Chapter 7: BREAKING
NICKY
When I kissed Grace I was expecting more of a warm soft cuddle-like senario, or something that would match her Julie Andrews from The Sound Of Music personality, not a hot and heated highschool makeout session like this. Damn if I had known this I would have kissed her sooner. When her lips slightly parted giving me the permission to enter, my whole body quivered in excitement and fear. But I gladly accepted the invitation. I began to memorize every curve, every sharp point, and how her tongue sent waves of heat surging through my body. My heart was pounding so loudly in my ears I could have sworn she could hear it too. I felt a vibration radiating from her chest and an animal like growl causing my lips to tingle in ways I've never felt before. 'Oh God this woman is an animal. Don't stop.'
I gripped the couch ready to give her my anything and everything when she abruptly stopped and pulled away. My heart didn't just sink to my stomach. It Dropped. We sat there a moment trying to catch our breath when she finally broke the silence.
"Kai and I have to take that ice to town." She was still breathing hard and wasn't even looking at me when she talked. Like she was off far away and wherever that was didn't seem like a very pleasant place to be. Even so, that didn't make my blood stop boiling or my heart stop aching. She stood up and walked across the room.
'No… don't go. Don't leave….'
"Grace." She stopped like I said a command to her. "Grace, stop it. Just stop… you work yourself to the bone! You don't sleep, you don't eat. Hell you lift at least two tons down a mountain nearly everyday!! Just stop! Please…" she didn't respond. She didn't even move. So I continued hoping that I could reach her. " You don't think that we've noticed?" Her body jolted. " Those dark circles under your eyes? Your ribs sticking out? How you lose your breath even though you're sitting still? Or how about when you hold on to something near you because you get dizzy?! You don't think I haven't noticed those things?!" By now I was sobbing out the words. The tears burned on my cheeks. "Or how about-"
"ENOUGH!" I jumped at her booming voice. She turned around with tears in her eyes and an expression I couldn't read. "Who are you to say those things! What do you hope to gain huh?!" Those words hurt. I want to scream and cry and pound on her chest to get her to understand, but instead I let my anger take control.
"Who am I?! I'm the woman who carried your sorry butt 20 miles out of those damned woods when you blacked-out from starvation!! I'm the woman who nursed you back to health! I'm the woman who holds you when you need someone to cry to!! I'm the woman who doesn't give a rats ass about your past! I'm the woman who's seen all of you and admires every part of you!! I'm the woman who lays awake at night worrying about you!! I'm the fucking woman who waits here for you everyday and night scared to death that one day you wouldn't come off of that godforsaken mountain!! That's who I am!!" My body shakes uncontrollably. "And what do I hope to gain? Damnit, NOTHING! Because I fucking love you, you dumbass!!" My body stops shaking and my mind becomes calm at the realization of what I just said. I stand and take a deep breath.
"I love you.. I-I love you. I have for years. I love you." I repeated the words never realizing just how true and absolutely perfect they were coming out of my mouth to her. "Grace. I love you." Her tears finally fell as her face softened into happiness, and then to sadness, and then to fear. "N-no… no, no, no, you can't love me… I.. no it-it's infatuation, yeah that's it infatuation… teenage kids get that all the time…" My blood began to boil, finally bubbling over, as she continued to ramble. "I'm NOT a teenage kid Grace! I'm a WOMAN standing here telling you that I love you! I have since the very first moment I saw you!! I love you!!" Everything in me evaporated. All my anger, my hope, my emotions, I was numb and empty. I held my arms close to me wrapping my body trying to keep whatever was left from slipping out. "But if that's how you think of me… Then go."
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