chapter 9 GAMES
Mav
What the hell just happened!
I was feeling this feeling after months no-no after years. All red.. All red.. I could see only red. I just wanted to beat the shit out of Ross, Britt's boyfriend one moment, they were kissing and then next moment some other guy were holding her.
What the hell had happened to her?
what have I done to her?
This is not my Britt.
Taylor held me by the shoulder, I took the glass back from the counter, the one which had alcohol. I wanted to gulp it down, to calm my anger, to turn down the fire burning me at this moment, I held the glass tight.
But then her face came in my mind,
That tear, her smeared kajal, her sobs which still haunt my nights, her shouts which still Echo in my dreams, stopped me.
It's been more than 2 years I am sober, and I won't let this anger ruin it. Keeping the glass back down on bartop I held my head in my hands. Trying to think clearly. Images of Britt and Ross, Britt and that boy... Liam filled my thoughts.
I need an answer, who is Liam? Who is Ross? What is going on? Am I too late? Is it too late to ask for forgiveness? To ask for a last chance? Has she already moved on?
Taylor patted my shoulder, I looked at him, the look of pity and sympathy in his eyes making me feel small.
"What's going on man?" He said taking the glass I abandoned a few minutes, ago. " you look shit.. Have a sip?" He said forwarding the glass to me.
"Taylor it's been more than 2 years, I am sober. Man. I don't want a drink, water will work" I said, he nodded and moved to bring a water bottle, came back in seconds with a smile and confusion on his face.
I gulped down the water, feeling the cold of water in my mouth and throat,
As it calmed my nerves a bit.
"So.. Wanna talk about it?" Taylor said.
"No!" I said as I crushed the bottle.
"Bruh. We never knew what happened to you too, you both were like *"couple goals"* at once, we all use to make bets that you both will be the first one to get married or to have kids, and all I know i came back from my internship after a year, you both BROKE UP" he said while sitting next to me "which makes 0 sense"
"Long story short, I did some terrible things to her, she left me, I was in rehab- New York, for a year after she left me, and then for 2 more years trying to settle down, to move on, and after 3 years of moving on.. Or at least fooling myself that I was trying to move on, sbd to forget her, here I am sitting on this bar, trying to figure out a way to ask for the last chance from her," I said in one breath.
"And..?" He said.
"Didn't you saw, she was kissing someone, she not same Britt I fell in love, she has changed, she moved on?" I said with a sigh.
"Did you tried to ask her for *last chance*?" he asked.
"No she won't even see my face," I said
"Just try one last time, if she has moved on then why would she ignore you?" He said which didn't make any sense to me.
"I don't know man," I said patting his shoulder " I better move back to NY"
"Not without trying Mav," he said with a smile and then his eyes widened "find Nina she will have all answers," he said as he stood up.
After minutes of searching, we couldn't find her and neither Ross was at the bar.
"Let's go back home we will make a plan tomorrow," Taylor said I nodded, as I kicked something on the floor with my feet, I bent down to see what was it. It was an iPod.
"You go I will be back in 2, let me give this to counter," I said as I showed him the iPod, he gave me a goodbye punch and left with a "see you tomorrow"
I went to the counter and waited for the girl behind the counter, so I can ask her where can I give this so it will be safe and reach to the right person, Just then I pressed the power button to see the time it was 1:45, a song was paused, read the name it was, *MY FUNNY VALENTINE*, Britt came in my mind. It was our song. I swiped to unlock, took my chance, it was easy I typed our code names together, a smile. A wide smile came on my face as my heartfelt calm. IT UNLOCKED.
IT IS BRITT'S iPod!
"Yes last chance," I said to myself and took a happy walk out the bar.
....
I wanted to go and hug her, touch her, feel her, ask her, talk to her, but u decided to wait till morning.
Went back home, I was still sitting in this home, which does not feel like a home, a small studio apartment Taylor arranged for me. With my stuff still unpacked.
So I just dropped on my bed and slept.
I woke up with a jerk because of some bad dream fights, jail, doctors in those white coats, chains, drugs, bottles, and medicines.
My past is still haunting me. Even after years, it is still a nightmare. I woke and went to get a water bottle, and sat down near the kitchen counter, trying to calm down, I took sips of water. After a few minutes, I walked back to the couch, picked up the Britts's iPod and went to bed.
Laid down, it was 5 in the morning, I started to go through her iPod, checking her playlist, almost every song of Beatles, Frank Sinatra, almost same playlist as it uses to be years ago. I smiled, maybe she hasn't changed a lot.
There was a playlist by the name of the wedding, I ignored it. I knew what was it, and then one by the name of ASSHOLE. I knew this was for me.
Many songs, I knew from it, one direction songs, the song we had dedicated each other when we were dating. Feeling a burden on my chest. I played "put a spell on you" this was a song to which we danced for the first time. And the first one she sang for me.
I dozed off in sleep, a sleep full of Britt. While Nina Simone's voice and a girl with dark eyes and giggles danced carefreely, filled carefreely,
I woke up as someone was beating my door, I checked the time it was 6:45 in the morning. Irritated I went to open the door, there stood a breathless Taylor.
"What the fuck happened?" I asked as I let him in and he went to pick a water bottle from the counter and gulped it down.
" After I left you, I met some of my colleagues, we decided to go for some drinks, ended up going back to that same bar where we were last night, after shots and all when we were about to leave, I saw Nina there with a boy," he said still struggling to breathe.
"So?" I asked still confused why is he breathing so heavy. "And why are you breathing like a dog?" I asked him as sat on the floor near the table.
"She was kissing a boy behind the bar counter that BOY WAS ROSS!" He said as he threw his head back and hands in the air "and I took stairs 8 floors, makes you breathe like a dog, bitch"
"What Ross is cheating on Britt?" I said still confused ignoring his kast sentence.
"I noticed them they seemed pretty into each other, so I went to Nina, she didn't say anything and left saying Ross is her good friend, but one waitress told me that Ross and she are dating, which means Britt used Ross to play you, she played well man," he said with a smile.
"Yes!!! I knew it!!" I said she succeeded, she wanted to make me jealous, she won. Pretty damn good.
"Take. The. Fucking. Last. Chance!" Taylor said as he slipped down on the couch "can I sleep here?"
"Sleep here, you have an hour then you are coming with me," I said as I got up to go and take a shower.
"Coming? Where?" He asked.
"To play games.. Britt wants to play then let's play" I said.
I DON'T KNOW WHERE WILL THIS END, BUT I WANT TO TAKE THE RISK.
YES, NOW WE PLAYING TO SEE WHERE IT GOES.
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