Chapter 2: Wrong doings

It's midnight, and the night becomes alive and engulfs me with darkness. I'v always had a particular liking to the dark, it's so peaceful and beautiful with all the soothing sounds of the winds breath. Stars above me sparkle subtly with such elegance and grace that they stand still with the frozen world. The night becomes black with the faint remarks of the hills across the skyline. An aeroplane passes, the rushing of the jets soothe me as I gently shut my eyes. I needed some peaceful relaxation after today. I finally reached a point within my day that I could clear my mind and think about something's I had curved for awhile. After all, I wanted to find out my true feelings, I'm still unsure of my sexuality. It's an uncomfortable subject but I genuinely feel confused. Why do I not feel the same way about boys as I do girls. Currently, I just feel more emotionally connected to women. I have strong, independent women around me that inspire me to do better. I miss the times as a child when I had no worries or cares in the world apart from what colour Lego I was going to use. Growing up is a long and complicated process and everyone experiences it differently. I have such vivid memories of my childhood when I actually felt happy. Happiness is always been an important thing for me, i'v always wanted to be happy. I'm going to strive to be happy and be a successful person. My biggest worry is that I'm not going to be accepted by anyone. The rain batters down and bashes the floor with anger. Is god trying to tell me that my life's a mess? I didn't believe in that sort of nonsense, science can prove anything. But not love...