Jinyan felt extremely relaxed. The heaviness she had been feeling from the second she opened her eyes faded gradually making her feel a bit less uncomfortable.

She knew her plans of acting like she had amnesia and fooling Gu Zichen was way too unjust and cruel to him.

However, she wasn't guilty of her actions because she thought what all she did was right. She behaved shamelessly and hurt him but he deserved it for hurting her more with his ridiculously evil acts. To say, before what he did to her, what she did to him was nothing.

Recalling everything that had happened since the moment she met him, she realized something. He was more a good actor than the good man she thought him to be. He must have thought of her as a stupid to marry him so easily. Yes, she was really a stupid to marry him on a whim.

He married her though he had another woman. He made her trust him by giving her false hope. He was clearly playing with her. If not a monster, what else could he be?

Seeing Gu Zichen's ashen face, her heart felt a pang of pain but she concealed her emotions with a perfect poker face. She already noticed his exhausted look and dull disposition. It was evident that he looked after her day and night without taking rest. But his kindness was nothing compared to the heartbreak he gave her. He was deeply hurt with her cold behavior but it was nothing before how broken she was. She was a fool to think she could share her life with him and bring up her own family. But it was all her self thinking.

"Feng, look after her for me" Gu Zichen requested sincerely, in response gaining an assuring gaze from Mu Feng. Even though Mu Feng was angry with his Gu Zichen for toying with Wu Jinyan's feelings, he still noticed the agony and pained look on his face.

Mu Feng could feel the heartbreak Gu Zichen was going through. He promised to keep Gu Zichen updated about her situation.

Gu Zichen thanked Mu Feng and left the room in utter helplessness. He wished to stay and explain to Wu Jinyan but he didn't know how to. It's useless how much one explained and apologized once the mistake was already done.

After leaving the room, he thought about it for a moment and understood where the problem lies. It was his impulsive behaviour.

It wasn't important whether he knew about her eating habits, likes and dislikes. It all depends on what he made as his priority. It would have been enough as long as he considered her feelings and took note of her opinions. It would have been alright if he gave respect to her and asked what she wanted to eat before taking his own decisions.

Instead, he took his impulsive actions as showing concern on her but he failed to take her opinions into consideration.

Perhaps, it was because he's meant to face failures when it came to women.

All along he thought he was doing the right thing and took only his problems and thoughts into consideration and forgot to think from her side. It was all his fault and he couldn't rectify it anymore. He thought looking after her and taking care of her would suffice but he ignored the real component that could influence her heart.

Every single thing he did for her didn't work because he had no emotions towards her.

No wonder, she regained her senses simply after listening to Mu Feng's song because he truly cared for her.

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Wu Jinyan gazed at Gu Zichen's back as he was leaving the room. With everything working well as per her plan, she was supposed to be overjoyed. Instead she lost her control over her overflowing emotions. No matter how much she tried, it was hard for her to stop crying. Tears trickled down irrespective of her attempt to control her eyes.

Everything was fine and normal with her until she met Li Xiaoyi but suddenly she became too fearsome and vulnerable. Wu Jinyan couldn't deny that Li Xiaoyi was bothering her.

She was reluctant to admit but she already fell for him and she knew it very well as her heart was evidently unwilling to let him go. But she had to as he wasn't someone she could have to herself. She was completely helpless when another woman already conquered his heart.

Li Xiaoyi's face kept running in her head making her feel ever more defeated and brokenhearted.

Why did Gu Zichen marry her when his woman was right next to him? Was it because his family didn't accept Li Xiaoyi? Were they unsatisfied with her?

Was Gu Zichen using their marriage as a shield to protect his girlfriend? Since when did he plan all this? Did he approach her just for this? Or there's more?

Several questions ran through her head to which she had no answer. She closed her eyes and held her head to prevent herself from breaking down with how those cruel doubts kept assaulting her.

She should have given a clear thought on his intentions behind asking her to marry him. Why would a billionaire like Gu Zichen would show interest in marrying a countryside orphan like her? If not for a major issue like protecting someone important to him, he wouldn't even look at her lest asking her to marry him. Who cares for a poor soul like her?

It was too late and Wu Jinyan regretted not recognising the truth beforehand. The sense of security she thought she would have with him by her side was no where to be found and all he brought her was heartbreak.

'Am I dreaming?' Mu Feng who was watching her every action thought to himself and rubbed his eyes. He didn't know if she ever cried in his absence back in those three years she stayed with him, but it was his first time seeing her cry without restraint.

He was unsure who was worthy of her tears.

"Don't cry. Everything will be fine" He could only say those few words to comfort her and hugged her lightly. Expecting her to calm down, he gently stroked her back like lulling a baby to soothe her aching heart. Despite his kind gesture, all he received was a hard punch on his abdomen and a yell followed "Let me go, bastard"

Mu Feng was taken aback. He didn't know what got into her suddenly but he realized she would rather prefer to be lonely and cry all night than have someone comfort her. He decided to give her sometime to organize her thoughts.

"Alright, I'll wait outside. Take your own time to cry" He swiftly moved and opened the door to walk out of the room but not before adding "I think you might need a couple boxes of tissues. You want me to bring them for you?"

"GET OUT" Her scream instantly made him to dash out.