Chapter 4: Why did she always revert to threats, and violence?

I shouldn't have stopped. cause now… I don't wanna move. Or rather, my wolf doesn't. Talk about making things hard for me. Damn it! I can't, I can't risk her getting hurt. I keep moving until my hand reaches the doorknob. "Whatcha think you're doin?" Dang it. "Umm leaving?" I turned around slowly to see Nora's disapproving face. Though it looked more disappointed than angry. "How long have you been up?" Nora asked. I shrug my shoulders, heck I don't even know what day it is. "Long enough to hear you sing." Nora looked like she was about to growl, if she was a wolf, so i'm guessing that was the wrong thing to say. Why doesn't she like people hearing her sing? She has a great voice. I can't help but ponder, getting lost in my thoughts. I only snap out of it when i feel a hand on my shoulder. "Sorry i got lost in a thought." I can feel the sparks from her hand shooting through my whole arm. "I need to go." I said quickly, pulling away from her touch. "If you're worried about your friends, they're fine." She looks cranky. "Though i almost pulled... Um... Jame's, no Jamie's. Arm out of its socket." She looked kinda regretful. "That is until the whole mate thing was cleared up. Mad nearly killed me." She gave a small chuckle. I get that Madie and Jamie are mates but no one, and I mean NO ONE touches my family. "If you ever lay a finger on him or anyone in my family again I swear, I may not like violence but you will truly learn the definition of that word." I point my finger in her face trying to show i'm angry "Well, Shortcake, it appears you have a backbone after all." She gave a dark little chuckle, "But if you want to talk about violence… Then go ahead, tell me, let us see if there's more violence in your blood then I. For you can not imagine the nightmares that i dream up." She looked harsh, and regal. She looked violent and bloodthirsty, but above all she made my wolf scream in fear. "You don't know what i've seen, what I've done, and you never will. Unlike you I don't need people to fear me, they respect me. Can your people say the same for you?" I ask. "Oh they respect me all right. I am more lenient than the other rulers, and allow them freedoms that you could only dream of. But if you want to see fear… upset me, for i will drag you down the corridors by your hair while you scream, and everyone will cheer." She looked down at me, with a twisted smirk. "You know not of the darkness it takes to survive here, to thrive is even more challenging. But My people… our people will turn their backs on the weak, and if you thrive on 'no violence', then you are weak. And they would tear you apart, if not for me. I am the reason you are safe here. That Vile serpent Eliza," She spits the name like a curse. "Would have had you all drained of blood, after excruciating torture, She loves the kill. And what you saw in the halls is me protecting you. They all know i have claimed you, and your friends as family. Or else you'd be dead." she spoke with venom and hatred in her voice, but also truth, and gentleness? I give her a sarcastic slow clap as if I were amazed. "I don't need your protection, I need protection from you and your kind. I am not a prize to be won. You haven't seen the things I have seen, mass genocide, children, parents, families. Gone. and when the dust settles, who's to blame? You, you and your stupid kingdom." "OUR kingdom," she speaks low and with something flaring behind her eyes. "Has done nothing to you." she pokes me in the chest, making me back up. I try my best to hold back my growls and even my wolf is angry now. "Nothing? Your kingdom is full of nothing but stupid little brats who kill when they don't get their way." She leans in close, and whispers. "We like the hunt, the kill, the feed, we enjoy the freedom, and we taunt humans with what they can't have." She leans closer, so she's speaking in my ear. "But we leave each other out of it, no supernatural. Not unless we're at war. And we had no clue you even existed. We never go to washington. To many people there who believe in us, to many who think we're the things of Twilight." She speaks with venom. I laugh softly in disbelief. "Maybe instead of thinking with what's in your mouth you should have used what's in your head because 234 people are dead because of your ignorance, and If i could, I would reject you because of it." She moves away, only barely, so I am face to face. "Nice to know what happened, i was wondering why so many of the Weatherson's went hunting." She smirked at you. "I'll get to punishing them, later." She leans back down, so her head is next to my ear. "But on the topic of what you just said… Focusing less on what's in our mouths…." She shifted slightly, and for a moment i felt the tip of fang on my neck, then she moved back to my ear. "I feel that if i was less focused on what was in my mouth… i wouldn't have eaten before i came in here, and i would be sufficiently parched. So little mate, if i was thirsty as i was, do you think," She moved back, talking into my neck. "I would be able to be this close to your rapidly beating pulse, without burying my fangs into your delicious smelling neck?" I take this chance to shove her away. "Don't you ever threaten me like that again!" She looks down at me, having barely budge with my shove. "That was no threat, that was a question. Though it is based on a very tempting urge i have. I'm trying very hard not to, but you're just so tempting." She moved closer again. "Not that you'd really mind. Not after a second anyway. I find the endorphins in my bite are particularly strong, in fact they can put someone in such a dazed state that they won't even remember. Though, It seems they all find out, eventually. For they all get an urge for another bite. My personal endorphins are quite nasty that way. But for them it leaves only bliss, and longing." she shifts farther away, so there is a slight gap between us. "But as i said, i pay attention to my hunger. So, as of right now, i'm not too thirsty. Though i must say Twilight was right about something ...Your mate's blood is said to be like you're own personal brand of Heroin. I find that just smelling your's has proven as much. Though it is not surprising to find some truth in the books, considering a vampire wrote them." She looks so intently at me. "Though that is not the only thing." She stepped farther back. "You are free to roam this floor, only family is here. You should see your friends around here somewhere. Your chambers are the third to the right, across from mine. Jamie, is to the left of mine. Since he's sharing with Madie. Originally we were to share chambers, but I want you to be comfortable in your transition. So, for the first month, I allow you the option of your own chambers." She looks at me with such longing that i feel my wolf wanting to follow her. It screams at me to. But I feel i cannot move. Frozen in spot by anger and fear, and scariest of all, longing. My wolf needs to shut up. "Don't worry I won't be staying long, I plan on returning home after my birthday." She laughs and wraps her arms around my waist. "Sorry Shortcake, laws are laws. You're staying. Or my mother will kill as many as your friends as she possibly can. And if you leave me, i won't bother trying to save anyone but Jamie. And ONLY Jamie." I can feel the dumb struck look on my face. Madie and Jamie walk in. Jamie obviously didn't hear any of it, cause there was only pure joy on his face as he stared at Madie. "You don't get to decide what I do or when I do it." She shakes her head "I don't want to, that wouldn't be fun. As i said It's not a threat. I'm warning you of my mother's promise, that's all.' she leaned back against a wall. "Besides i wouldn't want to control you, as i said, we enjoy the hunt." She glances over at Madie, and Jamies. Who was now standing behind her with his hands around her waist, and smirked. "Not that Madie got or gave much of one." she sighed. "Love sick puppy." I couldn't help but laugh quietly. You have no idea. but she looked content with their happiness. "if only someone else i knew wanted a mate so bad" Nora muttered, and walked away. "Sucks to be you." I mumble and start down the hallway looking for the front door. "I can hear you. And you wont get out." Nora said starting to close the door of what had to be our, her chambers. She looked at me, right before she closed the door. "One month." She whispered Then lower to herself, like she thought i couldn't hear. "I can survive, one more month." and she finished closing the door. I walk to 'my room' and close the door. "It's okay It's okay It's okay It's okay It's okay." I whisper to myself. I lean on my door and drop to my knees. "I'm so sorry, I failed you." I lightly hit my head on the door as silent tears stream down my face. "I couldn't save you, I can't even save myself." I sat there, silently sobbing. When after what felt like seconds, but could have been hours, I heard a knock on the door.