Why me

I've never been a person in the spotlight. So why now why me why does the reason I've got so possibly been this reason. Why does everybody want me to continue why does everybody expect everything from me. Why does my life have to be so hard why can I just breathe and forget everything that I don't want to remember. But that would be impossible that would be too easy to easy for anybody to easy for me. My life has never been easy never so why start now. I've never had my own living I've never did anything on my own. Nobody whether know what's going inside of my mind nobody will whether know if I'm OK or am I sad or mad for murdering my depression. Yes I do kill my depression I'll find my own battles and fight them. It all started in on my Saturday weekend I was going to the new school I never thought that life would change after I was at the schools. I met up with my old eighth grade friend because I mr. I never tried to control any other situations. I wish I could have emotions I wish I could control everything.But I can't and won't because if I am able to control everything like forgot my way. And though I forgot my way I will always know how to return. I try to battle my thoughts my mind my Ways. But I always come back to the question why me. Why can I have been a normal person. Why do I always have to be why am why do I need to control the situation so much why do I need to be in charge why me. Why do I feel like I'm never in control and when I'm in control is so much power and I lose my mind. Why me why Knigge been anybody else in the world why me and never won anything like this. And even if I wanted it why could I never have it even if I won the prize and won the world and one my love in one everything that I could or could be one. Why couldn't that one not be mine I never understood heartbreaks I never understood why people got heart breaks I never understood why heartbreaks was such an important thing. And then I experience my own my first heartbreak was devastating I never understood why do people always cried when they had their first heartbreak. Why when people argue do I cry maybe it's because the problems I had on my family maybe it's because I hate arguments maybe because I feel like all problems are the route that come from our units. This may not make sense this will probably never make sense you're only makes sense for those that needs to make sense. And if it doesn't make sense I'll just use this book as my ranting book so when I need yell and scream and talk about life I'll use this book