Robbie's POV
(Flashback of the past)
Having been born as the son of the Chairman of Exquisite Hotel & Resorts Pvt Ltd, with good looks and tested as Alpha meant there was no limit to what I might achieve. I was what people referred to as 'Elite'. As far as I was concerned, nothing was beyond my grasp. Girls and guys would flock up to me. I was not just good with studies but sports as well. I had never known desperation or need. I always thought I was the best and deserved the best.
It was until I was thirteen. Once it was clear that I was an Alpha, dad put me in training to be the ideal heir to the family business. I was not asked if I wanted it and my dad was not concerned about my choices either. To him inheriting the business was just natural as his son. The training was harsh, to say the least. After school, I used to be brought straight to the office. Apart from my school homework, I had homework from my training as well. I envied my friends who were living a normal life, spending time with their families and friends while here, I barely met my dad (though I was every day in the office) let alone my friends. Within a year, I was totally detached from all my friends. My dad additionally started putting pressure on me to take some of the responsibility of the business.
When I was a high school junior, our country faced recession. There was major political turmoil going on which led to a decline in the flow of tourists. Our business depended on tourists. With the fall in their number, our company fell into hard times. I was forced to leave my esteemed high-profile school and join a lowly public one. I had spent all my life among elites and being transferred among these lower-status people hurt my pride. Of course, I was a priviledged boy, who had only seen the creamy layer of life. How would I have known that all this status was nothing but a cruel man-made hierarchy based on wealth? I learned what I saw and was taught. So to me, this school was like a punishment for an unknown mistake!! My previous school was the only place I had friends but now I was all alone among these chattering strangers. I felt angry, alone, and depressed. For months, I waited to shift back to my previous school but that didn't ever happen.
Though here many wished to be my friend, I just couldn't bring myself to feel any sort of connection with them. It seemed as if we were worlds apart. I interacted with no one and would always be on my own. My training was stalled for a while as my father was busy trying to cover up the losses the business was facing. Now, though I had free time, I had no friends to hang out with. How ironic! During these lonely days, I first noticed Tony. Not because he was some super popular eye-catching guy but rather because he was always alone just like me. Subconsciously, I felt an affinity towards him. I wondered what was his reason for keeping his distance from everyone. Was he too someone like me?
During classes, my eyes would inexplicably be drawn to him. He was a fairly average-looking guy except for his eyes. They were big, almond-colored, and had a hauntingly sorrowful look about them. I guess that's what drew my attention. To top it off, he smelled....mouthwatering! I know it sounds weird but whenever he would be closer to me, I could get a smell that was just unbelievably tempting. I wonder what perfume he used. Since I was so focused on him, naturally I noticed that the whole class, infact, the whole school avoided him. Generally, when someone was avoided to this extent, you are bound to feel curious. I was no exception to this. It intrigued me further when I saw that Tony had no reaction to it.
I heard a quote some time ago
'Empty head is devil's workshop'
It couldn't have been more appropriately put. I had too much free time having flawless records in grades, attendance, physical education, and even club activities (I was part of a sports club). They were even scouting me for student council, which I refused. Since I didn't have much to do, I developed an obsession; TONY!
He loved reading books of various genres. He was pretty good at cooking. He was very hard-working and worked part-time in a nearby departmental store. He always missed one week in a month from school. But most of all, he never noticed me looking at him as he was always lost in his own world. Somehow, that made me even more obsessed.
Unlike many in the school, he avoided me like a plague. In fact, I later realized, he avoided all the Alphas in the school. I naturally wanted to know the reason. It didn't take me long to discover the reason. He was an Omega and the only one in the school. No wonder his smell was so alluring. That's why he kept his distance from all Alphas in fear of being attacked, which was quite a common phenomenon in schools and colleges. In many of the cases, Omegas were the ones who ended up being blamed for releasing their pheromones and seducing the Alphas. Some even blamed them for being gold diggers. I didn't know what was true and whatnot, but I can't help thinking that part of Omega's body constitution was their pheromones. How were they supposed to stop it from releasing? Were their pheromones really that strong that an Alpha can forget themselves? If so, shouldn't they too exercise control instead of blaming it all on Omegas? But anyway, what was I supposed to do with all this?
Soon after discovering this fact, I personally experienced the strength of an omega's pheromones. During the last day of our high school junior end year exam, Tony got involved in an incident. I was watching him as he was leaving. Suddenly, he fell to his knees. He looked a little suffocated and his ears, cheek, and neck were slightly red. Shocked, I tried to approach him but then…I smelled it. His pheromones! It was my first time being exposed to Omega's pheromones. I could never forget its effect! All my animal instincts were raised. I was almost taken over by an overwhelming desire to f*ck him. Thankfully, I was at a distance. Putting my hands over my nose, I turned and ran without a second glance. I don't know what happened to Tony but I heard since he was surrounded by Betas so nothing horrific happened. He was immediately taken to the nursing room and given suppressants.
So, this was an omega's pheromone. It was definitely strong. After this incident, I wanted to know him even more. Back then, I was young and stupid and saw the omega's struggle and misery as my way of escapade. And so, on the first day of our sophomore year, I approached him...
Warning:- Curses/profanity, mention of suicide and abortion
Robbie's POV
I looked at the letter on my table. Tony was standing before me quietly, looking at me with those firm beautiful eyes. Though he looked nonchalant, I could tell he was nervous. Many called Tony a coward or gutless because he was easily terrified; however, I knew it wasn't true.
I was the true coward. I was scared to take on responsibility for a child even though I was as much responsible for him as Tony. I kept thinking that it would ruin my future, and how it will affect my reputation. I feared that my dad would be furious and mum would be disappointed. Although pregnancy is not one person's doing, I kept blaming Tony for bringing along such a disaster. Most of all, I was afraid that my omega-hating dad would disown me. I was selfish. I did not once think about what Tony would have to go through? What would a pregnancy at 17 entail for him? And just like the coward that I was, I rejected him and left him to fend for himself.
After that kind of treatment, many Omegas would have fallen into depression, commit suicide, abort the child or beg to be accepted or to support them financially but he did none of the above. Contrary to all, he actually went ahead and gave birth to the child, boldly faced the society which was extremely biased to him, went through thousands of hardships to raise him alone.
Coward???
Huh, he was the true definition of Strength.
However, what was done can't be undone. I have hurt him so deeply that he would never forgive me. I know I don't deserve to be forgiven either but I really can't give up. I just want another chance. After all, I had truly loved Tony but I was too blind to see it back then. Like a scared little punk, I thoughtlessly let go of the very person I had given my heart to. Seeing the despair and pain in his eyes when I rejected him made me feel more guilty than I had ever felt before. It haunted me even in my dreams. That day I understood the power of 'words'. His face reflected the betrayal and sorrow I caused him by my words.
I picked up his letter and asked quietly, "I already rejected your email for resignation request. Why did you submit this letter to HR then?"
"Because I am resigning" Tony stated without hesitation.
Only four words and it was already causing me heartache. I dropped the letter in the dustbin and saw Tony's eyes widen in shock. He glared at me
"What do you think you're doing?" he fumed
"Trashing your resignation. I told you I won't accept it" I told him
"What do you want? I told you several times that I don't want anything to do with you" he said gritting his teeth
Those words were hard for me to hear. I know that he doesn't want me, but I want nothing more than him. It was only after I lost him, I realized how deeply I had fallen for him. No matter how much I tried to forget him, it was for naught. I dated several men and women, practically slept with the entire college but nothing worked. In the last year of my college, I finally understood why I am not able to get over Tony. Once the realization hit me, I started looking for him. I wanted to apologize and get back with him even if it meant disappointing my mum and going against my dad, but he was nowhere to be found. He was not in his welfare center or his church. He never went back to his house or contacted anyone he knew in that city. I kept searching for him only to know that he had left the city three years back. I did not know where he went. He could have been anywhere in this country. Where do I look for him? I couldn't help feeling that I had lost him forever yet I kept looking. Miraculously, after searching madly for him all these years, I finally met him in my own resort. How could I let him go when I had finally found him? In the end, I am selfish.
"I want you in my life" I blurted out without thinking
Tony looked surprised. He fidgeted, looking at his feet, mumbling, "Stop all this pretense!! How many times will you lie to me? Was it not enough to hurt me back then that you are doing it over again?"
"Back then, I was 17. I was thoughtless and an idiot. True, that I approached you to escape from my mundane life, but before I even realized it, I fell for you. I know you won't believe me but this is THE truth" I told him earnestly
"If that's true then why did you dumped me? You have given me no reason to believe in you," Tony bellowed, clutching his fist so tight, that he drew blood.
I looked at his balled fist. It had turned white. Shit! He is taking his anger on me out on himself. I got up from the chair and walked over to him. Seeing me approach, he anxiously took few steps back. I held his wrist and pulled him towards the side-shelf. In a trembling voice, he cried out,
"You - you - what do you think you're doing? Stop it. Let go"
From the drawer, I pulled out the first aid box and placed it on the table, but when I turned, he went pale as if I was going to kill him. I gritted my teeth in frustration.
Why was he so scared of me? Do I look like some demon?
"I am not going to hurt you" This was not what I wanted to say, but it came out of my mouth anyway.
I felt his shoulder relax slightly though he still looked shaken. I took his hand, opened his palm, and saw the deep bloody nail marks. He clutched so hard that he had bruised himself. He must hate me a lot! I subconsciously caressed his bruise making him hiss in pain. Hearing that, I opened the first aid box, got some disinfectant to disinfect the wound, and applied an ointment on it. I looked up to see him frowning, his eyes narrowed in disbelief. Those beautiful eyes only show hatred and disbelief for me now. Will it ever look at me with love again? I let go of his hand and said while putting back the first aid box,
"You are a chef. You should take care of your hands that earn you your living"
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