Chapter 19: CHAPTER 18
*Warning: SPG*
Skyler's Point of View
What should i do? Make him sweat? Ano papatakbuhin ko siya?
Nagulat naman ako nang hilahin niya ako papwesto sa itaas niya at umupo.
I blushed as i look at our position.
"L-lincoln? W-what are you trying to do?" I ask him habang tinitingnan ang pintuan ng kwarto niya kung naka-lock ba.
And as always naka-lock nga.
"T-trying to make myself feel better?" He askly said.
Trying to make himself feel better with me on top of him?
"Ohh, so innocent baby. Make me sweat by making love with me" he said that made my eyes dilated.
Is that so?
Will he feel better?
Napakunot naman ang noo ko.
"Impossible" i said as i was about to stand up but he pulled me down that made me feel his erection.
"Ughmm" i hissed as i feel him underneath me, grinding his self.
"Lincoln, stop. May lagnat ka ok? Ang kailangan mo ay uminom ng gamot at hindi ito" i said at tinitigan siya.
He stopped grinding and sighed.
Iniwanan ko muna ito para kumuha ng gamot at isang tubig ng baso.
Habang paakyat ay doon ko pa lamang naramdaman ang init. Init na hinahanap-hanap ay walang iba kundi si Lincoln lang.
Nang makapasok ako sa loob ng kwarto at ini-lock ang pinto ay nagulat ako nang pagkaharap ko ay topless na si Lincoln.
Dali-dali akong lumapit dito at hinampas ito pero hindi naman ganong kalakas.
"Ano ka ba?! Lalamigin ka niyan!" Singhal ko na parang hindi niya naman pinansin.
Argh! Pinapahirapan talaga ako ng lalaking 'toh, aba't talagang lalagnatin siya sa ginagawa niya.
"Just make me sweat" he begged.
I sighed.
"Inumin mo muna 'toh" i said na ginawa naman nito.
Napangiti ako dahil sinunod niya ako.
"N-now baby, will you make me sweat?" He ask and i unconsciously nod.
He pulled me and placed me on top of him that made me shy.
God, am i doing it right?
"Just grind on me baby" he huskily said as his eyes close.
Huminga muna ako ng malalim at kumapit sa braso niya.
At first i grind myself slowly as he hold my tiny waist.
"Baby more" he huskingly said and grab my waist leading me to his standard.
I feel so hot while grinding at him.
I was about to stand up when he pulled me and bang me at the same time.
His hands roam my body as the scent of my lust fills the air around us.
He keeps on banging me, watching my hair bounces as he squeeze my waist.
"Ughh" a moan escape from his mouth when i grind mine to his.
I danced on top of him, reaching his standards.
"Ugh!" A loud moan escaped through my mouth when he gripped my waist and banged me so hard.
Sweat glistening through our bodies.
I can feel his warm arms as he hugged me and thrust his self as if he's already in me.
He kissed my forehead as he switch our position.
Now his on top of me.
He thrust and thrust, i can feel his erection grinding on mine.
It feels like he's massaging my clits but in a different way.
Our moans turned into music as we sweat and dance together.
He grabbed my breast and squeeze them.
He bit his lower lips while thrusting, banging me so hard.
He leaned on me and kissed my forehead.
"I love you baby" he said between our kisses.
He repeats it again and again.
"I-i love you too baby" hingal kong sabi na napahawak naman ako sa braso niya ng bilisan niya.
I can feel my wetness, he's banging my clits as he grind again that made my eye roll.
"Fuck you lincoln" i curse him as i grab his hair and brushed them with my fingers.
"No baby, we'll fuck" he corrected me as he continue to bang me.
Is this what you call dry sex?
Maybe.
"Ughh" i moan as i felt something is building up on me.
I'm near.
"Ugh lincoln stop, i-im near.." i said and he slowly stopped.
We don't want our clothes to get wet.
"That was.." i said.
"Mindblowing as ever" he said while covering our bodies with his comforter.
Napansin ko ang pagtulo ng pawis niya.
Pinunasan ko ito gamit ang likod ng kamay ko.
"Oh diba, edi pinagpawisan ako" natatawang sabi ni Lincoln na ikinanguso ko na lamang.
"Hahaha what? Totoo naman" he said na ikinatango ko na lamang at niyakap siya.
"Hmm, i don't want this to stop" he said as he brush my hair.
Makalipas ang ilang minuto ay may sinabi ito na ikinagulat ko.
***
Lincoln's Point of View
After that erotic scene ay gumaan na ang pakiramdam ko matapos kong pagpawisan.
Mas maganda pala na may lagnat ako araw-araw, para araw-araw ko ring kailangang magpapawis.
Natatawa naman ako sa naisip ko.
Nag-ipon ako ng lakas ng loob at sabi,
"Skyler, will you get mad if.. if.. you know. Kapag nagtago ako ng sikreto sayo?" I ask her at ramdam ko naman ang pagka-gulat nito.
Hindi siya nakasagot ng ilang segundo na ikinakaba ko naman ng husto.
"M-meron ba akong dapat ikagalit sa sikreto mo?" She ask at ipinatong ang kanyang baba sa tyan ko at naka-titig ang pares na mata.
Unti-unting namuo ang kaba ko kasabay ng luha ni Skyler.
I can't help to see her hurting, ayokong naghihirap ka mahal ko.
Wala man sa plano ko ay dahan-dahan akong umiling.
You failed Lincoln, you failed.
Kahit saglit lang, makasama lang kita. Alam kong masasaktan kita sa gagawin ko pero, may plano ako.
May plano akong gawin ang tama.
Marahan kong pinunasan ang tumulong luha ni skyler sakanyang pisngi.
"T-then why ask me that?" tanong nito habang titig na titig sa mga mata ko na parang sinisisid ang katotohanan.
Dahil sa titig niya ay napaiwas ako't sabay kagat ng ngipin ko sa ibabang labi.
Pinigilan kong tumulo ang luha ko kaya tumitig muna ako sa ceiling at nilaro ang alon-alon nitong buhok.
"Kasi ayaw ko nang itago na ..." huminga ako ng malalim at pumikit. Mariing pinisil ang braso niya at hinimas.
Tama ba ang gagawin ko?
Skyler or agreement?
"Kasi ayaw ko nang itago na mahal kita" nakangiting sabi ko at tumitig sa mga mata nito.
Kumikinang ang mga mata nito dahil sa mga luhang namumuo at nagbabadyang tumulo.
Namutawi sa dibdib ko ang guilt at takot.
Guiltness dahil alam kong masasaktan ko siya pagkatapos ng araw na ito.
Takot na baka hindi ko na muling makita ang babaeng nasa harapan ko, na baka hindi ko na makita ang ngiti sa mga mata nito't labi.
"I love you lincoln" she said as her tears rush down again.
Hurt comes so will the happiness.
Bakit sa tuwing may magagandang nangyayari sa buhay ko tsaka ako dadalawin ng kamalasan?
Sometimes i don't like being happy? You know why?
'Cuz whenever i'm happy, something will go wrong.
"I love you too so damn much baby girl" i said as i smile at her and felt a warm drop of liquid at my cheeks.
I'm crying?
Hindi ko alam kung matatawa ba ako o iiyak, akalain mo yun? Umiyak ako dahil sa isang babae?
Sa buong buhay ko wala pa akong iniyakan na babae kundi ikaw lang Skyler.
You really hit me that much, ang i hate it!
Maraming akong ayaw sayo skyler, pero mas lalo pa kitang minamahal.
Mas lalo kitang minamahal..
At natatakot ako na baka hindi ko na maparamdam sayo ang pagmamahal ko nato.
"Pero skyler" i said as i close my eyes and caress her soft skin.
Huminga ako ng malalim at bumuo ng salita sa utak ko.
Nobody said that it would last forever.
Yan lang ang salitang namuo sa utak ko.
Binitawan ko siya at humiwalay sa pagdantay namin sa isa't-isa at umupo sa gilid ng kama na nakatalikod sakanya.
Ramdam ko ang paggalaw niya at tumayo sa harap ko.
"L-let's stop"
Mga salitang hindi ko alam kung saan nagmula.
Mga salitang hindi ko pinlano at ayaw maging bahagi ng plano ko.
Mga salitang ayaw kong bitawan.
"I-i want you to be happy, and if it's not with me that's fine" i said at tumitig sa baba.
Naramdaman ko ang paghawak nito sa pisngi ko at itiningala sakanya.
I can't bare seeing her cry.
Nakatitig siya sakin na animong nagsusumamo habang umiiling.
"Baby i'm happy being with you" sabi nito at kunot ang noong nakatitig sakin.
Alam ko yon sky, alam ko yon.
Ramdam ko, i can feel your happiness every second, every minute when you're with me.
If i can stay just to keep those smile in your face, i would gladly do so. But i can't.
Umiling ako na mas lalo niyang ikinailing.
"Because you're the only person i have loved enough to put before myself." I continue as i held her hands caressing my cheeks and squeezed them.
Oh i will miss this soft and scented hands.
This hands that loves to mess with my hair.
"Baby i loved you more" sabi niya na mas lalo kong ikinaluha.
Fuck these tears!
"You're scaring me" she said as she pull her hands.
Napatitig ako sa kamay nitong hinila niya na ikinakagat ng mga ngipin ko sa ibabang labi ko.
"We're both good, but not for each other" i said that made her stumble slowly in the ground and cry.
"Y-you're hurting m-me l-lincoln, you're h-hurting me" putol-putol na sabi nito.
Hearing those words make me want to kill myself for hurting my girl.
It sucks when you know that you need to let go, but you can't, because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen.
I want you to know skyler, but i don't want to tell you.
Ayaw ko nang dagdagan ang mas makakasakit pa sayo.
Tumayo ako na ikinatigil niya sa paghagulgol.
Unti-unti ay tumingin sa pataas para matingnan ako sa mga mata ko.
Ang sakit na nakikita kang umiiyak na ako ang dahilan sky.
Ang sakit sakit.
Nasasaktan ako sa mga sariling kong paraan.
Nasasaktan tayo dahil sa sarili kong paraan.
"I just want you to know that when i picture myself happy.." i said as i turn my back at her and walked closely at the door.
" it's being with you" and with those words i left.
I let my tears fall down as i ran inside my car and drived it.
I'm sorry baby girl.
***
Skyler's Point of View
"I just want you to know that when i picture myself happy.."
" it's being with you" and with those words he left.
Napahagulgol ako habang binabanggit ang pangalan niya kasabay naman nito ang pagrinig ko sa mga yabag niyang papalayo.
Anong mali ko? Anong kulang?
Bakit ang parang ang sama-sama ng tadhana sakin?
What he said really hurt me.
I thought myself once, that i want to be hard to leave. That I want someone staying up all night thinking only of me.
"He was never yours Sky, but losing him broke my heart!" I scream as i cry in pain.
"L-lincoln! Please s-stay" sigaw ko na para namang maririnig niya.
Ramdam ko ang pagsikip ng dibdib ko kasabay ng paghinga ko ng malalim.
Nanlabo ang paningin ko habang habang ang isang kamay ko ay dinidiinan ang dibdib ko.
I'm panicking, i-i can't breathe!
"L-lincoln! Ahhh! H-help!" Sigaw ko kahit pa nawawalan na ako ng boses sa kakaiyak.
He already left pero ba't ngayon lang ako nagkakaganito.
"L-lincoln" still his name is the last thing that i uttered as my eyes close.
"Skyler! Breathe! H-hey breathe!" I heard a voice but i can't open my eyes anymore, until i can only hear was like i'm at underwater that's keep on sinking down.
I can't breathe, but i'm still alive.
We're better off this way.
END OF CHAPTER 18
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