AIKKA's POV
'Yo guys! What's up? Uh....well, I'm making this video today and its..uhm, September the 1st. And I guess, when you're seeing this video, that would be the time that I'm gone....right? haha...well, uh...how do I say this...wait a minute, I will get some stuff (then sound of footsteps-out of camera)
okay, I got it! Its a lock box..and its for you Aikka. Its not a birthday gift tho' but I know that you're holding it right now. I just wanted to say that you'll take good care of it huh? Nandyan kasi ang lahat ng memories ko with you. And I guess, that's the only thing that I can.....give you so that you won't forget me. I know that I haven't been a perfect boyfriend for you but....I just wanted to say that I loved you...I really do. And...I_ I don't want to leave you like that because honestly? I wanted to live longer..gusto kong tumanda kasama ka, with dozen of kids, you know? but_ (sighed) but I don't want to be selfish..I've promised to myself that I would pay for everything that I've done. And I'm making this video so as to let you know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry kung hindi na kita masasamahan sa birthday mo, hindi na kita makakausap sa phone, hindi ko na maririnig ang mga corny jokes mo..(trying to laugh even when tears are falling) and I'm sorry if I can't give you a lifetime commitment. Uh....so_sorry, I'm just being emotional kasi...sobrang mamimiss lang talaga kita Mahal. I know na kahit hindi mo man sabihin sa akin na mahal mo rin ako, to feel that you cared for me? is enough. And sana, kahit wala na ako, dalawin mo minsan si dad for me. And about Jenna? just don't mind her. She's a bad girl kaya huwag mo na lang siyang papansinin okay? Just be happy Aikka. Live your life to the fullest" Spade.
(the video ended)
"Spade" I said while wiping my tears.
Nathan hugged me.
"sshhh..its okay Aikka. It's okay" Nathan said.
"if I don't have a boyfriend, I would literally court him bestie. I want him to be mine" Elaine said while crying din.
"grabe ka naman babe" Jordan reacted.
"He's really a guy who changed a lot. Naiinis ako sa kanya for what he did, but as the time passes by, I'm starting to like him too" Abby said habang pinupunasan din ang kanyang mga luha.
"guys, we all know that CHANGE is a constant thing in this world. And its good dahil mas pinili niya ang magbago for Aikka. I know na wherever he is right now, he would be happier" Cloud said.
Napatingin kami kay Cloud.
"teka, nasaan ba si Spade ngayon?" Jotham asked.
"di ba he's on the hospital right now? Recovering from the operation?" Nathan said.
"oo nga, that's what I mean. I know na pag gising niya, he'll be happy to see us. So, ano..hindi ba natin siya dadalawin ulit? its been five days na ah. I guess, he's awake right now." Cloud said.
"Cloud is right. Sabay-sabay na tayong pumunta doon. We're using our Land Rover." I said.
"okay, I'll be bringing this bestie" Elaine said habang kinukuha yung mga fruits sa gitna ng table namin.
"para talaga itong sira si Elaine" react naman ni Cloud.
"sshh..Jordan oh"
"ay ano iyan? gusto mong mabugbog?"
Napalingu-lingo na lang ako sa kakulitan ng tatlong iyon.
"Just don't mind them Ms. Perfect" Nathan said while holding my hand.
He was really a sweet boyfriend tho'.
*****
In the hospital...
Mr. Santos, Spade's dad gladly told us while in our way to his room that he's already awake.
"really tito?" agad kaming pumasok sa loob.
"Spade..." I said.
"Spade...Spade...he's conscious, he's conscious nga!" Elaine happily said.
Spade was still looking around. And he got shocked when he saw my face.
"am...am I dreaming?" mahinang sabi niya.
"no Spade, totoo ito" I said while smiling.
I'm really happy that he made it.
"wh_what? why?" sinubukan niyang bumangon so everyone stopped him.
"hey bro, don't force yourself. Just relax" Nathan said.
"h_how?" hindi pa rin siya makapaniwala this time.
"Spade, you had a heart transplant. And luckily, you made it." I said.
"h_heart transplant?" shocked na reaction niya.
"I'll explain to you everything if medyo okay ka na. For now, just relax okay? You need to recover immediately para makalabas ka na after a week." I said then I hugged him gently.
"Waah. Spade, we're glad that you survived. Makakasama ka pa namin ng matagal Spade" Elaine said.
"no...it can't be." he suddenly said.
Natahimik kaming lahat dahil doon.
"you're not supposed to be the one deciding which path I would choose ... that's my fate! why did you_ why did you let me live?" he said hopelessly.
"Spade....Spade...listen, please..don't be like this son" tito said trying to calm him.
"no..ugh..ah" he said because he's in pain right now, trying to force himself kahit kaoopera lang niya.
I don't want to see him being like this, dapat masaya siya ngayon dahil buhay siya.
"its just because you're worth living Spade...that's it" I said.
When he heard it, natigilan siya at kumalma bigla. Now, its my time to explain everything to him...para tanggapin niya ng buong puso ang pagkakataong mabuhay siya.
"Spade....you just need to forgive yourself para mawala na iyang guilt sa puso mo. Lahat tayo ay nakakagawa ng pagkakamali...at minsan na tayong nadapa, but it doesn't mean that we just give up our life because we failed? Spade, we all deal with things in different ways, failures may serve as a lesson to us to make us stronger. I know that it was never been easy for you, and you're not alone Spade, andito kami. We can get through this...we're here to support you, you just need to help yourself too. And please, huwag mong sayangin ang buhay ng kapatid mo for nothing. She gave up her life just to save you. Kaya please Spade, be thankful for this another life. Everyone deserves a happy ending. Hindi lang kami." I said.
Then he started to cry.
Ugh. Now, everyone is crying na din.
Bakit ba puro iyakan na lang ang nangyayari sa story kong ito? Di ba pwedeng maging happy lang? Kainis naman eh.