I just started whatever you call this thing a day ago and now I kind of feel like I am doing a chore, a chore that has to be accomplished everyday or else face the consequences. And so this is where it becomes like a burden.
I don't know why but I find it hard to continue to commit myself to doing something l, like this venture for example, for a extended period of time. Is it the because I cannot put my focus into this? my short patience for things? or I just never had my heart in place to begin with? could the reason be an combination of the factors I have mentioned? or could it be none of those, because the true answer lies in places that my mind could never conceive of.
I feel empty inside right now but I have to press on. I have to press on. I have to continue walking this road I have decided to embark myself upon. I have already started this and I cannot stop now. I press on and perhaps find meaning in this endeavour.