I haven't always had this thing for just plain and simple words on a page. That is why I most always shy away from those paperback novels regardless of genre.
It was to the point that when I come across those types of books and the like, no matter how interesting the title seemed to me, I would glance it over, maybe skim across a page or two return it back to the shelf and move on. It was like that for a greater part of my time until I came across online novels.
It was not as if it wasn't a struggle at first. But unlike those books that I would just skim through and pass on by, with these online stories I actually took the time to get the hang of and it's not like the stories were any different from those books that I would skim through and pass in by - I mean they're still words on a page just accessed through a different medium, and yet I was drawn into them like a moth to the flame.
This is just something I wanted to get off my head. But truly I have always wondered. Why?
I just started whatever you call this thing a day ago and now I kind of feel like I am doing a chore, a chore that has to be accomplished everyday or else face the consequences. And so this is where it becomes like a burden.
I don't know why but I find it hard to continue to commit myself to doing something l, like this venture for example, for a extended period of time. Is it the because I cannot put my focus into this? my short patience for things? or I just never had my heart in place to begin with? could the reason be an combination of the factors I have mentioned? or could it be none of those, because the true answer lies in places that my mind could never conceive of.
I feel empty inside right now but I have to press on. I have to press on. I have to continue walking this road I have decided to embark myself upon. I have already started this and I cannot stop now. I press on and perhaps find meaning in this endeavour.
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