Chapter 17: Starting real life.
"So are you ready to move in with me?" Zero asks.
"Yes, We already have been living together. I like being with you." I answer.
"I like it too. I hope the girls like it as well. I think they will like their room when they see it." Zero states.
"Me too. They are going to their fathers for the weekend, so they will see it when they get back. We will be alone for the weekend." I reply.
"My mother did ask that we would maybe start family dinners at her house. Saturdays or Sundays? She would like to keep it a tradition. So she can see the baby and us. What do you think?" Zero asks.
"I think if it makes you happy, then we will do it. I think for the first one, let's do it Saturday when my children are at their dad's. Let her get more use to me, before adding them into it. She asks a lot of questions. I don't need my daughters to be involved in it. It's bad enough, God knows what their father is saying." I reply.
"I understand that. I think that's good. If there is anything else you need for the house let me know. I want you to feel at home. It's not my house, it's our house. You let me do whatever, I wanted in yours. Same goes for you." Zero replies.
"Thank you. I can't believe we are leaving the house behind. We spent eighteen years there. We watched our children grow up. I wish he wouldn't have asked to sell it. Even if it was just for them."I say.
"I am sorry you're giving up all this to be with me. Do you regret it?" Zero asks.
"No, I want to be with you. I just didn't think, all this would have come with it. I really never even thought any of this would happen. I mean you weren't real. I am still in shock over most of it." I answer.
"Same here. I catch myself looking into the mirror at myself at times. I can't believe I am here. This is me. Sometimes are hard to deal with, yet others seem like I always been here." Zero comments.
"It will be like this till the divorce is over, and then us having a child. We just need to settle down. Its been one thing after another. I am just sure in the end it will be worth it." I state.
"Me too. Are you ready to say goodbye?" Zero asks.
I reply "yes."
Even though deep down I'm not. I lived my adult life in his house. Now it was off to be someone else's. We took our babies home, here. Had our good and bad times here. It was hard even standing next to the love of my life. I felt an emptiness inside myself. I knew the same would be for Joel. I never meant to hurt him or anyone. I guess that was too late now.
I stand outside taking one last look, as Zero and I get into his car. My daughters already at their fathers. I say goodbye as a tear runs down my face. I hope the next people enjoy it as much as we did. I hope they get even more out of it.
Zero holds my hand, knowing my feelings are mixed at the moment. He sees that I left a lot for him, as he did for me. Maybe even more, if you really think about it. I didn't regret it. I love him. I am happy with him. He is giving me everything, I ever wanted. I just fear that it won't last. That he will change or want to return to his old life. The one thing that always stands in the back of my mind. Is Yuki. I know his love for her was real. Nothing stood in its way not even Kaname. It scares me that the same will happen here. That no matter how much I try to change his path, it will happen anyway.
We get back to his place, Zero giving me a key and doing his best to make me feel like home. I just look into his face, and I'm happy. He did everything to make the place a home for us. I look around, getting to know the place more than before. We spent more time at my old home together. So that the girls wouldn't have to change there lives. Their father now took that away. I understood that he didn't want Zero staying in a home, that he built for his family. Its why I didn't fight him. I also didn't want the divorce to last forever and eat up funds we didn't have. I wanted this to go as painless as it could. So if it meant giving up the house. So be it. It was only a material item. I still haven't told Joel about the child. I don't have the heart to. Plus I would rather wait till after the divorce was final, just to make sure. It didn't start anything. I knew this child would hurt him, as when he asked to have one more child. I said no. Now I was carrying Zero's. It wasn't planned. We all know the true story. But Joel doesn't.
I Place my clothes in the dresser and closet that Zero gave to me. Trying to get used to being here. I add a few pillows and soft blankets to our bed. Making it cozy and warm for us. It's Quiet and nice here. Just me and him. No problems from the outside world at least at the moment. When it's just us everything is great.
As I am upstairs putting things away Zero comes upstairs to talk to me.
"Finding everything ok?" Zero asks.
"Yes, I kept my clothes and added a few things to the bed. I hope that's ok?" I say.
"Totally fine, I already told you, you can do anything you need here. I came upstairs to get you. Dinner is done." Zero states.
"Thank you. Is it bad that I wish it was just me and you?" I comment.
"No. I can see why you would say that. We will be ok. We just have to hang in there."Zero remarks. Taking my hand.
We walk downstairs to the kitchen and sit at the Island to eat. Zero making some pasta. Everything he always cooked was very good. I enjoyed it. We sit there and talk, being close. Just like we were at Cross. Just now as myself, which felt good. He was accepting me, for me. I couldn't ask for more.
When dinner is over, Zero cleans up as I head back upstairs. It's pouring down with rain. It just coming down hard-hitting the windows. I stand in front of the upstairs window looking out. I just feel Zero come up behind me and put his arms around me. We stand there watching it rain. Close in each other's arms. Finally feeling, like I'm home. Like I am where I need to be.
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