Chapter 23: The Heart

I want to hate you, i want to scream horrid things at you to make you feel as hurt as i am. The emotional pain you caused me is so intense it hurts me physically. I want you to feel the way i feel when you injected that pain into me. I want to hate you, but the glint in your eyes when you laugh and the smile you get after making cheesy puns is too precious for me to forget. The way you get excited over stupid stuff for me because you know i love it, that stupid fucking smile when you get me surprise gifts, that stupid fucking chuckle you make when i get embarrassed--i cant forget those. You hurt me, but i cant live without you. I love you too damn much.